Thread: SuorKaterina's Dream Journal

5/3/05
11:00PM-7:00AM Warning: I've been reading a lot of Harry Potter Fan Fiction lately, this should explain why sometimes I'm Ron or Hermione.
There was a tree that had been split in half, sort of hollowed out. It was huge. I felt bad about it untill i realized it was growing fine.
Then I was in this little cabin with an old woman and a little girl. The woman was feeding her hot water and oatmeal. They were talking about some guy she was going to marry I think. I was just an outsider watching untill I realized they were talking about "my Ron" Then i saw he was asleep in an armchair beside the table. He woke up and looked behind the chair and I was there seeted at the table. I reached out my hand to him and our fingers entwined. I said "You should be flattered, they were trying to steal you away."
Then I was in a school gymnasium. Something about getting dressed in my old Girl Scout outfit and selling cookies so I could make some extra money.

Yay. I did it 2 days in a row. Good for me. *Pats self on back*

DS: Context/Setting & Form/Ego

5/4 11:00PM-7:00AM Non-Lucid

I woke up to fast to remember much. Another HP obsessed dream.

I was in a gymnasium again. There were boys boxing or something. There was a flamboyantly gay teen trying to sew one of the other boys shoes together. He was wearing a grey tank top that showed off his belly.

Then I was in class with Prof. McGonnagal and she gave us this survey to fill out. It asked what we thought our best class was, what our specific magical talent was. I wrote down Charms. After that question was something about unscrambling the letters and filling in letters to figure out the name of a potion.

Then I was on this Morrocan style balcony with Harry. At first I was Hermione. Harry was telling me not to go out with Draco because I would be hurting my friends.. Or maybe I was Harry. I think I might have been both. We were laying on big textiled pillows. Somehow I knew that Draco was on a balcony above us and could hear everything that we said.

That's it. Maybe i should demote myself to LD beginner. I know a lot about it, I just havn't done a whole lot of it. I'm not very consistant in my "training". But I hope that will change now. I really enjoy recording my dreams here.

DS: Context/Setting & Form/Ego

5/5
3:00AM-12:00PM Non-Lucid
Last nights dreams were a little discombobulated. I hope that by starting to write all of them down I will remember more of them.

I think one of the last ones was...I was at a restaurant with ron, I was hermione(yes I have a problem, I know) So we were eating and the atmosphere was fine. We were really young, like 11 or 12. Then all of a sudden more adults started coming and it got darker. One of them got mad at me for being there and punched me in the nose. Ron was all worried and helped me get out of the restaurant. Then we were wandering around a grocery store and I had frozen vegetales on my nose to keep the swelling down. I think Ron was laughing at me, he was also worried we'd get in trouble for using the veggies for my nose.

There was lots more but it's not coming back to me.

DS: Context/Setting & Form/Ego

5/6 1AM-9AM Non-Lucid

I rember I was talking to this woman about some sort of procedure that could make me thin. But they wouldn't let me have it. I kept begging but they wouldn't let me. There were all thes women around and they were getting theprocedure but they were treating me like a child and n ot letting me get it. I got really mad and was yelling at the head woman. I was wearing a thin white simple linen dress. We all were. Like it was some sort of womns order.

DS: Thought/Ego & Context/Setting

Then I was in this small town and we all worked at this manufacturing place I think. I was new. I was at home and my boyfriend was drunk and trying to get at me. I had broken up with him I guess. So I called 911 so they would come and get him. I as in the bathroom trying to go and this woman in the next stall was trying to strike up a con versation. I said I down't like to talk whilst going to the bathroom! Then another woman who was my friend apparently, came in and started talking me. I her case I thought it was funny. So I kept talking to her.

DS: Ego/Thought & Context/Setting

My grandfather was entertaining some people with an accordian I think, and jokes. My mom was getting pissed. I said I didn't know granpa was so entertaining. She said it stops being entertaining really quick. He was in some sort of board room an we were leaving without him. My mom, my aunt and me. There was something about me having to put on hiking boots because we were going hiking. Something about islands and boating around them and hiking over them. Swimming.

DS: Context/Setting

I was having a baby. I was going to name her Lilith Serendipity Ann, but someone reminded me that we had a friend that named their child Serendipity. So I looked at Chris and he said I thought her middle name was going to be Margaret(both our mothers names) and then I remembered. Ann is my aunts name (In real life, this is my plan for if I have a girl some day)

DS: Context/Ego-Role

Then I was at some sort of gathering. Like a mall maybe. I think I was in some sort of play. There were dancers. I kept walkin past and desperately wanting to join them...kinda like Billy Elliot...But I had to go back to the play. We were painting something on the set.

