You said a big round table for four, yet 5 were there. Was it for 5? Or was your father in an odd place?
BIG NOURISHMENT WITH FAMILY
The main thing is a sumptuous buffet in a large grand high-end place with your family.
Maybe Arnie represented this larger than life scene you had success in, whether it really happened or was in your mind or wishes.
You had many tasty dishes, which rhymnes with fishes which might have been on the menu. But perhaps what you extracted, from this or to cause this perhaps, is what you remember most, that came to life or was reconstituted when you added liquid or emotional nutrition to it.
You accepted delicacies, burning with embarrassment then relieving in laughter - perhaps at how delicate something in this situation was for you?
THE ROUND TABLE
Your sister on the left is on your wrong side a little who you sometimes argued with.
You are facing your mother directly, who the big man said had the opposite - charity.
Your father is on her right your left, between mother and sister.
A round table has no sides, so like the knights, all are one here on the same side. But were they always? Or are all?
On this night of the round table you never mention speaking to any member of the family except sis - in sometimes arguing. So more than once. Can this whole dream be about her?
HE'LL BE BACK
But it was wonderful, and naturally at ease with The Familyator in his new role.
* He's back, bringing families together *
Like an old friend.
That you joked showed how comfortable the situation was or the need for seeing humour in it again.
You discussed many topics with this Austrian Arnoldegger aspect. Could he being a foreigner - the most unlikely foreign success story on Earth, who against the rule dominatng all others even always kept his accent - and now a friend, mean something in your family was foreign and now is friends? Probly not, until I thought of sister later. But it seems safe to say he was governing the state of family affairs here, in a grand benevolent way.
RELATED TO THE UNATTAINABLE
You asked if this aspect was related to you - in any way. That sounds like you really wanted it to be, yet it laughed largely at you. Excuse me, I'm writing like you, but I loved it. Haa.
Here's where this part of you fondly recalls 'meeting' maybe your knowing, guiding you, or your values, in the virtue of charity. And maybe it literally means your mother is charitable and maybe you think you should be. So The smiling giving Friendinator seems to be defined by that in how you relate to your family.
Maybe you were very giving it seems, or wanted to be.
This can explain how you could only nod your head in apparent understanding, though you remained very much puzzled in some way about it, maybe how to implement it, how it could be yours.
CONCLUSION
Can this make any sense yet?
Did you perhaps idealize how one should be more giving to the family, or just to your sister, but found this new grand idea a bit beyond you yet?
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