Felidire: Dream Journal

I've been playing my mental acuity for the past.. 6-to-7 years now; mark April 16th.
Yet, only last night, (3:30ish)I had a dream.. I forget of what it was about(which really is unlike me.)
Waking up with the words 'Dreaming Lucidity,' etched in the back of my mind.
I did however, proceeded to write these words down, and with that done I went back to sleep.

The next day I decided to google up the two words, and well,*bling* *bling* here I am.
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It's been long since I've held a written journal of my dreams, of my state of mind, my subconscious thoughts and doubts. *Went through a 'Burn the Past' stage.*
Though I still dream incredibly vivid dreams, especially as of late, my dreamstate has made a rather nasty turn,
for better or for worse, I don't know.


I'm unsure as to why I feel the need to be here.
Perhaps I can find a sense of clarity in keeping my dreams written.

I've had yet the same dream for almost the past week now..

The start-out is rather personal, but no less enjoyable. A very strange, distinctive feeling(even thinking back now).
Lost in the moment, the ground begins to shake beneath me, The whole atmosphere turns red, then slowly blue, then eventually, black..

I find it hard to see now; looking up above me, I see the sky which seems to move in patterns, seemingly like water. Everything else, the ground below me, arid, and lifeless. I begin to walk, feeling the sand crunch beneath my bare feet.
I feel a certain presense lingering around me, someone watching me, it is a fear beyond reprimand..

I pinched myself, and felt it.
I tried putting the sand in my mouth, and tasted it.

Then something jumped me from behind, I felt my whole body shudder, and shut down as I hit the floor.
I could feel the warmth of the blood, as it coursed down my neck.


And that's where It ends..
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Herein, my dreams and thoughts become a disfuse array of colors, and memories of what occurred in that past day.
And yeah I find it really difficult to remember Either part of this dream..

Holy crap, you say you had that dream all week? Very creepy overtones in that dream, although I do find the thought of you walking around that spooky dream with a mouth full of sand pretty amusing.

Is it the same every time? Does anything ever change?

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Holy crap, you say you had that dream all week? Very creepy overtones in that dream, although I do find the thought of you walking around that spooky dream with a mouth full of sand pretty amusing.

Is it the same every time? Does anything ever change?[/b]

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Most dreams do change from time to time, this one however, did not..
I had this dream for 3 days. 2 days later, I had the same dream for 8 days in a row.

I figured out what triggered it, just a little bit of confusion, and a sense of self-betrayal.
It's gone now.. but I really did liked that dream. t'was good.

So I haven't bothered writing for a little while, couldn't remember anything worth bringing to date.
last night I had a dream that I actually remember. It seemed like it was about a group of 8-10 people who were planning to get rich off of some pornography scheme they'd thought up, and the manager guy in charge was planning on ripping them off. The stupid thing, was that they had to get to some 'secure location', and the agent at the counter was claiming shit like "The cops can get you there safely, around $250" "The army could get you there, $300." "But I guarantee, my plane can get you there the safest, only $700." Even stupider, the people are all "kthx, plane sounds best lets take the plane." just like they did in the last dream, where the agent asked for $70. as opposed to $700

He didn't actually say "$700" right off the bat, he inaudibly statedand no,
before anyone asks, there were no nekkid people.

I didn't really like these dreams very much at all, so I just.. woke up. lol
Hopefully I don't have this dream again, it was just downright stupid imo.

(Second dream occured during SP, in which I intentionally woke myself out of.)

I've been feeling really down the past few days, and I can't believe I did not remember this dream until just a few minutes ago.
I woke up half way through the night, I had some chest pain, I felt like throwing up..
I went back to sleep, lol.

I don't know where it starts off, but It took place at some facility where an outbreak of chemical/bacteria had occured in the area. apparently it's microscopic and deadly.

Anyhow, I remember getting out of a car, (we went there for some hands-on experience, as we were all scholars in <insert-name-here> ¿Bio-hazardous-Materials-Handling? class.) And yeah, Ironically I forgot to bring my scuba-tank which everyone was walking around with strapped on their backs, so I just followed the rest of the people around taking in the atmosphere like nothing was wrong.

The last thing I remember is we(me and about 16 others) were in some padded-room, (like in a mental institute) Hiding out from some monster-like creatures who had overrun a small town area. It looked ironically like my music-class from 7 years ago, except for there was no way out.

It was night time, we had a phone, and a small hand-held radar. an army was stationed outside the town so we sent out an sos, watched their little red dots swarm around our location on the radar, then the building caught fire(from the walls on the inside), and we&#39;re all just sitting around burning and thinking "oh, shit.." and the army-guy outside is like "ok, Just wait a minute, we will get you out." which by that time the whole room and every one of us were on fire, and still sitting on the floor thinking "oh, shit.." -Army guys didn&#39;t know we were on fire.

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I just find the irony of the situation really droll.
even now I&#39;m laughing...

