Thread: ***Starlite's Dream Journal***

- there was a fire in the north pasture and the fire dep. was here and all they would say is that they were out of water. Every time that i would look to the blaze (hard to explain) it was like looking at a painting of the pasture on fire instead of it being the real thing.

- corey and ashley showed up at my house to go on a... hunting expositon?? and for some reason she poured out the contents of her purse on my bed and she had a soaking wet wash cloth in it. (strange dream) later my dad shows up at my house and decides he wants to go hunting w/ them, but i was afraid to let him b/c he disliked corey, and i was afraid that he would shoot him.

This next dream segment i didnt recall until I walked out on my front porch. i started to think 'i need to watch my step b/c of all the ant beds...hmmm'....then it hit me-
I had dreamed that there were ant beds surrounding my whole house and they had even built them on the porch, high off the ground. i wouldnt leave the house b/c i was afraid of getting attacked by them all so i would just watch them from the front window.

Had some freakin' scary crazy-ass dreams. Had trouble falling to sleep, i prob. laid in bed for close to 4 hrs. before i finally went to sleep. The good news: went WILD as soon as did nod off....
--The first thing i saw was my grandma sitting at her kitchen w/ other family members drinking coffee and she asked me "well what do you want to do first?" (i was so excited about finally acheiving this in the dream) laughing i told her "i need to go find an animal shelter" (this was in my head b/c yesterday i read the lucid task assign. 4 the month, but that was as far as i got). I walked over to her fireplace and on her mantle there was a little glass figurine. inside my head i was telling myself make it move and before the thought finished it was spinning in its place- and it was so beautiful to me- it felt like i stood there 4ever just watching it dance. finally i walked away and started walked downstairs to the basement. *this is where i get scared* I felt this cold blast of air hit my back and i grabbed the rail for balance so i wouldnt fall. I knew it was a ghost and i knew it was angry at me i could smell cigar smoke and (even then i thought that was odd b/c i had been trying to use my sense of smell in dreams) It kept on pushing so hard that i actually started to feel pain. scared the living daylights outta me and i woke myself up.....weird thing is i was only in the dream for 15 minutes, but it really felt like i had been watching the fig. spin/dance for hours.

Calmed myself down enough to go back to sleep after writing all that down.

**Do not read if you are sensitive to rape issues***
Horrible Horrible Horrible dream. I used to have diff. versions of this dream all the time when i was younger and now they are very few and far between.

Im 12 years old. (thats the only constant in this recurr. dream is my age) I was on the floor of a cold damp cellar, on my stomach, i could feel how cold the ground was on my face. I was scared but i didnt fight back. he had a cd of piano music playing it was loud and i knew it was 'moonlight sonata' and i thought hes going to ruin this for me too- ill never be able to hear it again w/ out thinking about this. i could feel his hands all over me and they were colder than the floor -i remember thinking that i really needed to throw up but i couldnt- i felt him straddle my back and he pushed my face harder on to the floor and all i could feel was the pressure of him pushing my head down. i cant recall all of what he said b/c at times it was as if he was speaking in tongues and i couldnt understand him, but one thing im sure of was him saying "i like it better when you fight back" I started to cry at the pain of him raping me *im not going into graphic details* i was screaming out for my mother. my screams though only came out as whispers when i was recalling all this) When he was done i could hear someone laughing- there was a flashlight laying by my hands and i turned it on to find out who else was down there -I knew it wasnt him b/c as soon as he was done he left- w/ the light i saw my mother sitting in the corner still laughing her ass off -it was hysterical laughing- when she stopped she said "that the funniest damn thing i ever saw" i was so angry and hurt. An ambulance showed up and the EMT's gave me morphine and i was trying to tell them what happend but all they would say was that it was all in my head and that i need to go to therapy. i looked down and saw all the blood and said "what about the blood- im hurt and it did happen." they just laughed at me and said again that it was all in my head.
....woke up.
I really hate these dreams b/c they seem so real. I feel pain. I feel emotions. Im NEVER in control and i hate it. In these dreams never once does it occur to me that im dreaming. I feel like im 12 again, I look like my 12 year old self and its just so creepy. i didnt go back to sleep b/c i started to assume i would only have another bad dream.
i think i got a total of 3 hours sleep.

