Thread: I lived physically for years in spiritual plane!!

Hello!


(Sorry for my bad english but I am sick which weakens my concentration.
Also I live in Finland so english is not my native language.)


About 8 months ago I was rushed in to a intensive care unit in one of our local hospitals after I became very ill and vomited more than 100times
on one day(!).I was then diagnosed with pneunomia,severe inflammation
of the pancreas and failed kidneys.I was kept under anaesthesia for almost
three weeks.After that I was in different hospital rooms for about a month
and then I was released to home.I almost died.

During the anaesthesia I had VERY special mystical experiences of the
like which I´ve never had before(nor have I ever even heard about anyone ever having).They were the best(and the worst)experiences of my entire life.

I saw "dreams" that very EXACTLY like -I REALLY WAS THERE PHYSICALLY-. I saw mostly INCREDIBLE magical dreams about demons doing something or other and I always had to use my meditation and magical rituals to battle them(they very all VERY disturbing and caused a lot of physical and mental pain).Then I saw some more normal ones in which I was just living a rather normal life.And then some that very EXTRMELY positive ones and did not in any way have physical or mental pain but were about Krsna(God) and enlightenment.

These were my "dreams"(physical experiences,more like it) in the order which they happened and a little about them(The real experiences take
more than 600hundred pages because I can remember EVERYTHING about living there for years because living there was so intresting):


1.Magical Temple

I was taught to fight the demons of this particular world in which I was brought to by a one Magical Master who was a woman.She taught me by making me stand in circle that had demons "pop" out from the air and everywhere and I had to destroy them with fire magic.She told me it was only element that can destroy these particular demons who are quite physical.I thought that the demons looked really discusting and they caused a completely new kind pain than any "normal demon" would:they caused a kind of itching-burning physical pain that was horrible to experience the few times one them got loose on the floor.I was in the temple for many weeks for my initial training.When day came for my
Initation to make in to Master myself,she took me to the main Temple.
And there after the ritual she told me that she was not any normal kind master,but that she was in fact somekind of Light-Element being who is the ONLY being in this world who can really fight the demons of this
world,and that I give you now my Magical name,by witch you can use if
you are in really BIG trouble.Then she gave me her name,and as the end
of the Initation Ritual she gave me my own personal "enlightenment-test"
which I made an Oath to fulfill.Then she said,you are now ready to take the
test.And she said somekind of magical word after which I was instantly
transferred to another place.


2.Enlightenment Demon 1

I was in a dark corridor of somekind which had some dark doors on the
waals.I walked through it for some time until I saw in the middle of the
corridor a large dark man shaped very powerful looking being.I went to him
and asked that what is this,that what is the test.He made me from "thin air" a large board which had a hundred small squares in it.He told me then with a dark a terrible voice:CHANT KRSNA MANTRA A 100 TIMES!I thought that ok,this is not so difficult,I would just have to chant Krsna-Mantra
only a hundred times.Then I began to chant,and when I finished one mantra,one of the squares was marked over to make it easy to see my
progress.At first it was easy,but then the demon said to me that this test is about that can one meditate in ANY circumstances:suddenly my body
was totally sick so that I couldn´t even remember what the mantra was
again and I began to falter in my chanting.Also he made many -really-
disqusting looking sexual demons come towards me through the corridor
who were trying to rape me.Also the large demon itself started to scream
at me to chant which caused the same physical pain as all the demons in
this world.I had to try still to chant many times,and every time the counting of the 100 was made to zero mantras.Then the demon finally
was bored with me with me pleading for always for one more try,and he
said to me that now you have to go to my "demonprison" for a year,after which you are given again one change,in to eternity if you can´t chant.
When I realised that I would have go to somekind of prison if the test did
not work,I became hysterical that this cannot be fair.But then the demon already cast me in to somekind of hole through which I found myself in some kind of hospital on one of beds and I was so sick I couldn´t move when disgusting humanlike demons came to me beat me.I somehow escaped them and ran through a realm full of demons that all gave me the same usual kind of physical pain.I was there for god knows how long,just trying to escape from the demons,and sleeping at nights.Then I thought for the first time there that perhaps I could escape completely from this prison
with the help of my Master.I then said her name,and she really did appear
to me and said that it seems you´ve taken a little too large a bite this time.
I asked that could she help me and she agreed to send me back to "normal" world but that I would have to still to work out the test at some time.I agreed.Then she said her words and I was again transported.

3.Demons take over the Earth 1

I was in a rather large round space station that was above earth and
my Master woman was there too and told me that this is just some more
work for you now that you are a Master too.She told me that here the entire Earth had been taken over by demons and "bad humans" and that
the "good people" had to escape from Earth with her help and to build
this space station in which they could live.I walked around the station
meeting people and they were all really nice.There were also somekind
of funny and cute little robots that answered your emotions.I lived in the
station for few weeks in the Masters room,when one day I suddenly saw a dark "demonic patch" coming through the wall and closing on one of the toys that started to scream in terror.I had NEVER even for a second while being on the station could have imagined that the demons could reach
us from the Earth.So I was in total panic when I used my fire magic to
destroy the demon.Then the Master came running in and said to me that
there´s a total attack outside that we must together fight it.We ran through the corridors to large windowroom where we saw that there was a GIGANTIC force coming from the Earths surface up to the station.It was
trying to burn through the floor of the station.We instantly started to fight
it with our minds instead of fire.Everyone was screaming in fright and so
all of the toys.We were able to just to stop it though,and after some time
it got trough and made demons appear inside the station.We had to fight
them still with our minds and one of them was able to touch me which again
hurt like all of these demons and then I lost control.But then my master
started to laugh with everyone in the station while all the demons stopped
on their tracks,and told me that this was just in fact all a "experience-
movie" in which you are one of the actors and everything is done with
elaborate effects.I was laughing some myself too then in relief,but I still
could not get the feeling or the look of the demon that had touched me
from my mind.Then we were all taken in a small space shuttle back to Earth to Finland and into Helsinki´s large spaceport in the seas edge that had been built for this purpose.I became suddenly very sick when we came down to Earth with the shuttle,and I was taken to a few places to get treatment and even taken with a ambulancehelicopter to a few different hospitals but they could not make me healthy anywhere.Then I was taken as a last try to the Masters house where she gave me diffent kinds of "newage-treatments" that helped a little,but I was still dying.Then it was thought that the best place for me would be in a hospital so they called in a doctor and an ambulance.

