Thread: Official Record Of Siav's Dream Piracy

August 20, 2005-

Tried HILD (The hargarts one) but to no avail. Lost a lot of sleep, and when I did get to sleep, I woke up remembering none of my dreams.

August 21, 2005-

Again, no dream recall, and lost a lot of sleep. I ended up lying in my bed from 12 (when I went to bed) to about 4 in the morning. My internal clock was too messed up to try anything.

August 22, 2005-

Wow, last night I remembered three dreams. Just to make note, I had two pills called Cataplex B, which contain several different B vitamins, including B6. I also took a pill with Valerian Root, which launched me into a deeeeep sleep. I think they really helped in my dream recall...If only I had LDed.

1st Dream-
I basically remember form a certain point on, but remember stuff beforehand. I knew I was in a submarine that had crashed, and we were in a huge lake/swamp area. The water was incredibly deep for a lake, but for some reason the water was like Carribean water. I could see all the way to the bottom. So I waded out to the middle, where several members of the sub crew were drifting, watching some scuba divers check the wreckage. I went underwater and looked around, and saw how deep it was, and it was pretty amazing. I remember that sight was pretty realisitc. Then I resurfaced and got on land on the other shore. The dream skipped, as they usually do, and I was somewhere else. Still a kinda swamp/lake area, but this one had really tall mushrooms everywhere. For some reason, I found myself thinking about crocodiles, and all the sudden a man came running out and was yelling at us to "Shoot the crocodiles, they are eating all the fish!" So I grabbed a gun and the dream turned into a first person shooter, kinda like a gallery arcade game or something. The crocodiles would jump up on at a time, and I had to shoot them in the head for them to die. And then they exploded. So anyways, I missed quite a few times, and some people got quite mad and took my gun away. This next part was odd, since I just remember snippets. All the sudden, the Scooby Doo gang (Of which I have no idea why they were there...don't even watch that show) showed up and was telling us to watch out, or something like that. I just remember watching the dog running through the mushrooms yelling for us to get them, or something. I think the croc's were chasing him. Anyways, that's the end of that dream.

2nd Dream-
This one was even stranger than the first, since I don't remember much. It began with us driving in a car to Chicago. From where it started, we were already almost in Chicago, but were trying to get through the front gate, which was on top of a wierd, ginormous hill. it was shaped like this.
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And after each flat part, the uphill got steeper and stepper, until at the very end it was practically vertical before the gate. So our little car, think it was a Subaru, one of our old cars, couldn't make it up the final stretch, and started rolling down. We got out of the car and walked up the sidewalk to get to the gate, and went in. Apparently we abandoned the car. Anyways, Chicago, instead of a city, was a huge, fancy hotel. The place where we checked in was right in front of the gate, and the guy was a snob. He wouldn't let us do anything till each of us paid our way. Our parents couldn't pay the way for us, we had to use our own money. So I pulled out my lucky gold coin, and gave it up. I remember feeling distinctly sad. We ended up getting a huge room that had at least 15 beds, each of them a bunk that was embedded into the wall. If you were to lay down in it correctly, your head would be behind the wall. Anyways, the room he gave us for some reason was already occupied, by a group of more than 30 girls . They didn't even fit into this huge room, and had a few lay'ing on the floor. For some reason, we asked them to leave, because we needed a room. Talk about selfish (That's not how we are in real life....) and I remember feeling kind of in a stupor, because we were acting like we needed more room then they did. They had 30, we had 4. Yeah, makes sense. So on their way out, they asked us if we wanted to start dancing. We just started busting a move right there in the lobby, which was odd, to say the least. Then, the dream ended.

3rd Dream-
This dream was just insane, I really have no idea how it connected, it just kept skipping. I actually didn't remember it when I woke up, like I did the others. It just randomly popped into my head an hour after I woke up, which was odd. It was the last dream I had that night. Anyways, we went to K-mart, and for some reason were just staying there, practically making it our home. I would just get on my Heelies (Shoes with wheels on the heels) shoes I haven't worn for years, and roll around. It was pretty fun. Anyways, somehow the K-Mart turned into my club, and people would come, and I was the boss. The area expanded, and there was an auditorium and a kids room. The next part was just talking to people, I don't remember what was exchanged....But anyways, the boss of the kid's area was needed. It was a young woman, and I had to go fetch her. When I got into the kids room, all these little kids were running around in circles, then randomly they all layed down, and the game the woman announced over the loudspeaker was something like "Try to find your belly". I know...odd. So I got the woman, and brought her back. Anyways, I remember talking to a certain guy, don't remember who though. I do remember that after a minute, whenever we would talk, it would switch, so our dialogue was a post in the Gaia forums. That was when I woke up.

Apparently the Cataplex Complex B, or the Valerian Root, or both in conjunction, isnce that is what I took, work really well. I remembered three, long, vivid dreams. Which has nevvver happened.

