Another dream happened last week...same situation
Well this dream stems from a real situation with an ex whom I still have strong feelings for. We were not together very long at all however we were friends for awhile before we jumped into the next stage. What led to a separation was us both feeling it might not be the right time for us. We both had to take care of certain things in our individual lives. His was he needed answers from an ex who suddenly popped up back into his life, who hurt him in the past. For me mentally I could not be emotionally correct for a relationship & I needed to get my own life together as I had been through a lot of sudden changes with my family since Sept... I have only felt worse & miss him dearly & almost feels like he does too however will not express it in anyway. He was there for me as a friend last night i talked to him about a situation with my family & he listened and gave me advice.
Which may have led to this dream...
Anyway in the dream I am online & I see his away message say something like "(my name) If "she" (exes name was there) ever came back into my life again I wouldnt choose her"... or something like "If I could do it over again" it was very vivid dream. Though in the dream I was having trouble clearly making out what it said but somehow I knew what it meant. Then later I look again and see "i still want to love you" ... this is how he would communicate with me if he wasnt online when we starting getting close to get my attention. anyway so after I saw this I get a message saying I want to try again with you please come see me. So I go see him and Im there with him & feel like I did the first time we hung out together... so happy & content. Then all of a sudden he sticking syringe in his head and he is bleeding all over & it gets on me then somehow I get the syringe & it gets stuck in my leg. Suddenly Im so worried about him. Im scared. Then we end up in what is suppose to be his house with all of who is suppose to be his family never met these people... but for sure they are his family. They are reading a journal of mine or a story. (I have always written in journals my entire life) But this was a story they were reading that I wrote about him and I.. & everyone was saying congratulations to us & that it is such a beautiful love story & in my dream I know the story & am nearly in tears about how many people loved it so much & am okay with everyone reading it (which Im not in real life when it comes to my journals). Also We are ok though at this time. Then I see him & he seems kind of distant & goes and gets ready for work and heads out. Scene changes to me walking down a highway its dark out & I have this feeling my mother is with me but I dont think I actually see her anyway I go to cross the street and a car tries to pull in & almost hits me I look to my right & there is a police car parked in the middle of the road facing towards me. Then I wake up........
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I have been semi depressed lately with all the stuff that happened with my family & the thing with him (who was there for me through all that) my feelings are still growing for yet I cannot share them as hes giving it another shot with his ex. Our first time actually contact since our last time when I made it clear my feelings & how upset I was... was last night but brief. I dont want to hate this guy... at all ...he was there for me and I think when we finally had time alone to be a couple we took advantage of what it was really meant to be... We were very happy like best friends & truely happy (our second time together he seemed very insecure with himself always made sure I was not insecure about anything of myself but seemed very unhappy & unsure)...with him it was like looking in a mirror... we clicked right away... but like I SAID our unfinished business crept up to us... Ive been really afraid to take a chance of the possibly that "time" is the factor that I have yet to let him go.. mentally..I think what is worse was the fact that we were friends.. & all that is lost for the time being...
I hope someone can interpret.. Im getting some kind of an idea but Im still very new at dream interpreting. Thank you in advance. I thought Id share some extra information maybe that would help. I also have another post before this one of a more recent dream. Thanks again.