4.Dark Night

Then because they could not get me a ambulance because it was snowing
suddenly so much outside,my relatives all came to help me and they had
a kind of room on wheels that was pulled by a large towtruck that it on which it was easier to put me into with my all of my relatives.Then we
started to drive trough the snow storm and streets.We all thought that
the storm in the middle of the summer was quite weird for nothing like
that has NEVER happened in Finland.Some of us though did say that
perhaps this was the "Dark Night" that one "New-Age" man had predicted and written about.I thought that may well be the case.I was not alone with just my relatives but we also had with us from my Masters house one black "Yoga-man" and her black wife from Africa.The man had tried to heal me also.He was very muscular and had a large axe of somekind in his hands which made him look very dangerous.He was also very silent,but when I asked him about the Dark Night theory,he told us there were these dark nights that were created by humanity´s bad emotions.And that usually positive thoughts and feelings on this night can bring a change in to humanity´s consciousness and end the night bringing many really good years after.Then we were already far from Helsinki and driving trough countyside and passing small towns,when we saw many people running through streets in the storm all carrying weapons of somekind and killing each other in total insanity.We got through them with speed and my relatives had to fight them a few times.Then we decided to drive in to some far away deserted field to wait things out in peace.
We found one and stopped the truck and we started to eat.I was still very
sick but the Yoga-man healed me again so that this time I was suddenly
so healthy that I was not dying at least anymore,though I was still quite
weak.Then we saw many trains that were going on tracks that were some
kilometers from us,and they were full of soldiers and military equipment
and they all shouted in mad rage KILL KILL! After that we waited in peace until it was night,when suddenly the snow storm stopped and we saw a gigantic "black energy" that was slowly descending upon Earth.In its middle there was somekind of purple being that looked like a woman.
It was the demon of the Dark Night.Then we went inside the "room" and
suddenly we all saw a metre wide picture of Buddha with a small frown appear on the wall for some reason.Then suddenly it was replaced by hundreds of smaller Buddhas who had the text"Om Mani Padme Om" written next to them and they all began to chant it without sound.Me and the Yoga-man both realised instantly what it was "saying":the Buddhist monks around the world were all trying to pull earths consciousness from this dark night by chant-meditating and that they were calling everyone to join them so that we could do this together.So I and the Yoga-man went to our Yoga-asanas and joined the chanting.When we had done so for a while,the large picture of Buddha came back,this time with a small smile upon his face and with the text "chant to make me happy!" above it.(In fact these same images were being shown everywhere where there were humans.)Me and the Yoga-man were smiling a little to the Buddha-image while we were frantically chanting the mantra.We saw outside from the window and above to the sky where the Demon was still ascending.
But we were able to just us two together to keep it at bay so that it had
a really difficult time of advancing.Then suddenly some gang-people ran
inside the room who had found us in here,and they all had knives and
threatened to rape our women and to kill us after.We had to stop chan-
ting and the Yoga-man had to go outside with them to kill them with his
axe.After that we got back to chanting and when in the meantime the Buddha had suddenly keeled over and died and had the text "Buddha
is Dead,the Night has won" on its side.We both were afraid that is this
really the end,when the Demon just got closer and closer with more
speed.But then I said to my Yoga-friend,that "OK:No ***** like that
is gonna **** with Earth!".Lets show that demon what were made of!!
He smiled at me and said ok,lets give it everything we have left! And we
started to chant with such volume,speed and with such accuracy that
the whole room vib rated with the positive vibrations.We continued in
such a fashion for many hours when we slowly made the Demon-woman
and her dark-energy retreat back in to space.When we finally had banished her totally from Earths surroundings,we saw on the wall first many small pictures of millions of people around the world chanting together and then finally the image of a large Buddha was back with a really happy smile upon his face and above there was the text:"We are best chanters in the world!"(meaning all the humans who had chanted),and "The New Age of Buddha has begun.".I laughed in relief with the Yoga-man.I was then transferred again suddenly to somewhere.


5.The Robert Aickman Mansion

(I did NOT know that Robert Aickman was a REAL person who lived EXACTLY LIKE this person in my "dream" in England London.I did not know
ANYTHING about this person before my dream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)



I found myself again in a dark corridor and for a while I thought that I was
back with the Enlightenment Demon,but then when I saw a door opening in the corridor and a really powerful looking demonic beeing emanating greenish light,I knew this was some other place.I walked to face the Demon and I asked that who are you? But he didn´t answer,he just screamed into my face with a sound that hurt again like all the demons here:"WHAT IS THE ANSWER!!!!???".I didn´t have any clue what was he talking about,so I did not say anything,but the demon interpreted that as the answer and
pulled me in with horrible force by arm trough the door.

