~hyperangel's Alternate Reality~

This will be my sanctuary, the place that bridges the gap from cruel reality to the sweet, soothing world of my mind...the only place where I can truly escape from the strict laws of the universe, the feelings of pain and cold, and the daze that has kept me from functioning.

Key

• Regular dream mode (Navy)
• Nightmare (DarkRed)
• Lucidity (DarkOrange)
• Dreamsigns (Navy)
• Possible IRL triggers

Tuesday, February 12th

At first, I dreamt of a field trip. I went with Blake (my current boyfriend). I can't remember where. When we got back. I said goodbye to him and went to History. There was a test I didn't know about, or had forgotten about. My teacher told me I had to take it anyways, even though I hadn't read half the chapter. I argued with her for a bit but took it anyways. It was hard, and I was angry.

I remember also being in a locker room. There were many stalls with showers. I was somehow naked, waiting for someone to come out so I could shower. There were two halls at a ninety-degree angle from each other, one with the stalls, and one just a long hall leading to other rooms. I was at the corner. There were boys in my class down the hall that were looking at me, which was embarrassing, so I tried to cover up best I could. Around then, a girl came out of the nearest stall, but when I tried to get in, someone cut me off. I pushed them away and crawled in and took a shower.

When I got out, I was dressed and noticed two young boys wandering around inside the shower. I told them to get lost, because this was the girl's restroom. They argued with me.

Dreamsigns: Arguing, embarrassment, stress / forgetfulness.

Looking back on today's events (this was written in my physical journal after I woke up), I feel some sort of déja vu here. When waiting in line for the vending machine, a girl cut me off. And right after that, I said some bitchy things to some middle schoolers who wanted money for pizza.

Wednesday, February 13th

I had no dreams that I could remember tonight. I woke up once or twice and tried to do something to induce DILD, but with no affect. I hit the snooze button once when the alarm went off at 5:25, woke up at 5:45ish.

Thursday, January 14th

I woke up around 4 AM freezing my ass off, attempting FILD. Too cold so I curled up and went back to sleep.

I slightly remember looking out my bedroom door and seeing my ex-boyfriend. I went to yell at him not to scare me like that, or snoop around, then realized he was there, and then gave him back his chem book.

I still have his chem book. Also, last year on Feb. 14th, I kissed him for the first time. I was thinking about this as I went to bed.

Friday, February 15th

I dreamt that me and my brothers were crusaders to Mars, the Tian planet. We camped out on an asteroid. there was a lot of gold on it. then I realized the gold was slowly disappearing. I knew it was the Tians so I was slightly mad. Later on I found a large sum of crystals on their planet and started teleporting them to our asteroid, thinking it was alright because they were taking 'our' gold. They were confused because their crystal was their life source. Then, it looked like I was in our bathroom...one of the Tians explained that they needed the crystal to survive and was going to declare war on whoever was doing it. I felt guilty, but I don't remember if I told them it was me.

--I think I stopped the teleporting in the end, though.
--In the book I'm writing right now, an alien race named the Tians live on Mars. They have migrated from another planet, but they don't use crystal as their life source. They are very connected to the "stream", which is somewhat like the flow of the universe's fate...

I dreamt I was at a big soccer game. Everyone at my school was there and lots more just in the crowd. It was being narrated by one of those sports narrators, with the big male voice. One of the female players on one team (her name started with an M, one of those famous soccer players...), she headed towards the goal. Someone's gold necklace got caught in her hair, but when she went to score she missed the shot. The necklace and her bracelet fell off into the grass. After the game I asked who won, they said the Pirates did. I asked if she was on the Pirates and they replied exasperatedly, "Yes".

Later at the same field, a basketball player made a shot. She ran off the field and gathered her things, and started to leave. I called out to her but she didn't listen; she just headed towards the parking lot (it now looked like our school's field). The soccer players in our grade also ran after her and stopped the game.

I dreamt I was leading two older guys, college guys, down to my "secret spot". It was through a big forest. We got to the edge of a medium-sized cliff. There was a cabin that was hanging precariously close to the edge. We went into it. At the end of the cabin, past the edge of the cliff, was a long rope, attached to a tree branch above it, that you could use to swing across the empty space to the other side of the cliff. We played on it for a while. The last side of the cabin was completely open; so the other two sat there. When we arrived I noticed it had been turned into somewhat of a tourist attraction, because there was now a safety pad underneath the drop. I told the man running it (on the other cliff) that we used to play it dangerous and just swing over it. There was water below so it wouldn't hurt.

