Thread: Unseen Wombat's Dream Journal

1-2-08

Today I tried the LD induction mp3 after sleeping for about 4 hours. I had it up too loud and had to turn it down twice. I still couldn’t fall asleep for about an hour I think, but finally did. I got no LD’s from the mp3; once I fell asleep, I couldn’t hear it. Maybe 5-10 minutes of silence first would help.

Naked at school

When I did sleep, I dreamed that I was at school. I was in a room that was similar to my 6th grade classroom, but was more like a college classroom. The class was English I believe. I was in there from 10:30 am to noon, then we had lunch. I went to a food court where they had video blackjack. While I was playing, I think I had a little bit of control, but was still far from lucid. The screen was sometimes a touch screen, and sometimes had little black or green plastic buttons that looked pretty beat up. I was down to 10 cents, then got back up to $2.30 or so and the machine restarted. I was like, "great, now I bet I lost all my money." but when it restarted, I still had my $2.30 in there. I played 20 dollars at the start and lost it all but for 5 cents. I took my nickel and went back to class.

Somewhere along the way, I don’t know if I showered or what, but I somehow lost all my clothes and was in the classroom totally naked. When I noticed, I was embarrassed and ran out to the bathroom before anyone saw. The bathroom was right around the corner and I took down a towel and wrapped it around me. I noticed M.I. from work was in there, sitting on a bench, but I didn't recognize him as the person from work. He was someone I knew from school instead. I was like OMG what should I do, my clothes are in my bookbag in the classroom. Then I realized, no, I left my clothes in my room! I have no clothes to wear! I didn’t know what to do, and I couldn’t figure out if I wanted to ask M.I. to go get them for me or to get my book bag, or to tell my wife to bring them.

I don’t remember what happened after that.

1-3-08

Okay! I had an LD last night that was much more vivid than the few that I had a few weeks ago. I’m going to write down everything I did prior so I can replicate it in the future.

Food: Yesterday, I had 2 breaded pork chops and a few roasted potatoes for lunch. I had a coke plus at work in the morning (I noticed at lunch that it has 25%DV of B6 and B12 in there). Then I had a 44 ounce diet coke with a little regular mixed in from the gas station that afternoon. I had Cici’s for dinner.

Events: Shoveled snow from drive apron when I came home from work. Watched my LTPN video. Went to Gamestop after dinner, then to Lowes to look for hinges. Came home and worked on building the snow-thrower shed until about 10.

Technique: I had been planning on replicating what I had done on 12-22-07, which I posted about in Clarity’s WILD thread, because that night I had felt the “whoosh” and wanted to feel it again, even if I didn’t get an LD. I thought I may have taken a vitamin that night, so I decided that I did! I am deciding to believe taking vitamins will make it easier to get lucid! Anyway, I took my vitamin before bed and set my alarm for 4 hours 20 minutes after I assumed I’d fall asleep at 12:05.

I woke up at 4:25, reset my alarm, and went to the bathroom. I had to restart my portable meditation engine due to 3.71 M33-4 faggotry from my PSP’s firmware. I propped my pillows and tried to WILD.

Results: The WILD didn’t work. I was disappointed that there were no vibrations as soon as I set my head down, but that may be because of how I was laying. There was some tension in my neck that went away when I readjusted the pillow lower. Then I finally did feel vibrations, but, like always, that was all.

I had the electric blanket on 5 all night and was probably too warm, though I felt comfortable. When I gave up the WILD at about 5:50, I turned it completely off. I then took the pillow down and the earphones out and turned to my usual position on my left side.

I was hoping for a DILD, but figured I may as well keep trying to WILD from my side, so I did. I lost consciousness though, and started to dream.

FA Lucid

My mom and I were working in our woodshop. It was sort of like the one we have now in the garage, but much bigger. We had an office and everything. We finished up working, and I went outside. The transition is a blur, but then I was riding my old bicycle around in this beautiful park. It was kind of like a cross between Rocky Mountain National Park, and Brookpark Road. I was in front of the Flea Bazaar when I started thinking this is a dream. Even though the words came to me, it didn’t really register and if that’s technically considered lucid, it was very low level. There was another kid riding a bike with two really fat tires. One tire was small, like the wheel on our moving dolly and the other one was about the same thickness, but as large as a normal bike tire. The small one and the large one kept switching. And I kept thinking this is a dream, but had very little clarity and no control.

I decided I should change my tire too (I don’t know why, they weren’t flat), so I turned my bike over onto the seat and handlebars.

Then suddenly, I’m not there anymore, but I’m watching an Ebay auction of my bike. It didn’t look anything at all like Ebay though. It looked like 4chan, but the color scheme was black with grey text boxes for posts. People bid by posting I think. Someone said “Permaban,” which is a typical nonsensical/inside joke post in 4chan. Then someone else said “Protip: calling for a ban on the guy beating you is not the way to become the high bidder.”

I was trying to read the thread, but the scroll bar kept acting funny. It was moving on its own, like when a web page is loading pictures slowly and everything keeps moving as they load. I did manage to get to the bottom and see someone named “Loveofcats.” (Which, except for the fact that everyone posts as anonymous, is also typical of 4chan. They do loev cats).

I think I was thinking, “This page isn’t working, because I’m dreaming.” But I may have realized that after I woke up.

Anyway, then I had a false awakening, and things got much clearer and more exciting. I woke up in my bed, but my pillow was still propped up and I still had my earphones in. I groaned inside and thought, “Well, another morning wasted with no LD’s to show for it.” Then I realized, “Hey, I took my pillow down earlier. This is a dream!” I half-spun, half-rolled off of my pillow and stood up beside my bed. I pulled out the earphones and looked down at my nightstand. The entire scene seemed weird, and the nightstand changed and distorted a little before settling on one position. The room was my room, but it wasn’t. There were windows on the wall behind the nightstand and next to it, but there are none really in my room.

I got so excited I freaked out. I was like, “Yes! I’m DREAMING!” Everything was very clear and felt just about like real life. I could feel things getting more and more unstable though, and I was afraid to spin or rub my hands, because I felt it would all come down. I wasn’t going to waste the opportunity and not try though, so I thought, “Yes! And Jessica Alba will be right out that door and around the corner!” I reached for the doorknob, but before I could touch it, I woke up.

I looked at the clock and it was 6:15. So I tried to turn over and WILD from my other side, and had a short dream about cavemen and the ice age, but no LD’s.

1-5-08

Holy cow I remembered a lot of dreams last night. Not completely, but after the night before, where I didn't remember a single one, it was better. Sadly none were lucids.

So last night, I went to bed at 12:05. I took my vitamin and a quarter of an actifed right before bed, hoping that the actifed would make me sleep really well at the beginning of the night, then I would get more REM sleep at the end, when I would be trying to LD.

What happened was, I woke up really sleepy at 5:05, at first I didn't realize why, then I remembered the actifed. I was afraid I would totally fall asleep when I WBTB, but I managed to stay awake. I tried to WILD, but though I got vibrations immediately upon putting my head down, that's all I got... Again... Like always... Near when I gave up, I was feeling pretty awake, and didn't want to replicate last night, where I couldn't fall back asleep at all after the WBTB.

So, I turned on my side and set my phone to turn on silently in 15 minutes. I couldn't fall asleep that fast and noticed when it turned on. I was still awake, so I reset it. It didn't work; I didn't notice it while I was asleep, but I had a couple non-lucids though.

Short dream fragments

Early in the night, before the WILD, I had a dream of which I only remember that I was in my house but it was slightly different from the real house. The only difference I can remember was that the closet in our bedroom was a walk in, and it took up the entire front wall. There were also two small openings about a foot square near the bottom which were for putting shoes in. I think we were trying to clean up, because company may have been coming over.

In another early dream, we were in the mall and went to a chinese buffet. There was some kind of tofu thing that I ate that was white with a black bottom.

In another one, my mom and I were transplanting my Coleus plant into the yard outside the trailer where I grew up, next to the creek. It had been growing as part of the ivy vine I used to have that died, and it was the only part left alive, so I clipped it off and put it in the ground. Next thing I knew, it grew really huge there next to the creek.

Church event/Picnic with black family

Later, after the WILD, I think, we were at a church event, like a pot luck, or Christmas party. We went in, and we were pretty late, but they had been passing out toys to the kids. This part is pretty vivid. Carl tried to give me a plastic toy dagger, but I didn't want to take it, reasoning that the church doesn't have that much money and they should keep it to give to someone else. He gave it to me anyway, and either I, or some kid was trying to test one out on the end of the handrail over the stairs. The tip got messed up a little, like a plastic knife should, and then Carl came over and took the blade in his hand and started hitting the tip into the handrail much harder. The handrail was now made of hollow orange plastic, like traffic barrels, and he totally mashed the tip of the knife on it and also bent the end of the rail. At the meal, we were sitting with this black girl and someone else who I don't remember. My mom was talking about how we once went to see a black preacher in New York and she was going on and on about how good he was.

I'm not sure if it was in the same dream, but there was another church's event going on next door. It was a spanish church, and in the dream, we used to go there, but were now part of the other church. (I guess the spanish church was the one we went to while we were in Texas, but I didn't realize this in the dream). I went over there to check it out, and was in the hallway, there were people in the hall who seemed nice enough, but when I looked in the door, there was the pastor speaking in spanish and some old ladies, and I felt embarrassed, like I wasn't supposed to be there, so I went back to my church.

Later, in a different dream, I think, we were sitting at a long picnic table having a meal with a big black family. The grandma was mad about something I think. I went outside, and there was this guy laying on his face next to a tree. I think he may have been hiding? And I think he may have been P.T. from work. There was a sawdust port in the tree and it was spilling sawdust all over him. He stood up and suddenly he was this really really gay black guy. He had on the faggiest outfit, with a light blue sweater and dress shirt. I, or someone else called him a pretty boy, or a gay boy or some kind of boy, I'm not sure, and he kept saying, "Don't call me a ______ boy!"

I went inside to get the black grandma to tell her this guy was outside. She came out, mad, but he was gone. He had left on a plane. We saw a plane taking off really fast just over the horizon.

Kiki on a tight rope

The last dream of the night, I think, was about Kiki from Sluggy Freelance. She and Bun-bun were up on tightropes playing practical jokes on cows in this really big valley beneath them. It was like a series of commercials. The only one I remember well was with Kiki holding a tube of toothpaste and saying "Tip number ??: Pour Paste!" I guess she was going to pour toothpaste on the cows below. She wasn't actually standing on the rope, but on a silver flag attached to the rope.

