Thread: the twisted mind of the lurker :)

ohhh man, these past couple of weeks my dream recall has been close to zero.

but these past two days i have had some very vivid ones. i've been sick, and been doing nothing but sleeping. bought a new bottle of melatonin, too. i don't know if it's the melatonin, or the fact that i've actually been getting a full nights sleep for the first time in a while. i take b-vitas every night.

7/12/04 *meant to say july, not june*

i dreamt that i was in a casino. i want to say i was in the smoking lounge at the casino that i work at, but everything was different. different tables, in different positions. even the lighting felt different... (lighting i mean day light, it's kind of an open air lounge.) it was a totally different place, but for somereason, i'm thinking i'm at work. dreamt of talking to dealers, and customers. the part that stuck out the most, is that i dreamt of finding an id card belonging to one of the dealers, and she left. so i put it in a drawer, so i can give it to her later. she comes back, panicking about loosing her id, so i reach into the drawer and give it to her. now that i'm a wake, i realize that the desk that i put it in doesn't even exist at the casino.

second dream that night:
i dreamt that i was staying at a large white house, on a pretty large piece of real estate. kinda of a party pad w/several people out in the middle of no where. not like anything i have seen in real life. after wandering around the house, i remember leaving the house, and driving off. it's night time, and i'm driving along back streets alongside of the freeway. freeway is elevated, w/soundbarriers n' stuff. i don't recognize the neighborhood, but i'm thinking i'm in the pacoima/san fernando area in los angeles, driving along side of the 5freeway. we stoped, i hopped the fence and walk up the hill to the side of the freeway, and start wandering around, then while wandering around thru the plants, and openings, i come across this place that seems like a wash. (LA river) i'm at a junction where the different parts of the wash, are coming together from different directions, like an intersection. some parts are open, and others are covered, and go underground i guess, then i woke up. my bro's car broke, so i took him to work.

my awareness was almost zero. i felt something inside me kinda question what's happening around me. -thinking that i'm at work, but my work place is totally different. the house being/wash being a strange place. but i just accepted everything and went along w/it.

last night 7/13 had a nother wierd dream. *silly me, i meant to say july, not june...*

i was in a movie theater w/my bro and cousin. we were watching a movie in spanish. ( i dont' remember the contents of the movie) and that i was REALLY bored. so i get restless in my seat, then i start crawling on the floor. trying to go to the back of the theater or something. then i turn over, now i'm lying on my elbows and back in the middle of the isle, and see that on all the armrests there are 26" tv's mounted on them and all are facing me, showing the movie. i kinda trip, so i start crawling again, then stumble across my bro and cousing talking. my cousin is asking my bro about this one girl that he likes. and my bro tells him to forget about her. she's w/someone else. eventhough they don't like each other, they are still sleeping w/eachother, that they just did it a few hours ago.

i woke up after that.

i had this dream while taking a short nap.
i took a melatonin pill and b-vita after this nap and went back to sleep, no dreams to report.

7/17/04

i was chilling in a condo type place. not a place i know in real life. i think i'm on the east coast. i'm living w/my old roomates. there are two girls over. my roommates and the girls are talking about partying in conneticut. they sound pretty excited about it. i just stare at them in disbelief. i say, "conneticut? i can understand n.y., i can understand boston... but conneticut??? what the hell are we gonna do in conneticut???" they just kinda ignore me, and gabbin' about how chic conneticut is. so i go lie down on a bed, and one of the girls comes over, and lies down on top of me. we talk a little bit, she kisses me a couple of times. (i'm surprised, 'cause through out the dream she never should any hints of being attracted to me. but i just play a long, i like affection.) and she tells me it's ok if i go w/them (she's not going) she 'trust's me.

alarm clock to the rescue... :(

before going to sleep, i just ate a couple slices of pizza, and my ususal b-vita.