I found myself on a bed in some room which had brown wooden walls and some brown book-cases.There was some old looking(and so was everything) medical equipment around the room.And there were two doors: one on left of me and another in the right corner.The whole room was about 20mX20m large.And there was a large brown desk on the right from me and a man was sitting behind it writing with a computer.(He was facing me.)The man was about 45-55 years old and had brown hair and thick square glasses.
Then I suddenly saw over the left door small green text.I found out that the man behind the computer could read my mind and answer my questions by typing in to his computer and that was then written in to the wall above the door.I found out that his name was Robert Aickman,a horrorwriter who lived in London from around 1910-1970.He told me that he had never died but that he had instead made a magical ritual in the year 1970 and taken this large mansion of his and himself into spiritual world with a some people who were in the mansion at the time to rule over them and to make them suffer forever so that they would become "pain enlightened":if you have nothing but pain in the end you wont be afraid of it anymore and thus you are not afraid of anything.And he also told me that the only way of getting free from here is to answer his question,but that firstly because the answer was only to be found from his other mansion in London(from a Lovecrafts book in his bookshelf there),and secondly also because humans didn´t even exist anymore:(he showed me a "video" above door) he had done dark magical ritual close to the the year 1975 that called the Dark Magical beings called the Grint,that live on the dark side of the Moon(so that humans would not notice them)to destroy Earth.The Grint had then flown
trough the space in their crafts (it was disgusting to look at their ships)
to the Earth and landed on the polar region(so that they would not be noticed).There they waited until there were millions of them,and then they began their attack:From that initial point-of-entry to our world in the polar regions they multiplied and spread rapidly. Highly mobile and possessing the ability to move with great speed, they also demonstrated the ability to fly and travel in water, sprouting membranous wing-like structures to do so. Above all, they were predatory. All organic life on this planet large enough to interest them became their prey, but man seemed to bear the brunt of their voracious appetites.

Mankind did try to fight back, but the Grint-things moved and multiplied with such astonishing speed that little could be done that was meaningful. More than one human population center was wiped out by desperate nuclear attacks that were intended to destroy large numbers of them; some were killed by these sort of attacks, but far more survived, and many innocent people died to prove the futility of the military's actions. Bounding about the landscape of earth on their muscular foot-stalks or swooping down on their victims' from above when it suited them, the Grint-things came to dominate the earth; there was little mankind could do but hunker down in some sort of shelter and hope to escape their notice.

I realised that he was right and that there really was no earth anymore
where to go so I really would have to stay here forever!!! Then he explained more about the place.That no one is allowed to die here,because
their souls would just go into the corridors door and that would just mean trouble for him that he would have to get the souls back.That´s why they
had many doctors and nurses that healed every tortured person back into
health.Also basic health was important because that meant they could take
more torture.And that everyone could enjoy themselves a little:there were
books(all Lovecrafts books for instance),one could have sex with others,
one could drink alcohol,and there were even pets of somekind("Gruds"
were Grints relatives and filled the earth with them.They looked a little
like somekind of devilish guinea pigs.A disgusting fat woman was said to
be the only human that could handel them in here.There was a Grud cage
in the right far corner from me and the fat woman was feeding them.)
Then one could even also for walks outside in to the woods,but they were
also filled with the same Grints as earth(and worse demonic beings).
But everyone just had to be ready to experience pain in many forms at any time.
Then I was suddenly transformed into another room that had a similar bed
on which I was lying.On the wall there was written with large letters
"A SURGERY GONE HORRIBLY WRONG".Then suddenly I saw three
doctors coming in from the door carrying surgery equipment and I was
knew that they were going to cut me and it was going to hurt like hell
so I panicked and tried to move from the bed but I couldn´t because they
had tied my arms to the bed.As they were beginning the surgery I screamed for them to stop and shook my legs madly around,but they only
reacted as if I was mad and they were doing this to help me.Then when
they began to cut my right foot from the middle I scremed insanely from
the pain because it really hurt like HELL!And then I saw when I was
screaming on the other wall Aickmans face glowing green and laughing
at me and text again in small green letter above him "this is only the beginning,wait until we get to a hundred years of this EVERY DAY!!!" (???!!!!) And I just screamed more when I realised that he was correct. They cut my foot into two pieces but there was less blood than should have and I did not faint(I later found out that the laws of nature were a little different here in spiritual world:we did not die as easily,but we did feel as much pain as normally.)When they had done that,the doctors suddenly watched my foot like the surgery had gone wrong and they ran out from the door as to get something to mend my foot.This was all of course the humour of Aickman.

Then I was suddenly back in the mainroom in my bed where Aickman was sitting beside his table.And a nurse came to bandage my injured foot
while I "spoke" more with Aickman.I found out that sometimes in fact you
could even leave this place to go to earth,but that was done by killing a person first and then Aickman would let them trough the corridors door and their soul could just by wanting it to go take over ANY human at ANY time so that they could then live there and do a lot harm and destruction there.
But that it was done only to a chosen few who were totally already "pain-
enlightened" and ready to "preach their doctorine" to others.Then the
nurse was ready and I was left to rest for a while.I was thinking that what
kind of place had I again ended up in.And I began to realise the fact that
I really might have to be here for an eternity!!In that time I would become
a demon with nothing sane left! I really have to come up with somekind
of plan.I then thought that perhaps my meditation might make it easier
to withstand pain? I then began to try to meditate in my Zen-way and I
became unnormally fast conscious of my consciousness(spiritual plane helps it?).I then kept on doing so for hours waiting for my next torture.
And I did not have to wait long because after awhile the nurse came back
to me but this time to put somekind of oxygenmask over my face that vib-
rated with green energy that screamed at my face "WHAT IS THE
ANSWER????!!!!" and that hurt like the "demonpain".But this time I could take the pain easily because of the meditation.When I was lying
there on the bed,after awhile I saw 2 demonic looking girls coming in from the right door from me that had small fangs instead of teeth.And they had really long nails also.I asked Aickman about them and he answered that these were somekind of "demonic lesbian beings" who loved to claw humans,so I would watch out for my feet if I was you(Aickman humour)!
The girls danced a little dance first and kissed while doing so,and after that they came beside my bed.And they began to claw my legs slow and hard so that they made deep lacerations which bled.
And it hurt like hell,IF I would not have been meditating.In fact I did not
feel a thing.They noticed that I was not feeling any pain and were first
puzzled by this and began to practicly butchering me with their nails clawing trrough my whole body.There was blood everywhere.But because
they could not make me feel any pain,they gave up finally and went away
trough the same door on the right.When the nurse was again patching me up,I was talking to Aickaman about meditation because he also had noticed that I had not felt any pain.I told him about Buddhism and occultism and magic,and he did understand some of it but not all.And for instance I asked that does he know Aleister Crowley,and he said that something,and when I told him that I was a magician who practiced his methods,he asked that "Crowleys methods were self-mutilation and yours as well(he thought that
Crowley was a self-mutilator).I answered that not quite but he did not
want to talk more about the subject and changed it so he was left with
the idea that I could take pain because I was a selfmutilator).

