I think one way of looking at your father driving with your mother by his side, and you in the back seat is that you still perceive your dad as the one who makes the decisions in your life (drives the car) and your mom as supporting him in that, so I think you still see yourself as their dependent. You being in the backseat is where you have been most of your life with your parents doing the driving (decision making) for you. It could also be that you perceive that your goals and wishes are still taking the backseat place over your father's priorities and values.
An alternative way of seeing it, and to some extent opposite: it could be that your father is chauffeuring you around, and your being in the backseat means that you are the important person here. Your father in this interpretation is doing you the service of helping you get to your destination, and you do not have the burden of doing it yourself since you have his support.
Your father paying you, now that could mean different things I think. Did you perceive it as kind of like your father giving you your allowance - still his dependent in financial way? Or was it more like he was paying you for work done, in a way acknowledging that you are now hard working and deserve a salary / reward for this. So you see this could be perceived as either something that stresses that you are still a child, or as something that indicates that now you are grown up. And I think the way to decide which of the two it is is all about your perception of it, which of these feels more right to you, how would you interpret it?
The financials could also be about your father paying for your studies. Is he going to do that?
Another possible way of looking at it is the story of the Prodigal Son in which the son decides to leave the family home, and the father shares his wealth with him. Just like the Prodigal Son you are leaving home. The wealth that is shared may not be actually monetary in nature: it could be advice or your father's blessing. The money being of the old style currency may be a way of your mind telling you to not look at it literally as money. it could be your way of thinking that your father is old fashioned, and that while he believes that he gives you good advice, but it does not work in the modern world in your opinion. However, alternatively it could also mean that the money has more value because it is a collectible not just plain every day kind of money: you might cherish your father's advice because it is unique, and you could not get that type of advice elsewhere.
Again the clue as to which of these contradictory interpretations may be right would be in your perception: which feels right to you? If none of them feel right then maybe there is another interpretation still out there that has not been mentioned yet. I am a strong believer that each of us is best capable of interpreting our own dreams ultimately because you know yourself best. All I can do is give you some ideas which may or may not help you look at your dream in a new way, but the right interpretation has to make sense to you.
EDIT: I just noticed that I forgot the part about your dad handing you money, having you count it, and then giving it back to him. I think that is significant. One way of looking at it is that maybe you feel that your dad has the expectation that you will repay him, that his support of you is not unconditional and unlimited (you need to count so there is a limit, and the counting itself is like a condition, an expectation). It could of course be that the expectation of repayment is not literal, perhaps you think your dad expects repayment for his advice by your following his advice rather than doing things your own way. Or maybe you feel that he expects you to make him proud, and that is his condition and repayment expectation. I know my own father had this kind of expectation of me when I went to college, and I felt like I was expected to repay him for his support of me by doing my best but also that he expected me to do things his way. Your returning the money may also be your saying that you want to be independent now and make your own decisions and that you do not accept the conditions that his supporting you entails. However, as I said this interpretation is also based on my experience, therefore be careful deciding whether to accept it as your own (only if it feels right to you) because I may be letting my own experience bias this interpretation too much in a certain direction.
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