DS: Context/Setting & Thought/Ego

Then I remember this big epic scen, it was kinda like a trailor for a movie. "A warrior stands on the balance between good and evil. His destiny to fight on which side can control him." It was about a warior who was neutral and would be controlled by whoever did something to get control of him...find some ancient control device. But for the moment he had forgotten who he was because nobody had found the device so he was working for a theif sorta guy to help his steak stuff.



Long...just trying to get out as much detail as I can.

Three hours sleep, forgotten dreams on 5/7.

5/8 12AM-10AM

My boyfriend and I were traveling to Islesboro. It was areally short boat ride. Once there we had a rented car and were trying to find this gallery. But I kept directing us poorly. We ended up driving into water. S we got out and climbed up a hill away from the car to call for help. For some reason chris went back to the car but ended up sliding down the hill and getting hurt.

DS: Context/Setting

Then I was navigating a river with lots of rapids with some guy friends, nobody I really know. But we had no boat. Kinda lke we were floating over the river but still were worried about the rapids. Then we had to chose a path. Left or right. The right was less white water but had lots of fallen branches sticking out of it and the right was full of whie water. I chose the left. Before we continued the men and I had a group hug. We were being very tender to each other. There were three men. Two of them and I were hugging and kissing as if we thoguht we were going to die soon, it was very emotional. But one of them was standing apart. He came up to me as we were finishing and ready to continue the trip and gave me his phone number, as if he was really shy and had a crush on me even though apparently we were already close friends.

DS: Context/Setting

Then I dreamt I was living in this comunity on an island...I think it was back to Islesboro(this is and island near where I live by the way) It was a very tight nit community. We all had to fight over access to limited computer time and internet access. There was something about asking each other questions, the other island people, on the internet. The more questions youasked the more money you got but if you didn't answer other peoples questions you lost money. The last scene I rmember is that the "prince" of the island had won lots of money for his questions so I went into his room while he was sleeping and dumped a bag of gold on his bed. He con tinued to sleep and the towns children began to take the gold off of his bed.

DS: Context/Setting-Place

That's it. I notice and Island pattern happening here, also something with small tight knit communities. Wonder what that's all about. No man is an island sort of thing? Hmm.

Well I've come to the conclusion that if I try to MAKE myself have a specific dream, I completely forget my dreams in the morning and think only about the dream I tried to make myself have. So I give up on that front. I have given in. So last night I cleared my head and prepared for the dreams my subconcious wanted to give me.

5/11
11PM-8AM Non-Lucid
I dreamt I had followed some friends, boys, to their house. For some reason I wasn't supposed to be there. They were playing video games and their parents came home. I had to leave before they saw me. So I floated to the ceiling, my back against it, hoping I could leave the house without them seeing me. I think I had a partial lucid moment and said, hey I can't fly! So then I fell to the ground. The parents saw me and I told them i was a neighbor looking for my cat. A little black one I said. They hadn't seen it so I left. In the street outside I tried to fly again...running and trying to take off. It was really hard.

DS: Action/Ego

Then I was in my house. It was sleeting out and I was trying to close this window. It would not close. I got my boyfriend to deal with it then I went into the kitchen and ate some cold cuts. While he was fixing the window I went outside and it was a beautiful sunny day, no sleet. I went to a paddock and found a pretty white horse. I put a bridle and a hlater on it, no saddle, and began to ride. I forgot to close the paddock and all the horses got out but I continued to ride. By the end of the ride I had my legs around the horses neck. Then I dismounted over it's head when it bent down. When I got off the horses colt ran up to me and jumped on me like a puppy would. A friend of mine's mother came up to me and I appologized for letting the horses out. She said don't worry they are all going back by themselves.

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FIN

[size=24]LUCID
5/12 1AM-2AM Mini-Lucid

I had a really short erotic lucid last night. I was in some room, people milling about. There was a group of men walking by. I yelled at one of them, he was asian. "You, come here." And he obeyed. As he was walking over I made him naked, then changed my mind and gave him pants. He stood up against a wall and we kissed. It was awful! He basically put his lips to mine and shook his head about. Yuck. Anyhow, then he slid down the wall and motioned for me to follow. I did and we did it on the floor. I woke up as I was...well...you get the picture.

