Keleiter's Dream Journal- Uncensored

Hello.. my name is Kelly (Keleiter) and I am 27 years old. This is my dream journal.
Some facts about me..
I am a natural lucid dreamer. I have never had to try to have a lucid dream.
My first lucid dream came to me naturally when I was 11 years old and over the years I have gotten better and better at it.
I can have lucid dreams everynight...but lots of times I consciously decide not to control anything and just let the dream happen. I believe that when you are conscious in your sleep your brain is not getting the rest it should during the night..so when I have extremely lucid dreams every night..I wake up in the morning feeling like I haven't slept at all.
I love to fly in my dreams..and meet..date..make-out with..and marry my favorite actors. I have had many many dreams where I was in my favorite tv shows. One I dream alot about is Charmed. I am always one of the sisters..usually Paige..and I live and fight demons with them.

I also believe that I can go from a lucid dream into an astral projection..I have done this several times. And is something I am learning more about doing and will be trying to do more often.

Being a single woman who hasn't been in a serious relationship in 10 years..and being one who won't have sex outside of marriage..I dream alot about sex.. but then again..who doesn't?

I can usually remember my dreams everynight..so I will be updating this thing alot.
Comments are welcomed.

Gosh.. I feel like all I have been doing lately is sleeping..but I haven't been controling my dreams at all. I have been so exhausted during the day that I have decided to let my brain rest at night for a change. But even when I am not controling my dreams..I am still always aware that I am dreaming.
But my dreams have been wild fun.. sometimes crazy and weird..but always fun.
A couple nights ago I dreampt I was pregnant and about to give birth. Now.. you have to know ..in order to understand this..that I am 27 and my clock has been ticking for a while now. I am ready to get married and I can't wait to have children..and I have been going through some health problems were I came close to having to have a hystorectomy. So having children has been on my mind alot lately. Obviously it's in my subconscious too.

So, in my dream, I was pregnant..and on the way to the hospital..the father of the baby was there..but he was just sort of in the background. lol It's not like I have a boyfriend now to dream about..but it would have been nice if the father could have been Wentworth Miller..anyways..the father, who happened to be one of my high school boyfriends...his parents were there and my parents were there.
I was afraid of the pain and decided I just wanted to skip that part..so suddenly it felt like I was waking up from a deep sleep. And the nurses were teling me that it was all over. That I had had a girl. I remember being excited and scared all at the same time. I remember telling myself..I wish this was real..but this was probably as close as I was going to get to this for a long time. So I decided to enjoy it. I opened my eyes and they placed the baby in my arms.. She was so beautiful..so small..and I held her and hugged her and it was amazing.
There was alot more to this dream..but none of it made any sense. You know..the kind of thing you can't really even describe.

My dream from lastnight..I was one of the Charmed ones again. I was there with them in the mall..and we were shopping. The real Paige was there but I wanted to take her place..so I would go up to her and gently push her aside. I have had dreams where when I pushed her aside..she would get mad. But this time she didn't get mad. She seemed to understand and accept it. So I went shopping with Piper and Phoebe.
We didn't fight any demons..we just skated through the mall on our socks. lol
Then I got lost in the mall and ended up in a huge store that I couldn't seem to find my way out of. It turned into a Casino..and a restaruant. I was walking around stealing food off of the tables..and trying to find the exit. I was getting bored..so I decided I wanted to get out of there.. So suddenly Piper appeared and lead me out into what looked like a huge gymnasium..
The sisters were gone now..and I walked over to the bleachers..and climbed up to watch the show..which turned out to be some kind of celebrity fashion show. I found a seat in the bleachers and quickly became bored. The guy sitting next to me asked me if I wanted to play UNO..and I agreed..we slid over to make room for the cards and he delt. BUt I noticed that the back of the UNO cards were covered with pictures of me and my family. I got upset and asked him how he got the pictures..then I realized who the guy was. It was Spike from Buffy the Vampire Slayer..and I was Buffy. He was in love with me and that was why he had covered the back of the cards with the pictures. Spike got in a fight with the two guys sitting next to me on the other side. I took the opportunity to escape..I ran down the bleachers and out of the gym and into the mall again. Spike followed me..and I remember getting surrounded by a croud of people.. I don't remember much after that.

