Dream with same theme but different scenarios

Hello everyone, I found this site though google in hopes of anonymously getting some insight on these dreams from people who dabble in this sort of thing.

Basically im going though a crisis of being 18, having tons of female friends and still a virgin. For some reason this is a big deal to me. Anywho.

The most recent dream:

Im at a party, and im dancing with everyone, and some chick just comes up to me, and totally just wants me, we start making out, and things get heavy so she goes into the bed room and says "dont forget a condom." Of course i dont have one on my for some reason, so i run around asking friends if they got one to barrow all the while thinking to my self do i want this girl to be my first? Theres this blonde girl whos probably my best female friend, im sexually and mentally attracted to her i know i want her to be my first, but shes in a long term relationship with a guy whos been nothing but good for her. Im torn by this decision, do I go and finally lose my virginity tonight, or do I wait in hopes that our friendship develops beyond friends, or if she breaks up with her boyfriend. But that wait is so long... Finally i get a condom and go in to the room, i open the door shes not in there, and i wake up.

So yeah Basically thats the theme of my dreams i been having so often throughout the past year.

I get close to getting laid, but an internal conflict from someone i really love stops me. Yet i want to lose my virginity so bad its mentally killing me. And even in my dreams that i can subconsciously control, I dont get any.

Well any incite would be cool thanks for reading.