Emlee.'s dream journal.

ive been so slack so maybeh having a dream journal here, will get me into it.

man this dream was really clear, and the clearer the dream the easier it is to become lucid. so anyhoo.. i was in my old school, only its been such a long time since i went there, it doesnt look like my old school. i go in and sit down at a desk and my ex-best friend tiarne is sitting next to me. she looks sad and i know that her mom has died. for some reason her mom use to be a teacher (she wanst in real life though, she was a stay at home mom) and he worked at my old school. i was talking to my old friend just bout general suff, asking how she was and stuff. she looked worn out, the classes change and i go into the hall and i see her dead mom holding books and folders walking slowly up the hall and muttering. i think holy shit. i look around and realise noone else can see her. i follow her and lisen to what shes say. i know she said alot she wanted her family to know but i can only remember one thing she said. "tell samual ... i love the name samual ... i wish i had another kid, id call him sam" ( '...' implies that she said something i could quiet make out)
i turn around and head to my next class, puzzled but wanting to find my friend and tell her what her mom said. im waiting outside a class room and i see her dead mom again. she is acting like she is our teacher for today and tells us to come in the class room. since noone else can see her i just walk in and other students follow. i sit down and she starts writing on the board. still noone can see her. my friend sits down next to and i start crying (??) some asks me why i am crying, and i yell "cant you see her??!" they are like what the hell, no? what are yo talking about. i realise this is a spirit and she could be the vengeful kind ( i watch too much supernatural ok? lol ) and i remember that the pentigram actually wards off evil spirits. unlike the common belief that it draws them. so i draw one on the chalk board. my dad in real life is a christian and i know he'll be pissed and i get scared, i am half awakened by this notion and then i am fully woken up by my mother.

otehr things happened too. i went out side in a rainy deserted street. only i dont know where they fitted in, so i left them out.

since i cant put what i remember of my dream last night into an orer that seems proper, ill jot notes.

-i though that in the past i had met tegan and sara
-i was waiting next to a stage to meet tegan and sara
-tegan and sara turned out to be a one body with two heads
-tegan and sara's one bodied form was pregnant
-there where people there from the last school i went to there
-i tried talking to tegan and sara but they just stared at me blankly

SHIT dream recall. oh well.

ever since i started this journal my dream recal has been sucking bbaadd. so once again, i will jot notes on what i remember.

- i remember talking to my brother and feeling like i was about to wake up. he might of mentioned something about waking up. and obviously i woke and couldnt feel my own body?? weird.
- went back to sleep. i was in a fantasy world wich was like umm custard? but not quiet. they were houses and they were made out of stuff that looked like custard and you could walk through them and remain intact.
there where flying mahine/car type things, i distinctivey remember a red one.
- alot of people where trying to talk to me, but i dont know what they look like or what they said.


could my lack of recal have anything to do with shitty sleeping patterns like, only going to sleep at like 2:30am?? guess i just dont know.

dude i was really slack too and i needed some umph, but after reading about everyone's lucid experiences i get motivated again. Wierd dream you had about your ex-best friends mom. haha. and about your dream recal i think it does have to do with crappy sleeping patterns. you need a full night's sleep usually. and keeping a dream journal will slowly help you remeber dream recal.

ah thanks dude, i thought that would be the case. yeah i use to keep a hand written dream journal and things improved greatly, but ive been slack and hopfully that'll change. i dont supose you would know if taking sleeping pills affects your dreams? or your recall of them?

it has taken me all day jsut to get to a computer so i can write down my actually DECENTLY REMEMBERED dream. score.

i was standing outside my house with my mate james, i asked my dad if we could walk to james house, he said sure so we walked but it only tooklike a whole minute. in real life it would of taken over an hour. and it wasnt his house, i didnt recongise it, but we went in and a few other people ther, some peole ive know for ages and a guy named ben, whom ive only met once. we were all drinking and laughing and whatevr and we go out onto a porch and all of sudden it gets dark and my dream turns into the nightmare on elm street. i stand on the porch and tihnk shit, this aint gunna be good and i consider that this could be a dream. i consider it for a minute and tihnk nah, but no, just do a reality check. now when i do these in dream life or whatever i have to be carful because i have my nose pierced and blocking my nose and trying to breath through it can be hard. so i fuck up the reality check and think its reality. GAYGAYGAY.
i go inside and its dark and everyones upset and huddling on the floor cause we all know we're gunna die and probably painfully. i find some wood and alot of petrol and i consider blowing it up. no idea why, the piromaniac in me probaby, but everytime i light a match, it goes out and like what the fuck is going on? and i realise im gunna die soon, i start crying cause i realy dont wanna die. and scream 'would someone kill me NOW i dont wanna die that way' i grab a knife that i see on a bench and i wake up. man this dream was so real, i was so relieved when i woke.