I lost all other dreams. =(

DS: Context/Setting-Place
FIN

5/13 12AM-6AM

Strange dreams last night. I dreamt I was at this place, it was kinda like you would picture an opium den. People were inhaling steam. But it was a lucid dreaming den, so I was told. I kept having this feeling that I awoke with that it is really important for me to learn how to lucid dream. I also woke up feeling that I would need it some day, like I'll be in a coma or something. Strange. So anyhow, we induced lucid dreaming(but I wasn't really lucid) and I saw a battle, between dogs and demons.

DS: Context/Setting-Place

There was another dream where I was at a writers group meeting, but I wasn't paying attention. I kept reading this magazine instead.

DS: Action/Ego

I wish I caught more of this...damn

5/15
Non-Lucid
I dreamt I was In this place where there were a bunch of people that could do incredibe things, aerobic stuff, flips and they were all gathered waiting for something. Then I was wonadreing around and decided to leave. I got into a small car and I was so happy to be on the road. I was thinking about driving to Florida and how I was going to het an interview to work at Disney. Where was I going to live. Then I realized the music I had was boring. I was trying to change it and I kept having to slow the car down. ThenI was driving on this bridge with a ramp. Someone quoted some poem that I really liked, I forgot the line though. Then I was in a classroom. We were playing A jeopardy.wheel of fortune mix game. The board was like the real one from the set. So I was sitting next to this girl who was apparently my girlfriend. While we were playing ther was this woman looking at her longingly and some guy looking at the woman trying to beat her in the game being very competitiive. My girlfriend was about to win,but I went up to the board to put up the letters. I had a baby in my arms and tried to get the baby to touch the board to change the letters. When I went back to my girlfriend she hugged me and said she loved me but I said I love you too but I think you love someone else and I think she loves you too. The woman at the other table. We went over there and she was mad at me for telling her. She forced me onto the internet on her computer, I was talking to the person I really loved apparently on the screen. They could see me but I couldn't see them, then I was yelling at the person on the screen and finally I just got endless popups!

DS: Context/Situation-Place & Action/Ego
There was another one, it might come back to me.

5/16Non Lucid

I dreamt somehing about rollerscating with pink rollerskates. I was at am audition for a play. Rupert was there. I was acting all stupid, telling my friends to lie aboutmy age. Then we were in a cafeteria with round tables. I think ppl were ignoring me. I was rollerskateing and kissed some girl. She had looked like she wanted me to. Then she ran away telling all her friends that I had kissed her and they were all like...ewww! This dream is a little jumpy

DS: Context/Situation-Place & Action/Ego

I'm getting better at dream recall, I didn't even try last night and I woke up remembering a big chunk of what I dreamt.

So I was living in some sort of small apartment. It was built of cement around a big circular aquarium. It had a cement porch and beyond that was the wall of the tank. Friends of mine came over H&F and I was showing them. Told them there was a whale in there. But it turned out the tank was dry. There was a small cat on the porch. I said he was a stray. Something about a ladder.

DS: Context/Setting-Place

Then I was a little girl living in a trailor. I came out of the trailor and was speaking to a squiril in it's language. There was a play going on or something. I went to visit a friend, a young black kid, and we went into his sisters room to steal stuff to sell it and get money. We were going to sell this face cream she had that looked like it was pearls. Then the sister came in and we hid. She got really mad.

DS: Context/Setting-Place-Time & Form/Ego

reoccurance of small cat and a play. Ladders are usually important, if i rememebr correctly from my reading. Like Jacobs Ladder. Stairway to heaven.

I remember something about being at a long table and a girl I was in grade school with called me three mean names. I said "I'm not "that" or "that" but I am a hippy. But one thing I deffintatly am not is confrontational so please leave me alone."

DS: Context/Character-Place-Situation

I waited to long to post this and lost my dreams! Wah.

I was in a car and a big mac truc was trying to turn and took the top of the car off. Then I was holding these colored contacts and talking about how some of the colors were opaque and i couldn't wear them. Then I was at a party. (old boyfriend)M was there and I put my hand on his leg and he looked at me like he was disgusted and walked away. I slapped his butt as he walked away. Then I was feeling rejected and was sitting outside. Someone came up behind me and hugged me. I thought it was C, I snuggled into him then turned around and it was A. I was angry and disgusted. I yelled at him and called him a fucking drunk.

DS: Context/Character-Place

Then I was in this house and I was "wanking" an invisible member. Apparently I thought I was a man. There was some guy watching, objectively. Then someone was assessing the house and it's contents. He said the upstairs was a lot of money. I thought maybe it was the violins. I took one out and tried to play. I did a great job even thought the bow strings were disintegrating and the bridge was missing. They guy said it would only cost 15 to 20 to fix it. Then I was telling this girl about the childs violin and to look at the fabric inside. I played again and I was really good!