Thurs. night's dream:
-This first part im having trouble recalling b/c when I wrote it down it was like 1am and i was so tired and I only wrote down little tidbits heres what I wrote-
“Notebook at L.’s// drawings of flowers //pages torn out// fake tattoo with song lyrics// against me (the band)// another language currency” …… And this is what I do remember:
was at a lake house resort and was on a hike thru the woods I had hurt my left leg and was limping back. there was this huge step up that I had to take to get to the main house and I couldn’t get up w/ out help. L. came and picked me up off the ground and walked me to the house just outside. There was some kinda music playing over some loud speakers and he asked me to dance. While we were dancing he asked me if we were still fighting. Next: we were swimming in the lake and wasn’t afraid until I felt something strange on my feet and I started to panic and got out of the water.


Fri. nights dream:
Gangsters wanted to kill me but they had to get info. from me first and I was running from them. At one point they had caught me and locked me in a cage and the cage was outside on the bank of an ocean or large lake? This little monster/lizard (just like the one from that TV show ‘surface’) shows up to help me and he starts chewing his way thru the metal cage until theres enough room for me to climb out. I then jump in the water and start swimming for dear life. I make it far enough away that I look back and I can see that they know im gone and they are in there boat searching for me. I make it to this pier and before I get there I notice there is a dead body floating upside down in the water. I start to realize that I should be afraid of the water (?) I make it back to my house (but its not really my house it’s a condo) and im trying to find some clothes so I can leave and find a safe place. The gangsters find my house and I hide as they are ransacking the place I hear one of my friends walk in and say loudly if I was there and she saw my door open. She just wanted to check on me. Before she even thru the front door the gangsters put 2 bullets in her head I was really scared then that I wouldn’t get away.

Sat. nights dream:
I was getting married at an old beautiful mansion -like house. (I cant recall who the groom was) I was looking in the closet for my dress but the only one in there was a red one and I kept saying that I cant get married in a red dress. The shoes that were in there were about 3 sizes to small and I had no veil, but I knew where the dress, shoes and veil could be found. I was alone in the room worrying and I heard a knock on the door when I opened it was Graham (guy from high school) he was wearing a tux and I knew in my head that he was the best man. He asked why I was crying and I told him about not having anything to wear. He had bags w/ him and handed them over to me and said something about he knew where they could be found and then I thought [in the dream] how odd that was b/c I had the same thought. So I put on all the things he brought and I really looked amazing. He came to the room to see if I needed anything else and said how great I looked and started to kiss me. I didn’t stop him and didn’t want to stop him. He backed me up against the wall and pulled my dress up and made some sexy little comments about the thigh high panty hose I was wearing and how it turned him on that I wasn’t wearing any panties. I wrapped my legs around his waist……we had some really amazing sex. (it felt and seemed so real to me) I remember hearing the orchestra downstairs start playing the wedding march and graham looked at me -while he was still inside me- and asked what was I going to do…..strange dream.

Sun night’s dream:
Im driving down a dark road and there are these cuts all over both of my hands. Theres blood everywhere on the steering wheel and all I could feel is the pain. My bright lights are on. And out of nowhere I see this huge deer jump in front of my car and I barely miss hitting him. So for some reason I think: it’s the lights. I need to turn off the lights so the deer wont jump out in front of the car. I turn them off and I cant see a thing its completely pitch black so I stop the car and turn my lights back on and when I do im surrounded by deer and im very afraid b/c its so creepy. I hightail it back home and lock all my doors and windows- I think at this the deer are me. I hear this banging/pounding and it starts to make all my walls vibrate its so loud but it keeps on banging (I then wake up and realize theres someone really knocking at my front door I look at the clock and it 2am. Scared now I grab my 38 out of the top of the closet and look out the window
it’s the local sheriff who I recognize so I open the door and he starts saying how about 50 of our cows had gotten out of the pasture and found their way to the main road. -only in my world do I hear about those things happening …so I tell him to go to my dad’s house one pasture down to let him know…no way im getting out at 2 am and running cows back in) So I go back to sleep and right before the dream state kicks back in it hits me I forgot to write down the dream about the deer im too tired to fully wake up and do it. so its like im dreaming again and im writing it all down but in my head im trying to tell myself that im really not writing it down….I argue w/ myself for a good while about it. --but when I woke this morning I guess the incident w/ the cows was so ingrained that I just remembered all of the dream w/ out having to write it down.