I got to the other edge and I realized I was on a road, and the guy was now directing traffic. On the other side of the road, from the cliff I was standing on, was a sno-park where I frequented over Winter Break. I made the connection and was somewhat surprised.

Somehow I was now in a car, driving down the same road. I was going too fast and pressing on the brake but I couldn't stop at all. I ran a stop sign. Then two kind of friendly policemen made me pull off to the side of the road...I was terrified. XD

(This thing, with getting pulled over, has happened before in my dreams...especially with running through stoplights, etc. I'm a new driver with my permit so I'm not sure if it's that or some other sign.)

Saturday, February 16th

Just for reference, the date means that night, not the morning it was recorded.
I was at school. Mel (a girl I am currently fighting with) was flicking my back while I tried talking to Michelle (my best friend). I slapped her across the face and went in a room for anime club. There was grape Fanta and Cactus Cooler there. I tried mixing them but kept spilling, then I decided to take them home. I found a way to put it in separate containers and took it with me.

I realized it was 12:15 and I needed to go to the bus. Mel did, too. She had moved my backpack away from the spot I left it in and put my pencil case in my lunchbox. She tried to run away but I grabbed her by the hair. I dragged her by the hair while walking up to the bus area...and my old headmaster walked by, from my middle school. I slapped her face again as he went by. He didn't seem to care.

We went up the stairs and suddenly she was IMing me, spamming me. I said "I'm going to Mrs. Xxxxx" (our principal, who I am seeing about this on Tuesday) and she spammed back "DON'T DO IT!!!". I replied "I'll call your mom." and she, once again, spammed back "NO!!!".

Suddenly she was calling people extremely fast. I saw a map of the U.S. in my head, it was dark navy (like this color, hohoho!). There were bright yellow-orange lines connecting from where she was, to where she was calling. She called 5 places in total: One in Texas, two on the east coast, and others. The east coast lines looked like one went up to the North, and the other in the middle. I clicked on the far-north one. It had the number "160" (or around there) on it. It was a house in a rural town. There were other houses around it....

I was now in Google Earth and I could see all the houses around that one in 3D. I saw her dad inside her house - he stared at his computer kinda blankly, and I could tell he was sad and disappointed. He was down the hall from where she was making calls.

--In reality, Mel does take the bus, but we don't go to the same place after school. The time we leave is 3:15. She's a 9th grader who really doesn't know how to connect socially, and we've been having problems with her in our group of friends. We ARE going to the administration about it.
--I'm surprised I didn't become lucid in this dream, with the amount of things that could have been RC'd.


I dreamt I was giving birth. Somehow there was a "flap" in my nether regions (cough), and I wondered which way it would turn to give birth. The female nurse who was assisting me couldn't help, so the doctor came. The baby came right out with him. I held the baby and was happy, but somehow we found that it had some sort of hearing problem and was disabled. At first I was sad and frustrated, but then I thought that I should just be happy to have a baby. The doctor agreed and pointed to the bed next to me. There was half a woman there...below the ribs were green, soggy, wet bones cutting off below the pelvis. Everything else was gone. It was kinda gross. She congratulated us on giving birth, then her machine started beeping and she kinda vanished. I think she died.

-- In the dream, the baby was named "Taraki" or something like that. I noticed it sounded a lot like "Tamaki", the source of my icon and one of my favorite anime characters <3. After that I kept thinking it was named after the father, but I can't remember if the father was the character or just some random person. I almost felt like the character he's paired up with in the manga.

Sunday, February 17th

I had some sort of adventure in the park. I got a splinter. In the beginning it was a good thing, and I pushed it into the center of my index finger. Later I tried to get it out but it just went deeper. I couldn't push it out and I was kind of scared.

There were people in my class working on the Chem Olympiad. They were trying to make a solution of some sort. I wasn't helping and I felt bad, but I really couldn't.

I was going to do the Science Olympiad, but I am going to be out of town that weekend, so I had to quit the team.

I was working with Sugi on more Chem stuff. There was a panel on the wall that looked like a funky light switch, with a large white square button on the bottom, and two smaller square buttons on top of it. I knew somehow it was a password-protected gadget for some other person, but he didn't know that. It was dirty so he breathed warm air on it (like Haaaaa) and rubbed it. It was on the small button, so when he rubbed it the machine turned on, asking for a password. Sugi got frightened and pressed his back to the panel, looking up at a talking parrot to his right. He said "Sh sh sh...I don't want to get in trouble for this." But the panel recorded him. Then, somehow he recorded a new password and the big panel popped open.