August 23rd, 2005-

I took Cataplex B again, but not Valerian root. I really think Valerian Root helped a lot in dream recall. Anyways, so the first dream was a little shaky in my memory. I was in a battle fort, medieval style, with an army that I led, fending off an entire evil army which consisted of humans and red goblins. I don't remember much of that scene, but it skipped, and I was in a giant indoor maze, where there was lava, and traps, and enemies to fight, etc. I think it was still the same time period and fight, and we were trying to get somewhere, yet I don't know where. Trevor and a girl, I don't remember her name, were there, and we were all fighting together. I remember I had a sword, and it was unamed and just a regular kind of samurai sword, but Trevor had a sword called Frostmourne, and it was doing all kinds of massive damage. It had ice come out of it whenever it hit, and did some pretty awesome stuff. I remember asking for him to trade me, since I was a better sword master, but he refused. So the dream skips again, and I am in my kitchen. The layout is such that while I am in my dining room/kitchen, there are like four stairs going down into the living room, and there is the door for the garage. I was sitting at the kitchen, and the evil armies found us, along with my arch-enemy. I began fighting, and I was losing terribly, when suddenly I got Frostmourne. I was using double blades, and started kicking butt. I was just wasting on everyone. The dream for s little bit turned into a kind of role-playing game style of fighting, where it was turnbased. I would use magic and just waste on these guys, when suddenly something happened and my eyes had a really hard time opening. It was just like I was extremely tired, and I think I came really close to waking up at that point. I lost Frostmourne, and was just swinging about wildly and trying to escape these guys, who were trying to kill me. At this point, I think I became semi-lucid, because I just told myself that my eyes would open, and they did, and then I grabbed Frostmourne, turned around, and just wasted on them all. I killed my arch nemesis, and destroyed all the goblins. It was pretty awesome.

My next dream was kind of short-lived and was a bit odd. I was at a construction site for some reason, and we were going home. Tyson offered us a ride in his truck, and I looked in the window, and it was my dad, Tyson, and Matt. Matt told us that there would not be one family in the neighborhood that wouldn't accept my dad for something, but I don't remember what. This is cool, because his family and ours haven't had the best of relations for the past while. So we rode home, and I jumped in the bay of the truck and layed down, facing up. It was way cool because for some reason, the truck was upside down, so the asphalt was like 5 inches above my face. Wierd. We all decided we needed a drink, so we parked in some bushes in front of a house, and yelled that we needed some water. The woman in the house opened her window and said ok, but Jordan couldn't have any. He got pissed and asked why, and she said that she knew it was him that stole her bikes and parked them in the church parking lot. He left in a huff, and we just continued on. Alex and I walked to the intersection below and to the right of his house, and on our left we saw a girl and her friend walking the other way. It was the girl from the maze, and she was pretty hot. I called to her, and she motioned that it would be one second. So Alex, and then a little kid named Benji randomly appeared, and I all gathered a bunch of flowers. I remember laughing, because Benji took his sisters basket of flowers she had spent a while picking, and gave them to me. At that point, I woke up.

August 24th, 2005-

Took no B vitamin, and had no dream recall. However, I did wake up quite early to an alarm to go running, so it's possible that's the reason why.

It's been at least a month...I've been having trouble getting up in the middle of the night to write stuff, but I think I am back on track for the next little while. I remember having vivid dreams last night....but I don't remember what they were. Just snapshots of scenes out of the dreams. I dreamt I was riding a bike, possibliy with other people, in my neighborhood above the Loo's, or something like that. I think we were riding away from tanks and the like. The second snapshot was that we were having chemistry class in some kind of undergroud concrete place....I think it was an enclosed parking garage. That's all I really remember. I do remember having a really wierd experience with sleep paralysis though....I suddenly woke up, rather abruptly, in a position facing the doorway on my bed. Just a second later, my mom walked into my room, angry. I had gone to sleep with the light on, and she was coming in to turn it off. She always gets pretty angry about that.....so I just sat there, open-eyed, watching her come in, over my bed, and turning my light off. I tried to sit up and say I was sorry, or something to that effect, but I couldn't move at all. I was completely paralyzed, and completely awake. The wierd things is, as soon as she left, I fell back to sleep realllly quickly, almost as if I was never awake to begin with. Also, I tried HILD several times through the night. I think I actually got the closest I ever have with that technique last night....even though I never actually made it. There was time I was sure I made it..I closed my eyes and felt my body seriously just sink down...past the pillow. Lights flashed really brightly in front of my eyes, and I felt some tingles. But after so often, trying this at least 10 times, I found myself to awake to continue, and calmed down and went back to sleep. I really want to try some of those beats they have online...binarual I think they called it? Tonight I'll try again.

Alrighty. So I've started to really get a hold of relaxation before sleep, but keeping part of your mind awake. Only problem is I get really close, like suddenly my conscious will kick up and I'll realize I'm somewhere else, but it's so vague that it's just like a daydream. Anyways, onto the dream.

Cruise

This dream was one a cruise taht was docked. The look of the cruise was very steam-boat-ish and old fashioned, but huge. I remember being on it, and then getting off the boat and driving our car (which was nice, don't remember what it looked like though) up the hills to this mountainous area, and I felt this premonition that something was going to go very badly. So I wanted to park the car, but I realized my parents might not want it parked there, so I called them, and as I thought, they said no. So I drove back out and parked the car, running across the deck of the now empty ship. The dream skipped here, and I realized my sister was dead. I remember my grief being so incredibly intense it constricted my chest, a feeling so physical that it suddenly made the dream incredibly realistic. I recalled memories of fighting with her, and teasing her to the point of aggrivation, and then her leaving to go somewhere for a while. This was an actual event that happened the day before. I remember calling out that I loved her, and she didn't answer because she was angry. I sat there greiving that I'd been such an idiot and that I hadn't been able to see her again and be a good brother.

