search but never find....

I have a question on a very repetitive event that happens in my dreams, not even exagerating it happens in almost all my dreams, and it has been for almost a year. It has to do with this friend of mine. We don't know eachother that well, but I feel like we are close friends anyways. except, I never get to see them very often, and when I do, I can't really talk to them. for various reasons....one of which is that we are just not allowed to see eachother, but there are other reasons too.

this is what always happens. I will be having a dream, and then something scarey or upsetting will occur in it, for example soomeone will chase me or try to hurt me. As soon as this happens (it's like an automatic instinct or something) I will say to myself I need my friend, with a strong believe that they will save me, I run off to their house to find them, and I almost always don't look anywhere else but at their house. and then I find that they are never there. and that always happens, which makes me have to deal with the situation on my own. In some cases, when I need this person to help me, they will be right in front of me, but something is holding me back from getting to them...

could someone please help me? I'd appriciate it. Why can I never find my friend when I need them? they are just never there.

You run away for some undefined fear. What is the nature of the fear you run away from? is it fear for the unknown?

I would advice to next time not run away and find your strength/courage in something else than this "friend" you are not allwoed to see. It may well be that the thing you are running from and are in fear of is the sunconsciious self trying to help you. But because you are not familiar with that part of yourself you are scared of it.

I have had many run-away/chasing dreams when I was young, and it where always undefined fears/evil I was running for. Until one day I turned back and went towards it instead of running and when I opened the door with the person I feared behind it it was a monklike man in a black rope behind a little desk with a burning candle and he said to me "I had expected you earlier". After that I have never had running away dreams anymore.

I know the things I write under here will maybe be difficult for you to accept if you dont believe in god. But once I also was an atheist and had to stumble and run and fear in dreams.

What surely helps if you believe in God is to pray for Gods protection or any Saint or Archangel you might want to protect you, for example Archangel Michael. I can say that if you really believe and give your life,soul/spirit in the protection of God/Christ you will not be let down and you will become stronger than the strongest occult masters (which is ego based power) without having the power yourself. Even facing the greatest fears you might have and come against in your dreams.
I show you what I mean in the following 2 dreams I had a while ago:

Dream1:
I am with a friend at his school/university. He wants to bring me somewhere and I follow him through the corridirs. Somehow we try to avoid people recognising us. He wants to go into a door I think and I open the door by thinking. He says he thought it was locked last time. When the door opens we go through it. Behind is is a spiraling staircase downwards. Somehow I in a flash thought I saw my friend transform into an older man that is not him that walked downwards in front of me. I say I always love a spiraling staircase all the way down for I say all the way down there is a sandy/dusty room where much occult-power comes from. Somehow it troubles me that I said "occult-power". The old guy agrees with me. I fly down the spiral and then suddenly some animal like force grabs me from behind and begins to strangle me. Somehow I see my wife in a flash throwing water in my face and then I get that she is hitting me in the face with a waterbottle. I think the attacker tries to confuse me that its my wife attacking. I decide to not fight back the strangulation and I say out loud "I trust my wife completely".
I think not fighting back is showing I trust her and I am prepaired to die instead of doubting this trust in her. I think this is a deception for I trust her and they test me. I begin praying to God and Jesus. I feel the brute animal like force that the guy behind me uses when he puts a thick rope around my neck and begins pulling as hard as it/he can. He makes gruntlike noises. I say out loud "God please Guide and Protect me, Jesus, Mary, Martha please protect me, Michael, Gabriel, Uriel, Raphael please protect me". Somehow The person or entity does not like this as it also did not like my total trust in my wife and me seeing his deception got him in a rage and he begins to pull as hard as it can and I feel the rope tighten over my neck. I lay on a wooden beam with my arms wide not fighting back. I hear an animal like rage try to strangle me with all its force. While I repeat "PLease God protect me, please jesus protect me". I sense its important not to doubt my faith. At one split second I almost did but I kept my faith and kept repeating "PLease God protect me, please jesus protect me" for the force trying to kill me I sense is the opposite from God and Jesus. Then at one point I sense this could go on for ever and it cant strangle me for the the power of God is greater than his. It enrages him and makes him pull harder. I feel the thick rope around my neck pulling while I keep praying. Then I decide its enough and pull away from it and awaken myself. Then I awaken.

Dream2:
I come to shore with a boat. I see a church on a hill and go to it.The moment I see the modified church I recognised it for what it was without lookin inside. I am thrilled to have a look. A part was added to the church which was like a icecave of acorns of ice. I want to have a look at that. The entrance has a big tree above it! I go inside and meet the pastor and congratulate him on the nice church wich is adorned with a tree. I say its the first earth worship temple. I say it is not called a church but a temple. He says to not say it too loud for the christians. He says "if jesus and maria should hear this!". I say to him that jesus and maria maybe also loved nature. There he agrees. he says to me in the end "it's all about FEDUCIA"! then I awaken.

TIP: Google "FEDUCIA CHURCH"

I understand what you mean, I am very religious myself, it means a lot to me in fact. but when I do get scared in my dreams, I can't just turn and face it, even if I wanted too, I let my dreams play out the way they are, and in my subconscience I expect my friend to be able to help me I guess, so that is why I do not understand what is happening

I somehow had the feeling you where a religious person. I am glad I followed this unconscious hunch.

Know you will always be protected no matter what it is you are running from.