i had another dream, where i was blinky bill, i was him, but i could control what he said or moved. a little more behind him and watching what was going on. he drove a plane and picked up the rest of the characters and took them to the police station and said they were bank robbers and took them in. i was woken up by my mother.

first dream i was in a building all made out of tacky wood boards. i was in a room that had two beds and a cabnet and decided it was my room, there was also a bathroom, all made of wood. olden day type setting steam was coming out of the bath room and and my sister emerges. we both go outside and we see all out friends from our old school CPAHS and theyre going to this thing, dunno what, and they're gettign excited. me and jess look at each other and we both know we wanna go to. my parents are standing behind us and one of the teachers call out and says 'you guys can come, since you were wrongly moved out of this school to a-' she cuts off she she realises my parents are behind me and jess.

new dream. im standing beside a gate to a large paddock and theres a house bout 200m away and a stone signe a little away from me theres lot of people and theres a woman sitting near the stone sign so i go over to her, she very beautiful and i find myself loveing her, and wanting to be with her. but as she looks across to the dirt road/street (still olden days) and i just know thats shes about to marry the towns rich guy. whom we see go into the brothel/bar/club across the street, wich he owns but spends alot of his time there. she looks sad, she looks about 20 and shes about to marry the bastard of the world. i want her to stay with me, but i keep my mouth closed. she goes to get ready and i go to where the other people are getting ready for a wedding he feild. she comes out and her gown is make completly of little white flowers, its long and she looks like a delicate flower herself.
we are waiting for the groom since hes still busy in the brothel, you can practactly feel the sadness and i stand a little bit off and watch as she waits. i start stareing off thinking and the bride picks up her dress runs towards me and knocks me down, im laying on my back and shes on top of me and she rips the buttons of my shirt off and starts making out with me. i didnt care if all her family watched cause all i knew was that she wasnt gunna marry that loser. and then i woke. good ending, but ended too soon, lol.

so i had a lucid last night andalot of dreaming i could write down. but argh i just cant be shitted. but i will say this about the small once again shitty lucid i had..
i was with my sister, having like a picnic or something and shes like 'man i wish jay was here, so i could talk to her' jay is a friend of ours and i see her and 3 other people comeing up the hill we where sitting on and i say 'omg what you wanted happened! this must be a dream, im dreaming! and shes like well then i must be too!! and we both think that we must be having a lucid dream together, i actualy think, no that cant be right we cant be both in th same dream. but i dismiss it and we ask each other what cool things we wanna do and jay and her friends come and sit next to us. she has great boobs and i ask if i can ehem fondle was the word i used, lol. she said no, imlikedamn, well.. i didnt want to anyway. HAHA anywhoo jess and i decide to try and change something we hate about ourselves, we both have a couple scars we hate and theyre obvious so we decided to see if we can get rid of them by thought. hers dont change at all, but mine do, they get really really bad and almost become cuts again. im like wtf. jess wants to go walking, and i know im walking in a dream but im not DOING anything interesting. man my dc version of my sister is always getting me out of being lucid. DAMNNIT!!.

i remember lotf more of ather dreams i had before and after this, but with a lucid dreami cut out the fat and only leave the lucid parts.

there is some proof of people appearing in others' dreams. ive never had one but from what iv'e read on some of the threads on here, it seems real

ah yes, ive read some stuff myself, but i came to that conclusion since for my sis, is seems impossible for her to have a ld. lol.
it would be really really cool though.

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now for some dream recalin'!! man this dream felt so real i thought i really was gunna die. funny how all the dreams where i tihnk im gunna die, feel much more real than others...

i was at my friend sams house, only it didnt look like her house and we were sleeping in a double bed together and you know how when you sleeping you wake up every know and then and whatever, well it was like a whole nights sleep in a dream, kinda weird if you ask me, but anyway i kept trying to cuddle up to her she shes a giggle kinda girl and kept pushing me off, it was kinda funny in a cute kinda way. when i woke up she was dressed and leaving the room and im like ok i should get up too, and i relised the bed was just a mattress on the floor i sit up and for some reason i dont have a shirt on? i try to find it on the floor useing the sheets to cover myself, sam comes back in and i try to hid the fact ive lost my shirt. she leaves again and all of a sudden i have a tank top on, better than nothing i thought and i got up and the doorbell rang. i answer it and its a blode girl in glitter pink clothing, i let her in and she takes sam full attention, its like i dont exist, more blondes come but wear blue and green glittery clothing. they are playing with this kids toy i use to have when i was younger, realising im not wanted i leave and i get on this bus. im just wear short shorts or underwear,i cant really tell and a tank top and this bus is going into the freezing cold mountains. i know im supose to be cold but i dont feel it as much as i know i should. they guy sitting next to me goes to my sisters school, is name is alex but everyone calls him wilko. he asks me if i want his jumper, i replie no. theres snow and ice outside and we are very high up. the roof leak and all this ice water falls on me, i am freezing so i say ill take your jumper now.
before i can i notice a shitty wooden bridge up ahead with no railing and looks flimsy, i know we are high up and if we fall, its gunna be a long one. we get across it holding out breaths but then the wheel locks and we slowly slide on the ice back onto the bridge and off it, i think 'omg no way am i gunna survive!' i brace myself for a very long fall.but instead we barely fall at all and land into an icey river we sink instantly but the water does not rise in the bus slowly, its just instantly there. i attempt breathing to see if there really is water there, i can tell there is, but i supose if i continued to try breathing, i would of noticed that i could and maybe become lucid. silly me. lol. anyway i tinhk everyones gunna be crammin the windows to get out but i go for a window and all of a sudden im swishing to shore and everyone and i mean everone is instantly safe on a snow cover shore. some says, thats happened too quickly fr everyone to survive. i do think its odd. someone how ever still thinks tehre are people in the bus and is yelling at us to swim down and help no one does. he slashes me and i jump back from the cold and shock, and i do that physically in real life and it wakes me up.