I told him that I was a budhist and as such I did not pratice sex because
it made meditation impossible.He then said that we will see about that.

Suddenly from the door on my right came a teacher woman and some youths of this place who I had seen around the place.The teacher went in front of them and told them that "ok,for this lesson we shall be studying sex".(I immediately knew that this was again some test made by Aickman to me.She teached them about diffrent sexual positions and came aside me to
show the class that how they were made.She then came to my bed and
showed the different positions with my body.But I did not even flinch
sexual arousal because I was meditating.She got bored with me fast and eventually the whole class left.Aickman commented to me "You are
hilariosly inhibited!!!!!"

After that I was again left to kind of peace for awhile and I was trying to
think of a way of escaping as usually(I had thought much about the answer
and that how could I get it somehow),when I had suddenly an idea that
might work:Because first of all I was not so sure about the fact that earth
really was conquered by the Grint,because if it was supposed to have hap-
pened in the year 1975,then how can I be coming from a much later date of
(2007)??! Perhaps he had made some mistake about the thing which would
mean that Earth still was OK!? So if I could somehow go to earth,I could
still get his answer from his other mansion in London which was intact!So
I began to think of a way in which he would let me to go to earth while I
talked with him about that where his other mansion exactly was in London. He spoke strangely freely about the subject.

Then again suddenly I had to start to meditate because from the door on
the right from me came two girls both carrying motorsaws.They looked
a little like satan worshippers with their black clothes and depressed expressions.Aickman warned me again humorously:"be careful about your feet,these girls have a nack for sawing them!".They started the saws and which started to buzz loudly.Then the girls both took their own leg(one on
the right and one one left) and began to saw trough it slowly.I did not even flinch from pain but I did for a second almost lose consciousness.Then when I said at the same time when the girls were sawing to Aickman that "I dont feel a thing!",Aickman answered in total shock that "What kind of insane selfmutilating Crowley magician ARE you!!!!???" When the girls had cut both of my legs from the middle,there was an insane amount of blood.The girls then left me alone.When the nurse came,she was totally shocked by my cuts and began to bandage my legs back together.The Aickman commented about that that one of his pleasures was to make women cry from the pain of others.After that when I was again just lying in my bed I had the idea that perhaps Aickman would like me to get for him some more Gruds from Earth with my powers and so he would let me go to earth.So I asked him
about that,and he said yes,IF you can take this kind of pain??!!)?!:suddenly the fat woman who was feeding and taking care of the Gruds in the right corner of the room took a Grud and came with it to me and gave it to me to caress.It was disgusting looking and when I held it I felt horrible "demon- pain",but was able to keep it in my hands with the help of meditation.All of the people in the room,the fat woman and Aickman looked me in shock that I was able to do something so crazy.Then Aickman told me that "You can go to earth to capture Gruds and you might as well get a new body while doing it because that one of yours is pretty thin.We butcher you to death tomorrow!" I said that "ok it will be nice to get a new body and to run with Grint".I was extatic that my plan might be working.Then I went to the library now that my both feet had just healed from the sawing and I watched out from the librarys window at the Grintwoods where I saw Grints walking around and some poor sap of Aickman whom he had made to run in the woods trying to hide from the Grints.Then when I was waching the row of books that had Lovecraft in them,I heard behind me when a few about 25-30 years old men were talking about me:"That insane selfmutilating magician is going to go to earth to catch some Gruds!","He´s going to jump around the Grints with his magic."and so on.It was funny to listen to because they had no idea what I really was.
I slept trough the night without any interruptions and in the morning I was getting ready for my butchering by meditating many hours.Then finally Aickman told me with his computer that now was the time for my execution.First I tried to kill myself because I thought it might be
much easier than my total torture.So I pulled with my finger on my nose
so that my nose would brake so that the blood loss would kill me,but instead I just broke my nose and the blood loss did not make me even faint.
Then the fat woman tending the Gruds on the right corner came beside
my bed holding a Grud and Aickman warned me that "Be careful,this one
likes to pop your eyes with her nails so that you would lose sight.But be-
cause we like the idea that you see all the time while we kill you,so do not
let her!".So when the woman tried to give me her Grud to hold,I told her
that no,I dont want to hold it,and she went back to the corner.Then I saw
one of the girls with chainsaws come from the door on the right from me and come beside my bed.She then started her saw which again started to buzz loudly.She then started to saw slowly trough my other leg.Again I just took it easily with the Zen.I discussed with Aickman while she sawed that
again Im not feeling any pain and that where was his other manor again
(I had forgotten)? He told me but then began to suspect something and told me that you can´t go there in the dead earth for there is nothing left but ruins.And even if you were considering about staying in the dead earth,
you would ran out of food in few days.You CANNOT ESCAPE FROM
HERE!YOU ARE HERE FOREVER FUKKING EVER!!!!!!!(And he changed his face from Aickam to his "trueform" that was a green demon.) He screamed that to me as a thought so that no one in the room noticed what was happening.The scream hurt me again with the "demonpain".After that he calmed and started to talk about other things.Meanwhile the girl had sawed trough my leg and it was lying on the bed limply.There was much blood also.But because obviously that had not killed me,she then began to saw trough my other leg and other places.But because I still did not even flinch,she thought that I was just really cool that I could take the pain( and she thought that that was so cool that after awhile Aickman told me that she had a crush on me.In the meantime when I was talking with Aickman he said that perhaps we might want to put you both:that girl and you to go have fun in to earth so that she could really do some damage there.When I said ok I realised that my plan had gone wrong because if she came with me she would know that the Earth was still ok and tell Aickman spiritually and take me back to here.Then she was just cutting my other arm off and when I still could not feel anything nor could I die yet,Aickman told me that "You are one tough selfmutilating magician!!!!!".And he was also delighted about the enthusiasm that the girl was sawing me"Look at her go!!!".Then she went to the cage to take a few Gruds that she put on a chair and she cut trough them too.The fat woman and all the other Gruds were all crying.
Aickman was really satisfyed,he told me "I´ve never seen the fat woman to cry!!This is SOOOO good!!"Everyone in the room( a few people from the manor and the nurse) were beginning to feel bad by all the butchering and I could not help but feel that it was really weird that these people who were here for ETERNITY and even when they had a little respite from torture their whole lives were nothing but torture in one form or another but that they still somehow tried to hold with all their being on to some kind normalcy and goodness.I felt really bothered by their anxious faces
while watching my torturing.
But then suddenly I had an idea that could still might make my plan work.
I told Aickman that "But the girl cannot come with me because there are
Grints there that would kill her instantly so I have to go alone." Aickman
then answered that "you are right,ok,you go alone then".He told the girl
that she could not go,and I was beginning to fell good that my plan was
working,when suddenly the girl said to Aickman and everyone in the room
that "That magician is from an earth in the year 2007 where there has never been an attack by the Grint!!!!!" And Aickman said that "She´s
right,you told us about things that could have happened only much after
the year 1975!You were just trying to go to earth to get the answer!!"
He then screamed in to my thoughts which again hurt much "YOU WERE GOING TO TRY ESCAPE BY DECEIVING ME! NO ONE DECEIVES ME OR THEY
SHALL SEE WHAT ETERNITY OF INSANITY -REALLY- MEANS!!!!!!!!!"

