Weird non existent penis dream

Hi everyone :-), I just joined and love dream interpretation. I usually try to do it myself but this dream has me stumped. I'd love some help.

Background - ex husband of 3 years and his fiancé of 3 years who I absolutely detest and have little to do with apart from drop off our daughter. Have not spoken verbally to him in this entire time.

Dream - lots of people are this floating hotel much like a cruise ship but not. Big open spaces, pools, rooms etc. I watch a car bring manually lifted up a building to be placed on a rooftop bar, it's quite precarious only hailed up by rope and swinging madly.

Next part is I'm in this luxurious apartment and come across my ex who wants to buy it and we have this massive argument over why I earth he would want something so big for just 2 people and I'm kind of annoyed at him.

Next part is I'm overlooking the pools and this big fire bursts out all over the place, I just several floors into the water, swim madly across and get out the other side away from all the fire and I just run and run and run until I'm safe. After this I feel like I've just managed a major feat of human endurance and feel so proud.

Next bit is me sitting on a deck and my ex walks up to me with nothing on like his clothes have all been burnt off. I see just a round mark where his penis should be and I am shocked. I ask him where is Hispanics and he says his fiancé didn't need it so he cut it off because she asked him to. At this stage I felt so sad for him that he made this massive sacrifice of himself for her. I felt devastated that he was under her influence so much as to do this.

That was the end. But all day I've felt a sense of sadness for him which is off because I can't stand him.

Any help would be great.

The hotel cruise ship represents your future and the journey you are on. The size of it shows that you have a big future ahead of you that is going to be great, however one thing that is holding you back and going to put obstacles in your way is your ex. You will be running in different directions trying to escape these problems in the future if you don't do one simple thing. Forgive him. The feeling you have since of sadness is because you need to turn your anger for him into love and realise that without that release of your past, your future will be difficult to achieve.