Thread: Murdering a baby

I am 20 years old and a full time
University student. I am in a 4 year relationship with a girl who is the only person who consistently frustrates me. ( Her insecurities, lack of trust, she was cheated on before me and has some family issues, nothing like abuse though). I say that because I'm generally very laid back. I lost both of my parents when I was 6. One died and the other went to jail. (murder of mother) I never felt any real grief over what happened, because of being raised by my grandparents I have some really good, true friends, and am in a better situation in life than I could possibly hope to be in if I had been raised by my birth parents. I feel twangs of regret when I see other kids with their family, and sometimes I cry over not having a similar connection, but nothing excessive in my opinion. I may have cried, at most, 10 times about it. I was with my dad over the summer but now he is moving 15 hours away. I was raised by my grandparents with no abuse...a really good upbringing. To my knowledge I have never been abused or assaulted. Hopefully this information will help.

I had a dream two nights ago that just started off with me looking at a baby, first person view. No intro or explanation, just bam. So I then took a serrated knife in my hand and then began literally cutting off limbs of the baby, as if I were cutting meat. I gouged the eyes out and cut the head off, as well as all other limbs. After that I stabbed it through the heart. It was the most vivid and gruesome dream I have ever had. I saw all the details about the body; the blood, the bone and muscle, etc. That was literally all it was. The whole time during the dream I felt no remorse, no guilt, no emotion at all really. It was, in the dream, just as if I were doing any other normal activity. I may have felt like I was forced to do it, but there was no one else around and no threat had been placed upon me. Also, the baby did not make a single sound, the whole dream was completely silent.

This dream worries me the more I think about it. I've never had a dream even remotely similar to this. I will answer any questions you have, no shame. I just want this cleared up for me. This dream is embarrassing for me :/