Hello amorousity
I think there are two things going on for you. First, you have this dream lover who is made up of your own thoughts, feelings and responses. "He" appears in your dream and you love him, yearn for him and want to be one with him. Second, you have a friend who has thoughts, feelings and responses of his own. He likes you, sure, but he isn't the person you want him to be. These two men merge into one when you think of him or when you're with him. He becomes your dream lover - the real person on whom you project your dreams, fantasies etc. This is a perfectly normal thing to happen, by the way, and is pretty much what falling in love is all about. But it is also the source of disappointment and hurt as the other person fails to be as perfect as we would like.
So, back to your dream. You say that he was resisting you but was really wanting you, kind of. That tells you nothing about him but a lot about you. This is how your dream lover responds not your friend. Think of the dream as a way of understanding your desires and fears etc. Everyone in the dream is your own creation.
To answer your last question, I would say that it depends on how your relationship with him works. Can you discuss these things with him? If you really are friends and he is strong enough to help you (he may not be) then I would say you have a perfect opportunity to come to more understanding about your desires and to experience him as he really is. It may be painful (for both of you) but it could also be very enriching. One word of warning - don't get more involved with him like this if you're expecting a certain outcome - like the two of you live together happily ever after - as the outcome may be quite different.
I am speaking from experience here. I endured sleepless nights, anger and tears coming to terms with how I felt about someone not so long ago. But we worked through it (she liked me "as a friend" just the same as you say about yours) and are now genuine friends and stronger for it.
Feelings for our dream lover - a lost part of ourselves if you like - are possibly the strongest and hardest to reconcile as they have everything (grief, loss, excitement, anger, passion...).
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