Next:
I was on my way to a women’s tennis match that had some of my friends playing in it when I got there it was already over so I made my way to locker room where they were and Jen was there she told me to come in. they had a movie playing -‘the little mermaid’- They asked me if I would go to dairy queen for them all and get hamburgers and fries. I said I would and the rest of dream centered on me making my to DQ.

monday nights dreams

- I was on vacation in memphis and went to see the duck walk at the peabody and afterwards went to the park and there was this old man sitting w/ me on the park bench and he was telling me this joke. I didnt really get the joke but i laughed anyway.


- I saw "bigfoot" in my backyard and i rushed to get my camera to take a picture. I got all the pics i needed and somehow when i was done i was holding a huge lock of the bigfoots hair in my hand. next i was calling my co-worker mack (pathologist)and asking him if he could run tests on the hair he told me to come in and on my out a woman showed up and stole the hair and my camera claiming she was the bigfoots mother and she didnt want his presence known. she looked normal though. also something about an owl flying right to me and landing on my arm.

tuesday nights dreams

- something about cars being able to fly. i could see a semi truck flying over the road and i passed an airport where i saw a hummer landing.

- I was living in alaska and the town i was in only had about 100 people there. (only recall small fragments) something about being high in mountains. there was an arsonist burning down houses. we had to leave the mountain b/c our houses were gone.
(I recalled this next little part while making coffee this morning. I was listening to kate bush's music while in the kitchen and it came to me) while we were leaving the alaskian mountain "this woman's work" by:K.B. came on the radio and i was the only girl in the vehicle w/ a bunch of guys and i thought to myself "they are going to change this song so quick- guys hate kate bush" and sure enough about 10 secs. into it they changed it and said something about it being garbage and i remembered being really offended

Weird and very long dream. I cant recall alot of the beginning.
-It somehow started off w/ me living in a house in the city and I had some girlfriends that had some trouble with boyfriends and husbands. They (the guys)had disappeared and the girls needed my help locating them......sometime later we found them all at some kinda jail that was more set up like a camp. We figured we needed to do something bad to also get placed at this camp --stuff happens that i cant recall----we get in the camp w/ the guys and theyre telling us these stories about some big dinosaur/monster thats going to come back and kill us all. We get food to eat and go to this huge tent area and all my friends go to one table and there is no more room left for me so i go to another table and im by myself and see L. sitting one table over from me w/ all his friends. I see across the tent over in a corner there is a woman rocking a newborn baby and i go over and ask if she wants me to rock the baby while she goes and eats. The woman tells me the baby girls name is samantha and hands her to me. so im rocking the baby and i notice that her nose starts to bleed and she begins to throw up blood. I start to panic b/c the baby looks and acts dead. Theres lots of commotion outside the tent and i see lots of military officials running around. my friends find me (I dont have the baby any more and dont know what happened to it) and they say something about how theres some psychic that also there at the tent that says we are all going to die and we're all some kinda sacrifice to this monster. So I find this car and steal it so we can get out of there and try to escape and while im on this back road i see another car pass and theres a woman driving and shes crying and driving erratic and trying to tell me something. Its then that i realize that the monster must behind her. So i run off the road on purpose and go down this steep hill and I land (just me not the car)in this crystal clear river/lake and im on the bottom of the water's floor and see a half human half monster and he tells me that the creature bit him and turned him into what he is now and he looked really sad and for some reason I was attracted to him and tried to tell him about it (all this while we are still on the water's floor) He said something about how we had to leave that area of water b/c the monster would find us and he took my hand and began to swim super fast to another location. I remember feeling safe for the 1st time in that dream and had a sense that everything would be alright and when he stopped swimming we were in the tropics on a beach somewhere and he was fully human then. He was saying something about us staying there forever b/c we would be safe and he began kissing me and I started to feel this sharp burning pain in my back where he was holding me and I tried to break away from him but he wouldnt let go. I couldnt see it but i knew he was stabbing me w/ a butcher knife and i couldnt get away and he just kept stabbing it in my back over and over. I knew i was going to die and that was what woke me up.