Icy

This dream was actually a continuation of the last, but much more detailed and in a completely different place. The world was icy, and the snow was sparkling everywhere, icicles hanging and shining like prisms that were so much more realistic then even real life. I was still grieving about my sister, and wishing she was back more then anything, that I could see her just one last time. Suddenly, she appeared at my side and I almost had a heart attack I was so relieved and happy. Then, the dream skipped and suddenly I was runnign through this same icy forest, and found my mom, dying and leaning against a tree. I panicked, and couldn't breathe, trying to find some way to help her. I tried to pull her towards me, but she was in too much pain. I pulled an icicle down and for some reason something pulled my hand, and it went towards her throat, and I felt like I was trying to heal her or something. I can't remember what I did, but I drew some kind of design in the skin on her neck to save her life, but she suddenly died before I could finish. I sat back and couldn't breathe once again, and suddenly the police ran in and saw my mom with the marks on her neck and my icicle. They assumed I had killed my own mother and tried me in court, sentencing me to life in jail.

Prison

I was then locked in prison, just haning out in a jail cell. Suddenly the police opened the gates, which they didn't do. 10 of them escorted a bald midget guy in, shoving him in an isolated cell. He was very small and I think a kid, and looked deformed. As soon as the police left, everyone ganged up on him to beat him up. He flipped out and beat all of them down easily, without even breaking a sweat. Then everyone started cheering, and he led us out of the jail where we all escaped by stealing a fire truck. To get food, we stole all the food from McDonalds (Wierd.) and stored it in the truck, when suddenly we crashed into the wall and everything spilled. Everyone ran and I tried to collect the food spilled because I was hungry. I called my dad to help, and he was confused where I got all the food because I had no money. Suddenly he figured out I had been in jail and broke out, and got really angry and I ran across the street to hide the food somewhere. I went into the farm field and police started coming with their sirens. I ran into a policeman in the field, eating, and he didn't see me luckily. He left and I put my food down, and then the dream ended.

Geez. I woke up and was surprised I survived that emotional onslaught. Really intense....That's always been one of my worst fears, since my family is so close. Just thinking about losing one is unthinkable, and I would not be able to be the same, or live the same. I've had dreams like that before, but never two in one night and never so realistic. It really hurt even thinking about it later.

Grandpa

This dream started out in a backyard, where we were having some sort of little celebration for my sister's birthday with the extended family. It wasn't a house I recognized, in fact I'd never been there. We were laughing when suddenly my mom tapped me on the shoulder and I turned around, and there was my Grandpa. He died of a heart attack recently, after being up and down with various medical problems. When I turned around and saw him my heart jumped in my throat and I ran and grabbed him, to try and make sure he was real. He was, and he smiled and laughed and did his little signature "Oh oh oh..." and I couldn't describe the feeling of joy to see him again. I just held onto him, never wanting him to go when suddenly he dissapeared. I just sat there, feeling that sinking feeling when suddenly I got a call on my cellphone. It was my grandpa. I talked to him for a little bit, telling him how much I loved and missed him. And then, sobbing, I apologized for not coming to see him the night before he died.* He told me everything was okay and that I shouldn't worry about it at all and that he loved me, and to especially never regret it. He was choked up when he said it and I couldn't stop sobbing. Then his voice faded out and then he was gone. I looked at my watch and saw that it was the exact time that my sister turned 12. For some reason he had only been able to stay those last few minutes. I remember spending some time in the dream just laying there, overjoyed to see him and yet incredibly sad that it had been shortlived.

The thing that was so incredibly about this dream is since my grandpa died, I've been so sad about his death and also incredibly regretful, because the night before he died, my mom asked me if I wanted to come see him with her. I contemplated it, but then declined because I was just feeling lazy and wanted to watch a movie. I rationalized it, thinking I would be able to see him soon. That I would make up for it. That next day at school I got a note from the office to call my parents ASAP. I got a sinking feeling in my stomach, because they wouldn't have done that if it wasn't something of incredible importance. With reluctance in my hands I dialed my moms number. She picked up, sobbing and instantly in my heart I knew what was wrong. When she told me I almost collapsed, feeling a huge despair not only about his death, but about having not gone to see him that night and told him how much I loved him. This dream finally put my heart to rest, and I woke up feeling so happy. I thought it was so cool that I could have an experience like that.

My Night Of 1000 Dreams </span>

Most of the dreams are a tad out of order, becase when I woke up I just had this massive influx of dream memories and had no particular order for them. I&#39;m forgetting them as I write...so hopefully I can get them all down.

Murder Monster- LUCID

The beginning fot his dream is incredibly hazy, but I get th eimpression that my sister and I had been chased by this monster for a very long time. The point my memory kicks in;