7/18/04

i was in some place... i dunno... it reminds me of this one community college. but i don't really recognize the place. i was standing in an open space, on top of some steps. (i didn't see the steps, but i had an elevated point of view) by a cafeteria near some two story buildings, green grass, nice tall trees w/deeply textured bark. all kinds of people walking around.

then this one girls says hi to me, and we start talking, i don't remember what we talked about after, "HHHIIIIII... how are you... *exchange greetings*" (i guess in this dream i know her. don't know her in real life), then we are walking together, and i see another girl, and i wave her over. (same thing w/this girl, i know her in the dream, but not in real life... i know them, they know me, and they know each other) we start talking about going to a concert -don't remember the exact details of what was said. all of a sudden i hear a crashing sound, like something fell. i look around, and see this stair case on the side of a building. and near the top i see a girl and she's kinda a dirty, so i assumed she fell -it turns out that she's one of the dealers at work, and she's in her work uniform, minus her vest (finally a familiar face!). she's looking around, checking to see if anybody saw what happened... turns out everyone did, 'cause everyone is looking at her, w/some scattered snickers here n' there. i hear some music all of a sudden, like some oldschool hiphop or freestyle (i didn't recognize the song, i don't kow if i made it up in my head, or if it filtered in from outside.) and this girl at the top of stairs starts doing the robot! i move in closer to get a better view, and home girl is tearing it up, now everybody is cheering for her. the music fades out, she's smiling, and everyone is cheering. i notice some strange, before the music started she was dirty -from the fall, but now she's all cleaned up, like if nothing happend. "hhhhmmmmmmm... that's kinda wierd..." i thought. -geat place to become lucid, but it didn't happen. here the dream gets fuzzy, i don't know/remember what happened. i probably woke up and went to the bathroom or something, then fell back into the dream which is why there's a blank spot. i dreamt that i was w/the girls from earlier in a car driving to longbeach, at night. tho it didn't look like the long beach i know in real life. i remember rolling down a back street/alley looking for the venue and parking, but there's no room to park anywhere, go back around, and comeback to an alley and everything is empty, and i see that there is another sidestreet branching out. it did occur to me that i was strange, and i even asked my self what happened/and what's going on? and where did this extra street come from, and why didn't i see it the first time... i just shrugged my shoulders, and went up the sidestreet. we kinda drive up this hill, and bam! we're at the venue! it's roundish like a baseball stadium, but not a as large. it's kinda like it's built on a cliff near the ocean. i can see the water and beach from where we are. but now it's sun set! i think again, how strange... it's deep into the night when we came, now it's a beautiful sunset, on the beach. i continue to think nothing of strangeness i have noticed throught my dream... (grrrrr...) walk in, the girls go up some stairs, while i'm getting us some food, n' drink. i go up some stairs, and get to the top deck, on the oposite side of venue, the girls see me and wave to me, and want me to go over there. i wave back. i wasn't happy about walking down the stairs, across the venue, then back up some more stairs... so what do i do? i just lie down, and listen to the music. now i'm at a war concert lying down, staring up into the sky. but the music sounds distant. i finally get up, so i can join my female companions. i go down the stairs, walk across the venue... (which was just a few steps. kinda wierd 'cause from the top, it looks like huge place. i guess the venue was shapped like a cone. it didn't look big from the outside, or the inside, but it looked big from the deck i was on.) i walk up the stairs on the other side, but i didn't find my friends... some fuzziness goes on now, then it's alarm clock to the rescue...

about 30 min before going to bed, i just ate a nectarine so i can drop some vitamin B.

oddities: in this dream, i'm w/two asian girls i don't know, they were brown skinned like me, they could have been filipinos, but they seemed to look more chinese, thai, vietnamese or mixed w/chinese/thai/viet. i would probably say chinese, since a lot of the girls from work are chinese/thai/vietnamese and the dealer i saw dancing in my dream i think is chinese... i can't remember her last name right now.

last night i dreamnt of two black girls i didn't know. all four we pretty, not drop dead gourgeous, but still... good looking honies. tho the one that was kissing me yesterday was very light skinned, while the other was darker, like nice milk chocolate... nummy nummy.

my first dream of the new year! yippy!

