SANE
Don't worry about being actually insane. I don't know how many times I have read a dreamer say that. Nightmares are common, and seem out of character, because they only show your fears in all your horrible gory glory, or at worst a bad experience, not your real character.
The problem is when people take dreams literally. People kill people all the time in dreams. They shoot guns, use other weapons, maim, burn, die, you name it.
These are all symbolic for their mind and emotions, or parts of themselves.
TWO SIDES
You were both watching it happen and experiencing it as the victim.
Part of you was observing, as we do with every experience, but in a nightmare your detachment from it can be more. You don't the fear to be real.
You feel victimized by your mind, in real life.
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DREAM
SELLING YOUR SOUL OUT OF CONTROL
The middle-aged woman represents you who is out of control and maybe you feel like you are selling yourself, or your soul you could say. You could feel that, because these fears or negativities suck out your soul, or good side.
WANTING TO BE RICH
You want this low side of you to become rich and vast, and attractive. You had help on this side of you.
But one part of you is quiet. You didn't notice this part til later.
So your rich side starts getting intimate with your poorer side, giving it pleasure and attention, to join with it. Oral might mean your expression joined with it I suppose.
You see? It is all being guided by the rich lady - or your thought of being rich - who is directing it, to show you.
If you're a guy, it being female can mean receptive, listening, wise.
YOUR RICH SIDE TURNS ON YOU
In an instant, instead of success, your rich side turns alien and cold. Or the good idea changes opposite. Probably because of fear, or because you can't see how you can turn richer inside yourself.
It shakes the other poor old side of yourself badly. So much you can hardly see either part of you.
It becomes a blur, out of control.
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THE BRUTALITY OF BEING OUT OF CONTROL
The violence in you is brutal. otherwordly and evil. I think it just means how out of control you are here.
Not that you are a violent person or have any ill thoughts. Violence is the opposite of peace and control, and ordered thinking.
Your offensive side is screaming - that means fear and loss of control - making your poorer side lose its face or expression in you.
PAINFUL CLIMAX
This is while your more active or assertive side, hoping to be a richer person, is still trying to make your poorer self richer.
But your poor self, or the main you as you are now, is being shaken to bits.
It seems the climax of your attempt at union was losing control literally - but in a bad way, and going to pieces.
That's why it felt so horrible. Your being being taken apart.
So it is like you lived a scene in a horror movie, but within yourself. I guess this was when you were by yourself, as no one other real person appears in it.
INTENSITY
And it was intense, and incredibly potent. So sheer terror is what you should have felt in the real experience, hence the creepy undertone like this was a real thing happening to a real person in real time.
It was EXTREMELY real!!
So all that should help you to identify the real experience.
I never saw the quiet person reappear. But when he did, that was probably your quiet or passive side looking on.
CONCLUSION
This wasn't that bad. I've read just as bad or worse. And probably seen worse on TV, or film, haa.
But maybe not so brutal to the core of someone.
So it was your actual experience, in your mind at least.
Does it make more sense now?
I doubt anyone can have night terrors/nightmares without day terrors/daymares in real life.
That and you tend to gravitate towards anxiety/depression is what the dream is about, in one particularly nasty episode you just had, probably the day of the dream.
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