Guns, Grandma & Girls

As far as i can remember lauren was crying at work and i sit there and comfort her i just gave her a hug and said a few words like its okay, it'll be alright etc. soon after she held on to me as i did the same... i remember it being a connective thing... she liked me i like her... simple... the next day or later on in the day? i walk to work and meet lauren at the front entrance and shes with another guy and i see her and she just glances, heartbroken i suppose... i go through the side entrance which is a metal hallway looking thing that is kinda transparent... i open the door while i see two huge guys and a co-worker comes to me and says for me to get out of her and that many people are looking for me... so i start running back down this hallway thing and get out to the parking lot and see my grandmothers car while my parents were with her... i yell and scream that we have to go... we head to some park then, i tell them to meet me at the little house... somehow i knew the whole park but besides that my parents didnt seem to care and my mom didnt really hear me... on the way running there i see an old friend jason and he was listening to his headphones saying "this song is tight" and my friend jake is also there and he just tells me whats up and such... somehow they know each other in the dream and they are hanging out together... i tell them both, im going to get jumped or even killed and they just look at me and say "really?" as i watch the built guys comming to kill me i wake up...

later on that day at school i took a nap... i know i had more than one dream... none of them lucid but something i havent had before... i had a dream i was on the phone, but the thing is all i saw was black... and all i heard was my friends voice... i remember them asking something about a cd but thats all i can recall... im thinking maybe since in my waking life i usually talk on the phone with my eyes closed (when in a long conversation) laying down, so maybe my dreams were doing as i do in my waking life?

Well from what i can recall i was in this bar/resturant... and my parents had told me that they werent my real parents... i went crazy and went to the bathroom to cool off... after calming down i left the restroom and saw Conor Oberst outside and he was staring at me... and he walked up to me and said hey. I just replied "hey," he then told me, i guess im your Dad... which was even more way out there... but we just sat and talked... throughout the whole time he seemed very uneasy and that he had some sort of disinterest towards me... the last that i can remember was me thinking about the album lifted... from bright eyes when i was sitting at this bar and then woke up.

The past couple of nights ive had a dream of a girl i was once in love with. The first dream i remember was the one person who ruined our relationship but i guess i was okay with the guy but i still had some unspoken steam that i hold against him. We ended up playing video games and i intentionally went to kill him. Second dream that night, me and (girl) were sitting at a lunch table, with people around here i come to sit down and hold her hand... all the people that are sitting around here are people i have despised in my past... even a kid from 5th grade... But i remember we left the table walking around the lunch room holding hands (felt so wonderful during the dream, i felt the actual feeling that i used to feel with this girl, yet she wasnt the same in the dream and was a tad too nice to everyone) i remember a moment we had where we told each other that we loved each other so much... as i held her... i dont remember much after that...

last night i had a dream i was hanging out with my best friends little bro, we were on our way to the spurs game in a truck that kind of resembled my uncle's truck. His mother ended up getting frustrated with something and left us the truck...i was driving and i got a little lost and went on a ramp and there was construction. (boy) told me just improvise... and i know in reality i dont think he knows what that means...But! anyways, i ended up turning the truck somehow into a skateboard and we walked to this special school, i dont know why but we were there... what creeped me out was that in this dream... i saw this guy that i had seen before there at the school? im not sure if he was from a previous dream but i really had this sensation that i knew him really well... like i knew him in my waking life or something im not sure. but he told me to please wait... as i think right now i cant remember what he looks like but i remember the feeling of knowing him... while i was waiting there were children playing the violin... and it was breath taking to hear these kids playing... I remember the music being close to heaven, it was so beautiful... i was thinking about a question earlier if it would be possible to hear things that werent even possibly heard in your waking life? i mean your not limited to your ears? but just a little closed minded to sound in your dream... wonder if its possible?

We were on a trip from school, don't exactly know where to but something that stood out in my dream was that the driver was always dying and our teachere kept calling more drivers but they kept dying from a car accident. There was one death that i remember, the dream had lost control of the wheel and he flew through the front window. I remember his body flew far in front of the moving bus, and of course the bus hit him. He had said something i cant really recal what he said maybe it was something like "don't tell them about this..." Also i felt another feeling of love in the dream if i'm not mistakened the girl was someone who i know and still keep in contact with but havent seen this girl in 3-4 years? Afterwards, we went to a small restaurant and as we were walking in i had my camera and i was looking through old pictures and silent videos. I remember having some sort of flash back, this was weird because it was supposed to be a memory i had before but as i think back on this in my waking life i know this never happen. I was showing the girl these picture of my friend she used to like... Also a little video of my two friends getting into at a concert? I think... I remember holding her hand a lot during this dream but when i would kiss her on the cheek she would tell me to stop in a way that was bothering her?

Then I woke up!

Damn, im an idiot... Was taking a nap... Started dreaming that my brother and I were in this reality show. There was a massive table with everyone sitting around it... There was many beautiful women... Wasnt sure what it actually was, but as i was talking to my brother i noticed this guy with ugly long teeth (pretty scary charecter now that i think about it) with a hideous face, kind of monsterous looking i suppose? I started laughing at it because i thought it looked funny in the dream... It was kinda looking at the wall... and kept looking at me when i laughed... While this was going on, I kept telling myself that i will remember this dream when i wake up! So i wasnt really sure if i was lucid or semi lucid or something... But i should have just thought a little more... I'm an idiot...

I was in a store, it was somewhat similiar to SAMs. As I went to go buy something, the cashier (a girl) told me she loved me and she didn't know why, then she asked literally if she could follow me. I said it was alright so she followed me around during the whole dream... I noticed I was getting a bit annoyed with her following me around. The last thing I remember was talking to someone and completely ignoring the girl...