He showed me a picture of this mansion in my thoughts and said:

Youll Go INSANE In the Aickman-mansion where dark beings chase you
in the dark corridors and you scream when your body is tortured in a
million ways and you lose all hope in the Grintwoods where your worst
nightmares come true and even THEN you are just BEGINNING to realise that you are here --FOREVER-- --FUKIN-- EVER---!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And when you realise that,then you have truly arrived into the Dark
Aickman-Mansion where ULTIMATE INSANITY,TERROR,HORROR
AND FEAR ARE YOUR ONLY FRIENDS ON THE DARK PLAINS......"

When he had stopped punishing me,I realized that he was right,I REALLY
was going to be here FOREVER!!!!!!!! This whole year,EVERY day in
total torture,And even that would just be a START for a 100 years,and
NOTHING out of 1000 0000 years,and EVEN that would just be a START
for 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 000000000
YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(This was possible because we were a a "spiritual plane",which NEVER
ceases to exist unlike the physical universe.)

I began to scream out from this realisation while at the same time Aickman
told the others in the room "kill him now properly so that I can get him back
from the tunnel!".The girl then took many knives and started to butcher me
totally so that I had only a few lumps of body left.But I was still not dying
because the meditation had made my body totally invulnerable to death.So
then the others left me to die alone from blood loss.My body was really bleeding horribly and it was making me lose my concentration at times.Then
the nurse came and she started to cry in total shock that why do I want to
kill myself.I told her that I canno´t use this body anymore so it has to go.
Aickman was again happy that the nurse was in such a shock.Then the nurse gave me some poison in a small bottle that was going to kill me easier.I took the poison and sure enough,I passed out instantly and my body had died.I was again in the tunnel and when Aickman was supposed to take me back to his mansion through the door,my "enlightenement demon" grabbed me first.



6.Enlightenement Demon 2

I found myself suddenly in a space shuttle with my Master and many "good"
people on our way to the space station.I did not understand that how were
things suddenly well when I had just been taken by the demon.But when I
watched things I suddenly began to feel a slight "demonpain" emanting from this whole place and I realised slowly that I was not in a good place
but still with my demon.Then when I looked more carefully at the people in
here I saw that they were all a little evil looking.And then I was pulled to a
table by the "people" and I suddenly felt totally sick so that I could not move at all,when "a doctor" came to me with a knife and started to cut
through my stomach.When my stomach had been cut I tried to escape by
crawling in to a tunnel on one wall.I had to go trough many things before I
ended up in the demons actual test.This time it had a body of fire that looked like satan and I was in "hell" with him in terrible heat and I had to chant in such environment which was again impossible.Then I killed myself
with a knife in order to escape him that way,but when I was floating "dead"
to "heaven" after I had killed myself,the way suddenly turned again in to his
tunnel and I was insane with desperation.



7.Demons take over the Earth 2

I was in a large house with my relatives,friends and the black Yoga-Man.
We were attacked again by demons that came from everywhere(man looking),but thank god again my Master arrived just in time to stop them when they were JUST going to grab me.She was able to stop them for a while but to destroy them from attacking Earth I would had to enlighten EVERY HUMAN on the planet by meditating in a special way.So I began to
meditate inside the house by chanting so that wherever I got through another mantra one person one planet became enlightened.Everyone in the
house was really scared about the demons and did not know what to think
about demons stading still in corners and corridors(even the Yoga-man had
NEVER seen any demons like this(physical ones)).My master helped me to
meditate but in the end we all realised the fact that there is no way that
I could meditate SO long as to make EVERYONE enlightened.So I just stopped meditating one day and the demons were again moving towards us.
We escaped to the streets with everyone quite mad to me that I had failed
them.But even streets were all full of disgusting looking demonic beings that
all gave us "demonicpain" if even little in touch with us.Then there were again many events.




