Recently, I've been having endless numbers of dreams where I'm on stage in my old church, watching a play at my old church or otherwise involved. Usually, in these dreams, something goes wrong. For instance, the play might be very boring, there might not be anyone but me in the audience, someone might trash it, Characters may break with the script, I might have lines or a job to do but not know exactly what, etc.
Quite often I want to get out, or find it awkward being there. Sometimes, though, I don't.
These dreams often end on a positive note, sometimes I enjoy the show. Sometimes I get away from the church and walk home. Sometimes I lend a hand fixing the problem or find a way to solve whats going wrong.
Really, there's a lot of variety. But there's always a stage and I'm usually only tangenitally and unwillingly involved with procedings.
I haven't been in that church in five years. And the last time I left it I ended up losing the last real shred of faith I had in God an hour later.
The youth group and the people there were kind of fun. But towards the end of my time there my parents stopped going and joined the house church movement and I felt that everyone was making an effort to engage me in useless small talk to try and keep me coming back.
I did a few plays and presentations there with the youth group and sunday school. But most of my drama experience has been in university.
Does anyone have an idea why I might be dreaming about this obscure part of my life now?
