A Grieving Dream? "but he's dead!"

So... in mid April I lost my grandpa
we were pretty close...
recently I've been having dreams about him..
but all were those "comfort" dreams
like where we're laughing, and he has his arm around me...
but for the first time
this morning I had a dream that wasn't so comforting

we were in some house
and I see my grandpa sitting in a chair
he looks over and winks at me, gives me his little smile
I smile back
and then I realize that hes DEAD
but no one else can see him
I go to sit down next to my grandma
but I turn away to start crying (trying to hide it from her)
and all throughout the dream I continue to see my grandpa show up

does this tell me something about my grieving process?
I'm not sure what it means
I know I miss him
but... does it mean I'm accepting that hes gone? or maybe that I just am mourning him?

Hi Cecile,
sorry to hear about your loss.

It does sound like you are adjusting to the loss.

One model of the grieving process is :

* Shock stage: Initial paralysis at hearing the bad news.
* Denial stage: Trying to avoid the inevitable.
* Anger stage: Frustrated outpouring of bottled-up emotion.
* Bargaining stage: Seeking in vain for a way out.
* Depression stage: Final realization of the inevitable.
* Testing stage: Seeking realistic solutions.
* Acceptance stage: Finally finding the way forward.

But every person is different, and checklists don't replace emotions.