8.Factory

I found myself lying on a bed in a rather large room that had about 25 people inside it.I found out that they were all kept there forcibly by some
kind of "BOSS robot" that punished them with electrical shocks if they
tried to oppose his will in any way.I was kipnapped by giving me a pill
that made me lose my consciousness(and so had all of them).And they told
me the "work" they all did was that they had to torture one of themselves
at a time and then be healed back to health.I thought that DAM it:why do I always end up in these kinds of places?! There was only one way out
from the room,a door on one of the walls(and they told me that even though you can go through it and in to corridor behind it,the corridor just
ends in to a door that one the robots behind is guarding it and giving shocks to anyone who would try to escape).I was lying in my bed when suddenly a few men took knives from the kitchen and came to stand beside my bed.
Then they began to cut my legs with those knives so that I was screaming
in pain and there was blood everywhere.Then they stopped doing that and
took the knives back to the kitchen and couple of nurses came to me and
started to patch the cuts with bandage.Then they all left me in peace for
while lying in the bed.In the evening the BOSS robot came out from the
wall suddenly and came to "scan us" for our thoughts.(It looked a little like the "lost in the space" robot.).It used some kind of beam from its
"eyes" that it pointed at our eyes to scan us.When my turn came,I felf how
my thoughts and memories were somehow cheked through so that
I "saw" how it scanned my thoughts and I saw for instance that it was
scanning me for the fact that I was intrested in meditation and that I
was a Finnish man.After it had scanned us,it went back in to the wall.
Then we all slept the night in our beds and in the morning ate breakfast
together in the kitchen.Then there was more torture again(for me and other people),and after that I began to consider about using my Zen meditation so that it wouldn´t hurt so much when they did that to me.And then I did when on the next day they tortured me and I did not feel ANYTHING! But that just made the man who was torturing me more mad and
he took out a small chainsaw from the kitchen and started to saw my legs
and arms off.I felt some pain but not even then did I lose my
concentration.
Then the man stopped and then again the nurse came to me to put my legs
back on(the laws of nature were a little different there).In the evening when the BOSS came to scan us it noticed my thoughts that I had escaped
his "painworkout" with my meditation.He was very angry and first was
going to kill me with electric shock,but when I explained to him that he could use me for something that would normally for a human to take a lot to endure(I didn´t care what was he going to do to me,it would always be better than death).He then thought my offer through and said that,well
you might be able to travel to the future of Earth to trap Gruds for him to
use as pets.He explained that he had a technique to be able to send humans in to any persons body and in to any time whether it was past,pre-
sent or future.The person who was to be sent to somewhere had to be killed first though.And then he explained that in the near future of planet Earth the entire planet has been taken over and ruined by Demonic Beings called the Grint from the other side of the moon.And that there now was nothing on earth in the near future besides millions of Grints there was only Grud´s:little beings that were Demonic also but were kind of cute(looked little bit like a guinea pig(but a demonic one)),and that he (BOSS) LOVES them and everyone who loves them.But that Grints and Gruds cause horrible burning pain(the same "demonpain" of this world) to any normal humans and that he could only send humans to there because he himself was a robot and did not have a soul on which to travel in time.He showed me a picture about the "Grudhunt" which he had.It was picture from the
future of a disgusting black and green ruined forest that had also really
disgusting looking Grints and some Gruds with a few humans running
from the Grints and trying to catch the Gruds with a steel gage.The whole
picture almost "oozed evil vibration" because everything about it depicted
total insanity and evil that was beyond your normal understanding of such
things.I put the painting away before I was going to vomit from disgust,
but still said to the BOSS that I will go,you just pick a date for my murder.
He agreed and said that you will be butchered to death in a few days.Then I talked to others there about the fact that I might be able to get us all out from here if I would use my meditation somehow to make the BOSS my slave.Others were really exited about my plan.Then suddenly the door to
the corridor opened and really large robot came in the room.BOSS also
came out and they both were in front of us all.The other people told me that that large robot was the boss of even BOSS in this "factory" and that
it could read our minds all the time even without a scan and that it was ex-
tremely powerful electrically and could even kill the BOSS in a second.Then we all understood together that they had just been thinking about escaping from here and it had "heard" and is now coming to punish us.Then it began to read my mind and to ask me that was I the one who was going to try to help them all escape.I told him yes,but that the BOSS was going to need me to go to future even if I had caused any problems.The BOSS told his boss that thats right,but he(me) wont be escaping anywhere because we can just send him in to the future and leave him there.Both bosses agreed and did not for now punish anyone,but I was suddenly feeling like I wanted to try my meditation here and now against the bosses.So got in to my Zen-state and said to the bosses that "You are both weak and cannot control me!!".They both turned around as they were leaving and screamed at me with their thoughts"YOU CANNOT ESCAPE, YOU WILL DIE NOW!!!" and they both zapped me with insane electrical charges that burned my shirt instantly,but It did not affect me at all!!I was amazed how powerful my meditation was that I could now control them! But at the same time I realised that I could not kill them in any way and that they could still kill the other people,so I just told them to go back to their rooms.They obeyed and then we again had normal day of torturing.

The next day I was going to be sent to Earths future by killing me.I went in to Zen-state first.There were two men and one woman(both men had large fork kind of things and the woman had the small chainsaw.I was then cut half to pieces and my stomach had a chainsaw cut in it,when suddenly
all the lights of the room(that had not been ever yet been lit) were lit.We
all stopped what we were doing and looked around puzzled.Then suddenly
the BOSSes door opened in the wall,and out came a man who looked like
a normal businessman.He told us all in a loud voice that "Ok,now your
work has been done(??!) and you are all going to get go back to home,and
your paycheks has been transferred on each one´s personal accounts.".
Then the door on other wall opened and we could see trough the corridor
that the other on the other side was open too and the robot who was
quarding it had backed away.
We all stood for a while in total suprise(??!) but then we went to ask the
man that what kind of insane company was this?!! And he told us that it
was Intels newest "powerfactory" that used the latest robotic techology
that was able to make the workers work the most efficiently.Then all the others left while I was put together hurriedly by the nurses who then used one the beds that had wheels on it to push me on it out
from the room and in to the corridor(because of my injuries I could not
walk).In the corridor we found one other door in the middle of it open that we have not noticed before.We went in to a small room where
was a table and man typing on a computer.He told us that HE was the
one who had trapped us inside and used the robots to make us torture each other.When we asked why,he said that he was a horror novelist who needed new material for his latest book and then made us to suffer which
he could then write about.And that all of the "going to future earth"
and such were all indused by drugs and special effects.And that he
used Intels techology to do all of this controlling.We were really angry
at him and both of the nurses hit him and told him "this is for keeping
us captive and tortured! And we will sue your ass and put in for a life
in prison!".Then we left and came to corridors door which when we
went trough was a suprise that where were we in the world:we were
in the lower floor of a hospital in Helsinki,Finland! Both of the nurses
were Finnish too so they were happy too that were so close to home.
And then the other nurse ran to check that was there any money really
on her account.She came back and told us that she really did have quite
much money on her account.

