Elektra's Dream Journal

I remember at least parts of my dreams every night.
I'm pretty good at recalling my dreams and remembering, but I suppose I'll take the next step and write it all down.

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6/22/08

I remember a road at one point, a regular one with a line running down the center.

Then, I remember being with a guy at my school, Jeff. He'd been over my house all night, as if his family were invited over for dinner, and we were hanging out. Then, we went to my room, and started making out with my bedside lamp on. I couldn't feel the feel of his lips or anything, but I could feel his tongue.
Then, we both kind of got up and left. The next day in school, I told my friends what happened. I couldn't really remember who my friends were, just some people I knew I trusted and could tell.
In every class period, I sat next to Jeff in the back of the class. To get to my seat, I always had to say excuse me, because people were crowding the aisles and were in my way.
Then, I was outside of my last class with my friend Tanya, and a note had been going around saying I had slept with Jeff. She had the note with her, which was being passed around in a red, gift card-looking paper.
We had to go to class, and I said, "Don't let that note out of your site."
And we said this while walking by a teacher, and she said very honestly, "Oh don't worry, I won't read it."
And I walked into class as if it were normal, said excuse me through the people in the aisles, and sat in my seat next to Jeff.

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My other dream that night..

I was at Ashlie's house, only it was like.. half Ashlie's house, half mine.. and I was there with her and Cyn.. I picked up a two liter of diet coke, and screwed the cap on from behind my head, and then when I look down, there is a puddle of diet coke, but I don't recall it spilling. They're both like, "Elektra!" and I say that I never did it.. and they clean it up, and I keep telling them it never spilled. Then we go to the deck, and there is another two liter with a puncture at the top, and I said "See, I think it's this one!" and Ashlie says "Oh yeah.. Wait, but it's not hot out!" ... THE END.

There isn't really much to say about my first snippit of a dream. It was as if I were in some sort of a club-type place, although it seemed as if it were a well-furnished basement at times. Patrice was there, and we a few other people, but it was more along the lines of I was just aware that more people were there, but I didn't actually see them. Patrice and I got to talking, and I realized, Wait! She'd gotten her nose pierced. And, Wait! She got it pierced on her 21st birthday! So as soon as I came to the realization that she was 21, she bought a drink from a waiter who happened to walk by. Then, I looked at her nose piercing, which wasn't a stud like I thought, but a huge ring that took up a lot of her nose.
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The rest of the dreams were odd, and it will take me awhile to recall a lot of it. The most prominent thing I remember, is there was a long hole-moat type thing dug around a house, where there had been a fire in the house. I'm going to think about this dream, and come back to typing about it. I remember when I woke up, I commented about how I could've lucid dreamed had I picked up on the many indicators.

Edit: I had taken A B Vitamin Complex, which contained many B vitamins, including B-6, along with some Melatonin.

I feel myself getting so much closer to lucidity! Actually, I think I was semi-lucid!

Let me get this all down..

In the first part, I was in my room, writing down Andy's schedule. I had to write it down, and determine what he would want to be according to his classes. I wrote in a yellow marker. I also had to write down what classes I was in, and determine what I wanted to be while looking at the classes. I was sitting under a quilt, in which I had made myself. It was a ROYGBIV quilt, though in my dream, I remember that when buying the pieces to make it, I couldn't find Orange or Indigo.

At some point, there was a dream with The Rock of Love in it. Lacey and all of the girls were there. Although I could see Lacey, it was as if I was her in the competition. In the competition, you had to run over the dirt things, (it was like a maze), but some of the dirt things had holes in it, so you had to avoid that. It was very.. Video game-like. At the end, I didn't touch enough of the dirt even though I was the first to finish, so there had to be a do-over.
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Then, Alex and I were at McDonalds. We bought food, and then kept going back for more. We didn't buy cups, but somehow we had them, and I had to get drinks when the manager wasn't looking. They were jumbo cups, and when I got a drink, I was afraid I was going to spill.
We kept ordering more food. I wanted a cinimon roll, and he wanted something else.
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In the begining, I had no control. I was working a job at Mcdonalds, with Amber and Seirra. The Seirra part is really random, I never really speak to Seirra, like.. ever. But anyway, I was working there, and part of my job was to send down these taco shells like we have at school, where they are fried and puffy. I noticed that a lot of them were burnt, but I passed them down anyway. We sat there talking for awhile, and Amber and I asked Seirra if she was a lesbian, and for some reason, we talked about lesbians. Then, I realized that it was 1 in the morning.. And that I had forgotten to tell my dad how late I was working. I wanted to call and tell him that I was off at 6:30, but then I realized that he had work and that I'd be stuck.
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I open my door, and there are a lot more driveways near my door. These old ladies walk by.. or so I thought. When I turn around to go inside, they follow me into my back hall. I sit there and stare at them, and they stare back at me expectantlly. One of them looks at me and says "do you want a coke?" and I'm like.. what the hell, it's my house! But then another one of the ladies answers and says sure. She now has a coke. Then one of them reminds me that my mom told me to expect them, and I kind of remember. We go out to the garage, to hand them some diet pepsis, but they already have some. One takes a can of green tea, and I do as well.

