i was shamelessly cheating on my boyfriend that i love

So i just want to precice that i love my boyfriend alot, he's the best guy ever and he treats me right, i never could leave him for any reason, he's the first emotionaly stable relationship im in and i'll do my best to stay in it
* just tought i would make the precision*

so i had 2 diffrent dreams about 2 different guys i had a crush on when i was in another unstable relationship.

background for the first guy:
first dream was about a guy i had a cruch on in college while i was dating somewone who was not emotionally avalible and who never wanted to spend time with me. the guy i had a cruch on degaged a big sexual energy, since i was in desperate need, i would often fentasice about him. i never cheated on any of my boyfriends and i never did anything with the first guy because, really, if i was in an actual relationship with im ( i see that now ) i would be horribly unhappy. the guy is loud, flirst with every girl even if he has a girlfriend and always talks about his girlfriend's sex habits ( i don't want that at all) but the guy is now my friend ( and really just my friend ) and i would like it to stay this way.

in that dream, that guy was staying in my parent's room (wich has a vew on the shower but not on the bath ) I was sleeping in the bath ( a verry warm bath ) while the guy was looking at the shower. i remember trying to get in his view while i was naked, i slipped out of the bath like a snake (bus sensually) and got in the shower ( so he could see my back) i remembered thinking about my current boyfriend and i woke up when the other guy was entering the bathroom. i remember fealing extremely sensual durring this dream



the second dream:
It was another guy, one i had a big cruch on in high school, i was always dating uavalible guys ans i felt really lonely and untouchable durring thoses times. i had a cruch on this guy but never actually talked to him, i tought he was hella sexy and really cute. the only thing i heard from him was that he was deep in dope. ( i was and still am really straight for dopes and i'd like my boyfriend to understand my choice ) I don't like to date someone who'S too deep in it because i feel like we miss a big connection on our "straightness" level . ( i don'T care for a joint or two, maybe some shrooms now and then but he was way deeper in it)

In the second dream, i remember falling in love with this guy and skatebording down the street with an mp3 ( my current boyfriend and i have the same mp3) since we both liked rock and metal, we decided to listen to it but it finally was my boyfriend's ( who likes electro) so we stop listening to it while laughing. we got to the elementary school and gave some chocolates to the kids in pre school since it was haloween. until then i was perfectly happy. then, we entered the school (but everybody had vanished) and we got in for an haunted mansion where we were staring in a tall costume where him, another girl and a really smal man were in a giant's costume. i remember beeing scared and something ( that i don'T know of) recomforted me.
then i woke up

are you thinking the same thing i do ?

do you feel like you have a fulfilling sex life with your current partner? It may have to do with the sensuality of your dreams.

Or, according to the dream dictionary: To dream of Halloween signifies death and the underworld. Halloween also represents the temporary adoption of a new persona where you feel less inhibited and more comfortable to freely express yourself. You may also be trying to hide your true self. Alternatively, dreaming of Halloween reflects your childhood and the corresponding feelings that you associated with the holiday. (could just be because it's an upcoming holiday as well)

To dream that you are in school signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about your performance and abilities. If you are still in school and dream about school, then the dream may just be a reflection of your daily life and has no special significance.
Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life.�You may be going through a "spiritual learning" experience.

Just some guesses, hope this helps