fri. nights dreams
- something about being at a hospital and there was a newborn baby that needed a heart transplant and i had to do the surgery.
-i jumped off this rocky cliff that was really high up and there was a waterfall. this guy and i were running from someone (im thinking it was like a detective ?) anyway we get to the cliff w/ no where else to turn and the guy takes my hand and yells "jump" and we did. i wasnt even scared in the dream- i felt really free- but as soon as i hit the water it was like i was on the outside looking it and i could see myself plunge all the way to the bottom and push off the bottomw/ my feet back to the surface the water was so clear and shiny and it seemed like the water droplets were sparkling crystals or diamonds spilling off me and the guy...it was beautiful just watching it like that. when we got to land we started laughing and he said something about doing the jump again.
- J.T. and I were going somewhere in his truck. he was driving and he just stopped in the middle of traffic on a busy road and got out and said hed be right back. cars were honking and i felt panicked. i looked up and saw on the porch of a little house 2 twin asian looking men watching the scene unfold they were in the process of putting up 2 columns on their porch. (im not sure why i remember that...it justs really sticks out in my mind) from the passengers side where im sitting i decide to put the truck in gear and drive off the main road into a small drive-way and on the other side of it was a ditch and the truck is a manuel(stick) and im thinking as the truck is moving and im turning the wheel to the hard right 'i dont know how to drive a stick' so i cant straighten out in time before it goes into the ditch and when the truck's front end hits the bottom....everything goes black...im assuming that was the end and i must have moved on to the next dream b/c i didnt wake up after that particular dream.
- next dream was my usual book dream...recently ive been toying around w/ writing my own book (in reality) i figured that if they are that good in my dreams maybe i could put it on paper. so really this dream that i had just kinda went back and forth on different plot varations.....these book dreams of mine seem to be the only kinda lucid dreams im capable of. I always have control over the way the book goes. i enjoy these dreams i really do but i would also like have other kinds of lucid dreams....like flying or swimming/breathing under water, have sex w/ whoever i want 2. i just want to control other things other than the books.

sat. nights dream
-something about dinner at a restaurant and all my family was there, but i was sitting away from them at a different table and dad told me very loudly to go get him some silverware.

sun. nights dreams
- formal dance like a ball or something everyone was very formally dressed and it was all very elegent. i saw jen there dancing w/ some guy. she went to the restroom w/ me and it was soo filty and dirty but i went into one of the stalls anyway. when i closed the stall door i realized the door was like a window and i thought very briefly that anyone that walked by could see in here. the thought passed and in its place was the realization that it was a two-way mirror or something and i could see out but no one could see in.
-jean (real mother) was at my house cleaning around my desk and i wasnt in the room w/ her but i knew she was stealing all my meds. i went to the kitchen where i didnt see her anymore. i couldnt find the med. bottles anywhere and i started to panic... later....something about mimi driving me home and i trying to tell her to turn around b/c i forgot something but she wouldnt.
book dream: it was about the book that im working on in reality...in the dream i was doing like the backgrounds on all my characters.
attemped to do WILD after the book dream, but i cant get past the loud static noise (like the noise w/ the TV static you hear). The WILD (maybe it was just lucid ??) dream that i had last week- i never heard any noise going into it although it was an initiated dream....maybe im just confused about whats what....anyway ill try to stick w/ it and try again tomorrow.

-only one part i recall of this dream- saw a newspaper and 32 members of my friends and family had been murdered.

- was at the old house on shady lane and mom was going thru downstairs closet trying to find me a church dress. i really didnt want to go to church but she was pretty adamant about me going. the only problem was that i didnt have a dress or shoes and she just kept on looking thru her dresses. also i recall there being alot of books in the closet along w/ her dresses. i was telling her even if you find dress your shoes will never fit bc you wear a 7 and i wear a 9. she gave up and got really pissed at me. they went to church w/ out me.

