Concerning dream

Hello, I'm new to this form. I had a very strange dream and has left me confused and worried.. so my dream took me way back to what time I never lived. It was a dream that I was at. The judgment of Jesus Christ. I will standing down like in the audience. But we were down a level from like the judges and punches. Pilot was actually my Axis. Son youngest son and the expression on his face was strange. It was kind of like part of him wanted.
To send down the decree, but part of him didn't want to. And as I looked to my rigit on the same level as the judges was Jesus Christ and it was actually.
The the Jesus Christ received in pictures and on the crucifix. And there was a crucifix behind him, but he wasn't. On it as of yet and there was like a bright light all around him, I remember as they read the decree. All I could think was no. This isn't right? And then punch a pilot which looked like my ex's son. Laid down the scroll and pushed it toward. As he did that, it was almost like he didn't want to do that. But he hedit, it's like a remember. It's crying cause I didn't. I try to refuse taking the scroll. But I was forced into it.
Yeah, woke me up from a sound sleep. And when I woke up, I was bowling. I was crying so hard.
This happened a couple days before Christmas.
I don't know what it means and it scares me.
And then I can't talk about it without crying. I I don't understand what it means. And I really know that I need to find out what it Means. I love all of my ex's kids. He has 7 of them. And they all mean a lot to me. But out of the seven, I'm probably not as close to the youngest one as I am with the daughter and 2 of the other sons.
I know That the youngest son is not real close with. His dad, his dad hadn't been in his life for quite sometime. S I just don't understand what this means

The presence of Jesus Christ and Pontius Pilate may represent feelings of judgment or conflict within yourself or your relationships. Your emotional reaction in the dream suggests a deep sense of internal struggle or guilt.

That's a profound and emotionally intense dream you had. Tough one to interpret. Search for its meaning on dreamsdemystified.blog, a dream dictionary, as the name suggests.