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The final dream I'm writing about, is where I think I became semi-lucid. It started off, that I was having a dream about my favorite show, Life as we Know it. Of course, my favorite couple is Ben and Monica.
The funny thing is, I didn't feel lucid. But in the dream, I knew I had control over it. Ben was sitting there in class, and I made the next scene. I made Ben kiss Sue right in front of Monica. I basically made her stand up and slam her fists on the desk, and yell for Ben to get out. I knew the whole time, that any parts of this dream could be changed, and so in the dream, I rewinded parts of it.
Then, Monica took a gun out of her desk, and shot herself. Where she shot herself, I'm not sure. But it's a fade to the next scene. I see a place thats a lot like the back window at mcdonalds, except it's a doctors office. Monica's dad is there, but I don't really see him, just know he's there. I hear a heartbeat monitor, and I know that Monica is alive. For some reason, all I can think about is how they should let her die. That it wasn't fair, and how embaressed she would be when she wakes up. Then the doctor has an ultra-sound thing, and he rubs it everywhere, then I sort of will him to rub it over her stomach, and say that she has a baby. Ben immediatly knows why she shot herself then.

I wasn't satisfied with this ending, because in my dream, I think how stupid it was that the show was canceled at Season 1. Then I think.. If i'm lucid, then I can make my own ending. It's here that I remember at the end of season 1 she doesn't shoot herself, but she ends up saying goodbye in leaving. Instead, I make it after she has survived her suicide. I briefly think about why she wasn't locked up in a nut house, and remember that it's my dream. She talks to Ben outside, much like when she tells him on the actual show when she's leaving. He asks if the baby is his, and she tells him that she isn't sure. They both seem somewhat happy at the thought of having a baby together. She says that the reason she didn't tell him, is because he is young and still had his life ahead of him.
Then, she sees herself really pregnant, and how bad it would look at school to the people who know about them.

My first dream was.. I was at some high school, which I believed to be mine. I stayed after for some party with a lot of people, and there were these figurines everywhere. Some of them had the ability to come to life. I, of course, found a Helena Peabody one, and wanted that one.
The dream began, more or less, in the school. I was kind of staying after. I remember walking down a hallway in a pair of socks. I had to go to the room in the end, and I wanted to slide in my socks. So I did. I went fast, and slid into a door but with grace, and I remember thinking that these socks were perfect for that. Then some teacher came around and told me that she thinks that I'll see that on the camera, which means I would be called into the office for doing that. I didn't care.
I go into the room and stand near the teacher's desk, next to this quiet girl I've been looking after. Then a ton of kids come in, with a teacher. They crowd around, and there is this one girl in particular that I recognize. Then in the back of the room, some guy gets ready for a picture. But, the same lady that warned me in the hall, reaches over and pulls my lips into a smile, although I was already smiling. I move from her grasp, and the picture is taken.
Then, I'm down in my kitchen with Rachel Shelley and Bette Porter. We're all sitting around talking, and Bette is somewhat.. Mad or hurt at Helena. I tell them that I'm going to get the Helena figurine, and Bette doesn't get up to move like Helena and I. I walk over to Bette and kiss her on top of the head, and say that I'll find the Bette Porter one. Then she stands up, and I find the perfect oppertunity to make Helena jealous, while still just being friendly. Bette leans in for a kiss goodbye, as friends do. And then, I feel this big, great leaping feeling in my stomach, I know I want one again. So I stall, talking to Helena, and then I'm like.. Okay, I really should go now. Then, I give Bette a hug, and then kiss her lips a tiny bit longer than before, and I turn to leave with Helena and go out the deck door.
Then, I'm out on my front lawn, with the figurines. A lot of people are there, some that I know. I have my Helena figurine. But we're all playing a game. You have to hit people with the figurines, and if you get hit, you have to freeze. I kept hitting the Kellar girl, and a lot of other people.
Then, we're all in my room, with all of the figurines and people. I find the Helena figurine, and a snake figurine and I sit in my bed. Then, I get a video message from Aunt Barbra, a video of the L word. And I was scared that they knew i watched it.. And in the video message, she asked if I knew how to edit. And I wrote on the video that I didn't, and debated on asking her if she watched it with an ew.
Then, I couldn't figure out where I kept my Helena figurine.