-was at a school library and it was empty except for this really nerdy guy at one of the computers (it played out to where i was watching it all happen but i wasnt really there...like a movie or something) this very attractive girl came in the library and went to the guy and he stood up and told the girl that he wanted her. she took his glasses off fixed his hair untucked his shirt unbuttoned his shirt and then the guy appeared very sexy. the girl looked at him and said that she wanted him now that she fixed him and then they had sex.....(weird-maybe i was dreaming of watching porn or something i just cant remember it all)

-walking up these marble steps that had small amounts of water cascading down them i was barefoot and had on this really pretty sundress that was a pale yellow w/ little blue flowers on it. the dress was thin and i could feel it brush up against my skin as a light breeze would pass. i recall how warm the water felt on my feet and i could feel the suns warmth on my skin. the steps going up were very wide and they went in this huge circle....(i cant recall anything about this dream. this dream had alot to do w/ feeling things- like using my sense of touch....if i could just remember one more thing i think it would ALL come to me at once but im not having any luck at the moment.)

-(i think i had this dream b/c of a topic that i posted a few days ago and it had to do w/ fred savage)
Fred invited me to go to some kinda film festival and we were sitting at a rest. having lunch and he got a call on his cell phone took it and he was done he said it was his agent. i then asked some stupid question about the differnece between an agent and a manager or if there was any difference...next i recall is being at the festival it was cold and everyone was dressed like they were ready to go sking or something...even me. Fred gives me this bag full of huge bath towels in all different colors he told me to pick which one i wanted and i told him to give me the blue....he handed me the one that was a light green and i said "no the light blue or dark blue i really dont want green.".....thats all i remember

Tues. nights dreams:
- (this one seems to be somewhat of a recurring dream im having occasionly) high school dream and class just let out and its really dark outside but the parking is somewhat lit up the buses have already left and im looking for my car but cant find it theres only one car left and i see a girl that i know from my classes and ask her if she drop me off at home. im trying to convince that i live just a few miles away and ill give her some money for doing it. a bunch of other girls show up at the car and ask her the same thing if they can also get a ride....(thats where i lose recall of the rest)
- Im on my farm but living in different house and it seems that my real mother also lives there w/ my stepfather and sibs. L. also lives there w/ his wife and child its a really big house almost like a maze its so big w/ lots of winding staircases. my mothers trying to speak to me about living there and that A. wouldnt bother me just to stay out of his way. Im trying my best to ignore her and pretend shes not even in the room. shes sees this and leaves me alone when my sister comes into the room where im unpacking -this room is also her bedroom and i decide to share this room w/ her to protect her. shes talking to me about our mother and how she means well and that i really dont have to worry about A. b/c he has no legs and cant walk so he cant hurt either one us.
later in the dream: im sitting in dining room drinking some tea when L. joins me and pulls his chair right up against mine so that from waist to ankle we are touching and he wraps his right leg around my left and puts his hand on my thigh and gently squeezes it. his wife walks in but she cant see whats going on under the table and it doesnt even seem like shes 2 concerned or jealous of the fact that hes sitting so close to me. I dont even feel guilty about the situation and think of ways (in the dream) to make him leave his family to be w/ me. -alot of things happened in this dream and i feel as though it was a very long one but thats all i can recall of it.


Wed. nights dreams:
- something to do with collecting unusual looking rocks on a hiking trail in a forest
-was w/ the women(5 in all including me) in my family at a posh hotel and trying to decide who gets to take a shower. we decided that my aunt (who in reality has been deceased for 3 years now -alcoholism) should go first and the others told me id go last b/c i was the least of importance...even in the dream i was confused by those comments they gave me and very hurt, but i didnt put up a fuss over it. After we all got cleaned up and ready we were in a car and stopped at a gas station and i realized that i was not wearing the shirt that i should have and the shirt that i was wearing was red and almost transparent w/ little holes all in it and you could see my black bra. i told them to go back to the hotel so i could change into my black blouse that i had intended to wear and they all said no and that no would be paying any attention to me anyway. next recall: we were all sitting at a dining room table in another hotel suite and Ree. (my cousin and deceased aunts daughter) was confessing some legal trouble she was having about a fortune she had come into regarding her son, but i had already (in the dream) knew about it all b/c she had told me earlier.
- book dream...it had revolved around a secluded lake house and the main characters name was joe. it was a long dream and I made it all very detailed. It was a great story and ive already decided to try to put it all down on paper to turn into a real story...but my stories are always better in my dreams....we'll see what happens maybe i can do it justice.

