reading my diary out loud....and walking in circles

Well I had this dream a few weeks ago, but it was so vivid and so strong that I just can’t get it out of my mind and I was hoping maybe someone could help me with it. It’s about this friend of mine, let’s say their name is Steve. Steve is my best friend actually, I could even say i love him, but during school we don’t talk to each other much, in fact nobody would even knew that we were friends if you were to ask someone. That’s how Steve and I want It to be though, just a secret.


The dream started out with me in the downstairs hallway of my school. It was just me in this hallway, it was completely quiet and deserted. I wasn’t standing though, I was walking in a circle. As I was walking I had my journal in my hand, you can even call it a diary if you want because a lot of personal stuff is written in this journal of mine, and I’d never let a single person read it. Which brings me to the weird part of the dream. I was reading my journal out loud. But I was reading something I never wrote in it before. So there I was walking in a circle reading my journal out loud to myself. As I read I began walking faster in a circle. This is what I was saying
“Steve and I are best friends and we will be best friends for ever and we will be together for ever and ever and ever until we die.”

After that I went to a classroom and the teacher demanded that i write a story as my assignment, I didn't know what to write so i wrote what I had said in the empty hallway, "Steve and I are best friends.....ect.

…..What I was reading from my journal, does that actually mean it’s true? I’ve had a couple dreams come true before but…I don’t think this one could possibly be true…

Hello,

It seems to me that your dream is asking you to look at your relationship with your friend, 'Steve', and how he appears in your public life (i.e School).

Firstly, you have solved the first part of the puzzle of your dream by saying that although you and Steve have a relationship, you don't show it to others at your school. You say you want to keep it secret. This is the main theme that has come through your dream. Maybe look at why you want to keep it secret. Is it because others would judge you for having a relationship with this person? Perhaps you don't truly want to, and you've just convinced yourself this.

Now lets look at the symbols that appear...

An hallway can represent an aspect of your life that is connected to other parts of your life. It shows that you are at a transitional part of your life. For example, this could show in that you may be ready to leave school and enter adult hood, or you may be moving from middle teens to early adult life. You are ready to move forward, you are ready for change. You say you were alone, so it may feel that at this time you can't really share this experience with anyone and feel isolated by it.

The next important symbol relates to the above symbol. It shows how you are trying to resist the change that is oncoming in your life. 'Walking in circles' means you are doing precisely that. You are holding onto old habits, even old relationships and ways of seeing life, which means you are literally walking in circles and making the same decisions over and over again. This dream is telling you to move on and break the circle for your own inner growth. A circle is also a symbol for 'oneness' and 'perfection'. If you look at your own life, you will see there are many circles.

Now the next symbol could be a clue to how you can break this circle. You're reading your journal aloud, which contains your most personal, and deepest feelings that you usually don't tell anyone. Perhaps this is telling you to share more of your inner world to people, to let them know your true feelings and open up. This will allow you to release emotional hurts from the past and to 'grow' into your new world. Maybe you need to share your true feelings with Steve.

Now you said what you were reading was a statement that you and Steve would be together forever. And in doing so, you were moving around the circle at a faster pace. You should look at if you truly feel this is real, or if it is something you desire. Does your relationship with Steve help you to move and grow as a person, or is it stunting your growth? If you've ever heard of 'karmic circles', they are unresolved issues with have with a person. Maybe what you have had with this person is idealisation, hence why you haven't been able to show your relationship to your peers at school. If there wasn't anything wrong with yours and Steve's relationship, then ask yourself why others can't know of it.

You need to look at how you felt when you were moving around the circle. This will show you what the circle truly meant in the dream. Did you feel helpless, lost? Or did you feel empowered? Circles can be both good and bad.

Now the last part where you were in a classroom and your teacher told you to write an assignment. This could be your 'inner teacher' trying to work out your true feelings regarding this situation. You said you could not think of anything to write. So you wrote down what was in your diary. This could be your subconscious trying to get through to you about how you truly feel. Maybe it's time you stopped keeping it a secret and talk to Steve about where your relationship is going.


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That's my interpretation for you. But please keep in mind that symbols are very personal, and you must look at each symbol about how it makes you feel, what emotions it creates within you, etc.

Hope it helps you with your situation!

Clytemnestra

Wow! I’ve never seen such an Elaborate interpretation before. You must be good at interpreting. Thank you for your help.

I understand what you’re saying, about how I should talk to steve about our relationship and I think deep down I would maybe like someone else to know it, but we really can’t tell anyone. I go to school with a bunch of jerks and they’d literally rip us apart. That’s why we are both so afraid to let anyone know….