Happiest Dream Ends In Despair
Hey guys...I don't usually post my dreams here to have them interpreted...but this one really got to me, and I'm trying to understand what it means. If you could help me at all it would be greatly appreciated. And thanks if you read all of it, I realize it's long.
-nina
Someone had hired a woman to throw me an incredible party for some reason. Everything was perfect, the day was beautiful, I was given the most lovely dress to wear, my hair was done...perfect. I remember walking into this mansion or castle and I was led into this room. It was a huge auditorium that was set up almost like a tv show wrestling match with seats and a ring in the middle. I am being led up the row towards the center, I notice that everyone in the seats are people I know or knew at one time, old friends and acquaintances. They are smiling and waving at me, and I smile and wave back.
When I get to the center I see that my whole family is standing there. My mom, dad, sister, cousins, aunts, uncles. All the ones closest to me. Then everyone in the audience...like 500 people...start cheering! For me! And I run up to my family and hug them and we are all cheering and clapping and I feel so incredibly happy.
Then there is a big screen being lowered so that we can watch a movie or something...and I stand in the ring with my family as they show clips! about MY LIFE!!! Things that I am really proud of!!! Things that I have done and accomplished. Times when I was funny. Times when I was having fun with friends. They went through this whole slideshow that basically highlighted all the best moments in my life. And everyone was still clapping. And I was so happy I had tears in my eyes. And I felt so incredibly grateful...and...proud. I actually felt proud to be...me. And so thankful for my life.
After the slideshow everyone was led to the top floor of the mansion which was an enormous party room where dinner was served. Everything was decorated exactly how I would have loved it, it was all perfect. I remember speaking with the woman who arranged the party and telling her how magical she was and how perfect everything went! Everyone ate delicious meals and people were coming up to me and thanking me for inviting them to the party. I couldn't believe it. These people were actually thankful that they knew me? They wanted to celebrate just knowing me? I was incredibly flattered but it felt great.
There was even a little petting zoo type of area...go figure since I love animals...this older lady had brought all these animals for people to play with. She had a litter of puppies with her at one point and I was watching the children playing with the puppies.
Then one of the children says to the woman, "Look, one of the puppies is dead."
It was so strange because everything about the party was wonderful and happy and everything was going write, so to have something sad happen was so strange. I looked over at the little puppy and it did indeed look dead.
"No, he's not dead," said the old lady, "Look...see?" and she lited him up so we could all see that he was alive. The children laughed and continued playing with the puppies...but for me something was not right.
I was concerned. I know that puppy had died. Somehow it came back to life. What was going on. Then the woman who organized my party came and stood next to me.
"See?" she said to me. "I made your party magical. Everyone will have a wonderful time. Even sickness and death cannot penetrate the barrier I put up. Yes that's right, I set up a magical barrier around this mansion's land to keep everyone safe and happy and to make sure everything goes perfectly!!" ...and then she walked away, or possibly vanished.
I went back to the party room where people were drunk and laughing and having fun. Everyone was calling me to come hang out with them, but I just sort of kept walking on past.
Somehow I ended up near a ledge or an open window and I fell. I was very high up. I fell through glass into the swimming pool far below. I don't remember much of the fall. But I knew I should have been dead. I looked around at the night, it was dark...darkness was encroaching...and I was frightened. I needed to get back inside the castle but it was all locked up for safety reasons. I began to climb a spire that would lead me to the top party room where I could hopefully find an open window. So I climbed and I climbed...the whole time I was thinking about what the organizer lady had told me. And I was thinking about the puppy...the one that died and came back to life. Is that what happened to me? Should I be dead right now? Am I dead? And I stopped climbing and looked at my pale skin and dress that was torn to shreds. No, I'm still alive. Somehow. And I kept climbing.
Several hours later I made it to the top and fell into an open window. Everyone shouted and waved at me and smiled.
"You are all still partying?" I asked, "It must be so late?"
Hmm. Long party, I thought to myself. In fact, at that moment I even saw the sun began to rise over the horizon. It was almost morning! Suddenly with the darkness gone I was feeling much more confident and I saw people playing soccer outside on the lawn. I went to join them.
A few of them were distant relatives and some were friends. We were kicking the ball around, and I remember thinking how long this party was going to go on till. But at the same time not really caring because I was having fun.
Then suddenly...it began to grow dark. I could see very ominous clouds in the distance, quickly rolling towards us. The organizer lady was standing in the yard and I ran over to her.
"What is that? What's happening?"
She looked very grim. She was not smiling and happy as she had been earlier.
"Hey!" I shouted, "Please tell me what's going on!" the darkness was coming closer and closer.
"I set up a magical barricade around this place to ensure no bad things could take place inside while the party was going on. But bad things did happen, and now the darknesss has come to collect."
She looked at me, but she was not beautiful like before. She looked like a witch.
"What are you saying? You knew this would happen? Did you set all of this up!? What will happen to us!?" ...but she was vanishing before my eyes and I was left standing alone on the lawn, people were all running inside for safety.
I stood there, just wondering, what was going to happen. Then I saw it...coming over a hill...a black cloud...a swarm of something. I didn't bother trying to run, I knew it would find me no matter where I went. As the black cloud came closer I saw that it was made out of flies...and the ground went completely black. It was swarming with rats. A sea of rats at my feet and a cloud of flies surrounding me.
"Cover your face!!"
"Keep your eyes closed!"
"Run into the castle!!"
I heard people shouting to one another.
But I didn't want to close my eyes, I wanted to see. I had to witness what was happening. Then I saw them, in the sky...four huge black clouds...like horses...the horsemen...come to collect.
In a cloud of flies and rats at my feet, the four horsemen passed over me.
And then, I died.