Violent Dreams And False Memories
I am looking to have these two trends interpreted, so I will provide as much information as possible.
I have been having a lot of very violent dreams recently. I am not a violent person however. Two such examples are:
The Militia - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views
Platoon Leader - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views
These are just two of so many dreams that I have had in the last few weeks, but they are the only ones I really remember. I just know that in these dreams I kill a lot of people without any mercy. It isn't like those dreams where there is a battle and it is like a videogame... no, in these dreams the emotions are really alive. They are super vivid and I feel a lot of real anger. In the first one, I remember that the sky was a brilliant fiery and bloody red, tainted with black from smoke that was rising from the wreckage of the war. In the second dream, when the guy was pointing a gun at me, I didn't feel anything at first. I was just thinking "oh, well I lost I guess". But then the fear and magnitude of the situation hit me. It was real.. my knees were shaking. And I snapped.
Another trend is that I have very strong false memories that last minutes after I wake up. I don't remember any of them specifically now, but I know one time last weekend I woke up thinking about something, and I was confused because it didn't really add up.. and then I slowly started to realize that it was not even real. The thing is, it seemed so real that I was shocked by the fact that it wasn't. I also remember "previous dreams" from within my dreams. Of course, such previous dreams never happened.
These problems aren't actually what is worrying me. I am not worried about becoming a violent psychopath or something, I know what I am and it isn't that. What is worrying me is the root of these problems. The emotions are so powerful and real that the dreams might as well be real. Of course the effect fades after only a few minutes, but if you had talked to me right after one of those dreams I would probably be in the same mindset as someone who had experienced that in real life.
I know there is a lot of stress in my life from school right now, and I know I am changing a lot as a person. But do any of you think there is something deeper to it?