Then nurses took me in to show me to the doctors of the hospital for more
treatment.On the way there I asked the other nurse would he like to be-
come my girlfriend because I thought that she was really cute.She did not
want to do so because she already had a man,but because I looked so
depressed about it she told me that she had friend who might want
to meet me.I agreed and she took me to her friend who was by chance just now visiting the hospital.She was very cute too and had weird "flowerbeings" from Japan with her that she took care of.They were small flowersized beings that looked like flowers.I asked her that would she want to be with me and she took my offer gladly.Then I was taken by the doctors and nurses of the hospital into the operating room for an operation.I woke in the hospital bed in some hospitalroom after the operation with my two nurse friends in front of me and they told me the operation had gone well and your stomach wound has been stiched.Now we just take you to some room for a nights sleep after which get to go home tomorrow.They took me to the same room that had the robot and corridors door on one wall because I they had no more room elswhere.They put a small plastic mask one me that was going to keep my face that had also a few stiches in it,in place.
It was disgusting because its color reminded me of the robots electrical
shocks and it covered my eyes too.When they had left me,after about an
hour when it was about 12:00 I began to hear that the small television in the room had news on and began to tell that the horrorwriter had done horrible things to people and was being taken to deeper investigation that what exactly had the man done and how.And that many people were calling cops and media to tell about the stuff that the man had done to them in the past(it seemed like he had done similar stuff on a much wider scale than just our torture):rapevideos,killingvideos,weird stuff like a fake killing of a giant shark that was not a shark but just effects,grudhunts,gay videos,celebritys taken to do things,all kinds of weird things that he was now being accused of.
Just then police and some special force people were running suddenly into
the room and were assembling for the arrest of the writer from his room(he
had not left it yet,as far as we knew).Then they went in with force,and in
the process somehow managed to make the robot guarding the door to ex-
plode suddenly so that it blew a large portion of the roof with it.But no one
got hurt.Then they stormed in and after a few minutes they came out with
the horrorwriter in handcuffs.He looked at me and said that you were pretty intresting with your meditation,but why did you have sue me?!!!
I just smiled at him.Then in the evening I just tried to watch the tv by
opening the masks eye-corner so that I could see.There were no other
programs,JUST news about the writer.He´s large assets and accounts were
all being given to people he had done something bad to.
I then saw my own name and that I was given 300 000e and so were my nurse friends.I whooped when my friends came to me half screaming in happiness and we all talked for a while what we were going to do with the
money(the one that I had asked out was going to buy a car and to go for
a long cruise.The other one was going to use it for her family.And I had to
use it to heal my body more.)Then I asked that they could bring the "flowerbeinggirl" to talk to me now.I then spent a nice evening and night
talkin to her.But then in the night I suddenly had to go to the toilet to take
crap,and while taking it I suddenly also had crapped part of my anus and intestines in to the toilet.But it didn´t hurt so much for some reason and I could walk back in to doctors room and tell them what had
happened.They told me that apparently the operation to set my stomach
back in place had not gone quite so well as they had thought and I was
now facing a rather fast death in just about a weeks time when my intestines all came out and I couldn´t eat anymore.I was devastated but still able to be positive because of my meditation.I was then taken back in
to the room where my "flowergirl" was and I had to tell her I really sorry
but I can´t be with her anymore because I was going to die in some days
time.She took it really hard and started to cry so much her nursefriend had to hug her.Then my nursefriends took me to a my own hospitalroom
in which I could be in peace.Then there were many days in which time
I did spend much time with my nursefriends and on one day they took
me to a somekind of outdoors movietheater where they showed some films
and news.And they told in the news about the "dark night" when everyone
had had pictures of Buddha appearing in front of them,and I told my friends exitedly that I was with a Yoga-man battling spiritually against
the dark night,but they were not sure whether to believe because I pretty
sick allready and my mind was not what it was.Then I suddenly saw above
the theater one those "demonenergies" that I had battled in the space station,and I thought that was this a new attack and began to battle it with my mind when the nurses said that there is nothing there.
I then realised that that was caused by my whole skin suddenly(eyes too) turning completely dry and stiff.It was discovered back in the hospital that this was caused by the electrical shock the robot had given me.Then I spent more days being treated for that too by taking baths while a nurse peeled the skin off and and put a plastic one in its place.I also went to visit
a small bar in the cellar floor of the hospital to drink water slowly and to
sit.There I also met the "flowergirl" again who was sitting depressed and sad in there one day and my nursefriend had to go to talk to her that "look
at him(me),he is going to DIE in a few days and is in horrible pains,you cant feel sad for yourself!"But the flowergirl did not change her mind,just
walk away sad.I also met in the bar in different day a few people who were drinking and watching me with wonder.I told them that this is the "hor-
rrorwriters work!"But that I could even take my legs being sawn off without flinchin because of my meditation.They all looked me with awe.
I also tried to call my friends and relatives but my celphone had no battery
left and I just forgot it after trying once.Then one day when my stomach had gone out completely and I was kept together with a plastic stomach and I was going to die that day,it suddenly hit me that I might use the money that I´ve gotten from the writer to buy an expensive artificial stomach and anus and as much a body as possible (my muscles were all also very weak).In the end they even had most the parts in the hospital to be taken to use immediatly,and the nurses then did build me into a artificial body(though this was only intestines and stomach and butt).I was then just saved in time because the system worked well enough,the only problem was that I had to sit ALL the time on somekind of keg which looks pretty stupid.In the beginning I had some difficulty in getting used to the thing and I could only eat very light foods.Then after beign in one other hospital for a while where I met some journalist for a magazine and we (me and the nurses) had an interview with the journalist about the "factory" and also told the "dark night" story,I was not taken to home because I could not live alone,I was taken to one nurse called Paula to her home.In there I lived kind of ok,but her 3 children(boys all:2,13 and 22 years old)were all(exept the baby) very annoing and his husband could not control them at all.After living there for about 6 months(I really DO recall ALMOST EVERY day of IT like normally people would when living their live PHYSICALLY!!!!!!!!) helpworkers tried to make to live in two place where I was given help by workers,but they both failed and I ended in the end in a little bit already better condition physically into one apartement where I could live in at least rather alone(Though I couldnt leave home in my motorised wheel chair that carried my keg.When one day I was with my brother and his children
we were walking outside and they were pushing me on my chair,when a
huligan teenager came and kicked my chair so that I fell to ground and died
in the collision.


