I do presume you get a lot of these "dreaming about a specific person" threads but mine is quite different. (I bet you get a lot of that too)
During my time at primary school I had 3 crushes. First one was just your basic crush, hardly knew her loved her. Was like.. 9 at the time too. Not important. Second one was pretty much the same, but it was during my last year of primary school. (so when I was 10 to 11). I felt some feelings but I hardly knew her too, and it just fizzled out. I barely remember her name, and I can't remember the first one's last name.
Now the third and most important one. She joined a little way through my last year, and it obvious to who/where she was as my classroom had around 20 kids in it. My friend pointed her out to me and instantly I felt some attraction.. but not love. I was 11 at the time, and I wasn't attractive on a relationship level at all. Was overweight (baring in mind I was barely 5 foot tall), hygiene wasn't perfect and I was more of a friend to any potential girlfriends, rather than boyfriend.
So as I said, right away was attracted of some sort but as the year progressed that grew little by little. I was never obsessed but it hurt when my friend dated her . I made her laugh a lot, and we spoke casually but never ever more than that. The year ended, and that summer I became ill with IBS/Anxiety-depression which got really bad by the end of the summer half term. I went to my secondary school but the IBS got out of hand, as did the anxiety and I was medically signed off after a long process (she didn't go to that school btw) I've been signed off school since then, and now, 15 and in my final year, I'm not going back. I get tutored at a local library now, but I am getting a lot better. Planning to play football in front of tons of people soon which is a big thing for me.
I'd think of her here and there during the first 3 years of being sick, but the last year I've thought so much. I keep getting these reoccuring dreams of different situations involving us. The first one was before I planned to play football in front of tons of people, but the dream was of that exact situation. I was playing football and she was there. And more recently, I went out and she was walking to the same shop. We started talking and she gave me her number. Then I woke up the next day to hear the news she had died, and in the dream I was in bits. I then woke up sort of out of breath and panicing. This was 7 in the morning, too.
So what do the dreams mean? I didn't want to write too much but because this is a special circumstance I had to! I've lost 3 stone now (5 foot 9 and 10 stone 7) and I've drastically improved my hygiene.. even getting braces. I can't contact her at all at the moment, but hopefully I will be able to soon. We live in a village so it's pretty close. I don't want to think this means something special, get my hopes up only to see them crushed when I get better and am able to talk to her, hence asking you guys what these may mean.
Thank you!
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