Thread: emotional ex-girlfriend giving me drugs

I'm going to add lots of detail,which may be pointless but it may also help give an accurate meaning.

I was in college sitting at my desk, speaking to some people- I couldn't clearly see their faces.I was laughing, and the class must've not started yet.I had my legs up on my desk. Then my ex-girlfriend and her best friend came up to me,her friend leaning over my desk but my ex standing a step away from my desk, looking scared, emotional and kind of teary whilst her friend was calm and quiet. Her friend said 'we have something you want' and showed me a needle with presumably heroin in it.I actually seemed happy and after being asked if I wanted it by the friend, I said 'sure'.I didn't feel safe taking it straight from my ex in class so I said '(her name),outside?' In a calm manor -(I would usually be nervous while speaking to her now a days-I still have mixed feelings about her).She shook her head no and I saw a tear fall down her cheek.I wake up.

I have always considered using drugs,me being experimental and artistic, but always put it off in fear it would interfere with my work. I have never done heroin, I've never even seen it outside of movies.I have thought about using it before I die when I am in a manic/depressive mind set- I am bipolar.I am also female,I don't know if this changes anything but me and my ex always kept things quiet and only a few people knew about the relationship.When it ended I went into a bout of heavy depression-she knew.I thought some of this information could help.We were both around 16 when this happened a couple years ago. tried to find meanings about heroin or drugs in general but I can only find meanings for using or selling them.This is a really weird dream, and especially because I hardly ever remember my dreams.I would love it if you gave me a meaning or interpretation, and thank you in advance