So, while I remembered a lot of dreams, (I think maybe because of the actifed, I seem to remember this happening in the past when I took actifed before bed), they were all pretty disjointed, and mostly vague. I had to struggle to remember them when I woke up. I think I either need to not take actifed before bed, or I need to take more to be sure that I cut out the first REM period of the night. I don't think that happened this time.

Wow, finally I get to write in my dream journal. I've been busy today. I know I had 3 pretty good dreams last night, because I remember waking up and knowing I had just dreamed, but I immediately forgot what they were. I meant to do a DEILD, but lifted my head to look at my clock, so I screwed it up. Thinking about that rather than my dream made me forget it just like that. When I woke up at 6:00, I hadn't remembered a single thing, and was pretty bummed out about that. I used a new preset in my portable meditation engine. I'm lowering the frequency to 4 Hz rather than 6, because I think that was keeping me too awake. I started at 8 Hz, then down to 4 in one minute, then slowly back up to 6, then rapidly back down to 4, then slowly back up to 8.

When I tried to WILD this morning, I was hoping to see some HI again, but instead, I felt some really really strong vibrations. It was almost like the whoosh. It may have been. I felt it twice in fact by focusing only on the counting and trying to ignore the vibrations. I'll have to try that again. I may be pretty close! If I could only figure out how to transition from vibrations to an LD, I would be there, since I just about always get vibrations.

Egyptians and cats

I was in the desert. There were ancient ruins there that looked sort of like the Coliseum, but I'm not sure. There was a sherriffs deputy there, and he was investigating the Egyptians inside the ruin. The Egyptians had learned how to "reanimate cats." (That's what they said in the dream). I was walking around in there and saw cats dressed in priests robes walking around like people with human priests. I watched as they had a very old mummy sitting in a chair and they brought him back to life. They gave him a mirror and he looked at himself approvingly. He looked like he was about 30 years old, but when I looked at him from a different angle, he was more like 50.

Later, I was outside the temple and I flew over it. Unfortunately, I was looking at it in 3rd person. I flew over the top part and sliced off the top of the parapet.

Trying to meet Danielle

In the only other dream I remember, I was in this neighborhood that was kind of like Seven Hills. Some old friends from school, though I don't remember which ones, were there. We were hanging out on this tower made out of wooden beams that was like the high tension tower in the field. I got a call from Danielle who wanted to see me. We were talking and I lost the signal. (I haven't seen her in like 12 years). I called Vince to tell him about this, but, just like in real life, I only got his voicemail. I tried to call Danielle back a couple times, but couldn't get a hold of her either. I was irritated that I hadn't put her number in speed dial and had to keep finding her in contacts. I found like 5 of her phone numbers on an old record stored in my blue alarm clock. One of them was labled the "golden dragon" or golden something, I can't remember.

I was trying to get to her and I was in this building and there were traps around some corners and just through some doors, where a beam would fall on you from the ceiling. It was sort of like a video game, but I didn't recognize it as a video game at the time. It was just a situation that reminded me of a video game now that I'm awake. This has happened twice before too. If there were only a way of recognizing this as a dreamsign while actually in my dreams.

I had a hard time remembering the rest of the dream, and if I try to write more, I'll just be guessing.

1-7-08

My dream recall was really good last night. I went to sleep with the intention to DEILD and actually woke up and remembered to not move or open my eyes. I was trying to visualize myself saying this is not real, and doing a reality check, but I still slipped into a non-lucid dream. This happened twice. The second time I moved after I realized it wasn’t working (I was really hot) and tried for a FILD instead. Still, I slipped into a non-lucid dream, but it was a continuation of the previous one.

When I tried to WILD later, I could hardly even get vibrations. I was bummed that I didn't get to try to make them really strong again like yesterday.

Angry Levinia

In the first dream, I remember only that Levinia, a loud black lady from Church was really mad at my wife about something. She was going on and on about how she treated her really nice and this was the thanks she got. I woke up from this and tried to DEILD.

Searching for gemstones

Then I dreamed that again, I was in this video game situation. I was floating around on a cloud in one part, and a girl DC with long straight brown hair (my dream guide maybe?) was teaching me about powers and picking up gemstones or something like that. I remember I was flying a plane all over the world looking for gemstones. One time on the world map, I saw a necklace icon with a big pink stone just north of Venezuela. I flew down there and either my mom or my wife said, “It’s not really there.” I don’t know where they thought it actually was. I went skin diving to find it and it was right there on the ocean floor. I looked around and there were a whole lot of other gemstones in like post earring settings. They were all diamonds and topazes. I picked up a lot of them and was like, “I love this place!”

Toothache/Dentist appointment

As I was looking for all these things, I was in some tropical place, and I got a toothache while in the water. I told my mom about it and she said to call Dr. Kho (my orthodontist from when I was like 12 years old). My mom told me that it was a kidney problem though. We were now in this park in downtown Houston, that doesn’t really exist AFAIK.

I called him and got his receptionist. She said he could only see me next Wednesday at 6:15. I asked if it was am or pm, and she said pm. I told the receptionist to hold on, and was discussing it with my mom who said he would probably just pull the tooth and wouldn’t even know that it was really a kidney problem. I started arguing with her, saying that I didn’t want to go to him if he wasn’t even going to fix the problem. I decided to go ahead and make the appointment anyway.

I said hello on the phone and it was a different receptionist this time. She told me again that it would be 6:15. Then she started saying something about we owed him money for a phone call my wife made to Brazil. I said yeah, I wanted to talk to them about that, because we definitely did not make that phone call.

Then, and this was really strange, the volume in my dream got really loud, so loud that it startled me and almost woke me up, I think. The receptionist shouted at me, “DO YOU REALIZE THAT THIS HAPPENED OVER ONE HOUR AGO?” Then I got mad and started yelling back, but couldn’t get my point across right. I was trying to tell her that we don’t sit there and check our phone record every minute looking for signs that someone stole her identity to make phone calls to Brazil. When I was finished, the receptionist was polite again, but I don’t remember what she said.

I woke up from this and this is where I tried to DEILD, but it didn’t work, so I shifted to a FILD, which just took me back into a continuation of the non-lucid dream.

Park development

I was in the same park, which was called "international ________ park" according to the sign. There was a logo on the sign that looked kind of like 4 colors arranged in a square representing 4 seasons or something. I was taking my lunchtime from work. There was a triangular banner flying near the sign at the street corner that said “Coming Soon: ____________.” I don’t remember what was coming soon that time. But later, maybe on a different day, or just when I looked at it again, the words had changed, (why didn’t this make me lucid? ), and they were going to change the park into something else. I think maybe a skate park. Then later, I saw this commercial with some white rapper who was talking about a “Hip Hop History” park. And I was like, what a stupid thing. Then I looked at where he was standing and recognized it as the street corner of that same park! I was mad that they were gonna change the park to something so stupid.

The mayor of Houston was Mike White. (a black guy who used to be the mayor of Cleveland, actually. Are black people my dreamsign? I’ve been seeing them a lot lately). He was having a press conference out at the street corner of the park. He said he knew there was some controversy over what to do with the park. He said that there were other options, like we could turn the park into a library. Then he started to explain the benefits of having a library at that location. Like he wouldn’t have to go into a different area of the city and “pick up” new constituents (that’s what he said). This would help him in the elections. I visualized this as the mayor and all the people standing around him as potatoes in my bowl that my wife always puts my lunch in. There were only a few potatoes and there was pepper and gravy on the other side of the bowl. I scooped the potatoes over to the pepper and gravy side to “pick up” the pepper. The mayor’s reasoning made perfect sense to me. I thought the library was a great idea.

I ate the potatoes, which were no longer the mayor and those people. They were just my lunch.

1-8-07

Well, I was sick like a dog last night. Just like that time I got food poisoning when we were living in Texas. The only thing I had to eat before I started feeling bad was a double hamburger from McDonalds in Westlake. Some f**king high school dropout probably didn't wash his hands after using the bathroom and made me sick. I still don't feel so hot.

What makes it worse was my Galantamind arrived yesterday, so I was all excited about trying it out, then I keep feeling worse and worse, and by the time I went to sleep, I was all out sick. I didn't even go to work today, (which almost makes being so sick worth it, but not really).

I went to bed last night and thought forget it, I'm not gonna remember anything, but surprisingly, I did remember a couple dreams.

Various fragments

In the first one, my wife and I were vacationing in the arctic. There were polar bears. She was teaching tae kwon do to some people. I went up to her to try to join the practice, but she brushed me off, as though she were too busy with her other students and she could teach me any time. I don't remember any more than that.

In another one, my wife and I were in a bike race. I remembered a lot about it earlier, but now I've forgotten most of it. I remember something about there being a train that we were riding around, and I almost got hit when I got off the tracks to let it go by and another train came in the opposite direction along the other tracks.

That's all I remember, though, considering how I felt, I'm surprised I remembered any. I hope I feel well enough to try my Galantamind tonight.

1-9-07

Well, last night was the night. I finally tried my Galantamind. The results are still inconclusive. I thought I would have ultra high level lucids with a minimum of effort, and um, yeah. That didn’t happen. I fell asleep at about 12:20 I believe, still feeling pretty crappy. I had a headache that intensified whenever I stood up too fast, and I still had some cramping in my belly, but at least I wasn’t throwing up. So, I figured I was well enough to try the Galantamind.

I woke up at 4:25, used the bathroom, set my psp to the old WILD setting and took one 4 mg pill. I laid back down with the pillows propped up. Except for the pill, this is almost exactly what I did the night of 1-3-08, when I had that great lucid.

I tried to WILD, which I think now may have been a mistake. By the time I gave up the WILD (as usual, only vibrations, and I tried to not focus on them) I was too awake to fall back to sleep.

I finally managed to fall back asleep and had a non-lucid. It wasn’t very interesting, was pretty clear, but not what I was hoping for, obviously. I think I may have had a lucid after that, but I don’t think it’s humanly possible to have a crappier one.

This Saturday, I’m going to try 8 mg, and I’m going to just try to sleep and hope for a DILD. Maybe I’ll just keep it by my bed with some pop and not even get up to take it.

I remembered 2 dreams last night. Both happened after I got up at 4:25.