During the night, I get into two fender benders which are both my fault. The car is not damaged, but I'm afraid I have to pay for their damage. My dad didn't know I had the car. Both ladies say I have to go over to their houses at certain times to discuss how I have to repay them, and both people I don't show up to their house, although one is very nice about it.

I read The Gemma Doyle series before I fell asleep, but this is the last dream I had. It was almost as if I was reading the book, but making up my part. I had found out that Miss Moore did the opiate drug, and was addicted, and it upset me. So I found some of my own, and did a little of it, and had an entire bag. Somehow, Miss Moore found out that I had done it, and sent me a message in the dead of night. I responded that I had, and she said she was coming over.
This is where it was like a book, it said how Grandmama and Tom were asleep, and as if I were reading it, I thought: But what about Papa?
Miss Moore comes over, and we are in my dark downstairs hallway, just before the staircase. She is really concerned.
I thank her for coming so late at night, and she just says she did it because she cared. I don't remember a lot of the conversation, but a lot about how it went. She was happy to be there with me, and asked if I had thrown the drugs away. Then she asked why I did it, and I put my head on her shoulder and explained that it was because of family, and that I was worried about her. Then I wanted to take her upstairs, where we would be in private.

Hmm.. Well, these are for today's dreams, and I wrote them down again. I've just realized how long I've been thinking about lucid dreaming. Of course, I was MUCH closer to it before. But even when I haven't been focused on it and practicing it, I've always been thinking about it. Blame The Matrix for getting me into it hardcore again.
Last night, I ate a lot of chocolate before bed, after reading something on here that chocolate may influence lucid dreams. Nothing much really happened as far as lucids go, but I did dream a lot (even though on average, I dream many times per night). I don't think i'll re-print my dreams here, but I do want to mention something I didn't touch on QUITE so much in my written dream journal.

I think I went into Sleep Paralysis. What happened, is that I went to sleep at around.. 2 am. That way, I knew I would wake up earlier, where there would be a little bit of sunlight, but not much. I ended up waking up at about around 9ish. I got up, went to the bathroom, listened to my dad talk on the phone, and went back to bed. I layed down, and could tell that once I did, that sleep would come easily. I tried to do a little bit of FILD, and did that for awhile. I didn't really read as to how that works, I just remember it a little. But I remembered the point was to keep my mind active, while my body falls asleep. So whenever I felt as if I might fall asleep, I would play a little matrix scenerio in my mind, and stayed conscience. I could feel my body relaxing, and I felt a little disconnected. It got to the point where I felt my body heavy, as if I couldn't move it if I tried. I turned over at some point, and then I think I went into Sleep Paralysis.

The best way to describe it.. Well, I don't know how. It feels like.. You KNOW you're stationary, but it feels like you're being pulled down a little. It sounds weird. The first time something like this happened to me, I felt like something was draining my strength from me, and it came in waves. I couldn't move.
This time, I welcomed it. I didn't know what Sleep Paralysis meant, but I knew it had something to do with lucid dreaming, in some way.

I kind of fell asleep after that. =]

Mika, my ex-friend, was in my dream last night.

My brother was having a few friends over for his birthday. For some reason, I looked like shit, in a pj shirt and what not. Anyway, I go into his room to greet his friends, and Mika is there, plus some other girl. I was just like.. "Hey! How've you been?" That sort of thing, and for some reason, I asked her if she had anything to show me. She twists up her hands some way, and with her hands, it says "I love you." But I ask her what it says, she tells me, and then looks seriously at the girl and says, "Believe me, we really don't love eachother." And I said, "Yeah, not at all actually."
So then I go in the shower and i'm suddenly cute again. I go downstairs and I tell my dad that Mika is upstairs, and he tells me he met her parents at a resturaunt down the street. I immediatly picture both of her parents in my mind, and I picture myself talking to them, and they love me.
So then it's night, and I'm outside sitting on some "hidden" stairs with Dakota. I tell him that Mika is upstairs, and I ask him if he remembers me ever talking about her, which he does. We're suddenly walking around the neighborhood, and he tells me that I should find some really hot guy and bring him over to make her feel uncomfortable.

