Thread: Need help figuring this out

I do think a little background is required on this one. The girl I am starting to care about is someone I have met 2 times in my life but knew after the first time I talked to her she had to be in my life. We have stayed in touch and talk practically every day. The ex was the most important person ever in my life. She changed me back to my true self. I just dont understand why someone that hasn't yet made a significant impact on my life would be there with someone who has.

I went on a trip to alaska and got into a plane crash. Anytime a girl that I cared about tried to visit, they were kidnapped. When I got out of the hospital, I ended up in a room with every girl that he cared about. they were tied up and unconscious. A voice told him that before he left, he had to choose one to live. I decided to take some drugs and was screwed up for 3 days. after that I decided that everyone was important for very different reasons and I could never make a decision so I put myself in a coma. when I awoke, my ex of 2 and a half years and some one I am starting to care about very much were the only 2 alive. I purposely overdosed myself bcause I couldn't live with the reality that I just got people killed.