Oneiroer, first of all it is unfortunately quite normal to have some of the most horrible nightmares of one's life in childhood, and nightmares are more common for kids than for most adults. As to what the dark thing was? Could it be fear of evil? Fear of the unknown? Fear of fear itself? Fear that something will spoil things, which are too happy to last? At that point your life had already been shaken up by divorce, and you knew that a happy family scene may not be counted on to last, that something bad could intervene, that there was no innocent guarantee of uninterrupted good times for all and happy endings all around. The evil in your dream had a smile on its face. Doesn't the evil in life often come with a facade of a smile? I think at nine maybe you already knew that. That a smile could not be trusted to be a sign of friendliness. |
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