9.Search for Landcroft

When I died,I was first taken to many different "options" that what MIGHT
be hapening now that I´m dead:I was taken to special spiritual heaven where everything is pure consciousness,then I was taken to earth to be
born again to be a human,and so on.But in the end I flew trough a corridor
that had so material walls that I became afraid that this kind of place can´t be in the spiritual world.In the end after many events I was finally
playing a "demonic computergame" called the Search for Landcroft that I had by mistake played once in another life so with a normal computer so that I had by doing so accidentanly cursed myself to play this special "demonic game" whenever I died for 8years.And now that I had just died
I had to play it for 8 years.Once you curse yourself into playing the game,you have to do so FOREVER every time you born and then die again.
The only method of stopping the game is to become enlightened.

The game itself is played in a demonic computer in a demonic room in a demonic world on spiritual plane.When you play the game you canno´t move away from the computerscreen even by turning your head.But there
are small pauses once years or so when you do get to move around a little
in the room.The game is a simple black and white sidescrolling action game which happens in a jungle and your task is to try to find the "Landcroft"
person.If you find him you get to born again instantly,otherweise you have
to play it the full 8 years(thought its almost impossible to find him).
Everything that causes damage to your man who you are controlling causes physical pain to you.
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Then I began the game and first there is the "commencementscreen" and
openingmusic(A person sings an insane(that makes it obvious how totally horrible it really is that you have to here for 8 years!!!!)) song of which here are just a few words.):

Buddha never tried to find happiness from here.
Christ never tried to find meaning from here.
Blavatsky never tried to find enlightenment from here.

Because of the meaninglessness of it all.
The insanity of meaninglessness.

I felt horrible pain as the game began with the last loud scream of the
openingmusic.I played it a many many months going more and more insane
from boringness and pain.I spent some time in the demonic room also which
was qhastly.But I was able to escaple from there finally by meditating by
chanting Krsna-mantra for so long that I became enlightened and then the
demons lost control on me and I could fly away from there back to earth.
I had to explain my return to many people,and I became bhakti after I had
found out that Krsna-mantra was so easy to do.Also I was quite sick even
still and I was taken to many hospitals to rebuild my "artificial body".


10.Krsna

I was very sick and had to live many years with my brother.Then in the
year 2011 there was a new invention that rocked the world.It was a new
transportation vehicle called the accelerator.It was capable of 1-6 machs
speed in the ground like a car.It was built into car sized vehicles that everyone started to use.New accelator-roads and paths were built even
over the Atlantic-sea so that one could cross over the sea to USA in just
a hour or so.
My brother had one also and we went everywhere with it.But when once we were driving over the sea,ALL of the accelerators had caused some kind of pressure on the planet so that suddenly all the vehicles were destroyed with the roads and everything around them.We were lucly to stay alive with my brother.I thought that it was Krsna warning me and the whole world to
stop think that if they died without becoming a bhakti they would have to
born still hundreds of times before they became bhaktis who were freed from this world at their time of death.So then I became a bhakti and went around the world with my two friends to different Krsna-temples trying to study more about Krnsa-Consciousness.Then it was year 2012 when we found out that this on this years on Krsnas birthday Krsna will rise in his giagantic physical from from the mountains of India to make peace for the entire planet for millions of years by forcing his will on people who do not do things right.Then we decided to be there on his birthday.Then after many events we were in India in his birthday and all the bhaktis had their own special large accelerator-aeroplane.Krsnas awaikening-mantra was played from large speakers on the plane.And slowly Krsna´s 20km high physical manifestation began to arise mountainlike from the mountains.Also all the bhaktis inside the plane slowly lost their old bodies and were given new,spiritual bodies that were very powerful.I felt amazing bliss when my old sick body changed to a body that even it´s every breath was like breathing in a snowstorm.And because we all could fly also we flyed out from the plane and to Krnas side.I the meantime,all countrys of the world had noticed the rise of Krsna and thought that he was a big threat so they sent all of their accelerator figters and nukes to destroy it.And Krsna was still in coma so he could not fight them yet.So we had to protect Krsna and we were succesfull.When Krsna was completely awake it destroyed the rest of attackers.Then we knew that we had won and Krnsna would keep us for millions of years safe from meat eaters,violence.and so on:
OUR BIG BLUE DUDE IS BACK AND WE HAVE NOTHING TO FEAR FOR
MILLIONS OF YEARS!!!!!!!


11.Year 2012

I came back from India to Finland when it was still year 2012.I was very sick and was in a hospital for long time and everything was still not back
in order after Krsnas return.Things were still broken and for instance one
could not get water from the tap(just disgusting goo came out),and we had
to get drinking water from rain by having many pots in the roof.



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So my question is that how is this possible to have these kinds of experiences.(It was NO astralprojection and NO normal dream.).
I´ve never even heard of anything like this even thought I´ve read
hundred´s of spiritual books.......?

Thank You:Jack 999