My first WILD!
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== About me ==
I've I tried the WBTB method once before though I don't remember how well it worked. I've had 4 lucid dreams that I can remember in the past few months since discovering DreamViews and similar sites on teh intarweb.
I remember when I was younger I thought it was strange people talked about their dreams as if they didn't have any control over what they did in them; I had a lot of flying dreams and I'm sure I was lucid in some of them. Also I had nightmares when I was really scared, realised I was dreaming and woke myself up by opening my eyes, then opening them again (that's without closing them! As if I was telling myself "now open my REAL eyes"). Of course what I should have done is said "now I know I'm dreaming you can't hurt me, ner-ner-ner-ner" and flew off, but there you go.
I do remember having quite a few lucids as a teenager where I only had one thing on my mind after becoming lucid; a pity, as with one notable exception this led quickly to wakefullness. I'm a relative virgin in this "publish your innermost thoughts to a public of billions" lark, so I'll leave it at that for now, try for anonymity and avoid giving you the TMIs.
== About this journal ==
All names are in cunningly encrypted PNCF. Completely readable to any denizen of AAGC, but I'm convinced using forum software degrades ones intelligence sufficiently to make anything stronger necessary .
Um, yess. I don't know if I can make regular posts (hence the title), but I wanted to get this one down! Maybe that'll make it more interested for y'all to read if I only post when something exciting happens :-). Comments are very welcome.
== Today ==
I went to bed around 10, setting my alarm clock for 3:30.
* I go home and saw a large horse outside, carrying a sleeping ginger haired boy, (much like the sleeping children I see on the back of bikes here on the PNZ). He looked suspiciously like QFT at work. He slumped off the horses back until he slid all the way down, but he wasn't hurt because the horse's body sloped gently to the ground, and was covered in light fur.
* I had a vague dream about what I'm working on at the moment - the sort of thing us programmers get - including discussion with ORAP who is working with me. It wasn't a very well defined dream
* I have a vague memory of the exterior of a shiny building and and its entrance, which might have had something to do with watching Mission Impossible: 3 - I'm thinking of the raid on the skyscraper in Shanghai, although this wasn't only the size of a house
I was woken by my internal alarm clock, at about 3:30, even though I'd forgotten to enable the alarm on my clock. In fact, my (digital) clock was still in the alarm mode so I thought I'd woken up at 3:30 exactly - unfortunately I didn't realise until a while later so I don't know how close I managed to get.
I went downstairs to have a cup of tea, do a little tidying up, and get into the mood by browsring lucid dreaming sites and doing RC's (clocks, nose breathing). I was aiming to stay up for 90 minutes, but was too bored/tired after one hour.
It took far too long to get back to sleep. I remember coming back awake with a jerk (well, a mental one) once; some time after that my body seemed to tense up and I started WILD'ing - wow! My body seemed to lock rigid. I had turned on my side and wasn't really comfortable, but there was no way I was going to stop. I was excited and scared and my heart was beating quickly. I saw two white flashes, and then I was rushing down a grey tunnel, consciously urging myself onwards deeper into the WILD state. I saw a series of words flashing up in white, each word being replaced as soon as I tried to read it. I heard a rushing in my ears, which grew to become the sound of the air rushing past me, and I felt the wind strongly on my face.
After that it gets a little disappointing. It started getting less real at one point (I have the feeling it was my fault, but don't know why). I did get into dream scene and remain lucid. The whole world was shaking (the "vibrations" of WILD I've read about?), and I was in a completely enclosed room, a kitchen with solid rock all around. I kept on feeling amazed and excited.
Hopefully as I gain my lucid skillz I'll be able to calm down a bit and remain lucid without feeling the need to continually repeat "I'm lucid, I am lucid dreaming". I'd also like to manage to do something more interesting than clambering on top of a kitchen worksurface and pop the air vent (I'm thinking MI:3 again - the escape from the IMF building). After that it all went grey. I figure if I get enough practice I'll be able to condition myself to sharpen my surroundings first to stop them going away, and start spinning and stay lucid even if they do.
I probably sound really disappointed, but I'm not really. My main aim was just to go through with a WILD (and remember it!, even if I somehow became non-lucid when I started dreaming. I certainly wasn't disappointed by my first WILD experience.
I think I woke up after that, but the odd thing is I then realised I'd had another dream - maybe I'd had it the time before WILD'ing, when I remember waking up from something.
I'm with family - both close family and another family in the tree who we visit quite often (which is a common dream setting for me). We're inside and its fairly dark. Mum wants to play a game with me. It's of plastic and pegs: looks like the one with the dice in a plastic bubble in the middle you press and release to roll it, but its for four people and I'm not really interested. I wonder around a little, finding a small computer.
It had a monochrome screen with a note left by Dad displayed. I tried using it and discovery it had a touchpad, which also had a "nipple" (mini joystick) pointer control. Then I thought "odd that such a small computer has a mouse" and saw a very dinky mouse (in that order. Dreams are like that). In RL I've been musing about getting some sort of portable; partly out of OLPC jealousy and because it would make it easier to keep a dream journal.
At some other point in the night I had a dream where I seemed to be WILD'ing, or at least having very vivid hypnagogic imagery inside the dream.
I'm in a white open-air vehicle, it was very sunny, and I lay down and lent outside, letting my eyelids droop. As I did so I had images of windows (as in GUI, not glass), which stayed there even if I opened my eyes slightly. I realised that they were MS Windows windows (as in XP, the style often referred to as "Fisher-Price" due to their playschool colour scheme). I couldn't be having with that, so the windows changed and a penguin appeared in them, which I was much happier about. Very sad and geeky really.
I'm a bit concerned about whether I got enough sleep - I've always felt I take too long to get to sleep, and I didn't seem to get much sleep after all the excitement of WILD'ing either. That's my excuse for lying in until 10 anyway :-).
Miscellaneous thought for the day - if you have to be 15 years of age or older to post here, does that mean I can get people banned for behaving like children? Maybe gratuitous use of the word "lol" would be sufficient evidence .
Hmm. If I'm going to make any mores posts I think I need to become a quicker writer - this has taken me over an hour to write!
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