Thread: Shot myself

Last night I had an odd dream, Unfortunately I don't remember alot but I do remember the end. I committing suicide.

The only other thing I remember is that my family was in it.
Now the suicide was sickeningly realistic. I remember sitting in a dark room with stuff strewn all over the floor. I could see the sun was starting to rise in the window, and it made my heart sink like I was running out of time. I felt cornered with the weight of the world on me to make this choice. Like I was an outlaw cornered and if I didn't do this the shootout would kill many I loved. Knowing I would die no matter what I decided to put myself in and save the lies of others.
The last part was amazingly detailed, I reluctantly put the nozel in my mouth, I could tast the cold metal as it touched the back of my throat. I closed my eyes and took a last breath then fired.
At first all I felt was confusion, I wasn't completely sure what I did had happened, but then even though my eyes were shut everything grew even darker. A growing pain began to grow in the back of my head, a cold inner pain like a tooth ache but much larger. I couldn't move and the pain grew, I fell to my side and lost all feeling whatsoever except the pain. The pain was great but I felt resolved, I didn't want to die but I accepted that the hard part was over. Quickly though the confusion spread, and everything stopped. That's when I woke.
I know there was alot more to the dream before that, but I can't really remember. Also this is probably the most realistic dream I ever had, never before have I felt pain like this in a dream. The problem is, whenever I remember the dieing part that pain comes back in my head. That cold tooth ache pain. I know it isn't real since when I think of other things it goes away, but it's still odd and it gives the dream alot more meaning to me.
Any comments?
Odd dream huh?