Most cryptic dream I have ever had

I always have this dream right before I wake up. Anything in (brackets) is context, not part of the dream. (I am what you would call a "natural" lucid dreamer. I never have to do a RC. I always know I am dreaming because one of my DGs are with me. I have two DGs one male and one female, Silver and Aurora. A while ago, I was bored so I decided to split my emotions into about 48 people. I spent every night for about 2 months trying to find all of my emotions and put them back inside me. After I was finished with that, I came across my two dream guides. This happened about 1 year ago. This dream started about 1.5 weeks ago.)


I am in a normal dream and I tell my body to wake up. Instead of the scene fading to black, it turns to white. I'm laying in the snow, the snow comes just a little bit above my hood. It is snowing lightly and I feel warm and completely calm. I see some tree branches above me.


(About 6 years ago, I visited my aunt who lived in rural Ontario during winter. I remember VERY vividly laying in the snow in her backyard. She kept on me every 4 minutes for about an hour before she called me in. While I was laying there, I was completely warm and calm. Almost as if I could just fall asleep.)


My dream guide, Aurora was levitating just above my feet and in a soft voice said "May you find truth in the script you have prepared" just as quick as she appeared, she disappeared. I then looked up as I was falling into a small pit (grave) and sitting to my feet was the person who represented corruption. To my left was the 2 people representing fear and doubt and to my right was the person representing apathy


(The person who represented fear was a childhood friend. In my dreams though, he had long silver hair.
Doubt was represented by a person who was in my middle school who's parents got divorced near the end of the year.
Apathy was represented by a younger version of my self.
Corruption was represented by a girl I liked first year high school. When I found her as my figurehead for corruption I was a bit confused and I distanced myself with her. About 1 month after this emotion quest started, I everyone found out that she was cheating on her boyfriend.)


I was completely frozen and couldn't speak or move (not that I wanted to) corruption spoke first. "This is a shame, I surely thought you would out live us. Well, nothing we can do about it now." Apathy is well, apathetic. He is playing with a rubix cube but can't quite get it. Instead of colors on it, there are letters. He is constantly flipping the pieces. Fear looks at him and tells him "That isn't how you are supposed to complete it." Apathy tries to move the cube and it breaks. The pieces float above my head and the background is black. The pieces glow and spell "Was it worth it?" just then I am in a void and corruption is standing before me. She is holding my scythe.


(The scythe is about as long as me. I ask my dream guides for it when I want to do something I couldn't do in real life. To me, it is more a tool then a weapon.)


I feel helpless as I can't move. She sais "That is one of the wonders of life, what would it be like to fall asleep and never wake up again?" Just then, she swings the scythe into my chest. The pain is one of the most real things I have ever felt. Just at that, I twist my wrist and the scythe disappears and reappears in my hand (I never asked my wrist to move, all of this is involuntary) I then say "That raises another question. What was it like to wake up without previously living?" and paralysis that, I plunge the scythe into her chest. After about 5 seconds, I twist my wrist and she evaporates with my scythe. I then always wake to a state of sleep paralysis.


I keep having this dream and I can't wake up without experiencing this. Any idea what it could be? Here is all of the exact dialogue for easier reference.


May you find truth in the script you have prepared


This is a shame, I surely thought you would out live us. Well, nothing we can do about it now


That isn't how you are supposed to complete it


Was it worth it?


That is one of the wonders of life, what would it be like to fall asleep and never wake up again?


That raises another question. What was it like to wake up without previously living?

I'm laying in the snow, the snow comes just a little bit above my hood. It is snowing lightly and I feel warm and completely calm. I see some tree branches above me.
(People lie down when they are relaxing fully, of sleeping when their work is done. Snow has a purity about it. The warmth & calm are very positive)

(About 6 years ago, I visited my aunt who lived in rural Ontario during winter. I remember VERY vividly laying in the snow in her backyard. She kept on me every 4 minutes for about an hour before she called me in. While I was laying there, I was completely warm and calm. Almost as if I could just fall asleep.)
Note the other references later to falling asleep. These kind of moments provide the opportunity to reflect on things & life. Falling asleep can symbolise death.