Sugi became my brother, Matthew, and the owner of the panel was now my father...My father was due home any minute from his boat trip, and I told matt to fix it, and I would stall my dad when he got home. Right then, a delivery man came. He was asian, and was delivering Chinese food. In one styrofoam box was a large hunk of chicken, with broccoli all around it. In the other closed box was rice. I made a tortilla out of rice, cheese, and cut up chicken. Unexpectedly, my dad came home early. I ran to the door and dragged him to the table, telling him that the food had just come. We sat down to eat, and my brother joined us. I winked at him, but he didn't wink back at first. He got the hint after a minute and winked back.

It was the Scooby-Doo TV show. Scooby was trying to escape from a villain and get on a boat. The villain was standing on the dock, and Scooby was running (or attempting to run) up the ramp that was extended from the boat. He was standing on what looked like the side-view of a folding chair...the seat back and cushion at 90 degrees, with two legs connected by a bar halfway down. He hopped up on the ramp one step at a time and the villain would taunt him, "Not safe yet", until he was up on the boat. Then they sailed off. It was weird.

- There were lots of squares in my dream, between the panel and the 2D shape Scooby was on.

Monday, February 18th

I dreamt I was on IM. Everyone was mad at me for yelling at Mel and telling lies. I typed, "lolwut?" and then woke up.

I dreamt I was at some sort of kid's anime club at my local college. It looked a lot like our middle school building at school, with two stories of classes, with a large breezeway in the middle, and on the other side, a chain link fence. There were a lot of movies, a lot by Miyazaki, then one film that I love at the moment, "TokiKake". I wanted that one but I knew some parts weren't appropriate. So they chose some film with a magical monster in it, like a pok&#233;mon. In the middle of the film they said we could choose the monster to use, and I chose a different one, but it said the film would be shorter with it in it. I was confused at first but then figured that the original monster chosen must have the better story, to entertain the person longer.

Then somehow, I became the girl (Makoto) from Tokikake, and was walking along the chain-link fence. I came up to a backstop and a gate, almost reliving a scene from the movie. I looked through and Chiaki was over there. I walked over to him and said something, but I don't remember anything after that.


The movie, TokiKake, is "Toki wo Kakeru Shojo", literally "The girl who leapt through time". It is about a girl, Makoto, who gets the ability to travel through time and change things that happen to her - but things go horribly wrong. Chiaki is one of her best friends and the romantic interest. After the movie was over I was disappointed that they didn't get together.

I have a feeling that I went to talk to Chiaki about that, something about hooking up. <3

Tuesday, February 19th

I dreamt I was at a big high school in the city, next to a semi-busy street. It seemed more like an alley. I borrowed some black spray paint and began tagging trucks that were passing by slowly. I mostly wrote "4chan" or other memes on them. There were a lot of other taggers with other colors, and some got caught, but I didn't. Behind me was the Verizon store, now, and I went in and played with pictochat on my phone.

When I came out the scene miraculously changed into the mall. There were some anime people doing a dance that looked like "Hare Hare Yukai" in the middle of the hall. I went to join them but the dance was different, and I had to step out. I felt embarrassed. Across the hall from them was Red Robin. A band was playing there; it was supposedly SKIN (a band that performed at AX). They had very strange instruments - one of the lead guitar players had a long guitar. It looked like a regular guitar, but the round part at the end had been shaved to look like a big concave like this: )||( with very jagged ends. It was made of wood. He played it by plucking the string and then pulling it out far from the guitar, like a rubber band.

At the end of their song some girls wearing signs came out, saying "Free concert, ages 5+", I guess they were advertising the concert. They all looked the same, red bunny suits without the ears, I think. The band finished the song and sat down by the window to eat at the restaurant. The leader walked to it with a green, glow-in-the-dark condom. I got back on pictochat but couldn't find the application on my phone. I found it in a shortcut. There were games on the phone, but they all began with the prefix "Scramble!". O started talking on pictochat. A guy was typing on it, actually punching in the letters. I scribbled on the touchpad a message to him, with a "^_^" after it. He thought my name was "Kenji". He was standing right behind me, so I wrote my real name to him. I was about to tell him what it was, when I woke up.



My brother's friend's name is Kenji.

There seemed to be a lot of Anime Expo references, between the SKIN concert (which I didn't go to), and the Hare Hare Yukai dance (which I didn't perform).

Wednesday, February 20th

At the moment, I am attempting to decipher what I wrote in my DJ. This is exactly what was written:

-- Car wash sign
-- lunchtime towel, presents


However, I am unable to remember what my dream was about.