DS: Action/Ego & Context/Ego & Form/Ego

FIN

I was at a short of party. I was eating meat. I didn't realize it untill after the first bite. Then I was angry about something and said so what! BJ and I were arguing about chri, He was saying he wanted the nice Chris to come to the wedding. And we told chris he's either the beligerent chris or the nice, thoughtful chris. He didn't beleive us. I told him that I didn't like either of them.

Then I was at some house and the part was ther. I was planting money all over the house for ppl to find. But then everyine left except for me and a couple girls. We slept together on a big bed. One of them was alissa milano=P One girl left and AM tried to seduce me! Then she left and the other girl came back and I asked her if she wanted to split the money. She said I had already asked her that.

Then I was on the ground behind a big hill. Something about black belt karate ppl on the hill.

Then I was with a black man. He was bleeding and he driped on my cheek. He tried to wipe it off but it got in my eye. Apparently he had aids so I got it too. It played aout a little like I was Tom Hanks in Philadelphia.

DS: Context/Setting-Place-Situation & Action/Character

Last night I woke up a few times about 20 min into sleep with some short but vivid dreams.

I was at my own graduation ceremony. But I was really upset because I was not supposed to be graduating. I only complete one and hlaf years I was yelling. I didn't think it was fair that I had to sit there if I wasn't even going to get my degree. Then all of a sudden I was in church. Chirs was standing talking to some people with our eldest daughter who I guess was around 6 and my son around 4 and I had my baby girl in her car seat next to me. I hd to breast feed but I was a little nervous to do so in church. She was so small. She must have only been a week old.. Then someone gave me a peice of paper with some writing on it. I tried really hard to read it. I remember something that resembled a Z. I tried really hard to read and got frustrated. I started shaking, in dream and out and yelled fuck you! Then I woke up. My boyfriend told me I had been shaking, I didn't say FU out loud thought=P So th note made me Lcid. I always think "I need to remember this, it might be important when I wake up" But then I try to hard to read it and wake myself up. Next time I need to just take it as trigger and justget lucid from it.

DS: Context/Situation-Place (Aside from the church part, this dream gave me a great feeling, I've always wanted a big family.)

I gave birth to a baby boy. It was over really quick and non painful, I didn;t even know I was pregnant. Then I was walking towards this conference. I was on a dirt road in the woods. I got to the conference and we were all waiting around. A. was hanging around me again. I was anoyed with him. Then inside I was getting my son from someone but I couldn't remember his name. This really upset me.

DS: Context/Situation-Place & Form/Ego & Action/Ego

I was in a shower, an open one. A man came in and handed me his grey hoodie. He was rather handsome, kind of militant with cropped hair and well built. The sweatshirt had some writing on it. It was orange I think. The he left. I was getting dressed but did not put on the sweatshirt. My cooworker and Boss were inspecting my apartment and I was nervous. They were saying something about concentrated orange juice, as if it had been spilt on the floor or something. I was trying to escape the apartment but before I could I wanted to give the sweatshirt back to the man. I really wanted to keep it but I felt I should give it back. He was waiting outside my front door. When I handed it too him he looked at me as if he had no idea why I was giving it to him. Then he seemed to figure it out and handed it to another man next to him, who was his twin, who had been the one to give me the sweatshirt. Then I went back in and my cooworker wasn;t inspecting my apartment, she was telling me to rest. that I was sick. She set me up with binocculars and I was watching people on this jutted rock formation in the middle of some water. I was wondering how they had gotten there.

Then i left and went into town? or School? It was like this rally but people were sitting. Some were learning how to do this hand signal that meant revolution. My boyfriend was sitting in another group with his friends.

Then I was walking down a street with my cooworker and we saw a building that was smoldering. I said it used to be an ice cream shop.

DS: Thought/Ego & Context/Setting-Place
Fin

6/4 Non-Lucid

I was sort of in this Titanic like situation, as far as romance goes, not the sinking ship. He was teaching me to fly or something, I don't remember much of that part. But then he was talking about finding me to his friends (this was a guy I don't recognize). He was telling ppl that we were meant to be together and if he found me he would marry me. Then I received a letter that said that if I sang anything but classical music his mother wouldn't let me marry him. I was at an interview and that's when we saw each other. I had to finish out the interview but then we got to see each other. The meeting however was anticlimactic. The sparks weren't there.

Then I was with this group of little girls around10ish. One of them turned out to be me younger. She was asking me questions about my life. I told her I was an opera singer and she was in awe. She asked me if I had auditioned for operas and I told her yes. She was so happy.