i fall back to sleep.

next dream i have is that im in the broughton school uniform (the last school i went to) but im in my other high school CPAHS, but it doesnt look like CPAHS it looks like my first primary school back in tasmania. im walking with friedns but i dont recongise them we are in the play ground walking across a log and we go inside to a class room. i see two teachers one from CPAHS called miss sturges and the otehr from my second primary school called mr wilson. he askes me why i am here since its not my school, i say i wanna be with my friends, a tassie friend called amanda says 'please sir, let her stay' he agrees.
the scence changes and im on another bus parked on the side of the road talking to an older woman with dirty blonde curly hair. i am tell her about my last dream with the bus in the river, only i am telling it like it really happened, she is very interested. i am instantly outside the bus and the woman is gone. i see a wizard looking dude and he has a small wooden piramid and it has turning pieces and its a puzzle, i take it fom his and try firgure it out, i cant, he wants to hurry since its a lock to capture some evil wizard dude that he wants,he takes it back and the answer to the puzzle is the word 'evolution' the priamid has changed color and its now a lock and he locks the wizard in a square cage. the evil wizard dude turns into a huge brown and red spider. the otehr wizard yells and hollard 'yes, ive caught his!!' and woops and hollers some more. he put ANOTHER cage on his, just to be safe.
i wake up.

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this has been the best dream recall ive had in a while.
scoreone for me!
lol.
oh and sorry if there are LOTS of spelling mistakes. lol.
and thanks if you take the time to read these :)

uegh, so i thought i was going alrgiht with writing down my dreams and what not and got to be able to remember two dreams were as i use to only remember one. so im yay progress and whatever. but now.. i find it SO hard to write them down becuase i remember more than two now and they all get squished to gether and i dont know what part is from which dream and gets pretty confusing, so i dont bother writing them down. is there anyway as to push past this messy dream recal? or is my only option, write down the confusing mess and hope it eventually clears?:confused:
some help would be great.

my dream recall is mimimum its almost shamefull, but i thought hey, i should at least write what i remember wich is an awful lot.

i dreamt about a book that i was reading beofre going to sleep. its called avoidence and its about a camp and a boy gets molested and he tells a camp leader but the camp leader he tells is in love with him (all guys camp might i add) so i dream that im the main guy, called jeremy and i trying to think of a way to tell him that the guy who touched him (charlie) got away but aswell as how to tell him how i feel about him. and thats about it. its all really fuzzy since is from a book and i only half imagine it when im reading so the dream came out even worse.

so this is a strat to getting back on track with dream recal.
:D

ok after getting woken up at 6 fukcing thirty by my stupid brothers alarm clock,i finally go back to sleep and dream this..

im standing in a group of people face this walk way wich is horozontal to us and we are watching the band paramore walking down it, and people are behind them too just chatting and acting all normal. hayley (who is so damn hot!) is wearing what she wear in an aucoustic version of 'misery business' which can easily be found on youtube. so pale pink shirt and gray skinnys but shes also wearing black converse but theyre not tied up and rather loose as she walk.
i turn to my right and theres another girl who looks exactly like hayley and is hayley. she mentions something about how this is in the past and shes watching herself in the past. i shrug it off as i was the 'past' haylay attempt kicking her chucks off and over a restricted areas fence. everyone cheers when she gets it over and shes all like "yeeahhh!!" and then she dissapears :| what she was doing was illegal, so naturally presumed the police got her.
lol.
anyway i turn ot my left to walk up a small hill and the scery is reapetative so back at the walk way thing, the other hayley follows me (i know it her cause she dressed differently) and i look at her and think fuuckk you so hot and i likeys youuu! lol. she now doesnt seem to be hayley, her hairs changed and her umm vibes? change. but she still looks alike. and i tinhk, hey if i cant get the real hayley, look alike will do. lol.
anyway i run down the hills and come to a wall and i want to walk around it so i put my foot over this fence thing, i get my body over, but my leg is permantly stuck. the hayley look-a-like and some others followed me and they all look concerned. i feel myself passing out and all of asudden everything goes fuzzy and i fall down, i font feel a thing and all these voices feel very very far away. im lifted onto a stretcher by paramedics. and i go to sleep.