01/01/2005

i'm dreaming of going to san diego to see some friends. some of the places i see while going down the 5 don't exist in real life (but i didn't realize it). i get to san diego... hanging out w/my friends for the new year, and i'm talking to someone i work w/at the casino. he want's me to call my parents because he wants to have dinner w/them at this nice fancy sea food place (i think it was La Paz -a place that only exists in this dream) -i barely know this person in real life, and he doesn't know my parents. another dream sign i didn't pick up on.

later in the afternoon/dream, i decide to walk over to TJ. (in my dream my friends live close enough to the border to make this possible)
i'm now in TJ. i walk into this huge strip/night club w/late 80's early '90 look to it. it's pretty dead in there... not many people there, no girls dancing... just people hanging out, drinking, chatting. i see my dad there, standing by himself drinking some water out of a bottle. i talk to him, tell him that john (from work) wants have dinner w/him, and mom. he says cool, and he'll swing by a little later. i leave. i walk out of the club, and now the sun has gone down. i get back into san diego, and it's night. i'm surprised, because it got dark in a very short amount of time (another dreamsign i didn't pick up on).

i'm walking back to my friends house... and the neighborhood i'm in looks really seedy, and dangerous (like if i'm back in los angeles) so i try to walk faster. i make a wrong turn, and walk up the wrong street because i don't remember the way back exactly... so i hit this dead end. i start walking back. i walk past this drive way, and i look up the driveway, and i see this huge black horse eating grass off the lawn. i notice that the horse is really shaggy, his fur i a bit longer than a regular horse, and it's thick and wavy. he's looking at me, and i'm looking a him... i walk i little bit more, and see that there is another huge black horse, this one w/regular hose fur. and there's someone on it. i can't identify this person, i just see his outline, but by the hat he's wearing, i assume he's a vaquero, or something.

i keep walking, and get to the end of the block, i make a right. this guy comes out of the building/church i'm walking by. it's a priest. a somewhat young white guy. dressed in black w/the white thing where a bowtie would go. he has a shaved head, and angular, and defined features. i can't really see his eyes, or his face becuse of the way the shadows fall him. (in this dream i know him, i think i have seen/talked to him before possibly a re-occuring thing) we greet each other. this guy amazes me, because he knows why i'm in san diego, and what is on my mind, how i feel, and my current state of affairs w/out me telling him. we start talking about this new sickness (i don't remember what it's called in the dream anymore). i tell him i just heard about it recently, yadda, yadda. he says he's gonna go back into the church to wrap things up for the night. he walks back into the building... i take a few steps away, and i feel this breeze rush past me. i look at the building, now all the lights are off, and windows are boarded up. i'm kinda preplexed, 'cause the boards weren't there a moment ago, and all the lights were on... then this little girl (4-6yrs) in a white dress (a 'traditional' mexican outfit one would wear to an event of religious importance) pops out of no where and greets me. she hugs me, and says "ccaaarrrrrrlllliiiiittttooooossssssss!" and she speaks to me in spanish, telling me that she missess me, and why i don't visit more often. she's a cute kid, beautiful smile, darker skin than me, and long straight black hair. she grabs my hands, she turns around, and starts walking/leading me. i'm surprised, and i was caught totally off guard. i know this girl, but i don't... (i don't know her in real life, just in the dream, but i'm struggling to place her) then the only thing going thru my mind is what was her dogs name? then i just say, "como esta la pera? la chula?" (how's the dog? "chula") she says that the dog is doing fine, and it's really big now, etc. and we are walking down the street, and now it's really dark. like if where in a tunnel or something. i can't see the moon, the sky. can't see the houses that line the street. i can't even see the side walk. all i can make out is some of the white from her dress, and my arms, i can barely see her hands holding mine. i see this white scarf like thing, made of a see through fabric kinda thing, like a curtain sort of floating around her. then all of a sudden, we get to this house that i have never been to before, and i can see everything again. now it looks like it's evening. and there are a bunch of people/a family standing outside. a dog (chula) runs over to us. the girls runs over to her grandmother. the grandmother greets me, and asks me in spanish where have i been, and why don't i visit more often... she is very motherly toward me, i hug her, and greet her (i don't know this family in real life, and i'm not recognizing them in my dream. but something inside me tells me the are familiar, so i just go along w/the whole thing hoping for some clarity so i can figure out how everything comes together.) g-momma tells me that the girl really misses me, and always asks about me. and how they will never forget what i did for the girl... she asks me if remember the condition/how sick the girl was before i came. and see how healthy she is, and how big she's getting. i say i remember, and that i barely recognized her. (some distant/vague memories flash through my head about this girl when she was sick. i don't remember what i did, or what i have to do w/the whole thing -but i'm still surprised, confused, and overwhelmed about the whole thing, and i'm wondering why i don't immediately recognize the people) i walk over to other members of her family to hug, and greet them... then i wake up.


wierd dream. loads of dreamsigns... lots of missed opportunities...