Pretty much, the end.

And also, I did a reality check in my dreams. I was practically smashing my nose together, but I thought I wasn't squeezing hard enough. Shit!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH.
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

I was at the public library with Mrs. N, Dakota, and a few other people. Mrs. N, Although she went to the new high school, was casting the play for my high school. I wasn't planning on being IN the play, even though I wanted to, but I was too afraid to try out. She was announcing who was going to play who, and the first two leads were Dakota and Brandon.. And then there was another kid left, the weird one in my German. She was casting the last lead, and he was the only one left. She looked wide-eyed at me, and I said that I would do it, and relief passed over her face and she gave me the part without an audition. Then the entire time, I kept thinking about how well I would do, and that this would open doors for the next play.

On the 21st.. or 22nd? I had a lucid dream.
Last Night, I had a lucid dream. Today is the 29th.. So we'll call it today.
I was walking into my room, and I realized I was dreaming. I pinched my nose, realized I could breathe... And KNEW I was dreaming. I walked into my walk-in closet, in hopes to stablize it, and kept shouting, "Lucidity"! It didn't really work that well.
Then, I went to my second window, and wanted to fly. I rushed the window, but I couldn't make it past to get to the outside world.
I tried grounding myself in my dream, but nothing work. I could hardly keep my eyes open!

So, Since I am officially out of Highschool, I decided to start my dream journal once again. I have several dreams that I remember per night, with no real effort.

Last night I had a dream that we (My brother and my mom) were on some sort of vacation. I remember this place vividly. I was on some sort of bridge in a park or hotel of some sort of foreign place.. And the bridge was elevated over a different section of the park. I remember looking over and seeing in man-made water pool display of sorts, connected copper buildings that looked like castles straight out of fairy tales. Of course on closer observation they looked small, and weren't enclosed buildings like I originally thought.
Anyway, we went up to the hotel, where we saw some close friends. It was weird because the place felt more permanent than a hotel, but less permanent than a home, almost like an apartment, but again, less permanent. I hung out with the close family a lot, in their rooms.. Until one day, they just checked out to go on their next vacation spot. I hadn't known they were leaving.

I had another dream that I was at Janelle's house. The road up to their house was a long one, in a way. I was at the table, and knowing that the attention wasn't on me at the least, I left to go to the bathroom, wash up, etc. (In real life, this reminded me of when I left to go to the bathroom at the mall to avoid the merry-go-round). I happened to leave during grace, but not intentionally.
I sat down at the table, and very matter-of-factly, the mother says to me something along the lines: "I find you to be very animalistic and barbaric. You're one of the rudest girls I've ever encountered."
I was severly dumstruck, because I'd been very nice and polite before. I kind of sputtered and said, "What?" And she explained that i was rude or something.. I remembered when I came into the house I said Hello, and Introduced myself.. Even though she hadn't responded (this really happened, but I remembered it in my dream). So I got upset, and my dad came over. I whispered to him that I wanted to go home, and he couldn't hear me, so I told him that I didn't feel good, and needed to go home.
Janelle was kind of blah, as she sometimes is with me, and didn't mind that I was leaving. I got up to leave, and the dream ended.

Another dream last night.

The first part is kind of not there, but I know I will remember it as I recall the rest of it. I BELIEVE it was kind of like The Sims..

The last part of my dream, anyway, I was at my Aunt's and Uncle's in MA. I, for some reason, was sleeping downstairs in this sort of lingere looking nightgown. (I actually don't know if I was sleeping, but I knew I was downstairs). I climbed up to Kate's window, and I was talking to her through it. She wouldn't really let me in.
But then I go in, and I look outside through her other window to see my Uncle talking to someone, staring up at me. It was as if for some reason I was outcasted a bit.
Then it was time for bed. I shut off a light, and another light went off. I messed with the lights thinking she wanted a night light, but she said she didn't, so I crawled over her and went to sleep.
We woke up and walked down the stairs, at this point I saw my nightgown and that it was purple. I walked down, and got the feeling we were going somewhere like on a boat soon. I then picked up the dog, Mini, and it started yapping and the other dog started barking.
Auntie picked the dog from me, and started laughing a little.