Skee ball

The first one, I think happened while I was trying to WILD from my back and fell asleep. I was at Dave & Buster’s, playing skee ball. The dream was pretty vivid, and almost like real life, (i.e. crazy dream logic wasn’t prevailing, and there weren’t long stretches that I don’t remember, making the dream a bunch of disjointed events without clear transitions), though still non-lucid. I was playing and the jackpot was up to 552 tickets. I kept hitting 50’s. The numbers in my score were messed up. It read 7 hundred something when I was down to 2 balls, (which is impossible), though this didn’t seem at all strange to me, because that’s also what happens in real life. If you hit too many 50’s in a row, it breaks the scoring mechanism and your score goes to impossibly high numbers. So, that didn’t trigger a lucid, and I wouldn’t have expected it to. It spit out the tickets and instead of 552, I counted them, and there were only 52. I wasn’t upset about this for some reason.

The jackpot reset to 100, and I played and won again. There was a little girl there with, I think, her brother, and she was watching me play and cheering me on. Then I looked around, and no one else was playing. So rather than waste my credits to get only 100 ticket jackpots, I quit.

My new office(s)

I woke up and made a mental note to remember this dream, and turned to my side to try to WILD that way. (I probably should have just gone to sleep). I gave up after a little bit, and it took me a while, but eventually I drifted off, and dreamed I was back at my job in Houston. Glenn came into my office (which was not my office, in fact, it seemed like they had moved into a different building), and didn’t seem very friendly like he usually was. He told me they needed me to work on this project for this client. He mentioned Area 251, and I wondered if it was sorta like Area 51. It had something to do with these machines, I guess for communications. (Not my real job, and not even what our company dealt with in real life). They were shaped, roughly, like my Woodmaster, and had lights and a telephone receiver on top and were covered with a dome of glass. He told me what they were, but I had no clue what he was talking about, and I don’t remember what he said. He said that we had had a meeting out there with them and I suddenly remembered walking between these machines and I wondered what the telephone was for. It wasn’t for a person to talk on. I guess it was for the machine to communicate somehow. I wondered why then, it was shaped for a human to talk on.

Anyway, I was in my office and was trying to make sense of the papers he gave me, but I had no clue. I don’t know anything about machines. I didn’t even really know what I was supposed to be doing.

For part of the dream, my office was almost like the office I actually had when I worked there. Later in the dream, my office was on the outside wall of the building. I had a window in there (yay!) and there was this like, toy castle, about 3 feet square off on the side of my room, or across the hall. I had a toy cannon on top and some other things. Someone had left me a miniature castle and something else. I really liked them, and put them on the top of the play castle. I went out of that office and down to another one. The office I thought was mine had the door closed, so I figured that wasn’t it. I found mine and was like, “Cool! I have 2 offices!”

I’m not sure what I did in there, but then I went to Glenn’s office. It was huge. It was like the office of the president of the company I’m at now, but like twice as big, with a curved row of built-in cabinets in the middle of the left side of the room. The entire right side was all windows, and that’s where his desk was. I don’t remember what I asked him.

Worst lucid ever

After I woke up, I was trying to fall asleep, and at one point I think I succeeded. I think I was looking at a beautiful blonde woman, and I said “Hey! I’m dreaming!” Almost immediately, it seemed like a sound, though it was inaudible, went “SHOOOOOOOMMMMP,” and I was awake. So if I’m correct and I was in fact asleep at that time, that was the shortest, crappiest lucid I think is humanly possible to have.

1-10-07

This sux. I'm still feeling crappy. Again, I took off work. Today I went to the doctor, who agreed that I had food poisoning.

Last night I hardly remembered anything. I was just trying to get some good sleep so hopefully my headache would go away. This morning it did feel better, but now it hurts again.

The only dream I remembered slightly last night was one where I was in my basement hanging clothes. there was a light on the ceiling, which was sloped for some reason. It wasn't an ordinary light though. There was a mesh screen on this, like, nozzle, and propane or gas was glowing blue in the air. There was no mantle or anything, just the nozzle and burning gas. I was afraid to touch the knob on the side to adjust the brightness because I thought it might be hot.

Yeah, that's all. Pretty pitiful. I hope I can try my Galantamind this weekend again. If I still have a headache though, I'm not gonna waste it.

1-11-08

I had pretty good recall last night. I seem to have the ability to wake up after every REM period and remember what I was dreaming about. Tonight was especially good, because I didn’t have to struggle to recall the dreams I had just had. I had a hard time falling asleep, because I had slept that morning until 10:00, though the other side of that coin is I was well rested, so that may have helped my recall.

So, last night before sleep, I repeated to myself many, many times, “I will wake up after every dream and I will remember all my dreams.” That always seems to give me results. I also repeated, “I am dreaming and I know that I am dreaming,” a lot, but not quite as many times. If only that would work for me as well. It never seems to though.

I woke up after what I believe was my first REM period and only remember that I recalled the dream. I didn’t stop to consciously etch it into my memory though and fell back asleep, hoping, I guess, for a DEILD, but I didn’t get it. So I don’t remember that one.

Epic river adventure

I woke up later and remembered the dream and remembered to remember it. In the dream, I was with these three guys. One was a skinny black kid (I think he was black). One was a big fat kid, and the other one was, I think, Greg from camp, who I haven’t seen in like 15 years.

We were planning on going on an adventure, or something. I was rich and had a butler and a big house with a swimming pool on a large sunken back patio. The swimming pool somehow connected to a river that flowed nearby and me and these guys were building a vessel to ride down the river. Early in the dream, it was a raft made out of plywood, but was later more like an airplane with 2 fuselages and round wings.

We were using pieces of the handrails that were all over this back patio to build it. I was trying to keep it secret from the butler that we were doing this, because I knew he would try to stop me. He noticed that the handrails were falling apart, and I was like, “Oh yeah, they must be getting old. Look, it’s happening over here too.” I guess he didn’t suspect anything though.

I think he may have been blind, because he never noticed the big floating airplane sitting in the swimming pool except for once. He touched it and reached his hand inside the door. My grandpa, who died 4 years ago, was sitting between the two front seats, trying to keep still. The butler touched the seats and his hand touched my grandpa’s teeth, which I think he assumed were metal parts of the plane/raft, and he just walked away. Maybe, now that I think of it, he wasn’t trying to stop us from building the raft, but from smuggling my grandpa out of there.

Anyway, later, we had launched it into the river, and the fat kid and the black kid were unable to come. I vaguely remember the fat kid trying to climb on top of it from the outside, (it was plywood at this time) but he couldn’t hang on. I don’t know what happened to the black kid. So it was just me and Greg floating down the river. I don’t really remember what happened after this. I do remember something about being older, like the age I am now, and we were at a beach partying. I had a glass of some kind of booze in my hand and we were wading through the surf with a lot of other people.

Epic church group vacation/Naughtiness at Amish Restaurant

In the next dream, there were some naughty bits. I think what I’ll do is change the color of the font at that point to the background color, that way if anyone doesn’t want to see it, they don’t have to.

So, I was on vacation with a church group. (Of all the people to be with while having naughty dreams). We were going to Golgotha, which for some reason, I didn’t feel was in Israel, but somewhere in the Midwest. I had watched a video about it in the dream, and when the van arrived, it was exactly like the video showed. There was a gigantic double door there, and it had the yin yang symbol on the middle of it so that when you opened the doors, the yin and yang separated with the 2 doors. There were these traps then on the other side. Giant statues would swing swords down at you and move from one side to the other. There were two little knobs on the door jamb that would turn these statues off.

Well, me and this other guy, Vince, I think, walked through and avoided the swords (which weren’t really sharp anyway). We were standing around talking and the statues came at me again! I had forgotten to turn the knob and turn off the statues. So I did this, and we walked on.

There was then a stone arch that we passed through, and there was another trap! This time, the statues weren’t giant metal things, but they were people that looked like they had been covered in flour. We had to fight them to keep going on. (For all that this sounds like a video game dream, like my previous ones, I didn’t get the video game feel from this one like I did in those. This felt like serious business). So, Vince was fighting one statue, which had some kind of weapon I don’t remember, and I was fighting one that was the black kid from the previous dream! He was covered in flour, and was dressed in some kind of armor. Sometimes he had a sword, and sometimes he didn’t.

I had this sword and the hilt and handle was really loose. There was also a couple links of chain dangling from the pommel. I held on to this and swung the sword in circles around my head and would bring it down on the statue from time to time. The sword wasn’t sharp at all, and the black kid/statue was never even hurt a little from it.

When we were done fighting, the black kid said to me something like, “I didn’t think you would be any good, but you actually did pretty well.”

So, I guess we were allowed to go on, but I don’t remember what happened further in. The next thing I knew, we were in the van. We stopped at this Amish restaurant. This is where things get naughty. Don’t highlight the following text if you don’t want to read it.

There was this girl in there. She had brown hair and was totally naked. She was pretty young, maybe only 18, maybe even younger (Gawd I’m a perv), but still old enough to be hot. She wasn’t thin and sexy like a model, but was kind of thick, though not at all fat. She was sitting on this sort of narrow ledge by the wall with her feet pulled up on there with her, so I could see her whole world, if you know what I mean. I started licking her you-know-where, and she said “Hey! You can’t do that here! This is an Amish place!” I wanted to keep going, and I looked around. There was nobody in the hall where we were, but I knew someone could come at any minute. I was unsure what I should do, so I stopped.

In another part of the restaurant, which had somehow also become a hotel, there were stairs going down to this lower hallway. At the other end of the hall were stairs going up. Down there, they were filming/showing a porno movie. I guess it was like a stage show, but you could control it like a DVD. I was watching and feeling guilty about it. That’s really all I remember about that part.

So that’s it. I did remember to take my vitamin last night, and this morning, my head didn’t hurt so much like it did when I went to bed. (This has happened for the past 2 nights). Tomorrow, I’m trying my Galantamind again. This time without trying to WILD, but MILD instead. I’m hoping I’ll have a super real LD like that one last week.

1-12-08

I tried the Galantamind again last night. I didn't get any good lucids, though I'm pretty sure I had one DEILD. It was pretty low level. But I did recall a full five dreams. I think that has more to do with the fact that I slept for almost 10 hours and made a point of remembering to write them down, even the first one of the night than the fact that I took the Galantamind.

Okay, here we go.

Scary Ronald McDonald at mall

In the first dream, I was working for Sunglass Hut again. I haven't worked there since the beginning of 2002. I remember being in the store, and Shelley, my co-worker and skipping-out-on-work buddy was there with me. All I remember was that she was a photographer. I think me and Bob, my boss from when I worked there, were talking about her photographs.

I guess my shift ended, and I walked out into the parking lot with Bob. We were talking, but I don't remember about what. Near the back of the parking lot, there was water falling from the sky. I couldn't see where it was coming from, but it was like falling on a round spot a little smaller than a car. From the side of this waterfall, a smaller stream of water was coming out perpendicularly and falling next to it.