MY sister and I stand upstairs, feeling a dark presence and a massive fear beginning to overtake us. I know that if we stay in my room (on the upstairs floor) we would be trapped and killed without a doubt. Grabbing one of my knives I keep stashed by my bed, I grabbed my sisters hand and we snuck quickly downstairs, hoping and hoping the monster wouldn&#39;t be there already. With the knife in hand, I turned the corner and thrust it out, thinking the monster would be there. Something was there, but it was a dead body, leaning up against the wall. It was wearing an orangish outfit, and slowly slumped to the floor. I quickly went to open the front door, and realized my sister wasn&#39;t still holding my hand. Turning, I saw her by the piano bench (not far from the door) holding a revolver. I screamed to her to get outside, and she shook her head and laughed. At this point I remember thinking in a sarcastic way, "She&#39;s being sooo frustrating..this would only be in a dream." Looking back, I realize that I must have subconsciously known it was a dream the whole time. She was convinced that she could stand there and kill it with a gun, but by my gut feeling I knew this was a monster, no ordinary human, and she wouldn&#39;t be able to kill it. Grabbing her by the shoulders, I shoved her out the front door and we quickly ran out into the middle of the street. Feeling incredibly scared, we circled quickly back to back, on the lookout for the monster. I remember my fear built and built, till sudden;y I didn&#39;t care. I felt numb, like if I&#39;m going to die, I&#39;m going to die. I began to question why I was so scared, &#39;Why should I be so scared? What&#39;s causing all this fear? Is this real?" And suddenly, though very...um, gentlly, I realized I was dreaming. That lucid moment however lasted quickly, suddenly starting to fade back into the dream. I realized what was happening and froze, closing my eyes and holding on, repeating to myself over and over that it was a dream, and that I was lucid. Then the realization hit me like a freight train, and everything became perfectly real. I began yelling that I was dreaming, and suddenly my sister gasped and said she realized it was a dream too. I gave her a hug and was so happy, because this was my first real lucid dream. Suddenly the night turned to morning, and I turned towards the house that the monster was in and grew angry for it trying to kill us. I knew I could go destroy it with my newfound awakening, but it scared me taking it on as a human. So I just let my anger flow outward, and I transformed into this half dragon thing. Which was pretty cool. I felt real power...it was just knowing I Was powerful, it was a feeling of fire and strength running through my body. Destroying the front door, I ran up the stairs yelling and saw the thing, which strangely enough looked like a giant ostrich. I grabbed it by it&#39;s long neck and snapped it with two hands. Then everything felt happy again and my sister and I began talking. We were both incredibly happy that we were lucid, and suddenly her best friend showed up at the front door and we both tried convincing her she was lucid. She just shrugged it off however, thinking we were joking around. Feeling hazy, like I was half aware and half not, I clapped my hands together, noticing how real it felt, closed my eyes and yelled "LUCID LEVEL HIGH&#33;" And suddenly I became completely aware, feeling everything as if it were real. My eyesight became incredibly clear, more so then real life, and I looked out the window and noticed the grass was red and yellow rather then green. I remember thinking that was so cool looking, and that I needed to go outside and try flying. We then all went into the kitched, very excited to try and get my mom to realize it was a lucid dream. She shrugged it off as well however, saying that she had stuff to do and she wasn&#39;t in the mood to joke. I was a little sad, but not ready to let it ruin my experience. I quickly grabbed a cracker and smeared it with peanut butter. I stuck it in my mouth and it felt SO real&#33; I could feel the stickiness and the texture. The taste was more bland then reality, but that didn&#39;t matter so much to me. Suddenly the sun began to rise as I was outside, and I felt the dream quickly fade. It went black and then I felt myself in my bed. I suddenly realized I was still dreaming, but the excitement made me snap back to reality.

Alyse - NL

This was a sequence of two dreams I think, as it was incredibly long. There is this girl that I like, and she&#39;s told me she liked me, but we aren&#39;t together. So I&#39;m at lunch one day and another girl came up to me and gave me a hugh. She jokes around and gives me these wierd seductive hugs in reality, like wrapping her leg around me and everything, which can be funny. So she comes up to me and does one, and feeling particularily humorous at that moment, I leaned back onto the lunch table and pulled her on top of me. She laughed and trie dto get up, and I pulled her back down. We both laughed and got up, and suddenly I saw Alyse right in front of us. Incredibly embarassed, I started to pretend fight with my friend as if I hadn&#39;t seen her. Turning around, I smiled and went to give her a hug, and she pulled away, saying something like "This is why I can&#39;t be with you." She started to cry and walked away, and I followed, trying to convince her it was just a joke, and that we&#39;d known each other for a long time and just friends, I would never like her like that. O course she wouldn&#39;t listen. She let me be around her though. She wante dto go to this party, so I drove her there, talking the whole time. I told her I still really liked her and everything, but she still wouldn&#39;t really listen. At the party, she started to be sad, so I pulled her close and said I was really sorry. I told her I really loved her, and leaned down to kiss her, but she leaned down and I just pecked her on the nose. She told me she&#39;d realized I was more like a big brother, that she couldn&#39;t like me like that. Dissapointed, I just hugged her close, resigned to my apparent fate. She said she wanted to leave and go to another party, which was actually her birthday party. In the dream, somehow I think this part came first and I&#39;m just remembering it in the wrong order. In this one she wasn&#39;t angry with me and we both were really starting to like each other. On the way to that party, I took a turn on the dirt road, and remembered thinking how it would suck if it ended in a cliff. Suddenly the road ended in a cliff and I came to stop right at the edge. Feeling relieved, I sat there for a second, and then realized my front left wheel was sliding down. Looking in my mirror, I saw the ground slowly sliding away. I quickly got out of the car, as did the others. Freaking out that my car was going over the edge, I suddenly saw a little girl lifting it up from the front side and pushing it back onto flat ground. Thinking it had bene Alyse for some reason, I hugged her tight and just held onto her, which felt so good. We then continued on to the party. It was at this massive house, with rooms and hallways all over the place. Alyse and I sat down against a wall and just talked. IT got to the poin twhere I was kinda laying on my side and she was sitting up, so her face was higher then mine. At one point were just looking at each other, and I wanted to lean in and kiss her, but I was too low to do it. I got up, hoping another "moment" would come soon, and we both looked and saw this crowd of hundreds of people sitting there watching us, cheering and yelling for us to kiss. Suddenly their attention was diverted and the crowd fell apart, dispersing. After that, Idon&#39;t know what happened, but I went up to some pool they had, and I saw my sister and my dad swimming. My dad was in his clothes. Looking to the right I saw this little tiny house, a green rectangle that stood with a door about as big as I was on a brick foundation. Thinking there was no way anyone could live in that house unless it was underground, which would be really cool. I opened the door and walked in, realiizing it was a big sauna below ground level with little fogless windows and stuff. My whole family came in and we starting, sauna-ing, I guess. That was the end of that dream.