Sunday, February 24th

I dreamt we were on a road trip, the whole family. The Matterhorn from Disneyland was a real mountain but really small, like the real version. It jutted out from the ground and, on the road we were traveling on, we could access a door about halfway up. It was hollow inside.

On a different roadtrip, we went to what seemed like a tourist attraction. It was all made of rock and connecting to a road. You went down a bit from the road on a solid, grey rock slope and arrived at a balcony of sorts. It was slightly curved, the floor made out of all gray rock, and a wooden banister. There were picnic tables and a room made out of rock that looked like this: \balcony____{|__o__| . In the center of the room was a big clock-like thing with a face in the middle, like one of those suns. Food came out of it and I tried to eat waffles, but I got sick.

Apparently, we now wanted to rent the place for a party, so we paid the main people and everyone left. Nobody was there. Somehow my friend Michelle showed up asking to eat my waffles. I warned her that my waffles gave me food poisoning but she ate them anyways.
___

Monday, February 25th

I cannot remember what I dreamed, but these are the notes I wrote after waking up:
-Korean girl at school, test, Amy
-middle school

Tuesday, February 26th

Though I cannot remember about one of these dreams, this is the story written in my journal.

I dreamt I was falling. We were in uniforms. It looked like drifting through a plant cell's tubes. At first I said "It's Muto", but he had blonde, straight hair. I then thought it could be Tamaki. He said something for a long time (about 100 minutes). When I looked down, my clock said "1:00:00".

I had just finished watching the series "Princess Tutu". There is a scene where one of the main characters, Fakir, is drifting through a plant cell's tubes. Muto is the other male main character. Tamaki is from a very different series. The clock portion reminds me of Tokikake, where the main character time leaps and is falling towards a gigantic ribbon of clock.

Loveless, in the stove. He was playing[?] and I asked to go with him. He said no and I was sad.

Loveless is from the manga of the same name - his real name, Ritsuka. He's a young boy in 6th grade with cat ears. I recently picked up the new volume.


I was at school, in the "niche", we were talking about how we got it. I was the one who was there the longest. Then I went to the office. There was an announcement to drop off stuff in the office and they'll hold it in a storage thing, like when a mall holds bags for you. There was what seemed like a big shelf, with lots of cubbies opening upwards and out. They were all full. Blake came in with a shopping cart and went back and forth, emptying it and coming back with a full cart. I tried to talk to him but he shushed me because he was working. I had an irregularly shaped package wrapped in white paper but I didn't give it to him.

I walked out of the office (which was now located where my homeroom is) and I started to walk to my next class. It was raining outside. Rain was dripping down the ceiling and making what was like a little curtain of water past the bottom of the stairs, between the corner of the two halls. I ran through and turned the corner. It now started hailing, huge chunks of ice, not little dots. I ran underneath and frantically looked for the biggest piece. I ran inside the classroom and showed everyone the ice chunk, which looked like a malformed ice cube. My history teacher told me that we were taking a test, and we didn't want to know about the ice.

I walked down the narrow hall that led to the actual room to a shopping cart I had "left" there. It was full with just random crap. I dug through it and pulled out a canvas bag and carried it in. All my school stuff was in it. I sat down in the only open chair in the circle of desks. We were supposed to take a test, but someone in the corner was still asking questions and talking, so I had time.

(Date???)

At disneyland in the shops.

We went inside a big Disney Store. Mom went to buy underwear in one section. I stood in a spot and looked at the bottom of the store's display. There was a big, long circular line splitting the floor. I 'remembered' when I was in this store when I was small, and the floor started moving. Mom went to check out, but I had spent too much time thinking. So I ran and got pink, furry socks, and I got stretchy socks. We left with everyone. My mom made a crack like, "Hehe, they're going to have to watch that part of the store now." as if my brother had done something to it. On the other side of the wall, there was a huge, empty room (like a cleared-out old store). You could see into it through big glass windows.

We went to the "dream toy store" (a toy store that shows up in my dreams somewhat). I went into the Lego section as usual, and there was a DDR game there, but it used motion sensors. I went to play and it was really bad, though I was doing it perfectly. There was a little kid about Abe's age (a kid I babysit), sitting in a seat, saying I was doing it wrong. I didn't argue with him, but I was ticked off.

3/11

At my old middle school, hanging with lower schoolers before school. There were no homerooms, but groups of KND operatives. I was invited to be in one because I was cool. I remembered the old episode where they explained how older kids were still allowed in.

I'm tired at the moment; will format and add rest of entries later.