My dream guide, Aurora was levitating just above my feet {Our feet can symbolise our walk/life} and in a soft voice said "May you find truth in the script you have prepared"
{The script I am thinking of here is the one given to actors for them to act out a movie, TV show or play. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Screenplay: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Screenplay: In them, the movement, actions, expression, and dialogues of the characters are also narrated. We all have desires for our lives & things we would like to do. This "script" could symbolise that. Movies also have a director who gives instructions to the actors on how they should interpret the script based on his vision for the movie. TV show, etc. }

just as quick as she appeared, she disappeared. I then looked up as I was falling into a small pit (grave){What happens after you have fully acted out your script.} and sitting to my feet {perhaps below you in this instance} was the person who represented corruption. To my left was the 2 people representing fear and doubt {There's a relationship between these 2 in that doubt progresses to fear} and to my right was the person representing apathy {Lack of motivation. "Apathy was represented by a younger version of my self." - do you think you have grown out of this?}

I was completely frozen and couldn't speak or move {As though life had left you.} (not that I wanted to) corruption spoke first. "This is a shame, I surely thought you would out live us. Well, nothing we can do about it now." {Corruption is the breaking down of things so I guess this makes sense. The implication of course is that your body is dead.} Apathy is well, apathetic. He is playing with a rubix cube but can't quite get it {Interesting, I normally associate apathy with not doing anything. In this case though it seems unproductive, for amuzement. But he is still not achieving goals. }. Instead of colors on it, there are letters. {Colours suggest a range of meaning, whereas letters are more definite, specific. Used to make words. He can't put words together, perhaps suggesting a lack of ability to communicate or understand things.} He is constantly flipping the pieces. Fear looks at him and tells him "That isn't how you are supposed to complete it." {Not encouraging, but maybe correct.} Apathy tries to move the cube and it breaks. The pieces float above my head {Letter floating above your head. Perhaps the "script" falling apart, due to a lack of motivation. Fear perhaps helps keep you trapped in apathy.} and the background is black {Emptiness, no understanding, life or script}. The pieces glow and spell "Was it worth it?" {Worth is about value. Worth it to who? Would you be able to see at the end of your life, if it continues as it is, that you added value to people- your family, friends, work colleagues. } just then I am in a void {Emptiness} and corruption is standing before me. She is holding my scythe {Had to look this up, previously used for moving grass by hand or reaping crops. Also what the grim reaper often holds.}

I feel helpless as I can't move {The only thing you can do is receive.}. She sais "That is one of the wonders of life, what would it be like to fall asleep and never wake up again?" {Death} Just then, she swings the scythe into my chest. {A lot of people believe there is either reward or punishment after death. What are your thoughts?} The pain is one of the most real things I have ever felt. Just at that, I twist my wrist {Joins arm to hand. Hands/arms can symbolise ability.} and the scythe disappears and reappears in my hand (I never asked my wrist to move, all of this is involuntary {INteresting, this is something of yourself (perhaps life) that you are not controling) I then say "That raises another question. What was it like to wake up without previously living?" {Perhaps overcoming fear & apathy to write a different script for yourself.} and paralysis that, I plunge the scythe into her chest. After about 5
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FIVE

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5’s presenting in your dreams, depending upon the dream, may be suggesting a lack of focus and a materialistic outlook.

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seconds, I twist my wrist and she evaporates with my scythe. I then always wake to a state of sleep paralysis.

I think the key message of the dream from my perspective is for you to overcome fear & apathy & "wake up" to life. Find passions within yourself that motivate you & add value to peoples' lives to make your life "worth it".

The impression I get from your dream is that corruption is like your enemy, so you know you have to oppose her. But doubt, apathy & fear are like your companions. So I would be more concerned about doubt, apathy & fear than about corruption.

It might be time to say "Goodbye" to doubt, fear & apathy in your dreams, & look for some more positive companions like love, justice, mercy. :)

Thank you @Firewater
That was very helpful. My whole life, I have been looking for something to do as a pastime. Because of that, I am known as someone who is open to life. This desire to break free of boredom has lead me to try everything I can in life (with the exception of drugs and alcohol) I have done everything from sky diving to deep sea diving. Going on week long fishing trips and rainforest hiking. At one point, I visited a South African Zulu tribe and had a ceremonial club and shield fight. Just last year, I was running from 5 angry gang members. I ended up jumping from roof to roof when they chased me into my neighborhood. (hid behind a large recycle bin and climbed up a fence when they found me. It is a fun story to tell.) I have recently run out of things to do. The thing I fear most is a boring life. I am only 15 and I'm running out of things to do. I guess I'll look for something else to do now.

*edit* The scythe in my dreams is the tool I use for dream control. It is more a tool I use for creation rather than destruction.