Amanite's Mares

Apocalypse
...I'm heading off for something professional, actually, it was challenge on ice (race cars on ice and snow tracks), but it still felt like something professional. I kissed my boyfriend and baby goodbye, got in my car and drove of.
After a while, i noticed my gas is getting low, so i stop in one of the malls, you know, where there's 4 or 5 stores connected to each other, you get in by the outdoors. I went in one to get something to eat, but it was empty. Well, almost. There were about 5 people in there, staff of some sorts. They all stared at me, like they knew something i didnt, a shared knowledge, a shared pity. The room was almost bare but a few boxes strewn about, and flat screens on the wall. The windows were covered in semi clear plastic, just taped there. It kinda made me think of voting ballots for some reason.
I start feeling a bit anxious, and i even get halfway out the door to check if im in the right store. I am, they just moved everything out. When i step out to go to the seven eleven connected to the thing, the whole environment seemed changed. Anxiety is high, and people are being horded in a baren mall or similar building. Horded is a strong word, when i got out of the building, i was alone... but somehow led there, like everybody else. It had the boxes, the taped plastic that created makeshift rooms and halls, and the flatscreens...
Everyone knew, as i knew, that we were moments away from dying. In a day, a week? not sure. But the dying part wasent even a question. That was the whole reason we were in there. The flatscreens were there to show us our last living moments. A nearby star was going supernova, destroying us in the way. A camera was fixed on the star, ans we saw it live. Might as well see that before we went, it was an extroardinary sight. We had to stay in so we dont burn from the radiation.
I nevertheless felt.... suspicious. They were things that just didnt make sense to me. So i started going down the makeshift hall. We were supposed to stay in the 'rooms', but i needed to get out somehow. Going down the hall, you could see the silhouets of people thru the plastic, and a few people here and there crossing my path, looking as suspiscious, and as suspiciously at me. I keep going down until i reach a cargo area. A family, with husband, wife and two kids are glued to one of those flatscreens, staring at the star. They were like hypnotised by it, almost happy to be able to witness their imminent last moments. I try to snap them out of it, but its of no use.
Then i just continu my way... somehow i got to get to my boyfriend and kid.. something is not right. Why go to all this trouble? why the plastic... why empty the place first.... where was security, or authority? I enventually found the cargo exit.. the door was swaying, not even latched. I open it and im in a city... Im scared... im afraid of being shot, or restrained, or something... I think i see a patrol, and go back in... when i get back out again... no one... just empty... the air is smoggy, yellowish and thick... but no radiation.. no burn... nothing.
I start running out of the city thru grassland next to the highway, wich was pretty dry and brittle, to head home.... I have no hopes of reaching it... but i need to get to my family before its too late...

Im in a saloon, and im just taking a beer and relaxing from a trip. Everything is 'today' except for the saloon, wich is wood and all... touristic maybe?
Then my mother comes in, says its time to talk or something... i tell her 'no, i cut you off, that's forever. We told each other everything that was needed, I dont want to hurt you, but i cant see you anymore, its over. Never again'..... (mom)'ok, that's how it is... fine.' then she walks out, determined, but relatively calm... wich is in itself unerving.
I'm a bit nervous coming out, but I try not to think about it. Then i hear galloping noises, look back, and there she is on some wicked red eyed beige horse, foaming at the mouth (the horse :P) and charging me at all speeds. She was trying to kill me. So i run, and somehow my boyfriend holding my baby is there next to me, asking why are we running.
I tell him about my mom on the horse, as im trying to cut in the forest, trough a route she couldnt handle easily with a horse, and she charges us again... She wasent just trying to kill me now, but my boyfriend and baby too.
She was always close to us, but she fortunately couldnt quite cut it. The horse looked as pissed as she was... like it wasent really because of my mom that it would trample us, but because it just wanted to do it, for sheer malevolent pleasure.
I either usually wake up at this point, or the dream changes drastically to something else...

(march 24, 2008)
This is a recuring dream...

Im in my house.. and for some reason, we're the simpsons. I seem to be bart. This old crone comes in to do some rummaging and trading. She goes trough old discs and books... Homer keeps telling her to stop. Then she finds a statue... it was that greek chick with no arms and in my dream, also no legs. Its hollowed out, and quite frankly seems to be a piece of junk. She's very excited about it... she tells me its a very precious and powerful relic. I tell her to have a blast with it, she then changes into a bird.. wich seemed like a white crow... too scary to be a dove... and flew off with it....

...I then change into the same crow as in that halloween episode where they re-enacted Poe's Never more, where bart is in crow form, but with his head.... except im also white... or maybe a light shade of grey. I fly trough the sky, pass a high ridge with threes. There was nothing after that ridge besides water and sky.... it actually all looke like sky.... like the world ended there... and floating there was some kind of rocky formation with a box shaped think lodge in it.... there was also sand just ribboning around the place in one auroris shaped band. It was quite unnerving. Well, i just flap my little wings right into that box. It was actually an appartment from the inside. The crone was there, and she was pissed. The artefact was to take possession of a huge floating palace, connected to the northern shores of the mediteraneen. Only problem, all that was left of the castle was sand. I told her 'couldnt you use your magic to recreate it? i meen, all the castle is here, just in sand form'. (there was also this huge ball of sand just next to us. I wouldve had a great opportunity for the monthly assignment here... if i redo that dream, ill try to rebuild it myself.

She had that 'lightbulb' face on, and told me to follow her. She step on a balcony, that was infinitely surrounded by the sea... but the water was black... and very scary. She stepped in, it went down to her waist, then she urged me to follow.... but i was too scared. Then i saw something splash in the water... and im like, 'hell no, im not going in there'... just when she starts getting exhasperated, some winged snakes and demons start attacking her. Then the water in front of me starts to boil, and some winged snakes come out, hiss and start bitting me on the hands, the arms... and damn it hurt... the pain was very real and intense. My dreams were always extremely realistic... and i felt pain before, but it was just a pale mimic of it.... the past month, a new element develloped in my dreams... pure, intense, unadulterated pain.... its kinda scary really. It just really hurts ALOT and it dosent even wake me... very.. unsetteling. So the snakes keep hissing and bitting my arms and such.. i get hold of a sheet (bed spread) and try smothering them, then squashing them... but they keep biting me and hissing and biting...then the dream changed (...to be continued)
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This is another part after the crone dream. This wouldve been a good occasion to try my incincibility, ill try to think of that next time i do that dream.
Im inside a barn of some sorts... plenty of animal quarels, lots of kinds of animals too. Sheep, ducks, goats, veals. I'm looking for my son. I guess this is somekind of petting zoo, and they were looking after the kids too... im in some sort of agricultutal expo. I'm starting to feel anx, because i can't find him. They say the childcare was over an hour ago.

So i'm standing in the middle of the main walk inside this barn, and a trap opens, and a horse rolls down on the dirt floor. The main doors are open, and im so in the way of that horse. And its not calm either. The goal of pushing him trough that thing was that he'd be pissed and such, and hes running full throttle toward me. He's white, with those darker accents, his hair flowing, shiny black eyes, muscle bound and just plain magnificient. I'm standing there, and it seems to be aiming me, so i jump off of the way... now that i think about it, i think I landed in the sheep coral. Could my brain be any more sarcastic.. *sighs* He just kept running... like he wasent for me afterall.

To be continued...