I walked back towards the mall and in the parking lot was this really scary Ronald McDonald. He reminded me of that picture of the girl Ronald McDonald eating a human arm. He was chasing around this little girl with red hair and yellow makeup. I guess she was like a child McDonald's clown. She ran back to the mall and the police came out of the doors and arrested him. Then I woke up.

Harry Potter at the library

In the next dream, I was Harry Potter. I was in a library in a line of students and was checking out 2 books on math. I went out the doors and Ted, one of the big shots at the company where I work, was signing the front of them as part of the checkout. It really looked and sounded 100% like him too. Nothing of the usual DC's who don't really resemble their real life counterparts, but I just know that's who they are. He said he would have to sign it every week. I guess they had problems with people stealing or not returning books or something, and this was supposed to prevent it. I don't remember anything else, but I woke up after this one and wrote these two dreams down.

SNL car accident

In my third dream, some members of the cast of Saturday Night Live had visited Alaska. The only one I recognized was Tina Fey. (But she wasn't as like her real self as Ted was in the previous dream). There had been a car accident up there, and they were now reenacting it for the show. I remember the words "Someone coming at us wants to pass." I knew in my dream that this somehow caused a head-on collision. I woke up again, and wrote this one down.

Then I got up, 5 minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off actually, and took my Galantamind. I woke myself up pretty good. Brushed my teeth, used the toilet. The cats were acting restless, so I figured they had run out of chows, but when I went to the basement, the bowl was still full. I did an RC. I was awake.

I went BTB, but couldn't get to sleep for like almost an hour. Luckily I did before the Galantamind kicked in.

Parma Electric/Rude Mexicans DEILD

In my next dream, I was driving my car, and there were these 2 Mexicans sitting in the street. They were supposed to be pushing this blue cart, like the ones they have at Lowes, but they were being lazy I guess. I pulled my car really close to them, and they got up and got their cart. They were staring at me like they were mad. The one guy pushing it turned the back end into my car and hit it on purpose. I was really mad and decided I wasn't gonna take that crap. This part is pretty vivid. I remember being nervous, because I knew a fight was coming. I wondered if I could really take both of those guys. I think I may have been semi-lucid at this point because I was pretty confident. I think it crossed my mind that this was a dream and of course I could take them. I don't remember for sure though.

I got out of my car and looked at it. It was really bad. Worse than it should have been after just being bumped by the corner of a Lowe’s cart. The front edge of the door was bent in, and so was the back edge of the front fender and the rear-view mirror. I didn’t see any scratches though. So I looked at the guys and started yelling or something. The fight didn’t happen though, because then all the people they worked with, their supervisors and stuff came over and were standing around. They seemed to care and were apologetic that the kid hit my car.

Here’s now where I’m pretty sure I got lucid. I briefly woke up from this and remembered to DEILD. I felt vibrations, but, like usual, that’s all that happened. I was suddenly back in the dream though. I was in the store that I assume those guys worked for. There was a lady behind the counter, and I think she was worried I was going to sue them. I think she was the owner of the store. It was like a small hardware or electrical parts store, (kinda like Parma Electric on W. 130th).

I wasn’t really attracted to the lady but since I was lucid, you can imagine where I wanted this to go. I didn’t have much control, but right away, there was this roulette wheel of all these girls. I knew I was supposed to pick the one I wanted from these girls. Pictures were flashing rapidly in front of me. I saw one that I thought was hot, and concentrated on her every time her picture passed, and tried to will it to come up more often. Finally, I was back in the store, and I saw a triangular shaped box, about 2 feet long with the girl’s picture on it. The reason I’m pretty sure I was lucid is because next, I took the box to the counter said to the lady, “Tell me where I can find her and I won’t be mad at you.” (I knew that it was only a dream car so I didn’t care if she paid to have it fixed or not, but I wanted that girl). She seemed happy and told me the girl was about an hour away from there and that she was a musician. I was upset because that seemed like a long way away. I think I went after her, and ended up in what I’m calling my next dream, because I lost lucidity.

Sony Flintstones movie

So, in my last dream of the night, I had gone after the girl on the triangular box, and I arrived at a McDonalds. I lost lucidity, like I said, and I was now a part of this Flintstones movie that was being made by Sony. Yeah, so someone gave me this rifle. It had a trigger and stock and was just like a real rifle, but it didn’t shoot bullets. There was this suede leather slingshot-type thing on the front of it, and it shot stones. I had a small roll of string that came with it, and was supposed to use it to set up the slingshot mechanism. At this point, I didn’t know that, so instead, I used just the leather sling and put the roll of string in it and shot that across the McDonalds. It worked pretty good. Not lethal at all, but like you would expect from a Flintstones gun.

I was looking at other peoples’ rifles and saw that they had their string tied to this like figure eight metal thing attached to the front, and I realized that I had been doing it wrong.

Then I sat down with these black people. (I think black people must be my dreamsign. Especially having a meal with black people. I see them a lot. I don’t know why, but I do). There was one guy who was going on and on about how Sony had given them everything. He was pointing to all the things in the McDonald’s around him, which were painted bright colors, blue, red, pink, green… and saying stuff like, “See this molding? Sony gave this to us.” I realized that he was a person who only existed in the movie and it was true, Sony was like his god.

The owner of the McDonald’s, who was black too, wanted to give my mom a job. She thought that they were just going to ask her to be assistant manager, but later discovered they wanted her to be head manager. She had already decided to turn down the offer. They seemed pretty mad about it. They had been nice to us before, (though I don’t remember that part of the dream), but now wouldn’t even talk to us.

It was near my birthday, so they had given me a birthday cupcake, with this like, conical birthday candle on top. Me and my mom walked up to the counter because we wanted to order some food, and they owner and cashier didn’t even say anything to us. We just stood there, uncomfortable, and the cashier finally said, “Well, is that all?” referring to my cupcake. I said, no, I’d like a… Big Mac meal. (I hardly ever get a Big Mac because it has an absurd amount of calories). I knew this in the dream, but figured it was just this once, so it was okay. That’s all I remember, and that was the end of my dreaming for the night.

Wow, that was a lot of writing.

So, the Galantamind did get me a lucid, I’m pretty sure, just not very high level. Still, it was better than immediately waking up like the last time, and it was a DEILD, which is something I’ve never done before.

I’m going to keep trying the autosuggestion. Last night I said, “I will wake up after all my dreams and I will remember them all,” and “I am dreaming, and I know that I am dreaming,” until I fell asleep. That seemed to work pretty good.

EDIT: Shoot, I remember one other thing now, like 3 days later. I had a false awakening somewhere in all these dreams. I was trying to write down a dream on my notepad. I had this ring on that was shaped like a spider and had an LED in it so that I could illuminate my notepad and see what I was writing. (that's really a good idea. I would pursue making something like that if I didn't usually write with my eyes closed anyway). My wife woke up and got out of bed. I hid my notepad under the covers and put out the light. That's all I remember. I wish I would've done an RC here. It was really real, and I could've had a great LD from this.

Originally Posted by unseen wombat

so I thought, “Yes! And Jessica Alba will be right out that door and around the corner!” I reached for the doorknob, but before I could touch it, I woke up.

Yeowch. Isn't it always the way? lol
I'm sure you'll get some JA action soon enough.

I often become lucid at the end of a long dream. Then before I get a chance to do much I wake up naturally, or my alarm goes off and wakes me up.

Your dreams are very detailed. Nice recall

Thanks man. I almost had some this morning, I was trying to VILD into it, but I couldn't get back to sleep. I guess it must have been making me too excited. In my journal, I try to write down every single thing I remember, even if it doesn't make much sense.

1-13-08

So last night, I tried the Galantamind again, even though I know I shouldn't do it 2 days in a row. I only had 4 mg both days, so It shouldn't matter, I think. I had horrible recall last night. I had to really struggle to remember anything. My notes are a mess, I wrote them half asleep, and they barely make any sense. I did take some singular before going to sleep. I wonder if that messes up my recall. I think that may have happened before. Oh well, here's what I remember.

Various fragments

I had just seen my best friend from high school, Chris. I think he was driving a red sports car that sometimes turned pink. I don't know if it was him driving or if it was this girl. I was out in the Field by my old house, and I was trying to call him. He had left this girl's driver's license at my house.

In another dream, I was out in the street throwing icicles like spears. I slipped on the ice. Then I got on a train, which was also sometimes a hotel and was laying in bed. (This seems to happen a lot, places also being hotels). Three guys wanted to watch some kind of relaxing DVD.

Those are the dreams I vaguely remember from before I got up at 5:45. Then I took my Galantamind and went back to bed right away. Twice during DEILD attempts I felt really like I was floating. I then got too awake and couldn’t transition back into a dream.

Tekken stage pornstars/Evil pear

So in my next dream, I was in this building. The outside of it was like the space station platform from Tekken 5. There was an old guy there who was a doctor, or researcher or something. There were also porn stars there One of the girls had this peach. It was a really weird shape and it was wriggling across the table. She cut it in half lengthwise, and the doctor started studying it. It was up on a monitor and he was touching different parts of it with the tip of a knife. Every time he did, this one part in the upper right reacted. It was like a brain.

We then went out to the platform to get it on with the pornstars. There was a mound of rock out there. Me and the doctor were sitting on top. Some of the girls had on thigh-high leggings. I knew they had worn them especially for me because they knew I liked them. This made me feel really nice. They all had kneepads on, because the hill was made of rock, and I guess they knew they would be kneeling.

There was this black shadow stuff coming from the peach and we had to go back in to take care of it. It was evil or something, and we knew it could possess people. We thought about sending it to the moon. I wondered if this would kill it. I didn’t think so, but it would keep it away from people. I worried about the astronauts though.

In another dream, I was a warrior again fighting for the Spartans at Thermopylae. We were on a ship though and it was on a volcano. The enemies couldn’t beat us because we had a ship and had all the supplies we needed. They then built a ship too to attack us. I don’t remember any more.

1-14-08

Last night, I tried ParadigmShift's WILD method, where you try to visualize yourself sliding around your bed. It didn't work for me, and I lost some recall because of it. I still think it's worth a try though.

