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Hi!!
Since I was younger, I've had a reoccuring dream about the fence that borders my elementary school playground. I rarely dream this, but it's happened a few times. In my dream, when I go out to the schoolyard, I will be drawn to the very left corner, furthest from the building. As I keep heading toward this corner, the schoolyard starts getting veryyyyy hilly and grassy, and the closer I get to where the fence should be, the more I realize that it is gone. In actuality, immediately behind this fence is a brick wall, and behind the brick wall is a diesel truck depot of sorts. But in my dream, all of that is gone completely and is replaced by a VERY bright green forest. It is always daylight in the forest and though the trees block almost the entire sky, the sun is shining brightly everywhere. I encounter no other person or animal, but I know there are friends there somewhere and the whole thing gives me probably the most beautiful(you could even call it "magical") sight/feeling I can imagine! It seems to be a place for me to just enjoy some solitude and beauty. It also feels like it can be used in any way I desire, and it can contain all the things I love while protecting me from the things I don't care for. In one of these dreams, I tried to take someone back to the forest with me, only to find it wasn't there.
Within the past year, they have closed down the school and knocked down the jungle gyms and basketball courts, etc. I have been in town for winter break recently, and after going to see this at the school, I've had another reoccuring dream about the fence!
In this dream, I'm drawn to the very right corner of the fence, furthest from the building, and there is always a hole of some sort for me to walk through. I'm always alone, like in the other dream, and the hole leads to a small space where I(again) can just spend time alone peacefully, but here I have the feeling that I am definitely alone, and almost hiding from everyone. In one dream, there is an old broken down truck that I climb into and hang out around. In another, there is a brand new jungle gym. It is always night with a bright moon and the ground always looks like a dog has been digging around. I started dreaming about this side of the fence after seeing how the school looks now and it might have something to do with a secret spot I've just stopped spending a lot of time at, because my favorite time to go there was at night or sunrise. In my dream, I was spending my time doing the same things I did in my "secret spot".
Now I am having both of these dreams and I don't understand the meaning of it all!
Lately, it has been VERY hard for me to spend time with people for long amounts of time, and after a few hours I will make an excuse to leave and be alone. So I'm pretty sure these dreams are relative to this. The time I've most enjoyed has been my time alone and I feel a lot more powerful alone, but I have been wishing I could feel that way with others again, even though isolation feels a bit necessary as of late.
The meaning of the forest is more apparent to me than any aspect of the dreams, because it gave me a very distinct feeling, but the rest is unclear and having both of them various times in the same week has reeeally confused me!!
Thanks SO much to the genius who can help me!
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Well seems like escaping from people to your favourite, solitary places. The only obstacle is the fence.
What, do you feel overwhelmed by the people around you? Or just are you looking for loneliness. :?
In the waking life our desires are often contradictory: at one time we want to be alone, but while we are, we start longing for the company.
In fact living alone seems to be the only true way of going throught the life, without cheating yourself, without any false loves and artficial relationships....But loneliness is a terrible thing, one needs a lot of effort and sacrificing to get throught it and understand its meaning. :shock:
Is it worth it? I don't know, it is your choice. :wink:
