After a prolonged period of stress, i've sort of abondoned my old love for dreaming. There was a period of time where i would have astonishing dreams, recollect them very well, and felt somewhat close to them. As fantasy tends to attract most of our inner beings.

I decided to get started again, but this time with more preparation. Prior to dozing off around 12pm, i had consumed a cup of coffee. This helps me focus my mind better, clearer, as i tend to have problems focusing.

I began with breathe techniques. I soon found myself very focused, calm, slowly dozing off. I didn't realize how far dozed i was until the garage door opening awoke me with a shock. Reading about disturbances was kind of ironic, since it happened, with the idea that my night was ruined.

I quickly feel asleep, lost track of what happened after the awakening, but i recall my dream very clearly. I had 2, the first i remember clear, while the second one is vivid, and does not matter so much to me.

My dream scared the shit out of me, literaly. It felt sort of like a lucid dream, and i tend to easily acknowledge a lucid state. The basics of this dream were familiar:
-Friends house taht lives down the street
-A friend i used to be very close with for about 4-5 years, which recently i've come to dispise for many reasons (asshole, druggy [i long quit], etc...)
-Ghost, deciced people, things i normaly tend to not be afraid of.

The dream from when i remember exactly was taken place in the basement of this friends house. We were chatting along, having a "usual" day of nonsense converstions, and the occasional sarcasm. All of a sudden, like as if in a movie, darkness creeped over the whole house. To my recollection, it had just been me, my friend, and the house. I was planning to stay over, as the couch had been prepared for a guest, and we were relativly close to my age now (eighteen) in appearance. The first site we say was a cat. This cat ran across the house with great speed, not really paying attention to anyone, seemed to have no purpose as to what is was doing. My friend didn't own a cat, nor did either one of us really like cats. The doors were all locked, we made sure. There is no way this cat could have snuck in. Plus, this cat was "ghostly" in appearance, and gave us the freaky feeling of seing an entity.
Then all of a sudden, i turn around, at the time being behind the couch scared shitless, with my friend being the brave one as he is, goes to turn on the lights. He never made it, also being startled by this new figure. The figure happened to be a old woman, maybe someones grandmother. None of our grandmothers have died, or are ill to be a foreshadow forcoming death. By this point, we were terrified. Also, during this occurance, a sence of childhood, past fears crept through me. Almost as if i completly forgot about thought, and could only feel as i did, and see that ghostly figure without really acknowledging any sense of it.(Very hard to explain). This felt extremly real, since i had , to my knowledge been lucid dreaming. My control was limited though, as i could not make her disapear, but i could drift my direction as if guided.

After this, a transition to a second dream, which i have no recollection of whatsoever, took place. I beleive it was equally strange, if not stranger as i can still senese the "internal feelings" or perhaps "mental internal feelings" of the experience.

Now i have been really stressed out latley about my life etc, worried about a lot of things, having sort of an epiphany, sort of. Becoming more aware of myself as a being, where i'm headed and of that sort. I was worried this dream was somewhat of a symbol of guidance. SInce earlier that day i had become interested after reading on "Spirit Guides", and read you can see some in dreams.

Might this have to do with my anger, fustration, fragmenting of my friendship with this "boy"?

Might this have to do with my arrogance in life in not being able to accept certain thigns as they are?

I'm kind of at a loss. I haven't sat and really thought about this.

I'm open to any interpritation.