Last nights dream was really strange, It was about some girl who went missing around some residentual swampland, the locals claimed that she had died or drowned. she had dark/sandy-blonde hair, a thin white t-shirt, with a large tear, and an open gouge running vertically down her chest. out of the open wound was something which was supposably her heart,(which looked like the inside of an over-inflated football).

well, every month or so, she would come out of the swamp looking for her boyfriend(who too believed she was dead).
But upon making it a few steps out, these fcked up green tentacles would grab her and pull her back to the bottom the swamp/lak(the water was green, so I&#39;d assume it was a swamp).

Next thing I know a group(me and 3 others) are investigating the area, I clearly remember weaving my way past the thin steel support bars, and making my way over somewooden plank on the edge of a very tall building(it would have been over 600ft, small trees lined the ground.) Each time we passed across this plank we ended up arriving at some jetty/dock, the dark blue water was very high, I can&#39;t remember what we were saying or tlaking about, we made three trips there and each one I find very vague to remembrance, except however, for the last one. The &#39;boyfriend&#39;, bumped me in the water on accident, and I grabbed a rope in the water but it wasn&#39;t attached to anything, he was like "lol, you idiot." and threw me a different piece of rope, but just before I could grab it, I was gripped by the left leg(I do remember which), and pulled under..
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everything goes Dark, until eventually I can&#39;t see through the blackness.

The Next dream-scene that I remember, I had fair-to-good control over.
I was in the backyard of my old house, and an old &#39;female&#39; half-friend(who I have known for a decent 10 years) was dead on the floor, becasue I hit her with a car. I found this incredibly stupid, as;
1. I don&#39;t drive a car yet, and..
2. We no longer live at that house.
So I went inside, via the back door at our old house, and to my amazement*grins* I had entered the backyard of our new house(as if I were inside, and had just walked outside.)

Now This(same dream) had Umbreon and espeon in it, which I did really find to my liking(as always.)
I walked around the back with a first-person view from both the Umbreon&#39;s, and my perspective. As if I were two people at the same time. For those that need to know I slept with the Umbreon(disturbing as it may seem.), and the Espeon(who wasn&#39;t mine) went missing, disappeared somewhere.. It turned out that this house was a dormatory for some schooling system. and from looks it was a magic-school, becasue I clearly remember one of the students running inside and showing us where one of the others had disappeared(blew up), becasue there was a 3ft deep hole in the soil which in-front, was about as round as both arms.


These dreams(first and last), were rather cool, they both had a very realistic feeling.
And I did not perform reality checks, simply for the fact That I didn&#39;t want to acknowledge that It was all a dream.
I enjoyed it all.

k, I had this dream which half took place at my old school, and half in the forest/bushland near my old house where I spent most of my childhood years.
ok.. Well there were these cultist guys.. and a lot of houses&#39;& fencing which I really don&#39;t remember being in there. So right off the bat I realized it was a dream and was able to change everything, next thing I know i&#39;m looking at the basketball court of my old school. It was like across the road, instead of 35km away.. I walked back into the bush and then some guy i a 4wd came along, turned the corner and started driving at me. I went to dive/hide behind some trees but I was all slow motion, with a car coming at me at 85mph.(like in most nightmares.)

I&#39;m good at these scenes now, I made everything turn completely black, then back to normal a few seconds later. I was standing in the same position, and the car had gone. Well, now I&#39;m in the eyes of some other guy who is walking around with a friend. We came across some old couple walking along the dirt road, which was really stupid considering there age and where we were. We talked to them, I can&#39;t recall what they,(said It was 2 nights ago I drempt this.) but It was to do with people being kidnapped. Soon enough some guys kidnapped us(The new me, and his friend.) They took us to some old fibro houses, and they chopped the friends head off with a cleaver on a stump. These people were really freaky looking, kinda like zombies with their face still in-tact. We say the old couple walking around and were like "uh.. hi...*awkward*" Well they had caught and brought me in as well, (the real-me, I dunno what I was doing in the meantime.) and then I started having really screwed up first-person scenes between the two which was really hard to distingush which was witch. He distracted them while I ran off, then I shouted something, ran through a brand new carport with two expencive looking cars, and jumped a small asbestos fence. Went to make a run for it, but drapped in the high grass, seeing a man and an old lady with a machete carrying the other guy up second-story stairs of the house nextdoor. I ran inside and hid behind some large dark brown oxygen tanks. then came down stairs saw me and both ran at me, I just smiled and next thing I know I woke up.. -Sorry for the crap ending guys, hahaha.

No dreams today, My head throbs, My temples ache..
Got about 30 minutes of sleep out of the 12 hours I was lying there, awake.

I won&#39;t be back for a little while, there&#39;s just too much shit going on, I can&#39;t even dream anymore.
I&#39;m so fucked up....

What's happened to this forum.. It's been almost 2 weeks, and it looks.. much different... Well, now that I'm more freely-controlling my thoughts and feelings, I doubt I will be Posting here much anymore.
Though I feel the need, I will return.
..I've found a new sense of clarity....

If It's something worth remembering It will be remembered, otherwise I see no need to continue with a journal of my dreams, however realistic and frightful they may be.

I've learned much in the short time I've been here, so thanks.