- someone was taking pics. of chrissy and i w/ a digital camera. she was wearing a very elegant purple dress and i couldnt see me in the pic. only her i was blurry. im wanting to say it was her wedding day or something i cant sure though, but i do remember noticing how bright red her hair was- not in a bad way though.

-g'ma was holding a laptop and she took it w/ her everywhere she went. she was watching a dvd on it. it was a cartoon but i dont remember which one.

- i was at Ru.'s house and her love interest "J" was there w/ a bunch of his friends. we were all in her basement and all the guys got out the game twister and started playing the game and Ru. was telling me she wasnt going to sleep him if he made a pass at her. (confusing hazy part) she said something about them sitting on the couch and how she was going to put two loads of clean unfolded laundry between them so he wouldnt be tempted to touch her. i also noticed for some reason while "j" was playing twister he was wearing clarks(shoes)

- on some kinda strange scavenger hunt in my (maternal) grandmothers back-yard. later in the dream i saw her digging up what looked like a treasure chest and asked her what it was and what was in it. she told me to mind my own business.

-(only remember the end of this dream)riding in a car w/ a really a really cute guy(the same guy that i conjur up in my lucid book dreams but i never went lucid in this dream) he has a girl friend he tells me and says how he doesnt like her anymore but cant ditch her at the moment b/c of her personal problems. For some reason that doesn’t bother me. We are in his car and hes driving. we are on an evacation route and its jammed packed w/ traffic and dark. The cars not moving at all so we start to make out right there stuck in traffic and hes got my shirt off, ive got my hand down his pants….one thing leads to another…..when that was over we start to pull into the apartment building that he lived in and he tells me to put my shirt back on. When I start to do that is when we pass his g/f standing outside waiting on him. I freak out but he told me not worry bc she didn’t see anything bc his windows are tinted. Put my shirt on real quick like. I get outta the car and the gf asked if we had a nice trip and she was acting like she was my best friend and I started to feel really guilty for what we just did.

(highly pissed off.....perfect moment to go lucid and i let it pass right by me!!!)

These dreams somehow all pertain to water. My theory: I spent -what felt like-about 8 hrs. yesterday going thru will-i-am's topic on "going fishing" -ya know? the thread that keeps going and going on and on....about fish. Well Im pretty sure thats why I had these dreams.

-was at some kinda huge aquarium facility and had the chance to scuba diving in huge ocean like aquarium w/ all the wild-life in there and wasnt even afraid like i would be in reality. I remember putting on an oxygen tank/mask and finding it hard to breathe and i got dizzy. This dream has alot of parts in it that im missing something about a bad guy being involved and everytime i try to recall it all i see is the actoe Patrick Demseys face and something about there being a dead body im looking for in the aquarium.---later in this same dream i was in an antique mall (which also looked like g'pa's basment where he keeps all his "treasures") i was walking around w/ g'pa and there was this piano baby that i saw that ive been looking for for awhile (in reality i collect these figurines) he told me to get it and he would buy it for me. I was so thrilled.


-was on this huge boat out in the middle of the ocean. the water was choppy and my sense of smell came thru on this dream. I could smell the sea in the air and on my skin.
my dad was on this boat, my brother, my best friend from high school Jen. and her little sis. Chrissy (who I had a dream about and posted on feb.10) So were sailing along and the fishermen tell me its my turn to go out with them and bring back fish. I dread it but i do it anyway and get in a sorta dingy or lifeboat and we go out about a half a mile away from the big boat. I have this semi large black net w. zipper on it that im using to trap all my fish in....the fisherman say the fish are carp...but i wouldnt know b/c i dont know one fish from the other. So i reach my quota for fish and they said i can swim back....and I do!!! (deathly afraid of swimming in the ocean, but i had NO fear in this dream) im swimming back w/ my fish and at one point i start to float on my back -on top of the water- and just enjoy the feel of it all. I start to do some backstrokes and seem to go really fast that way and make it back to the boat in no time. im soaking wet and dry off. Then it seems everyone boat is dressed for a party so i go get ready for a party and put on a little slinky black dress and fix myself up really pretty. back at the party i see jen. and she has all these pics. of her "wonderful" life and i see these pics of her home and its a castle. I start to feel jealous and direct my attention towards chrissy. i figure out that the party is her engagment party and i begin to tell her how i had this dream about her getting married in this purple dress. (great lucid oppurtuntity and i missed it) She looks at me like im idiot and begins to say something about it being ridiculous wearing purple.
Later i hear on boats radio that the fisherman had to cut their trip short trip b/c my brother had hurt his finger. i could hear him crying and everyone on the boat was laughing about it. I was mad and trying to talk to dad about it but all he wanted from me was to fix the dvd player and tv so he could watch.....Dora the Explorer???? I fixed it for him and watched a little bit w/ him and all i saw were snakes jumping over chairs ????

