JAAlley's Journal

My greatest challenge has been remembering my dreams, for the longest time I never remembered having dreams ever, but now that I've started trying to not only remember my dreams, but also recognize that I'm dreaming, I've actually started to remember some. As part of my effort I am going to use this forum to record what I can remember. I know you're supposed to write your dreams down immediately, but even though I now have a notebook right next to my bed, I never wake up enough to write anything. I also don't have enough time in the morning as my family runs on a tight morning schedule to get out of the house in time to beat rush hour traffic, so I usually just try to tell my wife everything I remember from my dreams, or at least tell myself.

So, for my first recorded dream in this journal...

Actually the first dream I am going to record may not even really fit into the category of dream at all, the experience I had last night was that I attained a somewhat lucid state amidst a flurry of constantly changeing scenes and images. I remember knowing that it was a dream, but everything was very fuzzy and moved so quickly that I never had a chance to focus on any single image or scene, what I can recall is that only a few of the images were even scenes of a location, most were just colors or patterns flashing and moving around. Several times I could feel myself waking up, but I was able to fight it off three times, immediately returning to my dream. Otherwise I had no real control of anything that was happening. This is the second time I've gained consciousness in a dream in the last two weeks, so it's promising, but, I am still having trouble remembering dreams, so it's also frustrating.

I am so frustrated, I go for days without dreams, and when I do have them, I forget to write them down. I guess I just need to focus on waking up after a dream. I have the notebook ready, but have only used it one time.

After a long dry spell of not remembering any dreams I finally had one, and it was semi-lucid.

I was on a beach with cliffs around the sides and back, at sunset. There were people everywhere, and everyone was watching the sunset. I remember sitting on the sand with a blond girl that I don't actually know next to me. She was blonde and wore a red bikini. I don't remember what we were saying, but I remember thinking that none of this could be happening, so I pinched my nose and I could still breath. At that point I became lucid and I remember just trying to stay calm. I got up and walked over to another girl and talked to her, but I don't remember what I said.
The next thing I know I'm in a very large apartment, the girl in the red bikini was still there with me, and there was a man with long hair. I don't think I was completely lucid still. I had the feeling that he was a musician or a celebrity. We were in a bedroom, and the man pushed a button and the room sort of moved away towards the back wall of the apartment and somehow disappeared nice in the wall. Next we walked to a niche in the back corner of the room and he pushed another button and monitors started opening all over the walls, like big plasma screen tvs. Each monitor had two or three icons along the bottom, and I remember thinking that those must be to order food and drinks or something. A grand piano came up out of the floor, but instead of keys, it had a sheet of glass that came out horizontally from the pianl and went all the way around the sides. If you touched the glass, the piano would play a note and an image of a key would light up. there were benches all the way around and we all sat down. There were more people somehow.
The room changed, not sure when or how, but somehow we were all sitting around a table, the room had the feeling of being run down and old, there was a window, and it was dark outside, and I remember feeling like we were in a hut in a swamp, like in Louisiana.

then I woke up with my alarm clock going off.