I'm a crimanal in my dreams

It's been bothering me all day and I have to say I have no idea where to go with this dream and infact I'm rather ...almost embarrised by it.

To start my dream I'm running from cops apparently I've raped some one :eek: ( the thought of this let alone doing it to someone absolutly disgusts me). It's then I realise I'm male (in RL I'm female) and I'm alot older than I am now. I'm in a beat up old car driving, and I stop at the corner of the road and run onto the drive way of this house house. I know the house I've been there before.

I'm almost at the door when it opens. At this point I stop take the gunout of my poket and toss it aside. I pull up the edge of my jeans and throw off my jacket to show i have no more weapons. At this point the women standing at the open door pulls a rifle on me i keep walking toward her my head bowed. Once I reach thestep up to the house i kneel place my hand on my head and beg the lady to shoot me and the i deserve it. She deserves to have the right to do it. I realise she was the women i raped.

I hear the gun cock above my head and I'm scared but almost happy to hear it. I scream at the women to do it, shoot me, still on my knees. I hear the gun drop to the floor in front of me and she ushers me into her house where she hides me from the cops and eventually falls in love with me.

Probably of norelavance but I can remember vividly she had long blond almost white hair.

So what do you guys think? Please help me. :roll: I know I tend to lurk round here not posting much, but i read pretty much all posts, I shall try in future to post more :wink: Thanks in advance.
Cheers JC