***Just want to make note of the fact that last night was the first night of taking Melatonin 3mg. Ive also been drinking chamomile tea for the past three nights. The tea seems to be ok for the moment as far as getting to sleep goes I still lay there for about an hour but its better than a few hours. I'll try to remember to keep track of how the melatonin is working out for me as far as getting into a set sleeping pattern.****

***Didnt notice any difference as far as falling asleep last night w/ the melatonin and chamomile tea.***

- (cant recall most of this dream) I was back at my old college, but the students that were there were the kids from my high school. Lena was there at the dorm w/ me. She was trying to catch some guys attention thru the whole dream. Threre was a school dance and Dylan was there and we were dancing. Recall a part where I was cleaning our dorm room. cleaning out cabinets and cleaning the floors

- There was a huge ferris wheel (like you see w/ one those travling carnivals) and it was in the west pasture (my backyard) I was trying to tell the manager of the carnival that he couldnt set up the ferris there but he had already did it and it was in the process of going around/spinning. The manager took off and I was afriad he wouldnt come back and take it down. I was concerned w/ thoughts of not being able to figure out how to turn the wheel off. I went and got Prancer (my horse) saddled up and rode out to where the wheel was. I couldnt see anyone on the ferris wheel, but it was still going around. The cows started coming in from the back swamp and circled around the wheel. I was getting nervous and started riding around them trying to herd them back towards the water. This took up alot of the dream. When I came riding back I saw the wheel start to collaspe and fall to the ground. The sun was going down and I was afraid that it would be too dark to see anything. thats all i remember.


-book dream: Had the lake house scenario going on again and it was basically a repeat. I had the main character swimming in the lake at night and looking up at the stars. Almost like he was having a sort of spiritual awakening. (Not alot happened b/c I woke up earlier than usual.)

**Very Strange Dreams**

- There were artifacts and old bones found in my front yard and a whole team of archeologists came and dug up my yard and I got to help sift thru all the dirt and I found spearheads, bones, pottery and what looked like very old jewelry. -Strange Part- There were little rocks that were dug up and put in a separate bucket. All of the crew began to eat the rocks and I didn’t see a problem w/ that so I ate them too and they were good. (wonder what that means?)