Ok. I can remember three of my dreams from lastnight.
First.. I drempt that I was walking in downtown Wiliamsport PA..where I grew up..with my mom and a couple of friends.. My mom looked like she was getting tired..and I asked her if she wanted to stop and go back and she at first said no..but I asked her again..and told her to tell me the truth.. and so she admitted that she was tired. So we stopped and turned around but before we could go anywhere..my mom collapsed an fell to the ground. I got so scared told my friends to stay with her while I went to get the car..
I ran a few blocks to my car and jumped in and went to start it up but it started without my even putting the key in.. I was taken by surprise when the car started moving without my putting my foot on the gas. I grabbed the wheel and tried to steer but the wheel wouldn't work. The car went out into traffic and right out into oncoming traffic!!! I could see the cars coming at me and I tried to turn the wheel but it wouldn't turn! I passed my mom and friends..and kept going...I was able to turn the wheel enough to avoid hitting an oncoming car. But I couldn't get out of the wrong lane!
Suddenly a cop car was behind me..telling me to pull over.. I realized that the cop probably thought I was a terrible driver or I wasn't paying atention..I thought how am I going to explain that the steerig wheel wouldn't work!!?? And then I realized that my mom was still back there waiting for me. I managed to pul the car over eventually..and I got out and the cop walked up to me.
I was so frustrated though..I said to myself..I don't like this..I don't want to do this anymore..I'm done.
And I woke up.

Next I drempt that I wa able to go into the house that the Golden Girls live in.. LOL Yes.. the Golden Girls..!!! I do this kind of thing all the time.. I love to visit the sets of my favorite shows.. But they never look like sets..they look like real buildings and houses. I have been in the Charmed manor..the Who's the Boss house..the Growing Pains house..the SGC from Stargate..The Crashdown Cafe from Roswell..
So this time I was in the Golden Girls house..I know this is because I have been watching it on LIfetime late at night. I walked around the house..explorng the rooms..I sa at the kitchen table..sat on the couch..sat out in the back yard and looked at the stars.. I didn't stay long..I like the show..but I didn't know what else I could do there. So I left the house and walked down the street. I think I woke up again then.

After falling back asleep..I drempt that I was back in PA again..in the town I grew up in. I was downtown and it was getting late and I wanted to go home. At first I didn't realize i was dreaming..I went to the bus stop to wait for the bus. I had this big purse and a pack of cigarettes..and I was looking though my wallet for money to ride the bus. This is when I realized that was dreaming..because things are very different now.. Now I am living in AZ..all the way across the country..I don't ride the bus anymore..I have a car. And best of all.. I don't smoke anymore.. :)
But I still just waited around for the bus to come.. I don't know why..I just felt like it.. But when it came..it stopped a couple blocks away from me..so I couldn't get to it in time to get on it. So I walked down the street towards my high school.. and remember thinking..this is actually pretty cool. Since I moved the AZ.. I know I will most likely never see my hometown again. I should enjoy this.. So I began to walk around the town.. reminissing..(I know I didn't spell that right)
I was lucid for a while..thinking about my old friends and my old haunts..then I sort of drifted back into dream land again for a little while..then became lucid again..when I wanted to go home and thought about calling my parents to come and get me..and pulled out my cell phone to call my parents and I dialed there number in AZ.. and it occured to me again that I was dreaming..cause here I was in PA and I knew my parents were in AZ..where we really lived.
I woke up shortly after that.

I remembered another dream from lastnight!!

