PatienceMarie's Dream Journal
Okay, I first want to start off saying hi to everyone.
I'm new and actually JUST started practicing LD last night when I first found out what they were. Since I already had a pretty good dream recall, I figured I'de give it a shot.
Since it was my FIRST time, I was pretty nervous. Is this normal for a first timer? I was mainly scared that I would end up having a horrific dream, and forget how to control it. No clue why this was my biggest fear but it was.
Okay well I did my first attempt last night.... I read into LD and thought it seemed kind of... easy, I guess you could say. Not easy to CONTROL the LD but to get myself in the mind frame. I had noticed in the past that if I went to bed thinking of something, I USUALLY had a dream, even if it barely contains what I was thinking about. It seems the more I thought before I went to sleep, the more likely I was to dream. I have also noticed if I WANTED to dream [haha I know I can't be the only person that goes to bed chanting in my head to HAVE a dream] the more I wouldn't have one.
So last night when I was laying down I focused on relazing from my head to my toes and reminding myself over and over in my head to dremember my dream, and that it was only a dream.
I forgot to journal last night when I woke up from dreaming because I'm not used to it yet, but since I only woke up not that long ago I KIND of remember what it was about. Hopefully I get better at, instead of just waking up for a few seconds then going back to sleep, to wake up, log my dream , THEN go back to bed.
Okay so here is the only dream I really remember.
Dream #1 (only dream haha)
Well it started off with me drifting to sleep. I don't remember if I woke up in my room when I started dreaming, but I highly doubt it because I don't get the feeling that I dod, plus when I usually dream, I never dream that I start out in my own enviroment. In the dream I had a feeling I was in MY house, but it wasn't my house. I can VAGUELY remember telling myself that I was dreaming. Kind of like I was telling myself, but I wasn't really believing it... only half way believing it. Does this happen to anyone else? ANYWAYS back to my dream. I only remember a few parts but I remember kind of being intact with the fact it was only a dream. I don't think I did any reality checks, which is probably why I only halfway believed it was a dream. I could control my dream... kind of... but only in a limited way. Somehow I made it so that the guy I've been having a love spat with, which is also my best friend, was there, but I didn't know how to change my enviroment. I don't know why but I made him clean for some reason. I still remember vividly making him vaccum.... the funny thing is, if any of you knew who he was, would think this is quite funny, and obviously so did I in my dream because I was smiling the whole time. See he is this big ole body builder guy. I guess I just thought it was pretty funny in my dream that out of all the ways to start off testing the waters of a LD was to make him vaccum.
I know that is pretty boring, but it was my first attempt, and hopefully since that is the progress I made my first time, I will get alot better really soon.
I even woke up this morning and did a reality check while at my computer haha. I've really gotten used to the whole, "question your surrounding" thing, since I've basically done this since I was a mere child. I've always been REALLY creative, so even as a young tike I woulds question if I was dreaming when I was in everyday life and do stuff just to make sure I wasn't. That might not be normal for a child but I definitely have done that from an early age.
Has anyone else experienced lack of control over a LD when first starting out? I mean I knew I was dreaming, partly, but I just didn't know HOW to change everything very well. I mean I could change select things, but I couldn't change where I was. I even remember thinking about it in my dream TRYING to change things, then my dream self being like "DRATS!" after the attempt failed. haha.
I'm hopeing I get better at journaling my dreams and remembering, but I know since this is my first attempt without ANY study at all, except for the studies I did last night after finding out about it, that this is damn good progression.
:)
I hope I didn't bore ya'll too much ;)
-patience
+edit+
Okay so I remembered more of my dream, and I remember talking and laughing alot... no flying or anything weird. I remember picking my best friend to be in the dream with me. I also made him vaccum hardwood floors. I know... I'm weird. The whole time he was vaccuming I remember standing in front of him talking and smiling and he was smiling too.
So I did some research on it, and I learned you can actually pull people from their dreams into yours. I text him earlier and asked him if he remembered ANYTHING he dreamt about last night. He told me no and asked why. I told him whenever we could talk more about it and me not look so crazy, I'd tell him, so he called me. We talked about it and he doesn't remember what he dreamed about last night, he just knows he woke up in a REALLY good mood. I'm still not sure if his dream was connected with mine, but we both woke up in the same mood and talked about it. Kind of funny.... but it makes me wonder.