DIY channel landscaping

In my first dream of the night, and also the shortest, there was this guy who was like a cross between Mike Rowe from Dirty Jobs and Kyle Champley from DIY. He was removing some landscaping trees. There was loose, paper thin bark on the tree which he peeled off. I thought he shouldn’t do that, because it would kill the tree, but then I noticed there was still some bark that was good and attached to the tree. He pointed out how tall they were when the family he was doing this for bought them by looking at the bark patterns. He tossed them over onto a mound by the creek. (I think it was the creek; the same one I planted the coleus by in a previous dream). There was a little pond with some penguins swimming in it right behind the house. I had to go in there to get something. A tree he threw in there? I stepped on cinder blocks that were there for that purpose and was too close to the edge I guess, because the top block started to tip off the bottom one. I tried to keep balance, but my foot still fell in the water. Got both feet wet to get myself out. The first foot was really cold and wet, but the second foot I put in the water didn’t get too wet.

There were then some other birds swimming in the pond. I called them puffins in the dream, but I don’t think they resembled real life puffins. They had blue stripes on their heads. I wanted to pick one up and pet it. They were swimming and flying around and didn’t like me to hold them. I did it anyway. The puffin was struggling in my arms and tried to bite me.

Gas station Chinese buffet

In the next dream, I was in a gas station/rest stop. I had to go to the bathroom. A little kid was waiting in front of me at this portable toilet. It was being used by a Mexican who was taking a shower in there. He had been in there a long time. He opened the door and said something to us like, sorry he was using it.

In another part of this same dream, I think, I was inside the gas station and there was a Chinese buffet. Me, a Hispanic guy, and two Asians were supposed to go there as part of our job and do something with their safe. The Hispanic told me to just wait with him in a booth, because the asian owners wouldn’t trust us with their secrets. I saw one of the asian guys I came with putting something in the lock of their safe. It was like a ½” peg with a hole at one end. I had seen this IRL earlier yesterday. My mom dropped it while we were in the garage. I don’t really remember much else.

Harry Potter in library/elevator

In my final dream, I was Harry Potter. I was with Malfoy in a library. It was a lot like the library at my grade school, but this one was way up on an upper floor. We had old-fashioned pistols and rifles with lead shot. I guess the school was a military school as well as a magic school. I also had medicine bottle full of pencil leads in my jean pocket. I wondered how the pencil leads didn’t just fall out, because there was no lid.

We had to do drills with our guns. I don’t know why, but we did. When we were done, Malfoy went out to the elevators. Ginny was in there, but I was still in the library room. Malfoy said, “Can you get to her before I do?” I stayed in library for some reason. I think he may have locked me in there, because I reducto’d the glass doors open. The glass blew up everywhere. Very satisfying. I opened the elevator doors, I think with magic, but I don’t think I blew them apart, and I slid down cables. I was worried that it would burn my hands, but it didn’t.

When I reached the elevator car, I opened the hatch and did an “explodio” spell inside. I guess to try to get Malfoy, or maybe just to confuse the people inside. I wondered what the difference was between reducto and explodio. Suddenly, I just knew that reducto destroys things. Explodio is just an explosion at the end of a wand and doesn’t damage anything. I started pulling off parts of the ceiling, which was made of a single sheet of plastic and was sort of perforated, so it came off in square pieces. I went in the elevator which was very crowded. Malfoy wasn’t there. Ginny with was in there though, with 3 other red haired girls. I thought they may all be sisters, but then realized that only one of them was. They just liked to all hang out together. They all had really really red hair. Like Josie from Blake Holsey High. Ginny’s older sister was irritated with me for breaking into the elevator.

When we got to the ground floor, There were all these dogs and cats around the elevator shaft, which was much bigger than the elevator itself. Somehow in the confusion, I had dropped my pencil leads, which were now pencils. After I tried to talk to Ginny and her older sister, I went back to the elevator and realized the dogs had eaten all my pencils I tried to take some pencils that were lying on the floor. A blonde girl doing homework on the elevator floor said not to take those. They were hers and it was against tradition for me to take them. I woke up after this and it was 6:15. I had been asleep almost 30 minutes.

1-15-08

Today wasn’t a good day for dreaming. I went to bed at 12:05 last night, and even before I had a chance to MILD with my autosuggestion phrases, I was asleep. I didn’t wake up after all my dreams like usual, and I hardly remembered even the late ones. I guess I must have been too exhausted from all these LD attempts over the past month, and maybe I needed this time to get some uninterrupted sleep. My alarm was set for 4:45, like usual, and when it went off, I didn’t think to even reset it for 6:45. Still I woke up on time for work on my own, even though I was still dead tired.

The dreams: I remember very few details about 2 dreams last night. In one dream, I was in this national park, I think, and there was a road that they were shutting down, because I guess they didn’t want cars going through anymore? They did this by cutting out a portion of the road in this little sag curve area and filling it with water. The water only covered the road, and didn’t spread over the land. I also vaguely remember something about being on train tracks which I think were for the RTA. I really don’t remember what I was doing there. I also remember something about a bridge, and the engineer for the park, I guess, wanted to make a path down to the depression beneath the bridge. Then we saw that there was an opening in the wingwall of the bridge abutment that was made for a person to walk down there. He said, “Oh, we already have one.” So we didn’t do anything there.

In a later dream, I was in this hotel lobby. There was a convention going on there or something, and I think I lived there. This was my hotel lobby/bedroom. I had no pants on, but I did have my grey winter coat, which was long enough to cover me. My dresser was on an island in the middle of the lobby, and I took out a pair of underwear. I went into a bathroom to put them on, and just as I’m about to do that, this guy walks in! I said something like, “Excuse me, I’m using this…” He just looked at me like he expected me to leave. I continued, “So, could you um, get out?” I made a shooing motion. “I’ll only be a minute.” He then understood and left. I put on my underwear with my coat still on. I was going to hurry out of there, so I could let the guy use the bathroom, but I figured that while I was in there I may as well use the toilet. That’s all I remember.

I hope I’ve recuperated enough now, since tonight is my night for the Galantamind. Tonight will have been the third day since I last took it. I’m going to try 8 mg this time and see if the effects are amplified. I’ve had a pretty decent record of at least getting lucid with 4 mg so far, but the lucids have been pretty crappy.

EDIT: It's 10:20 and I just fell asleep for about 15 minutes. Yeah, I'm bad. I saw some interesting HI. Probably some of the most vivid I've seen. The black and grey colors on the back of my eyelids were flowing and shifting into different shapes. It was really trippy. I tried to not focus on them, but I saw something like my old desk from work, I saw a mailbox, and I saw a pentagon. I'm awake right now, (yes, I did an RC), but I can still feel slight vibrations in the back of my head.

All this happened just before I told myself I would wake up, and when my phone alarm was set for. This may be something worth pursuing. WBTB, fall asleep for 15 minutes, then go for a DEILD when my body automatically wakes me.

Wow, I still feel woozy.

Forgot to mention, I saw a girl last night when I got my hair cut that looked just like the one from the Amish restaurant dream. I sneakily snapped a picture of her with my phone. I'll edit this post and post it soon as I'm able to upload it.

Yeesh, forget it. I tried to use my Dataviz cable to upload the picture, but the stupid Sanyo Katana isn't supported. I tried to upload it via email, but I don't have picture mail. F-ing phone companies always have their hand out for every little extra feature that should be standard to begin with. I wasted hours trying to get the stupid picture up. Well, until I figure something out, the picture is just for me to enjoy.

1-16-08

Well, last night was another horrible night for recall. All I know is that I had a really long dream right before I woke up.

Vicki's food poisoning

The only thing I remember from it though is that my wife’s friend Vicki had food poisoning and my wife was talking to my mom about it. My mom asked her if she had recently cut her hair, and my wife said no, but she would tell her to do it. (I guess this was supposed to help her feel better). Then my mom said “Ohhhhh, I don’t knowwww…” as though that wasn’t a good idea.

I got up, 5 minutes before my alarm was set to go off, at 4:40, and took 2 Galantamind this morning. The results are crap. I stayed up for 20 minutes looking at pictures of Jessica Alba, then WBTB. I tried to WILD, though again, my pillow was causing some slight tension in my neck. When I adjusted it though, I started to feel vibrations. I stayed like this til about 5:50, when I gave up and turned to my side. This got me that great LD on 1-3-08, so I thought it would again. Wrong. I still couldn’t fall asleep. Every time I started to drift off, I couldn’t help becoming aware of my body and woke right back up. I tried tongue-through-teeth RC’s a few times to make sure it wasn’t an FA, but no luck. I just could not fall asleep.

Strangely, I don’t feel dog tired right now, though I am yawning a lot. It’s a little weird (not earth-shatteringly weird, just a little), but I feel aware, but sleepy. It feels like it would be perfect for LD’ing. I tried to take a nap in the bathroom a few minutes ago, (shh, don’t tell my boss), but again, I woke up every time I started to drift off.

I think the key for me is I have to be sleeping before the Galantamind kicks in. The same thing happened the first time I tried it and tried to WILD. The only reason I tried it again was because I read the stupid Galantamine + Choline thread again and everyone was saying it’s meant for WILD. WILD not DILD, WILD not DILD. Well, not for me apparently. I can only imagine the vivid lucids I might have had if I could have only fallen asleep. I’ll try again on Saturday. That should be perfect. I’ll have plenty of time to stay in bed and get the late REM cycles that my f***ing job cuts off from me.

1-17-08

Another night with zero recall. This was even worse than the night before. I couldn’t remember a single thing, even though I tried right upon waking. I’m trying to think of what it could be. The only thing I can figure is that I haven’t taken my vitamin before bed like usual. On the night I took the Galantamind, I just forgot. Last night, I intentionally didn’t take it because I thought I was getting too many foreign chemicals in me anyway from the Galantamind and the GABA. I ate a really big meal last night at Applebee’s. I don’t think that’s it though. I changed my necklace to the one with the broken shells. It’s a slight feeling, but the edges poke my neck a bit. I also hit my elbow on the garage and wore myself out trying to start the snow thrower 2 days ago. My shoulder and chest are sore, and my elbow is bruised and hurts. I still think it’s most likely the vitamin, though the necklace might also have something to do with it.

I tried the GABA last night, but only 5 pills or 3.75 grams. I woke like 4 hours after falling asleep, dead tired, and took them. I went right back to bed and tried some autosuggestion but fell right to sleep. When I woke up, I had a fleeting image of my last dream, then completely forgot what it was. That happened at 5:50 and when I finally woke up at 6:45. In any event, even if the GABA worked, I didn’t remember anything. I certainly didn’t feel any different when I woke up. Tonight I’m not trying anything except my vitamin. Maybe I’ll be able to remember something.

1-18-08

Finally, I recalled some dreams last night. I had to fight and struggle to keep them, but I managed to hang on to at least the tail ends of them. I know they were much longer than what I recall, but I at least have something.