I was with my Mom and Dad..we were near a river with a smaller creek nearby.. We were going to do some kind of rafting. And of course my Dad wanted to go on the river..which was more dangerous. I was scared though but I couldn't talk him out of it.
We walked down to the river where I met my childhood friend..Shelby..a girl I never really liked..and we invited her to come with us. (of course)
But before we could go out on the river we had to wait out on this huge floating thing out in the middle of the water. I will try to explain this thing as best I can. It was round and had two stories. It had stairs on one side leading up onto the first landing and then more stair leading up to the second. There were seats all around the edges on both floors. I guess it was some kind of a waiting area. We crossed the river on a shaky bridge and climed onto the round raft thing..(I don't know what else to call it.) There were already people on there waiting ahead of us. We all settled down to wait and began to chat amongst ourselves. I remember I was wearing jewlery and I was afraid of loosing it in the water.
Then Shelby did something that really pissed me off and I pushed her off the raft thing.. I was screaming at her..I was so mad. I jumped into the water after her to beat her ass, I was so mad!!! Someone had to grab me and hold me back to keep me from wailing on her. She swam to the shore and climbed out. Where someone was waiting for her. I was screaming at her to never come near me again. I went back to the raft then and climbed back on.
But before we got to leave we were bombarded by planes shooting at us. We had nowhere to go..people were screaming and jumping into the water. I don't know what happened to my parents..it's like they disappeared. They just wern't there anymore.
I clung to the top of the round raft thing while the planes shot bullets at all the people..people were getting shot all around me.
I jumped off the raft and landed hard in the water.. I swam down as deep as I could but th bullets were still all around me..so I swam deeper. I knew I was dreaming so I didn't hav to worry about breathing so I just kept swimming away.
Some other things happened but I can't describe them..

Then the dream changed.. I was walking along the edge of ..hmmm..how do I describe it.? It was like a dry creek..and slipped and fell down into it..and I was sliding..and I couldn't get up..
I knew my friends were up there trying to get to me.. my friends being the Stargate SG-1 team..and I was married to Daniel..cause I am always married to Daniel in my dreams..:) So I was trying to climb out..and I was pulling myself along the bottom..trying to get to Daniel..who wouldn't leave me there. Finally I got close enough to him that he was able to grab me an pull me out.
A few things happened after that..but I can't remember them clearly.

I had my first scary..upsetting dream in ten years lastnight.

I am terrified of spiders..that is why it was so scary to me.
I was in the house I grew up in..and my Mom was there. It was early in the morning and I was going out and I needed to take a shower. So I went upstairs and into the bathroom and turned on the shower. I saw a spider floating down the tub and down the drain..and I decided to check the tub for anymore spiders before I got in. I pulled the curtain so I could see on the other side and the other side of the curtain was covered in black widow spiders!! I jumped back. I knew I was dreaming so I decided to just get rid of them so I could take my shower so I grabbed the shower head (we had one that came off) and I sprayed the spiders and they all fell into the tub and washed away..except for a couple that jumped up onto the ceiling. I sprayed at them too..not caring about the water getting all over..it was just a dream..and they fell and died.
I hoped that I got them all..so I went downstairs and said to my mom.."The shower curtain was covered in Black Widows!! I sprayed them but I am not sure I got them all..could you come check with me?" And she said she would..so we headed back upstairs. We were in the hallway outside the bathroom and I pointed into the bathroom at the ceiling where I spotted one and said.."There's one!" But before we could do anything the spider flew off the ceiling and came flying right at us!! We screamed and I threw my hands up to cover my face and screamed "Oh my God!" But I had already woken up..I heard my self yell "Oh my God!" out loud as I jerked awake.
I was shaken..my heart was pounding. I couldn't believe I had gotten so scared. But it had really taken me by surprise..it all happened so quickly..I couldn't stop it.
Nothing has really scared me like that in so long because I had always controled everything so well..that if something was happening that ws scary that I didn't like I would just change it. But this startled me.

My dream from lastnight was just weird. It didn't make any sense. Well..it did at the time..but thinking back on it now..it has no point. Most of my dreams tell some kind of story but this one didn't really.
All I can remember is that I was running away. And before I left..I got caught by several people..kids mostly..and they all wanted to come with me. I said alright..who knows why...and we all left. There were like 12 or 15 of us all together. And most of them were kids. First we found a mattress store full of beds and mattresses..and we snuck in and tried to get some sleep. But before we could leave in the morning some people showed up and caught us in there. There were two men..and they said they were there because they thought the kids were being mistreated and I said they weren't. There were a few other adults there with me and we gathered up the kids and left. Where ever we were going we were walking. We were dragging bags and boxes full of clothes and food. I have no idea where we were going. The men followed us. That made me mad.

I can't remember many more details..I was really tired last night and slept really hard.

Unfortunately..the past few nights I have been in so much pain from a condition I have..that I have been having to take really strong painkillers at night that knock me out. I still dream..but I don't remember them very well. Not enough to describe them. :( And I don't usually realize I am dreaming when I sleep that hard.
I don't know if I will have to take anything tonight..we will see.