Emo Kids and Me
I remember my group of breakdancers and I were sitting around, and somebody said it would be way fun to go swimming. I agreed wholeheartedly and we found this big empty public pool next to these houses. Immiediatley getting in, I stayed out because I didn&#39;t want my clothes to get wet. Walking down the sidewalk, saw this group of emo kids standing around. Taking off my shirt, some girls giggled. I totally didn&#39;t care, because I&#39;m not of fan of those kids. I don&#39;t have anything against them just because they&#39;re emo, but mose of the ones I&#39;ve met just have been really messed up wierd jerky kids. I then took off my pants to my underwear and began walking up the sidewalk. HEaring thi sinredibly loud screamo music, I turned around and saw the emo kids in a circle, trying to breakdance to it. All of us began laughing, and then just shrugged and jumped in.

Instant Messenger

I was talking to Alyse on Instant Messenger, but the only thing I remember is her telling me she had a crush on Kaleb and I.

P-Town

I had a dream of hanging out in Provo, but that memory quickly dissapated after I woke up.

Immiediatley when I woke up I remembered the fact that in my dream, my sister had become lucid too. I ran to where she was and asked her if she remembered any of her dreams. She said strangely enough, she had remembered a ton of them. I&#39;ve talked to her quite a lot about lucid dreaming, but she has never been interested enough to do anything to get them. But she mentioned that she had become lucid in her dream, which was really cool. We discussed the dream she had been lucid in, and she said that people had been attacking our house, and we had run outside and she had become lucid in the street. In my dream, it had been one monster chasing us inside the house, but the similarites were pretty amazing. <span style="color:#6600CC">Later in her dreams, she mentioned going swimming in a pool. I asked if it had been with dad, and if he had had his clothes on, and she said that everyone she had been swimming with had been wearing clothes. That suddenly made me recall, and I remember seeing a lot of people swimming in their clothes, not just my sister and our dad. We found there had been a lot of commonalities in our dreams, and it was cool because we kept hooking up in our dreams and then going our own ways , and having our own seperate dreams.

Aquired-
Stealthy Mouse Suit
Beanie of Invisibility[/b]

Knives and Mortal Wounds</span>

In this dream, I was down at Derek&#39;s house, where we had to go to church with their family. We went up to his church with me, him, and his friend in the red beast. We got into the parking lot, parked, watched his family go inside, and then Derek&#39;s friend started bugging him and trying to get us to leave because he didn&#39;t want to go. I was against the idea of not going, because it just felt wrong sluffing the entire church meeting just to go home and hang out. They won out however, and we drove back down. Their house was in the same place as the pits, so we were just parking on the corner when his dad drove slowly by in his car, looking for us. We all ducked, but then I really got frustrated with them and told them that we at least needed to go have the sacrament. Derek agreed. We drove back up, and we had the sacrament. I remember Derek and I exclaiming in the car that we loved the sacrament. We got home and were walking through some trees when I overheard Derek and his friend talking about a plan to kill my family. I don&#39;t remember why they were going to..but I do know it was the friends idea. I quickly rushed home and got up to my room, (where in reality I have quite a few weapons stashed around the room) and looked for my big knife. I could only find my silver foldable knife, which was quite a bit smaller. I began to cry out to my family, however right at that moment they came rushing up the stairs with big knives. They were about to attack my sister when I rushed them, powering up subconsciously. ** I parried one blow and struck Derek in the stomach, and then his friend shoved his knife into my stomach. It was so realistic that I really felt it go inside of me, and it hurt terribly. I pushed him back and the knife pulled out. At that moment, I saw the huge knife and grabbed it, now wielding two knives. I somehow knew that I needed o continue this fight for my family to have time to escape, but that I would probably die. I powered up even more and rushed them. I kept them busy while my family got out. I kept them at bay, slashing them a few times, but the entire time I was really just on defense. I got stabbed 8 times in the abdomen, with the blad sinking in completely. I also was stabbed about three times with a smaller knife in the left leg, right above the knee. But I&#39;d won, not lost like it seems like. I felt good because I&#39;d saved my family. In complete pain...and a hurt that went well below the skin, I collapsed on the ground and everything went black.

FA

I woke up and got ready for school, and arriving at school, went up to the far side of the cafeteria with a group of people that had helped defend. Suddenly I remembered my wounds and that I was dying, and I fell to one knee. It hurt so bad. A doctor then came out, looking for the kid with 8 stabs. I cried out and they brought a stretcher over to me. I was so weak they had to carefully lift me up. They brought me into a medical room, where I realized that the doctor was K.C (a plastic surgeon) who I knew from previous experience and who was really cool. But for some reason he and my AP history teacher were the same person. So it was a mix of a really nice cool guy, and a dick. He sprayed an anesthetic over me, and then jabbed a massive needle into my arm and shot me full. While I didn&#39;t feel the pain as much anymore, I still felt incredibly weak. I had to remove my clothes, since there were slashes everywhere. At this point, I realized I had to go to the bathroom icnredibly bad and would have felt really embarassed had I suddenly lost control during surgery. They laughed and called a ten minute lunch break. I ran out of the doctors room (which was still in the school) and went to the bathroom, then went out to lunch. I still felt as if I was dying, and I for some reason was joking around with Sean about it. Then I went and sat next to Kaleb and told him about it, and he was skeptical and told me I wasn&#39;t dying, and that I was being foolish. We both laughed a little and then I stood up and went up by the pizza line. There I saw Derek and his friend, and we exchanged words. However, I don&#39;t remember what we said and if we were still mad at each other. It would make sense that we were, since they murdered me (technically), but I don&#39;t know because I don&#39;t remember the feeling of the conversation. Suddenly the lunch bell rang and I realized that it had been thirty minutes, twenty longer then my time limit. I ran back into the room and they said it was fine, but because I had taken so long it would be a little longer. The dream starts fragmenting here...either because I can&#39;t remember parts or because that&#39;s how the dream was. I remember being at my house for quite a long time, jumping on my tramp and such. I ran through the east fence and the shed was there, not in the place we&#39;d actually put it. Dr. C was there, trying to stop a running weedwhacker with his hands. I remember thinking how cool that was. Then I saw his son, and went over and talked to him, showing him my wounds. As I lifted up my shirt, I realized that the wounds were just big scars that were above the surface of my abs. I remember specifically telling him,

<span style="color:#FF0000">"If this happened in my dream, why do I still have them?"