Last night, I took off my necklace, and remembered to take my vitamin before bed. I wonder if possibly the GABA might have been the real cause though. This all started the night I took the GABA. Even though I hadn’t recalled anything before I took it, that’s not unusual for me. I usually will then remember most stuff after the WBTB though, and for 2 nights after taking the GABA, I had nothing. We’ll see next time I take it if the same thing happens.

Harry Potter (again)/Hermione in outer space

In the first one, I was again Harry Potter. I don’t remember anything of that, except that I think we were looking for a ring. I think we had to keep a vampire from getting it. When I started remembering the dream well, I was looking at everything from 3rd person. Hermione and someone else were sitting in a car, dead, floating in space above the Earth. I remember I saw the reflection of her lips in the rearview mirror of the car. They were purple-blue and it was obvious the cold and lack of air had killed her. I didn’t feel any sadness about this for some reason. She also had on the ring that we were keeping away from the vampire. It was not like a normal ring, but more like a thimble. It had a hinge and went over the first knuckle. She had it on her index finger.

The other person in the passenger seat was dead too. I don’t know who it was, but I guess it may have been the vampire. I think she went into space to keep the vampire from getting the ring. In the back seat, there was this creature. In the dream, I thought it was a cat for some reason, but it looked more like a funny-looking mouse. It was small, grey and furry. It was alive.

The car went to the moon, and I don’t remember what happened there. But the next thing I remember was that they were all on Mars, and there was an alien there that had somehow brought them back to life. They were made to work. I think moving rocks around or something. There was a conversation about making the cat work too. The cat was very upset about this because he couldn’t breathe on Mars. I remember seeing him take a big gasping breath at one point. I thought about this and I remember remembering in the dream that Mars does have a little atmosphere.

Movies with Vince

In the next dream, I was trying to get my friend Vince to go to the movies with me. I believe we were at the skating rink, which was entirely unlike the one we used to go to. It was more like United Skates, the rink that was torn down a real long time ago. Anyway, he finally agreed to go with me, though reluctantly. We left the skating rink, and right down a hallway from it was the movie theater.

I wanted to see a movie called “Risk” or “The Risk,” but Vince didn’t want to. He would rather see this movie with the Rock, that now that I’m awake, I know was “The Gameplan,” but in the dream was called something else that started with an A. He had already seen it, but he wanted to see it again rather than watch The Risk with me. I thought I had finally convinced him, but when we got to the ticket counter, he ordered one ticket for each movie. I wasn’t happy with that at all, and I told the attendant to cancel it and just give us two tickets to the stupid Rock movie.

Washing machine store next door

In the final dream, I was at home. Next door, there was a business that sold washing machines. They were bringing them all out into the front parking lot as like a display or something. We opened our side door and there were washing machines everywhere. For some dream-logic reason, I thought it was really pretty nice. One of the guys who owned the business was named “Indian.” They had given me two baseball caps. I don’t remember what one looked like, but the other one was an old fashioned Cleveland Indian’s hat. Chief Wahoo was grey and had no face though. They were supposed to put Indian’s picture there. We were going out and I wanted to put on a hat. My wife had bought me a whole lot of them over the years, and I opened a cupboard where they were stored. They were all stupid looking and I was disappointed that the best hat I had were the ones these guys gave me.

That’s all. Tonight it’s 4 mg Galantamind and an extra 310 mg Choline pill.

1-19-08

I forgot to take my vitamin again last night. I can’t believe that it makes that much of a difference, but still it irritates me that I wanted everything to be so perfect today and I messed it up. So, I went to sleep at 12:40. Woke up at 5:45 and took 4 mg Galantamind, and 1 310 mg pill of Choline Bitartrate. I had one dream before I woke that I remembered, and 2 dreams after. I was dreaming like crazy though and there were a lot that I woke up after and tried to remember, but now that I’m writing, I can’t remember anything. They were all pretty clear and realistic, but none were lucid, and none approached the clarity and realism of my best lucid. So that’s one undeniable failure for the Galantamind. I know I shouldn’t take it 2 days in a row, but I’m gonna try 8 mg tonight anyway. I’m undecided if I should try to WILD, or just hope for a DILD. I could try DEILD, if I can just keep myself aware enough to keep my conscious mind awake.

New church member

Before WBTB. I was at the church, but it was entirely unlike my real church. I was up in an exterior balcony that doesn’t exist IRL. A black guy (missed dreamsign, ) wanted to know how to join the church and was calling up to me. He was in this long blue car that I couldn’t see the front of. There was a long tent leading to the front door of the church, but the door was locked. I could have let him in, but I thought there was money to be made if he would talk to the pastor first (man I’m bad). So I told him he needed to find Pastor Wood around the side of the building. I came down and saw him walking around a parking lot that doesn’t really exist either. He asked someone where Reverend Harrison was. Someone, I think Carl, told him that Reverend Harrison wasn’t pastor there any more. I saw Pastor Wood’s son, Fred against the side of the building sitting in a wheelchair. There were a lot of people around, it was like an outdoor party. I went up to him and asked where his dad was. I think he told me he was inside the building. I went in.

Vince is still a jerk

I was hanging out with Vince, I think we were out in the car driving around, and he wanted to go home and play his ps2. I wanted him to stay over and hang out. (This always happens IRL, he always wants to go home, ever since we were little kids). I told him, “You know, I have a ps2 too.” He said yeah, but he wanted to play games that I wouldn’t like, like football and Wrestlemania. I said that’s alright, I like those games too, even though I really didn’t. There was much more to this dream that I don’t remember.

Stupid work dream

I was at work. There were people walking around everywhere. A lot happened that I forget now, but there was a guy who had on an old British Naval Judge’s outfit. I was going to say to him, “Hey, there’s the judge,” but I realized that he really was a judge, even without the outfit, and he wouldn’t understand that I was kidding with him. I walked to the back, and there was a group of people walking around. They were there inspecting the operation or something. There was this one Samoan guy who was making fun of A.S. who I was mad at yesterday. He was joking about how A.S. was losing his hair and said something like, you’ll need a little hat, your head looks kinda yellow. (A.S. is some kind of pacific islander or asian something too). I was very satisfied that A.S. looked angry about this but couldn’t do anything.

Someone at some point gave me this bag. I thought there was a portable toilet inside and I had to pee. I took it into this bathroom and set it down on a chair. There were people in there though, and it wasn’t really a bathroom, though I thought it was. I unzipped the bag, and waited for them to leave, but they were doing annual reviews in there, so someone else came in as soon as one guy left. It was J.S. I had started to pee a little, but stopped when he came in. I figured forget it, and took the bag and left. I opened it more and saw that there were mudflaps and floor mats with the company logo on them. I was like, what a crappy gift. My car has mudflaps. I don’t need these.

That’s all I really remember. I may have thought, “I know I’m not peeing in real life, so this is okay.” Which would make you think I was lucid, but no. And I’m really unsure if that even happened. If I even was, it was for only a second. I’m not gonna even bother counting it.

1-20-08

Okay! Last night I got lucid! It took forever but the Galantamind came through today. Let’s see, I took 8 mg this morning after waking at 5:45. I went to sleep at about 12:15 last night. I had my lucid at about 9:00. Therefore, I wonder if it was really the Galantamind, and not just the fact that I slept 9 hours. I was dreaming a lot near the end, and I was trying to WILD, so I had on my mind that I wanted to become lucid, so maybe it was just a matter of time before I finally jumped on a false awakening. The funny thing is I dreamed that I was WILDing and that’s how I entered it. I don’t know what the consensus is, but I think I should still count that as a WILD.

It was a good one too. Pretty realistic. Not quite as good as the last great one, because everything was blurry, especially at the edges of my vision. It looked like I needed glasses. The blurriness came and went in pulses. I think this may be because of the personal meditation engine which was moving from 4 Hz to 6 Hz. I wish I knew which one caused the clarity and which one caused blurriness and I would move it. I’ll try making 2 new presets.

Again, here is everything that happened yesterday, so maybe I can replicate it in the future.

The food: Yesterday, I had a Sausage Mcmuffin with egg and no cheese meal at about 11:00 am. I had nothing else except one chocolate chip cookie until dinner at like 6:30. We went to the Siam Café for my wife’s birthday. I had orange chicken and white rice. I remembered to take my vitamin before bed.

The events: Yesterday morning, I went to Lowe’s and bought a 2x4 to make our chair and also a piece of plywood to make the dust collector for the table saw. My mom and I went to Rockler to buy a dust port to use with the plywood and found something that made it much easier. We had a real easy time building the dust chute and then my wife came home from snowboarding and we went to dinner.

I think my first 2 dreams were before the WBTB. I had thought I forgot them, but when I went to the bathroom to take the Galantamind, they spontaneously came back to me.

Sub-Zero vs. Optimus Prime

In the first, I was Sub-Zero from Mortal Kombat. I was fighting against Optimus Prime. He was huge! I wasn’t doing too well. We were in this large room and it was pretty dark in there. It was hard to see the walls sometimes it was so big. At one point, I had knocked him down and throwing ice at him. I was trying to freeze him as he got up. I only managed to freeze his feet. I did it like 3 times in a row. He was mad and told me that I couldn’t freeze him until he got up. He acted like I was stupid. At one point, he transformed and was trying to run me over. I couldn’t do anything against him except to try to avoid him. I ran to the corner of the room and there was a door there. I went outside to see what was there. And there was this long walkway and a cliff overlooking a tempestuous ocean. Treasure chests were sliding down the walkway and falling over the end into the ocean. It was dark outside and there was this woman telling me that I should get the treasure chests. Then it was like a video game where I had to jump on or over the chests to collect them.

Beatles' garbage bag

In the second, I was back at the old trailer and my mom and I were trying to wind a hose back onto the reel. It had this garbage bag material around it. I knew that this garbage bag that was used to wrap up a picnic umbrella for the Beatles.

I think then this is when I woke up and took the Galantamind.

Hanging out at high school

I fell asleep right after I took it. I remember one dream. I was at this high school hanging out with high school guys. There were two guys who were my friends. They were from Venezuela. We were hanging around the lunch room I guess and were sitting at a table that was like the kind I had in school. At some point, two other guys, who were American came up and held up a photograph. They asked me what I thought it was of. I said, “A girl.” They handed it to me and it was this greasy looking ugly guy. With it, they also handed me this shiny gold disk. I looked at the back of the photo and there was this really nice note to him from a girl. I think her name was Andrea. She had terrible handwriting. The disk had turned into a dime, which looked pretty modern, but had a date of 1848 on it.

