dream i cut my own throat
the dream started with me not actually being myself but an old woman in a care home. i took a blade and i sliced my neck through my wind pipe. there was no blood in the dream and i remember being very concious that i wanted to die but nobody must know about it. the cut did not kill me and i was still able to breathe and talk. as the old woman i imagined pulling the wound open further and stamping DNR (do not resuscitate) on my chest but the doctors then ignoring this request and trying to save me against my will.
i then became myself again (in my own body) but still with a sliced windpipe that i was eager to hide from my friends. eventually one noticed and said i had to go to hospital. at the hospital i told the nurse ' i wished to kill my self initially' the dream wasn't panicked at all, i woke with a bit of a sore throat but nothing major.
what do people think this means? i've been looking on the internet but there doesn't seem to be anything about cutting your own throat. any ideas or interpretations welcome. thank you!