So I knew that the stabbing part had been a dream, I think it was due to the fact of the FA that I thought I was awake. Then I headed back to Dr. C&#39;s lab, which was now located in Jordan&#39;s old backyard. You headed through the old fence, and right there was a driveway with a car parked east to west, and then where his tramp and stuff had been was a massive grass area with two levels, and he was on the slope that led downwards. I jumped over the car ( a white highlander) and accidentally scraped it with my feet. Apologizing profusely, he laughed and said it was fine. He then said his daughter was getting into breakdancing and asked what power was. I missed the point of the question and told him power was an energy that made you strong. He smiled and laughed a little, and then I realized he meant breakin power. At that point, the dream ended and I woke up in my bed. However, it was so smooth and not abrupt that I thought it was just another scene. I was still in my dream mind when I woke up. I actually started explaining what power was aloud when I realized he wasn&#39;t there and I was actually awake. I lifted up my shirt and ran my hand over my abs, thinking the scars were still there. I was elated to find they weren&#39;t (of course.)

[This is one of the longest dreams I think I&#39;ve had to this point. It seriously felt like an entire day. While it doesn&#39;t look that long, I&#39;ve forgotten a lot I can tell, and many of the above events took much longer then they seem. There was a lot of conversation and walking around. When I woke up, I seriously felt like I&#39;d just finished another day. It was an incredibly wierd feeling. I honestly wonder if I started dreaming right when I fell asleep...I don&#39;t know if that is possible, but it was so incredibly long. I felt exhausted just thinking about it. Something that grabbed my attention is that I couldn&#39;t remember who Derek&#39;s friend was, the one that was initiating all the bad. I knew him, but I can&#39;t remember who it was now that I&#39;ve woken up. Like the last dream, I feel these "shadow figures" carry a great amount of importance with them. I even wonder if it was the same person as my vampire dream two nights ago (still gotta post that up). Also how integrated my conscious and dream mind were at the point of waking up. I&#39;m still freaked out about how wierd I felt when I woke up, and that I was still thinking things were dreamlike. And I know it wasn&#39;t an FA. Creepy. The biggest thing however, is lately this subconscious power I&#39;ve been having. It&#39;s so amazing. I love nightmares now..lately it&#39;s like my subconscious is gaining more power, and in nightmares when a monster attacks and usually you feel weak and unable to do anything, now I attack it back and am able to beat it. It&#39;s like this subconscious power turns on, and I feel power rush through my body. I&#39;ll start marking any appearances of this power in purple.)

Collateral

So this dream was incredibly long, but I&#39;m losing bits of it even as I type.

So I was in some kind of fantasy game, and I knew I was. It was really strange. The Dolphins&#33; Yes&#33; I just remembered another dream..tangent time. So I was staying at some old mans house, and I went into his basemnt, and I discovered this little mini underground lake he had. I went down into it, swimming out into the middle, and suddenly two dolphins came up laughing and poking me. I felt really happy and stroked them, talking to them even though they could not understand me. Then I heard the guy coming and I knew I shouldn&#39;t be in a place like this, so I swam out and got up. Then I realized he wasn&#39;t coming, that it was just out of my imagination, and the two dolphins bolted through the water, following me. I pet them again and they like..hugged me. Don&#39;t ask me how. When we touched, I felt their immense sadness at being trapped and how they wanted to be in the lake just a mile away. Looking around, I decided to help them out. I told them to follow me, and they jumped out and walked on their flippers. It was incredibly realistic. We ran out, and an alarm went off. There was a series of us running through this guys little town, with forestry around and little wood houses. I would tell them to hide, and they would, etc. But right before we got to the waters edge, we were caught and the dolphins were taken back. There was some kind of emphasis on how the man was beign cruel to them, and would take all their eggs and fertilizer and make more dolphins, and keep them all in that small space. I began devising a plan on getting them out again, but I can&#39;t remember if I ended up doing so or not.

Now back to this wierd fantasy dream. So we were in this game, but we were in real life.. I can;t explain it. This concept in my drem quickly disintegrated however, it&#39;s just how it began. My family and I were travelling, and we came upon this massive hotel/entertainment center/really really rich place. Somehow I knew the guy and we swung getting a room there, which like noone could do unless they were incredibly rich. I remember walking through and hearing peopl talk about how they would sell their soul to live in a place like this, and I felt all proud cause I was living here now. There were several parts of my dream of me trying to get my bags up to my room, because the floors were situated all weird. The elevators would only go up one floor, and they you had to traverse across the entire floor level to get to the next elevator. Doing so, you would have to pass through and in the middle of games and activities and shows that people were in the middle of. One part I remember specifically is going through a casino/bingo type place.