I had quite a few other dreams that I didn’t bother to write down. After one hour, I guess the Galantamind finally kicked in because I was awake. I tried to go back to sleep, but just like last time, I would just barely fall asleep and it would wake me right back up. So, I figured, I’d WILD. I used the 12-21-07 setting on my meditation engine. When I started WILDing, I had no vibrations, which was pretty disappointing. I tried to feel myself moving around the bed, but it didn’t work either. After a couple hours, I went to the bathroom, because I didn’t when I took the Galantamind, and I was so awake anyway, then BTB. I then tried to focus on whatever imagery and situations that my mind brought up. It was pretty freaky. Warning, here come some naughty parts. Highlight this text if you want to hear about it.

[CENTER]]Sexual dreams[/CENTERI don’t know where the dreaming began and where the imagery ended. I guess it was all a dream, though I felt pretty awake. And the Galantamind was constantly pulling me back awake as soon as I would think about my body actually being in bed. I guess I was right on the border of sleeping and waking. Anyway, the first thing I remember was that I was laying down in the mall and some guy was on top of me putting his penis in my mouth. I was like, “WTF! This is disgusting!” I didn’t want to totally pull myself awake though, so I thought, “Fine, but this is Jessica Alba who’s doing this to me.” And suddenly, the guy was Jessica Alba putting her penis in my mouth. I thought this was better.

In another of these episodes of imagery where I was just on the border of sleep, I was having sex with my wife. I was on the bottom and she was on top. I was like, “Well crap, I can do this in real life.” So I changed our sex organs, so she was male and I was female. Yeah, pretty crazy. At one point, I had a vagina and testicles. Her pounding hurt them, and I thought, “This is why women don’t have testicles.”

I flipped from one side to another several times. And finally ended up on my back with my head tilted to the right because my ear was cold. Eventually, I guess I drifted off, because I started to dream for real.

Dream induced WILD

I was in a house that I thought was mine. I went down to the basement to go to sleep and there was a bed there. I laid down next to my wife and I guess pulled this night stand table over top of the bed. There were a bunch of plates and food and two glasses on there. One had grape juice I think and was my wife’s. I was surprised that it didn’t spill more than it did, but it flipped onto its top and only made a ring of juice on the sheets. My wife was mad. So I went upstairs and laid down somewhere, I don’t remember, and kept trying to WILD. The sounds from my meditation engine got really loud. It was like that other time in my dreams when the volume got really loud. This time, it got louder then quieter than louder again. I knew I was close, so I tried moving my dream body several times with no success. My head felt like it was spinning in the Rotor from Geauga Lake. A lot of centrifugal force. Then finally...

Suddenly, I found myself in my kitchen! Woohoo! I knew I was lucid. I didn’t even have to do a reality check. As soon as I got there, I took a couple steps and rubbed my hands so I wouldn’t lose it like last time. I did that, then I started to feel floaty. It got worse and worse. I was trying to get around the corner and into the living room, where, yes, you guessed it, Jessica Alba would be waiting for me, but I was floating around and couldn’t get any traction on the floor. I said, “Okay, GRAVITY!” This helped a little, but not much. I was by the counter and the sink, and there were about a hundred cookies stacked on trays there.

Finally, I managed to get around the corner and I saw Jessica Alba! It worked! Willing her to be there worked. She was sitting on the floor with her back against the couch and her knees tucked up. She had blonde hair and was wearing I think a white top and blue shorts or maybe hot pants. There was a fan on our living room ceiling. I approached her and held out my hand. She moved to get up, but I got even more floaty. The world flipped upside down. The fan was beneath me and I slipped out of the dream.

Kids in my room FA

I then had a false awakening where I was laying in bed again, but there were these kids beside my bed. I think there were three, but I only certainly remember a boy and a girl. My mom was trying to clean or something and handed me my joystick for my ps3. I gave it to the boy to put on my nightstand, but the girl took it and put it on the floor in front of it. I was writing on my dream journal notepad about the awesome LD I just had. I was surprised that the entries from earlier in the night were perfectly aligned, even though I had written them in the dark with my eyes closed most of the time. The girl was asking what I had there. I had my notepad sitting on top of this other notebook that had pages that were printed to look like black and white granite. They were really dark and it was hard to see anything written on them. I didn’t want to tell the girl what I was writing. I wished I had written on the harder to read pages so she wouldn’t see.

Soldiers' party

I then tried to fall back asleep, and I had a non-lucid where I was at this party for a soldier, I guess. Guys were singing this song. The only words I remember were, “{something something something}, he knew them very well. Before he knew what souls were, he’d blown them all to hell.” It was a very manly-sounding song. I saw this display case with old pictures of soldiers. It was really weird, because in one picture, there were four soldiers in a giant goblet of marinara sauce, dead, with melted cheese on top. I think I was like, “OMG, they’re cannibals.”

Then I finally woke up for real, and wrote down the lucid part. I had already written down the non-lucid ones.

I need to remember to always do an RC whenever I wake up. Especially from a lucid dream. I could have continued this if I would have.

1-21-08

Last night, I had pretty poor recall. I woke up many times during the night and knew I had dreamt, but was so sleepy that I didn't fight to remember what it was about. I even woke to an alarm at 4:45 and have no recollection of turning it off.

I did manage to drag myself awake at 5:45 and start up my meditation engine and try to WILD. That 3.71 firmware is continuing with its faggotry, and I have to re-enter the homebrew every time I turn off the PSP. I cant wait for 3.80. I wish I could check if it's out, but these FU**ERS at work have been snitching and gossiping about me typing during the day, I found out Friday. I'm reduced to hiding my palm pilot with my body to even type this out right now.

Putt putt in the Field

There's not much. All I remember is that I was out in the Field, and I was playing putt putt with a bunch of people, guys and girls. I think Jill, Stacey and Allison, friends from skating a long time ago, may have been there. At one point, we had just finished playing 80 holes. I was looking at it all in third person and as though it was a video game on my TV. I saw words that said something about 77 holes come up on the screen. I figured this was just their way of counting. Even though it was called 80 holes, we had only actually played 77.

And that's it. Pretty pitiful. This job is not only sucking my soul from me, it's keeping me from getting the good REM sleep and lucid dreaming. I h8 this place.

1-22-08

Okay, last night was much better for recall. I remembered 2 dreams and they were both pretty long. I had fish last night for dinner, which is unusual for me. I wonder if maybe that helped my memory.

Bribes for engineers

In the first dream, which I had before I woke up at 4:45, I was standing in line at this place. It looked like a bank or the motor vehicle department, but it was for me to get my PE registration. I had just graduated, and I vaguely remember being in my old high school before this, and it looked sunny and empty, just like at the end of the school year. Apparently this related somehow to my PE, and I was now standing in line with this big white binder that had my registration papers and also was like a guidebook for me to learn stuff from. I opened it to a random page and read a paragraph. The paragraph made no sense to me. It had something to do with psychology and how to behave around patients. There were words I didn't know and it was written in some medical jargon. It was more like a guidebook for a doctor than an engineer.

At the end though, in the pocket in the back cover, there were two tiny checks. Like the size of two stamps side by side. They were like bribes from a realtor and from a drugstore. I guess the drugstore wanted me to direct patients to them for medicine. I didn't know how I could do this even if I were a doctor. I guess the realtor wanted me to design buildings and work with him somehow. I don't know. The buisness card from the drugstore had the Mortal Kombat dragon logo. (I've been playing MKII a lot in real life lately. That must be why all the Mortal Kombat dreams). One check was for $100.78. The other was for $100.108. Yeah, 108 cents. In the dream, I was made to know that taking a bribe in this amount was considered a standard practice and wasn't illegal or unethical.

Suddenly, I guess maybe it was playing on a monitor where I was waiting in line, the dream shifted to being about Snoop Doggy Dogg and he was fighting with or against dragons. There were these shelvles, and there were little dioramas of mountains on there with little cars that rode around in tracks on the mountains. This part of the dream didn't make much sense.

Then I was back waiting in line. There was also a woman wating in line in front of me. It was my spanish teacher from B-W. The Puerto Rican one I didn't like. She was there to advise me or something, and I got the notion that she was some kind of lawyer. She didn't know much about engineering though, because she pointed to the binder and asked, in spanish, "What is that?" I replied in spanish, "This is the PE." I wanted to say some more about it, but I couldn't think of the spanish words for some of the things I wanted to say. We got to the counter, and the cashier, or whatever, pulled a little tab at the bottom of the binder and ripped it off.

There was also this video in the binder that I was supposed to watch. I did, I think after I went home, and it was about this guy who had just become an engineer and he took the usual bribes, but then people started giving him more and more. I remember seeing the guy in a pool, hanging out with one of the clients that was bribing him. He didn't look happy. The narrator said something like, af first he thought $250 was a lot, now he was taking over $100,000 a week. As though it was a bad thing.

Then I woke up to my alarm at 4:45. The next dream, I had after trying a half hearted attempt at WILD. I was so sleepy, and just didn't feel motivated. I must have fallen asleep while I was trying, because the next thing I knew it was 5:18 I went back to sleep again, and had this dream.

Disney waterpark escalators

I was at the mall with my wife. We were still just dating in the dream, I think, and we were trying to get to the Disney waterpark. We had been to another water park nearby, but then saw a commercial for the Disney one, and thought it was so much better.

Anyway, in the grand corridor of the mall, there was this bank of escalators. It was really far up to the next level, and the escalators had levels where they were just flat. Now that I thiink about it, they were really similar to the speed slides at waterparks. The ones for cowards like me that aren't a straight shot to the bottom, but a series of little slopes that level off in between. Well, there were about 8 of these escalators, but only a few actually had stairs. The other ones were just a sheer drop off from the balcony above. I was looking up at this from below. I went to get a set of escalator stairs so I could hook it on to the balcony and attach it to the bottom and me and my wife could go up without paying. There was like a ticket booth over to the right.

So, I was holding this huge set of escalator stairs with all the levels like I said. I held it by the bottom and tried to get it to reach to the balcony of the second slot from the left. It wouldn't reach. So I moved to the one all the way on the left. This one had a strip of stairs dangling from the balcony. While I was trying the second slot, a girl and her mother or sister came down the broken escalator, and I don't know what happened to them, if they fell or what, they just disappeared and I wasn't really paying attention to them.