- I was in this little town (much like my own but different in some ways. It looked similar to the set of Children Of The Corn now that im looking back on it). I was living on another farm complete w/ cows, horses and sheep. In one part of the dream it was midnight and I was walking down the dirt road of the farm with what I think must have been a radio. The volume was up really loud and playing Chopin’s Prelude In Minor E. It was almost like I was trying to soothe all the animals b/c they were all a little jumpy for some reason. There were a bunch of deer that crossed the road in front of me and that made some of the cows scared and a few of them jumped over the fence to get away. -some time passed- Weird things were going on in the town and some were evacuating . I didn’t and went into work (current job at the lab) which just so happened to be at the end of the little town and right down the road from me. I walked there and I remember seeing ivy growing in the grass and was wishing that it would grow at my house. I made it to work and right inside the door I saw a man at the other end of the hallway. I knew he was attractive but I couldn’t really see his face. It was almost like a blur (his face). Im not sure why but I knew his eyes were blue and his hair was dark blonde. ( ?? Hard to explain. ) He was wearing a security uniform. I made it to the lab room and knew that the guy had followed me. I didn’t feel threatened. I felt protected b/c I knew that strange things were going to happen in the town and it was better to have him look out for me. ??
I could hear the news on the TV in the break room and went in there to watch it. The reporters were saying that all the “air” (oxygen) was going to disappear from the town. The town that I was in. They said that everyone needed to get out before it was gone. For some reason I never planned on leaving the town and didn’t evacuate w/ the town. I went and sat down at my desk and started to do paperwork. Something shiny on the floor caught my eye and I picked it up and realized it was the ring that I got for my 18th b’day.
(reality: lost it awhile back) I was happy to have the ring back and put it on.
While continuing my paperwork I began to think of the ring and how everything happens for a reason. The guy (whose face I still couldn’t see clearly) came up to my desk and said it was time to leave. He was saying how it was to dangerous for me to continue to stay there and said if he had to handcuff me and carry me out he would so I left w/ him. When we were outside he began to hold my hand and was telling me everything would be ok. A small bus pulled up right where the town line was and what looked like a boy-scout troop leader (whatever you call them) jumped out and I could see boy scouts sitting in the bus waiting on him to return. The leader came up to us and started talking about the air starting to disappear and we had to leave with him. I asked the leader who he was he really? And he told us he was really an undercover CIA agent sent to come get us out of the town. After he said that- me and the leader/agent started to choke and gasp for air, but the guy who was with me didn’t seem affected by the lack of oxygen. The leader/agent crossed back over to his bus and out of the town and started to breathe again. For some reason he(the guy) wouldnt let go of my hand so I could go w/ the agent and I continued to gasp for air. The guy leaned down and started what I thought at the time was CPR, but he was really kissing me and it was then I could breathe again and that where it ended as far as I know. The dream must have been over b/c I didnt wake up then but that was the last dream that I recall having.

**Very vivid and weird dreams. My recall was better. Im not sure if maybe it has something to do w/ the Melatonin or tea ive been drinking. Last night there was a slight change up w/ the tea- instead of just chamomile tea I had something called “Sweet Dreams” tea and its ingred. are chamomile and hibiscus flowers and instead of using just one tea bag I used 2 and maybe it was just a placebo effect but I did go to sleep about 2 hours earlier than usual. I’ll try it again tonight and see what happens.**

**Cant recall as much as I have been. This could be all one big dream, but I cant remember.**

- went to an antique mall and couldnt find my way out. It kept going in a circle.
- passed a playground while driving to work and I was concerned b/c there were no kids playing on it when there should have been.
- something about being in jail and everyone there spoke another language
- looking for somewhere to sit in a classroom and everyone had newspapers on their desks.
- something about tying Ribbons (my horse) to one of the trees out in the field and it felt like I was in danger or maybe running away from something bad.
- was at this large vegetable farm where they also had a cannery on site and it seemed like I was there searching for food. Then remember getting on a shuttle (bus) and was very relieved that there was an air-conditioner (cold air) in there.

- Was at the airport waiting on my flight when an announcement was made that the entire crew of my flight had disappeared. I don’t know why but I was helping in the investigation and reviewing security tapes as to where the crew went. The last place that the tapes showed them all to be at was in the lounge/restaurant area eating, drinking and smoking and that’s all I recall of that dream.

- Was reading a letter and at the end I saw my signature in cursive hand and for some reason there were these pretty little green and brown leaves. I see this and go back to read the body of the letter and all thru out I had my mistakes with the words leafs and leaves (with misspelling and misuse of those words). that’s all I recall of it though.

- I was in a medical school classroom about to begin assisting w/ an autopsy. Before we examined the body we were taking notes first. There was a girl sitting in front of me that was really quiet and kept to herself. A really ugly, fat, red-headed guy came up and started picking on her and stole her pencil. She just continued to sit there and didn’t defend herself. The instructor came in started the lecture and asked the girl why she wasn’t writing and the girl wouldn’t speak so I stood up and told the instructor what happened. <space here that I cant recall> The professor/doctor had already begun the autopsy with out me. I was getting my scrubs, gloves, face mask, cap/hat on and by the time I was done the autopsy was already over. I noticed that one table over another autopsy was taking place and L. was in that group but he was in his casual clothes not scrubbed in. I afraid he wouldn’t see or notice me b/c of all the medical apparel I had on.

***Still taking the melatonin and drinking the tea.