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And having to walk through all these people that were a little frustrated with me for doing so. I finally got to my room however, and I remember doign several things with my fam and extended fam. I went fishing off this massive dock like 1000 feet above the water, with massive fishing poles. I did it with C, W, and L. I was showing them how. The entire time, I kept feeling like I was going to slip off and stuff. There was a section of the dock that kept falling apart. I tried to fix it but then I realized that two parts were missing. I tried messing with it, but then just ended up giving up.

Now onto the intense part of my dream. My friends and I were out on my front lawn, and we all had laser pointers and stuff. There were two mean looking kids hanging out across the street, and they were big. For some reason, one of my friends starting shining a laser pointer in one of the kids eyes. He flipped and ran over, chasing the kid. *I felt myself become stronger and faster, and I chased the kid down, tackling him and hititng the knife from his hand. I began beating him, punching and punching. He sat there, and all of the sudden pulled a gun on me. He told me to back up, and suddenly I realized he was really going to kill me. At the last second, everything slowed down. I hit his gun aside, and he fired off a bullet. I punched him once then twisted the gun out of his hand and shoved him down, aiming the gun at this head. What I can&#39;t remember is if I shot him or not. I think I did...but in the back of my mind I thought, (it&#39;s okay, it&#39;s just a dream. It&#39;s not murder) but I still felt really guilty about it. Then the scene skips, and my dad and I are walking down this massive concrete hallway. Suddenly a man comes out and pulls a gun on my dad. I turn around, and it turns into slow motion again. I grab the gun from his hand and without hesitation shoot him in the chest. I was so angry with him for threatening my dad, and I knew he was about to murder him. He looked down at the wound and smiled. Then he started to advance. At that point I emptied the clip into him, which turned out to be eleven shots. He was still smiling, but blood began flowing from his mouth. I knew he was dying, but he just wasn&#39;t doing it fast enough. I told my dad to get out of the way (I had already backed up) but he was too slow, and the man whipped a sword out and got my dad as he was moving away. I could sense that my dad was dying and this immense grief and horror flowed over me. Then the guy began coming after me. He wasn&#39;t dying anymore&#33; I watched him step in front of my dying dad, and he pulled out these massive spiked balls on chains. He was going to take my dads head off. Anger sparked inside of me, and my dad dissapeared. I had gotten him to safety&#33; Not caring, the guy started swinging them above his head and I began running. I had gotten about 30 feet, and I looked back. He threw them, and teh chain arched, spanning the entire distance, and I jumped forward at the last second. It nailed my foot, and I could not feel it anymore. Crying out in panic, I limped outside the doors and onto the concrete. It was a hteol-like scene, where there are vans and cars parked outside in a line and people getting in and getting out with bags. I saw a retirement home bus, and I tried to get in, but the man came out through the door and saw me in the window. He began chasing me around the bus, and finally I broke out of the circle and ran. He, another man, and a woman began chasing me. I knew they had guns, which is why I couldn&#39;t face them. I made it into this building...and the architecture was really cool. I took a turn around a corner, traveled three doors down, and went inside quickly and quietly. There was this ladder, small and tight, and I quickly descended down this narrow hall. There was this wierd white arch thing with a green glowing jewel, and it was only big enough for me to get on my stomach and wiggle through. I came into this room, and their were ladders everywhere like the one I had just seen. They descended up these massive inflatable balls. I spotted the door I would go through, and as I was climbing, I heard my chasers trying to get through the arch. Panicking, I got up top of the first ladder and squeezed myself in between two balls. I saw a mexican cleaner down below, and told him that he had to pretend like he hadn&#39;t seen anyone and noone was here besides him. He looked skeptical, but agreed. The three people came in, and looked around, asking the mexican cleaner where I&#39;d gone. They looked confused when he said that noone had come through. They began talking, and I shifted further in between the two balls. Then the guy spotted me, one of the accomplices of the main murderer. He told me to come out, and I did. Notice that I was higher then them. The man smiled and told the woman to shoot me. Time slowed again and I knew this was my chance. I jumped from the ball and smashed the ladies face into the ground with my foot, turned and kicked the gun out of the mans hand, then quicked him incredibly hard into the wall. Not a shot was fired. I grabbed the gun and went behind a corner (the one that was right in front of the arch) and got ready to shoot my main chaser. I peeked around and saw the woman get up, her face all smashed in. The guy laughed and told me that she had a gun with still one shot. Swearing under my breath (I thought I had the only gun), I realized it could be all over. Time then slowed AGAIN, and as she came around the corner with the gun, I hit the hand with the gun, and as she slowly began to turn, I saw the main chaser guy (who was now sitting on top of one of the big balls) began to bring HIS gun up. I grabbed the woman as she fell, knowing the trigger was pressed in on the gun and a shot was about to be fired, and pointed her gun at the main chaser. He ducked and the shot missed. Then I ran forward, and jumpe dup and hit him in the crotch and then whacked him across the face a couple of times. Bringing the gun up, he sighed and said "I was never bound to win." Then I shot him and it was over. Suddenly I was walking out of a theater with Jessica and we were talking about the movie (what I had just done). It was supposed to be the new James Bond movie (which I thought was named Collateral int he dream) but we were saying how it couldn&#39;t be cause there was never a part where he got tortured by something wacking his crotch like we had heard about. I said it was like Collateral, except with Jeremy and Monkee. She nodded, and the dream was over.

[Woo&#33; That was looong. I love epics, they make me feel so content in the morning. I had to do this up quick, so I&#39;ll edit it up and everything when I get back. Thought it would be cool to note that I had several times within the dream where I would remember other dreams I&#39;ve had in the past, and I could remember past parts of the dream I was in at the moment. All within the dream. I went to bed at 1, and had no real food before I slept. Peace.]

