Willowsidhe's Dream Journal
This is my first post here and I have been striving for lucidity for a few weeks now. About a year ago, I tried having lucid dreams and I was successful after only about two weeks, although I became so excited that I woke up immediately. That was a difficult time in my life and I didn't have much motivation to keep trying. Now, I'm back and I'm not giving up! I have managed to improve my dream recall four fold since trying various techniques; MILD and WBTB mostly. I've gone from remembering fragments of dreams to three - four per night. WBTB has really helped with this. Every night I go to bed knowing that I will have a lucid dream but no success yet. I know I'm close, though. :) It seems as though my subconscious mind is offering lucidity at every turn and my dream self is too dense to do a reality check at the appropriate time.
With all that being said, I have decided to keep an online dream journal. It may not be that exciting to everyone else but I think it will definitely help me out. I, of course, keep a bedside journal but I feel that it might help to have others give their insight and support on my journey towards lucidity.
Waiting on the Birthday Girl
01/04/2008
I am waiting tables at the restaurant where i used to work. I've grown tired of my boring at-home job and decide to give this place another chance. This time R and T, who are always in my dreams of this place are not here.
I am waiting on a father and daughter sitting in the back right corner. I think it is her birthday as there are some nearly deflated balloons on the table; the silver kind with writing on them you buy at the grocery store.
I ask if she would like a refill of her diet coke. She nods yes and i think she is reading a book as she does so.
I grab her glass and move towards the soda machine, realizing that there is a man at one of my tables waiting for a server. "I'll be right there," i say and he nods at me.
I refill the girl's glass but when i bring it back to her table, she and her father are rising to leave. "Here's your refill," i say and she replies, "Bring me a to-go cup."
I turn to do as she asks but i am having a lot of trouble with the cups. I finally manage to get one down and get back to the table but she and her father are not there. I have a feeling they are at the register and i must hurry to get to them in time.
I look down at the table and there is a huge book of some kind made entirely of newsprint-type paper. I open it and inside is a thick chocolate goo that starts to run out on to the table.
I pick it up (the book) and try to pour the chocolate into the to-go cup in my hand, thinking she must want to take this with her. But it wouldn't go in and i tore the side of the cup.
I decided i would go to the hot chocolate machine and fill the cup with chocolate for her. I held the cup up to the spout but i couldn't get it filled all the way. I fill it to about 3/4 of the way up and say aloud to someone next to me, "If she's gone by the time i finish this, i'll be pissed."
I watch the cocoa machine try and try to spit out more chocolate but finally give it up. I went to the table to get the lid and i see the girl's name written on the balloons there. It has the letters "A" and "I" in it but that's all i can recall.
Patricia and the Purple Pills
01/04/2008
I am in a school and Patricia, my best friend from childhood, is there. She has a bottle of large purple pills. We are sitting in a circle in a classroom and she is passing out small packets of them, wrapped in cellophane, to everyone. There are other people sitting in the circle but i cannot see them clearly. I only sense that they are there.
When she finishes, she says, "Does everyone have some?" My purse is on my lap and i dig into it and pull out my packet of pills. "I have mine," i say. I inspect the pills and see they have a sell-by date printed on them. For some reason, i assume they are midol.
The next thing i remember, i am walking down the hall with my pills in hand and i stop to look to my right. There is a yellow piece of paper hanging on a bulletin board. It says "Class at 6:10 AM" with a list of names below it. I try to read the names and i find mine and Patricia's. I also see Jennifer J's from my previous dream, but the rest are hard to make out. I think to myself that 6:10 is pretty early for a class but i am glad my friend's will be there.
I continue walking down the hall and go into a room to the left. There is an older woman there and she is spreading out a table cloth over a table.
Someone else is there asking if they can cancel the 6:10 class. I decide it is a bad time to be in the room and go back out into the hallway.
I eventually make my way outside and start walking down the street.
Patricia is in front of me with a glass of water in her hand. I get the feeling there is someone riding a bicycle to the right of us, on the sidewalk.
I look down and realize i still have my pills in my hand and i want to take them.
"Will they fuck you up?" i ask Patricia. She looks at me and smiles and nods knowingly. I think it is strange that Patricia would take any type of drug but reached up to take the glass of water from her anyway.
I lifted it to my mouth and then woke up.
NOTE: Before bed i read about someone taking "lucidity pills" to improve clarity while in a lucid dream. Once again, i missed this obvious sign.
Lucidity at Long Last! - My first lucid dream!
01/06/2008 - I had a very hard time going to sleep this night but i knew 100% that i would become lucid.
I am sitting in my bed with a deck of cards, shuffling them. I'm explaining to someone that it can't be a coincidence that everytime i shuffle the cards and draw one, it's the same card.
"I must be doing something right," i say aloud.
I look around and realize there is no one in my room so i shrug it off put the cards on the floor. I notice there is a little cardboard cut out of sponge bob square pants next to where i put the cards down but that doesn't seem out of the ordinary for some reason.
I then look down beside me on the bed and my dream journal is opened to a blank page. There is a strange, diamond shaped black and white face looking up at me from the page. This is when I start to question my reality. I think, "Hey, wait a minute. Faces aren't supposed to look that way." It didn't occur to me that it might be strange for a face to be looking out of my dream journal. I only knew that faces are not supposed to be diamond shaped.
I now look straight ahead of me and my digital alarm clock is sort of floating in the air in front of the bed. I knew at that instant that i was dreaming but i turned my head from the clock and back again just to be sure. The first time i looked at the clock the numbers said 2:07. When i turned my head, the numbers sort of went with me, like seeing a tracer when you're on acid. I moved my head really fast back toward the clock and this time the numbers were all a blurry mess. I think, "It's a dream! It's a dream!" and instantly wake up, my heart racing as if i had just ran a marathon. (This could have been a false awakening. I can't be sure.)
I didn't move a muscle or open my eyes. I realized what had just happened and I thought, "I'm going back, damnit!"
After a few minutes, i looked over and my dream journal is on the opposite side of the bed, opened. This time, the face looking out at me is the same as before only it's peach-colored. "I'm back!" i thought and instantly woke up again.
NOTE: When i woke up from this dream, my clock said 2:10 so i believe that at the time my dream clock said it was 2:07, it really was 2:07. Strange.
Also, my dream control sucks! I couldn't stay lucid for more than a few seconds. I hope i have more chances to work on my control. I was so excited and a little bit scared when i finally realized i was dreaming and i just couldn't hold it together.