The brilliant but confused mind of SoRChA

OK I guess if you're going to read this, then I need to make some introductions. Also, I request that you give comments.

I, Sorcha, refuse to disclose my given name. For safety purposes. And will only use first names to refer to anyone else in my life.
Anyhow, yeah, I go to a private school, so there's about 300 kids there in grades 9-12. And I know most of them.

Also, one more thing that may help clarify what goes on in my life and my dreams: I am *kind of* a nerd, in that scholastic endeavors take up a great portion of my life. However, being social is important to me... even though my schoolwork usually takes front seat.

An introduction to those who show up in my dreams (will edit this post later if someone shows up I didn't introduce... also, not even real names.):banana:

Samantha... Known since 7th grade, been friends with. Not really best friends... just good friends...
Victoria... Best friend outside my grade, she's a year ahead of me.
Jacque... Best friend. Period. Yes he's a guy.
Cederic... crush. Year ahead of me. Really smart.
Adam... A new guy this year. For some reason he showed up in a few of my dreams...
James... another new guy. I'm nice to him, and so I think he likes me... but I don't feel the same way. He's cool but I just want friendship.

... and I'll keep going later, I have to go... :P

10/1/07
I recalled several dreams this night...
the Bible teacher gave a test on a subject he hadn't spoken about in class. We could use our Bibles, but that was it. We had no clue where to look. Also, the ASB photographer, who isn't in our grade, was there.
I couldn't get into the classes I wanted to 2nd semester
Samantha and I tried to get Adam to join our volleyball team.
I rode my bike back and forth across the state to my grandparent's house to here and back, but at one point I kept hitting a rut and I tired to do a jump off that rut every time but every time I fell. Someone the last time picked me up. A guy. I don't remember who, but it wasn't James.
Eating ice cream w/ my fingers
Taking pictures.

10/2/07
Not all too vivid. I remember playing soccer with my math teacher and some friends; everybody's heads were on fire.
Some sort of museum of science.

10/3/07
I dreamed last night again. I am working on remembering more of my dreams. But that will take willpower, really, cuz my biggest problem is actually getting up and writing them down before they do slip out of my head...

One was that I kept unintentionally skipping/missing class, and even if I tried my hardest to come to class on time, something kept detaining me and I lost credit in all my classes...

Another involved my whole school at a water park, and not really supposed to be there...

And finally my favorite: In between testing periods (we're in testing schedule right now, the ITED and COGAT) I ran across Cederic, even though he's a year ahead of me and at the other end of the hall. I gave him a hug and he hugged me and wouldn't let go. I woke up with the warm tingly feeling of being hugged all over. It's funny, I've dreamed about him so many times, but never has he actually touched me in any of my dreams...

10/4/07
Does anybody give feedback here?
Anyhow, this is my dream, which is really a whole lot of different dreams but it transitioned into itself so smoothly during the dream I don't really want to tear it apart.

It started that we were in a war with Germany (may result from too much US History studying, though we aren't on WWI or WWII yet...) and they were holding some sort of "peace potluck" where we all brought food, and Cora from The Last of the Mohicans (the one from the 1990's) was the American taking part. But then the ambassador who was in charge of the whole thing told her not to go, it was too dangerous. But she did anyhow. And the Germans were all for it, because the actual people taking part were against the war in the first place. But then the people who had caused the war came upon them and started attacking them, and she had to run away. Only one other guy escaped and they ran and ran and ran until they reached a safe place. It looked like the hills from "Sound of Music"... anyhow... this guy was an inventor and he tried to invent some sort of Hot Air Plane, where it flew on hot air, only to have it run he had an oil lamp mounted on his head. And when he ran to get it to start running, the oil spilled and burned him and he died.

This is where it transitions. Cora (in my dream she wasn't really Cora, she was just a person, but when I look back she really did resemble her) was so grief-stricken that she moved back to the United States and enrolled as a senior in public school. (this somehow transitioned smoothly in my dream). Turns out Jacque, Cederic, and I were all enrolling there too (We had to leave private school?) Anyhow, I didn't know ANYONE there AT ALL and I had to change in the locker rooms and stuff and anyway it sucked. So when I finally spotted Cederic in a courtyard, I had a brief moment of lucidity. I remembered the last time I hugged him, he hugged me. So I went to go give him a hug again. This time, he would NOT let me hug him. He refused to be hugged. He actually grabbed my arms and told me not to hug him. He pointed to Jacque. Because I guess Jacque was behind me even though I didn't see him. So I hugged Jacque, but it wasn't quite the same.
And then I woke up.

Sometimes I have thought that Cederic is jealous of Jacque... or at least thinks I like Jacque... I do hang out w/ him a lot, but that's just cuz we're really good friends.

Does anybody have any clue what the meaning of this dream is??? It is downright confusing.

10/5/07
Don't remember anything. My sleep cycle was messed up. I had more extracurricular activities and got home later and went to bed later. Plus, my alarm was different... will have to look up

10/6/07
Ummm... sleep cycle still out of order, I remember snippets of dreams but not much...
One was something with me and Cederic... (I still doubt that he likes me... but we actually talked to each other yesterday, so that's an improvement... we've been ignoring each other)
And the other was about an unmarried couple and they won the lottery so they paid for a big expensive wedding and a lot of other stuff and then they ended up in debt.

I have a new siggy, am checking it out...



AAAAAH! IT DIDN'T WORK!

Back to the drawing board...

Oh wow. it has been awhile since I've posted.
Well. So as to give you some history, i'll go back to my journal and write in some of my significant dreams.
I still haven't been lucid, except once, and that was followed by an FA that made me lose it.

I didn't even dream much because I got so little sleep.

12/30/07
Dreamed about going to europe. Cederic was in it. Yes I still like him.

1/1/08
The whole of human population was running away from somewhere, something, or someone. A huge crowd of people was pressing, pressing in every which way. (I wonder now why crowd asphyxia didn't become a problem). Somehow, Cederic and I ended up next to each other. We grabbed each other (not in a sick way) and I followed him. He never looked back at me, never said anything, but somehow I knew he cared. We kept pushing ahead, away from whatever it was that threatened humanity. I knew I was safe. And somehow I knew telepathically or something that all he could do was keep me safe, even though he wanted to talk to me, wanted to notice me, all he could do was keep me near and safe.
There was some really random stuff after this, and one thing about a school bus and a jump and snowy hills (and that's just one part of the many quickly-flashing and seemingly unrelated scenes -- not all of them had Cederic in them) But the part of the dreamthat was there in every scene was the maleficient power that sought to destroy humankind. I can't remember who or what it was.

Wow. only 2 dreams I recorded in my journal in all that time. Hm. Indicates lack of sleep, I guess.

1/17/08
Hey, I actually LDed today!!! Not very long, admittedly... but... hey...
Finals are today though, so I should be studying for precalc and chemistry.\
Ehhh, it won't take too long.

SO, what happened was, I decided to fly, and I could control lightning, it was pretty cool. The other random people in my dream could fly too, I guess they were trying to prove to me that I wasn't dreaming. Eventually I think I just forgot. I woke up at 5 this morning. I hate that. I have finals!!! I NEED MY SLEEP!!! CHEM FINAL IS TODAY!!!!