reacurring dreams of flying and falling at increased rates , having sexual inuendo present in my dreams even when i was five always usually embarassing and irreverent and things that wouldnt be called the standard or even normal for a child to mention, so i didnt . reacurring dreams of being chased, ghostly voices and pain infliction caused by myself. when i was seven i killed myself and ive realized that that person is actually dead. the unbalance in that caused a certain downward spiral in my own life. until one day i realized that person is just a mere illusion. i am still here and so are the embodiments i will take on in the future. nothing , will ever be the same including yourself.