There was another dream before this about something. Ugh. It seemed like I was doing something or taking care of something.

I don't know exactly how these began.

I remember one involved a computer. I was talking to people I used to talk to on the internet, except this all took place in my room. I was "remembering" how I turned down working on a Christmas Sailor Moon website. Then one of the girls who was standing at the foot of the bed asked what type of things I could create, and I said I used HTML CSS and BBCode. And then she was kind of like 'darn' and named off another one she used instead.

Then me and these people were in this weird place, it was like something you see on tv, where if you took anything from the place, it would be a trap and the walls would crumble. We were there, but somehow, we would all die. There was this sheet thing with a picture of all of our eyes, and I put a piece of tape over everyone's, and prepared before I put one over mine. When I did, the next thing you know, I was still alive.
I went on my laptop and signed on to MSN to show everyone I was still alive.

Then, I got into playing this odd game. I didn't know the directions, but I played regardless. You had to set up this rock board with a ton of different characters and then the time would count down. Some of the panels would drop and stuff. You had to collect the most characters you could, and I would always win. I went on a harder level, and for some reason someone was talking to me during it, but I finally figured out how the game works, and I ended up beating the computer 5k to 1k.

The next dream I was out at the pool, standing on the steps and staring out. I had one purple eye, and my dream before, the eye I covered with tape was purple. I don't know if it was a contact or real, but I had the purple eye. And I kept looking at it change colors before the sun. It would grow darker or get lighter. When I closed my eyes, it glowed this golden color behind my eye lid, and sparkled. There were other people around the pool, but I payed them no mind.. Until I turned around and saw Brandon among a group on my deck. I stumbled out of the pool, but he didn't answer me when I said something to him.
Then I went upstairs looking for a bathingsuit, knowing I looked stupid in a bikini.
I searched in my closet, and finally found the dress suit in my clothes hamper.

I should mention now, these dreams blended together a lot. Like some of them happened, then concluded after something else happened. However, I don't know what order they went in.

Another one was I was meeting my (I don't heva a girlfriend) girlfriend's parents for the first time.. And I was really nervous. I walk past their bathroom and there is a man on the floor. I walk past anyway. We're in this kitchen, and each seat has a name tag by it. My girlfriend and I are able to hold hands and things in front of her mom without worry. At the counter, I notice the mom is writing things. I ask her if she does calligraphy, and she does. She was really nice and accepting the entire time, and I really liked her.
We're sitting down, and even though I've seen her dad's face, he has this mask covering it. He had to get rid of the person in the bathroom.
Later on I come back to another dinner with her parents, and my place has my name at it. Again, the girlfriend and I were touchy-feely but it was okay.
We sit down, and her dad has the mask on again, and tells of how he had to get the body away. (her dad wasn't bad, the other guy was)
Before this, I was thinking about how I would wait until we went off to college, because my mother would never be happy if she knew I had a girlfriend. Then I thought of how unfair it was to the girl, because I really liked her.,
Then, it was like we were kids. We had to go to bed. Before though, I was in my brother's room, and put ranch dressing in his fridge. Then the girl and I wanted to be sneaky. There were pretzels and chips in her room, so we went down the hall to my brothers room for ranch. There was mayo containers (two) along with others. She said there wasn't going to be any ranch in here, and I said we'd use it for the pretzles, and it was good. I remembered the fridge so I took it out, then she took it to check to make sure it was alright. We didn't get caught walking back.

Then with the internet thing again. We were sitting at a lunch table at the high school, and Ashlie was talking about how she finished her high school online, under Cynthia's screenname. The screen name was something along the lines of Beau and Brandon.. And I asked if she even talked to them, and she said no.

This next dream occured after I woke up. I was in a very light state, and didn't know if I thought it or had it. But this girl and her daughter and guy friend ran up the roof of a house to look through this guy's window she liked. They all tumbled off the roof, one landing on a chain link fence. Then they all started running in the backyard to leave, and I watch as they run pass a cop car. Then the runningn stops and the cops gather up all of the people involved which ended up to be more people, and made them sit until he could call back up and arrest them.