Then there was something about finding the absolute center of this couryard type area. I had to stand there. There was an circular indentation in the ground that had no grass on it, like there had been a potted plant there at one point.

Fin

6/5 Non-Lucid

I was in a hotel. Kelly was there. Then I was in a shower. Chris was there. I can't remember much. I think Robbin Williams gave me flowers. But I told him on the phone that the flowers are beautiful but so are the hundreds of others men gave me. The room was covered in fowers. My Dad called me. I had given and interview and I had mentioned that my dad had parkinsons. I instantly regretted it, the reporter put it in the article. My dad as mad that now everyone knew. He said he was proud of my sucess but ashamed that I would use his isease to get me more publicity.

I was in a supermarket. I got halfway done shopping and then decided to leave my cart in the isle and go. So I did. Out in the parking lot some girl tried to recruit me into the military. I said look at me, do yo really think I should be in the military.

Then there was something about me havinf several little boys of various ages. They were very hyper. I had them sleeping in the same room, maybe 5 of them. There were cribs, beds with safetly sides and a couple normal beds. The baby wouldn't go to sleep.

Fin

5/8 Non-Lucid

Alright, night before last I had some dreams about tunnels. I was crawling out of one, like a gopher. Lost all else.

Last night. I was on a vacation. We were in ireland and I was explaing about the cliffs of Moher. I can't remember what I said about them though. The we were in this house. A bunch of us lived there. I was holding my baby. She was sleepy. Then I was holding a cat. I told someone I was holding thew cat as practice for when the baby got older and was squirmy. She told me my baby was already squirmy and I didn't need practice.

The we were with this girl who kept stealing my shoes. I was mad because I thought we were friends. I said "look go steal from Good will. I don't care. But don't steal from your friends." I tried to get my shoes back but I went into her backpack and she had doubles of them. The ones I took out were too small for me. Something about riding bikes too. Like trying to pick one out. A mountain bike.

Fin

Another baby dream. Sheesh

6/9 Lucid!

Why is it that my lucid dreams are always about sex?

So I was in the middle of a non lucid, I don't remember it. I just remember waking up within the dream and I was with some guy on top of me. So I said to myself that I was going to really "feel" this and compare it to real life touch. So I was touching his back and arms and chest and kissing him. The kissing was the part that didn't quite feel the same. It felt a little numb.

Then I just had fun and changed him into different guys durring the act,

6/16 Non Lucid
My dream was a bit of a take off on my assaignment for writers group this week.

I was at a dump. I was a flamboyantly gay young man. I was king of the dump. I could talk to all the scavenger animals.

Then I was in this house with a bunch of ppl. I had put a bunch of fish into a tank and people kept stealing the fish. But when I saw those ppl I told them it was ok. A boy had some of my fish in a mineral oil bottle. Then I over fed the fish but they were ok. They kept jumping out, swimming around the tank then getting back in. Then we went into the basement. and the boy who lived there was peaking in through a window and saw us. Then I went to go upstairs but I was so fat that the walls squeezed my hips on the way up.

Fin

6/30 Non Lucid

Some more baby dreams. Damnit.

I was in this maternity store and some woman was looking at clothes and started talking to me. She asked me if Iwas pregnant and I said that we were trying. Then she asked if I got maternity leave to "try". I was looking at a yellow sundress.

Then I was out ith chris. We were taking baby to the park. Something about a see saw and a german shepherd. Then we were riding these watercraft things. We passed a toll booth and were supposed to throw money in but I had no change and we had to stop so I could dig out my change. Then I threw it in but the toll guy threw a dime back at me and I caught it Then we went over to an island. We were at the top of a little mountain and coming down. I tried to get baby to look at the big boats in the harbor but she wouldn't look, she was too tired. Chris was tired too. He was sitting on a bench, dozing in the sun. My sleepy babies.

These were pleasant dreams. I like it when my man isn't an asshole in my dreams.

7/2 NL

I dreamt I got rushed to the hospital. I was pregnant and didn't know it. I delivered and they wouldn't give me my baby. I wasn't lactating so I couldn't feed her. Finally I ran outside and stole bacon from counter and hid behind a bush and ate it (I"m a vegetarian) I kept hiding from cars. Then I went back and they gave me my baby. Heather came and picked me up with her mom. I couldn't do anything right with the baby. I didn't have any stuff for the baby. In the car I wanted to take her out of the chair and hold her but Heathers mom yelled at me. They gave me a carrier.