when i wake up im in a hospital type place, but all the people are deformed and creepy. real nice. theyre all in those electrical chairs and moving around, bumbing each otehr like a slow motion version of the bumper cars at a carnival. i see a couple blades on the ground i sneck to go pick one up, but i decided against picking it up. i go to the front of the room past all the weird people and the room is set up like a class room there are pens and pencils and balls laying everywhere i kick a footy looking thing into these shittily make goals. and i started kicking all the balls and i find im quit alright at soccer, i can see that what im wearing has a collor and that its sticking up. normally i dont really notice what im wearing.

and argh i know theres more, its like right there in my mind, but i cant reach it. this was very clear that i seriously thought it was real like at the time. so clearer the better ay.
later ya'll

p.s and please excuse all spelling mistakes, my kepboards all sticky and shitty. lol.

haha what an interesting lucid. yet so confusing, but keepin mind, i shall do my best to get it all down accordingly. red is for lucid btw.

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fom what i can remember i was walking through james's house but all the walls where knocked out and it looked like it was being seriously revovated. i continue waking and as i do that the scenery behind me changes and i notice a group of dykey looking girls and they look like theyre finghting this one guy whos sitting on a couch. as im obversing them im tihnking about what james's house REALLY looks like and bam i know im dreaming and everyones yelling at this point so i scream and stoop down STOP. and time kinda stops or goes in really really slow motion.

i sit there and think about what to do and my first thought is to kill them all, just because i can. but then i think no, ill just kill that one guy. now i always forget that when spawning tihngs you put your hand behind your back, so silly me puts them in front of me and wants a pistol and like last time i did that it comes up but its all fuzzy and see through. i think shit and wave my hand through it and it dissappears like fog. i put my hands behind me back and think about the gun. it doesnt work. sigh.

the slow motion time stopping gives way and everyones talking and i realise that the people are like my room mates or something. i start looking around and i see this statue of a bird, its only small and its on a mantle piece. i kind of stroke it and tihnk be alive. it lifts its head and starts chirping. i laugh and am like ok so cool, but then i realise that the birds feet are stuck down to a platform and it cant fly away. i kinda leave it there..

i wander outside and think about what other cool things i can do, ive already flown so i remember a task i tried to do in my first lucid dream (making a snow man, then bringing it back to life and yeah i know not the most recent lucid task on dreamveiws but i wanted to try again anyway.) so i tihnk do i want it to snow? or have an instant snowman before me? i think of both as i wave my hand to summon snow. i must of closed my eyes and when i opened them there was a little bundle of snow in front of me i kneel down before it and hand molding it but not actually touching it and more snow just appears and i make them bottom bit. i tihnk man i cant wait to get to the head and all of a sudden a head of a snowman drop out of the sky and lands perfectly on top of my snowmall soon to be snowman. i think yeah this is good, but i still need to do the middle of the snowman, but ok this really sucks, i wake up forsome reason (i will now point out that this is a false awakening)

i wake up and im at the square sleeping at a table in the food court. funnily enough it was at the same table i was talking about lucid dreams the last night. i look up and theres like noone there. i go outside and near the sushi bar thing and i see a group of people i dont recongise them, but i presume that they are my friends. and im like "hey i just had a lucid dream, while i was sleeping in macarthur square!!" they all are like "wow thats so cool and nice work!"

all of suddenly im walking towards this house and i recongise the dark ally and imlike what? STILL dreaming?! im kinda tired and tnihk man i almost want this to be over, igo inside and i sit down on the arm chair. being all lazy like one leg over the arm chair. i notice this girl across the room. she petite with dark hair and like deep brown eyes. she look beautiful and i watch her and tihnk man, i want her. she looks at me, gets up, wals over to where i am, moves my leg of the side of the arm and un-does my pants.

( this is where ill point out this isnt the first time ive made some chick come on to me just because i wanted her to, lol. last time is was some beautiful girl who was supose to get married to tihs jerk. i was standing at the back of the wedding while she stood up front waiting for her husband to be who was at the whore house. and baisically, she just came running. nice)

im like ok, and i give her a look, that was pretty much supose to say what are you doing and she says softly "i want to fuck you" ill skimp on the details and just say it woke up before anything good really happened.
god i love my dreams. hahah.