Last night I know I had a long dream but all I remember is part of it me being on a date with one of those taller twin girls. There was a lot of innuendo involved haha...I think we spent some time at a palyplace at like mcdonalds or something.

JUNE 15th-16th, 2008

FOODS EATEN:
Four Tablespoons Peanut Butter
Two Teaspoons of Lemon Juice
One Banana
BEDTIME: 2:30
MUSIC LISTENED TO: Y, Rockstar by R. Kelly
TECHNIQUES: N

I had a dream we were in this meeting room with a bunch of people, primarily girls with a couple of guys. There was free candy and stuff and I kept trying to get more. The girls didn’t speak English and so I started trying to converse with them in German, saying things like where are you from and what is your name, how old are you etc. They laughed at my inability o speak it well, but then I told them that I hadn’t spoken it since 7th-9th grade. Jess was sitting right next to me and told me I was really good at german contrary to what they said. We were all sitting outside the big conference room while a bunch of kids were inside. I saw that they were being given free soda so I came in as they were all leaving and asked for some. Austin was coming out (he was a lot taller and looked different but I knew it was him) and shook his head disapprovingly at me.
• Derek K. was lying on the floor and there were three or four cute girls lying around him. I joked about it, saying “Oh yeah Derek of course all the cute girls come and lay around you!"
• I was driving home from Grandmas house and we were around the university mall area when I got a text from Kelsey, saying something like “So I guess I’m not invited now...bummer dirt museum! Well one day we will have to go with all the couples and make it a Couple Nation.” There was also something about Summer in the text.
• Part of the dream I was in a swamp place, which was the whole area by walmart.


When I woke up at first I felt like I remembered nothing, but I pushed and suddenly stuff came flooding back. It wasn’t as vivid as it used to be, and it was a lot more difficult remembering things. I wasn’t able to thread it like I used to either. I felt like there was a little mental wall that was preventing me from accessing my dreams, but I’m sure with a couple nights I will be able to break it down. These dreams were pretty vivid in comparison to other dreams; they were more on the scale of stories rather then random images. Who knows if it was the peanut butter that did it, or just my excitement of jumping back into lucid dreaming? Tonight I’ll take some valerian root, and hopefully I will be really exhausted seeing as how I’ll be swimming all day today, which should aid in my dream quality.

DATE: June 16th-17th, 2008

FOODS EATEN: Wendy’s Vanilla Shake, JBC, Hook
BEDTIME: 2:30
MUSIC LISTENED TO: N
TECHNIQUES: Focus Practice

As I was lying in bed before I went to sleep, I decided to try the focus practice that I had read about on the DreamViews forums. At first it was easy, I felt the air flowing in and out of my nostrils and pictured the air like a waterfall. Quickly my inner dialogue popped up, and it was really hard to blank it out. I found that the reason I would get distracted is because I thought I was focusing on my breathing, when in fact I wasn’t completely focused. Once I refocused, the distractions disappeared. For about 10 minutes it was just a constant battle of distracting and then refocusing. The distractions began getting more intense and I went through whole scenes/half dreams before I realized what was happening and I refocused. I can definitely see potential for WILDing after practicing this and getting better.

• I was in a mansion at some point, for a party I think.
• I was out in a mountainous, desert area.
Then we were talking about how a child was killed by a tornado somewhere, I said, “Good thing tornadoes can’t happen in Utah!” When suddenly in the distance I felt in my heart that a tornado was coming. It was strange because the tornado was black, and I could distinctly see it. It was small and thin, but powerful. We all ran, I recall being with a group of three people, one girl and one guy. We were in a city that was sloped, kind of like on the side of mountain. As we looked down we saw the city just getting torn up by this tornado. We could feel the wind pulling us from even that far away. We kept running but the tornado came faster. As I felt the pull get really strong, the girl and I hid behind a billboard. Suddenly this girl, that I inherently knew I liked, came out of this ramp area to our side. When we asked her where she’d been, she said she’d been busy holding hands. I felt a pang of jealousy, but it was quickly replaced by happiness of her just being there. The girl was about my height with dark hair, and I am positive it was her. She has been present in many of my dreams, and every time I see her I feel this love and comfort that I have never felt, and upon waking I long to feel it again. A strange occurrence however is when I wake up; I remember everything about her but her face. Every single time she has been present this has happened. It bothers me so much. As the tornado drew closer, I battled against its pull with all my might. Suddenly the tornado stopped, and there was this strange bird hopping around in the dirt. I knew it was the cause of the tornado, and I begged it to not make another tornado. It looked at me, as if it understood everything I said, and hopped away.

This dream, after writing it down, now holds a lot of significance to me. Two very strong dream presences were there, the girl and a tornado. Tornadoes are present in my dreams often, and almost every time a tornado has been present the dreams have been incredibly vivid and intense. To note, a very personal experience, when I was younger, I had a dream where I was scared out of my mind, because two swirling, fiery tornadoes were destroying everything around me. I was so scared that I would be killed, but also scared because I was alone and my family as nowhere to be found. Though I was not lucid, I willed with all my might that I could be with my family, and suddenly I was transported up into the clouds looking down on the scene of destruction. Upon the clouds were all my extended family, and I felt an extraordinary feeling of comfort. We watched the two swirling fire tornadoes destroy everything below us. I woke up and went straight into my mother’s room, telling her my dream, because it had bothered me so much. I then went to school. That day was September 11th. Who knows if it was extreme coincidence or not, but I find myself these days believing in coincidence less and less. I feel the tornado holds extreme significance to my subconscious, and I am hoping to become lucid and talk to the little bird that had caused the tornado, because I feel like it will be able to explain what exactly it means.