i would venture a guess that you are unhappy with something in the circumstance of your life right now. Is there something in your life that you feel equals the mess in "disgustingness"; that regsiters the same kind of visceral disdain?
And it is also interesting that this mess was linked to a mother and eight children. i wonder if they symbolize something in your reality - someone you know or a life choice (?).
interesting . . .