So, I managed to get my set of stairs behind the stairs dangling from the balcony and I hooked it to the bottom. 4 girls then got on and came down the escalator. I had hooked up to a down only slot! My wife said, "Great, so are we lost again?" and I said, "No, I just have to move them back." I waited for the 4 girls to get off, and just as they were about to, another two girls got on at the top. These girls were really hot. One had on a black 1 piece bathing suit that was really low cut in the front. Her friend was wearing a low cut sweater. Both of their breasts were coming out in the middle and I could see thier nipples.

They were laughing and joking with each other and I watched them all the way down. Near the bottom, the one with the sweater was trying to push her friend's chest in. I guess she had gotten something stuck in her bra. I was waiting for her to open up like one of those metal garbage cans with the dome lid and the flapper, but her friend couldn't seem to push her open. When they got off the escalator, they smiled at me.

Then my alarm rang. Too bad. That could've turned into an epic dream.

I had fish again today for lunch. Tonight is my night for Galantamind too. I'm gonna try the 4 mg with choline again and see what happens. Maybe if I get lucid, I'll try for something else other than JA right away, and see if I can stay lucid longer. If I can even remember. In the last one, I didn't even begin to think of anything else. There's always the task of the month, I suppose.

1-23-08

Pretty good recall again last night. Before sleeping I repeated, "Tonight I will have a lucid dream and I will remember every detail of my lucid dream." I didn't have the lucid, but I did manage to wake up after the first REM period of the night and recall a lot of my first dream. I didn't have to struggle to remember either. Tonight I'm going to try the GABA again. If tomorrow I don't remember anything at all, I'll know what to blame.

Movie theater/Elevator nightmare

I woke up at 1:something, after about two hours of sleep. The first dream of the night, I only recalled some parts, but it's better than what I've been recalling early in my sleep cycle. It was a nightmare. I was in this movie theater, and me and some other people had just watched a scary movie. (IRL, we went to see One Missed Call last night. I must have been replaying that). I didn't know any of the people who were in the theater with me, except one guy might have been this old guy I work with.

There were about 7 or 8 of us, and after the movie ended, the theater attendant came across the aisle and asked each of us what we thought the scariest thing was in the movie. He was then writing that on our hands. I didn't really want him to write on my hand, so I said the guy in the varsity jacket who was #4. I already had a bunch of stuff written on my palm, along with a large #14. I thought this 4 would be sufficient, but he insisted on writing another number 4 on my palm.

Then we were all directed out of the theater and in front of this elevator. Another guy, scarier than the theater attendant, made each of us go into the elevator alone. We were supposed to face our fears in there or something. I don't remember what happened on my turn, but each time someone went in, I either became them, or experienced the whole thing through their perception, if there's any difference.

On one person's turn going in the elevator, there was this writing on the ceiling. It said, "Ha Ha" in a repeating pattern, and there were football-shaped heads in the pattern too. For some reason this became really scary to me. I don't know why. There ws also the sound of clapping.

On another person's turn, there were these two things in the elevator. They were about 3 feet tall, had two thin, stubby legs, and were shaped roughly like a tall, thin hourglass with the bottom larger than the top. They were flesh-colored and looked like they had human-like skin, and no hair. In the center of the "head" they had one white eye. They had no arms or other facial features. These things were standing along the elevator walls and started running around when the person walked in. They completely FREAKED me out, and they were so realistic. It was like I was looking at them IRL. That one was really scary.

I don't know if it was for that one or another, (Several people took turns that I don't remember), but the scary guy always said "Face your ____," before the person went in. The only one I remember was him saying "Can you face your white? Can you face your dinosaurs?"

Big Chuck taping

My next dream, which I recalled after my 4:45 alarm went off, I only remember the tail end. I was at this TV studio, and I guess we were watching a taping of "Big Chuck and Little John." (Anyone from Cleveland knows exactly what I'm talking about. http://www.bigchuckandliljohn.com/ It's a weekly show hosted by this really tall Polish guy and an Italian midget. They show (usually) terrible movies and give commentary and perform skits during the commercials. They just retired this summer after like 30 years of doing the show). Anyway, Big Chuck was there, but not Little John. I was wandering around the studio early in the dream, but don't recall what I did. I only remember that Big Chuck sat down on this folding chair and he was made of hardboard, like the stuff you can get at Home Depot.

They were playing a skit that started off, "Burt Reynolds, James Earl Jones, (someone), Burt Reynolds, Burt Reynolds, and Burt Reynolds all say, 'if you want to watch the big game...'" It then went on to say something about if your wife keeps bothering you for sex, have sex with her before and get it out of the way, so she won't want it during the game. This was supposed to be funny somehow.

Following cars

My final dream was strange, in that I recall vividly the beginning, then there's a foggy part in the middle with almost no recall, and the end I only vaguely remember. It started off on my front porch, we were watching this house across the street, and this tiny yellow sports car, a little larger than an RC car, pulled across the yard and onto the driveway. It went under an awning at the side of the house that was about 3 feet wide. Then someone left from the house driving a normal-sized new car. At first it looked like a VW Beetle, but my wife said it wasn't. When I looked again, it was shaped a little different, and I saw the Mazda logo on the back. It was rust-orange colored, and had silver trim positioned all weird around the car. It was like parts, like the lower back half were covered in this silver trim. This was some kind of new car I wanted to see. I got on my bike and followed it. It was making a real strange sound from the engine. Now that I think about it, it sounded like my lawn mower used to with the bad carburator. In the dream, I wondered if it was because it was an electric car. I rode around the neighborhood a long time and called my mom on my cell phone at one point, though I don't remember what else I did.

Chinese restaurant at my house

The next thing I remember is that I came home and was leaving for work. I walked to my car and realized I had forgotten my palm pilot. I remember thinking that I needed it or I wouldn't be able to write in my dream journal. I was so pissed, mostly that I had to write my dream journal in my palm pilot to begin with.

I think the fact that I was thinking about dreaming in my dream means I was pretty close to getting lucid. If only I didn't have to wake up half asleep to come to this f**king place, I might have.

I went back to the house. It was now a Chinese restaurant and we lived in the side door. The restaurant was in front. Again, some things happened inside that I barely remember. There was a back room to the restaurant, and I went in there and got something, or put something away in a safe. I think it may have been a toy, and I vaguely remember a "dark object and a light object." Some people were in the front room and someone was laying on a table I think.

My alarm woke me shortly after this.

So, this is the second night in a row with good recall after eating fish during the day. The dreams were pretty clear too. I hope this GABA crap doesn't screw that all up. I'm almost afraid to take it, but I'll try. If tomorrow I have zero recall, I'm never taking it again.

1-24-08

Okay, last night was GABA night. It worked, but there were problems. I fell asleep at, I think, 12:05 or so, then woke up at 4:20 so I would have plenty of time for the GABA to work. I took 8 pills, brushed my teeth, used the toilet and WBTB. I fell asleep in a decent amount of time, and had a dream. At the end, I got lucid! I was so hyped. I woke up and the time was 5:02. I still had 1:45 to do it again. Unfortunately, I couldn't get back to sleep for a long while, then when I did, I couldn't recall the dream.

Here's the bad part. I woke up at 6:45 to my alarm like usual, and got up. Immediately, I felt woozy and by the time I walked to the bathroom, I was all out nauseous. It was so bad that I didn't go to work today. I can only attribute this to the GABA. I felt hot and tingly in bed and the feeling continued and intensified when I got up. I didn't eat anything with the GABA, so that may have made things worse, I don't know.

I layed in bed until 10:30 and when I woke up again, I still have a slight headache, but the nausea is gone. I obviously need to stay in bed until the effects of the drug wear off. Either that, or 8 pills is just too much for me.

Last night, and after my WBTB, I autosuggestion'd the phrase, "I will remember to do a reality check in this dream. I will remember every single detail of my dream." That may have been the reason I got lucid, because I did spontaneously remember to do a reality check in the dream. But I don't want to detract from the GABA. Tomorrow I'm not taking any supplements other than vitamins, so we'll see if this autosuggestion works.

Well, I only had one dream that I really remember. Before my WBTB, I don't remember anything, except that there was a hot babe in a red sweater that had an impossibly small waist.

Remote control truck lucid

So, after the WBTB, I fell asleep. I dreamed there was this remote controlled semi-truck with a trailer. I was playing a video game with it where I had to jump from this one platform to another in this large room. The platforms were made of stone and there was a pit between them where all that was visible was blackness. There was also a ramp that looked like it had been a bridge previously, but the bridge was broken off. I jumped the truck up there and thought there would be some power up or treasure, but there was none.

Then, I was in my house. I was getting ready for work. My mom was outside with someone else, though I don't know who it was. She had the remote control for the truck and was making it roll around the hallway between the dining room and the living room. There was a balcony in the dining room that was open to the basement below. I was worried that the truck would fall off the edge, because she couldn't see where she was driving it.

I put on a tank top as an undershirt as part of getting ready for work. I also got a piece of tape from the buffet. I was surprised to see that we had 2 brand new rolls of tape in there. (This part was really realistic). I tore off a piece about 4 inches long. Then turned my attention back to the truck, because it was headed toward the balcony. I placed my feet, heel to heel, across the hallway, so the truck couldn't get to the balcony. I then forgot what I had gotten the tape for. It fell on the floor and got all dusty on the sticky part. I put it back on top of the buffet.

I went to my bedroom and remembered, hey, maybe I should do a reality check. I felt really awake, but thought, what the hell, why not. I looked at my hand, and I had an extra pinky. I was like WTF. I looked again, and now I had seven fingers! I stopped in front of my bed and almost sang, "Alright! I'm DREAMING!!" I was a little scared also. I don't know why. I think because my hand looked so weird, but otherwise, there was nothing scary going on in the dream. I guess I was scared that something scary might happen.

I then screwed up and thought to myself, "Man, I wish I would have gotten lucid earlier in this dream, now I'll probably have to wake up soon. I wonder what time it is." I couldn't stop thinking about this, and thinking about myself lying in bed. I could feel myself being pulled back into my body and a pulsating in my head. I rubbed my hands together to try to keep lucid, but it was slipping away. As one last thing to try, I thought, okay, let's fly. I took off, Nathan Petrelli style and smashed clean through the roof, which was like a warehouse roof and was about 30 feet above me. I was now looking at this from the ground though, in third person, so I didn't really get to experience it.

So, GABA might be out for me. I'm not going to try it again unless I have plenty of time to sleep so the effects can wear off before I wake up, and that's usually on the weekend when I use my Galantamind. I'm not sure what I'll do. I do know that I'm going to try the autosuggestion to remember to do a reality check again tonight. We'll see if I do any spontaneous reality checks in my dreams.