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I always destroy old writings. I can never keep a diary, a sketch book, a blog... I always end up ripping it to pieces over a trash can (or deleting it all). So I'm starting fresh on this New Year's Day of 2010 (coincidence!) and will add to this journal whenever I have an interesting dream to share. However, I'll keep my "first LD" entry.
This is going to be a long one, folks. (And for a good reason, too.)
My Story:
The day I found out about lucid dreaming was about three weeks ago. For the first week, I was dedicated: trying WBTBs, frequent reality checks, detailed dream journal, etc. By week two, I lost motivation: stopped doing the meditations before sleep, dream journal entries were short and few, basically stopped reality checks all together. And now, it's week three, and the only thing that I've done different from week two is that I've done this dream journal here at DV. And yet... somehow... (you know where this is going)... I had my first lucid dream this morning! :D
But before you read about that, you need to know some background info on my dream before that (I'll keep it short): It's the first day of school. I go through the school day. Last hour of the day, I don't know who my history teacher is, and neither do the history teachers. This is really frustrating for me, all I wan't to know is who my teacher is! Anyway, so we go home with the homework assignment of having to write a short essay with a toilet paper visual aid.
[I wake up here, then go back to sleep, which leads to...]
First LD
I get out of my bed and look at the clock. It is 6:30 in the morning, and I have to go to school. Then I remember how pitiful my first day of school was yesterday which leads to me remembering that stupid homework assignment. I have to somehow write a short essay on the space/room/air around us; not only that but I have to make a toilet paper visual, as well. I groan. I do not want to do that project. [For some reason, I guess I'm hoping it is a dream] I do the finger-through-palm reality check, which doesn't work. Then I plug my nose (without much hope) and I can breath! I can't believe it! So I do it again and again just to make sure. I can feel the excitment starting to rise, which I note and immediately start rubbing my hands together. [Which doesn't really work for me. I guess I wasn't focusing enough.] So I can tell it's not working and decide to spin around, which helps. After a few moments, things settle. So the first thing I decide to do is to get out of this room and go to a beach, but it isn't really working so I give up. I walk out into the hallway and turn to go down the stairs but somehow I'm in my dad's family room. My mom, step-dad, and brother were standing on the couch about to basically kill each other with broken glass beer bottles, but then I shout "Go away!" and I blink; when I open my eyes, they are gone, and it's just the couch. I turn around and now I'm in my mom's bedroom. My cell phone rings, but I didn't really want to answer it because I was afraid it would ruin the LD. [I think I start to lose some control here but not all.] But I pick it up anyway. On the outside it says "Founder Called" and on the inside it says "Ms. Knick, from Elena". Elena had called to laugh at me because I got a horrible history teacher, but I think to myself "Ms. Knick isn't so bad." Then everything starts to get bright, and I know that I'm about to wake up. I don't try to hold on the the dream by spinning, etc., because I can tell that I'm about to really wake up/open my eyes. And so, I do. And even though I know I am not dreaming, I do a reality check just in case.
Some comments I'd like to make about my LD:
~ Maybe it is because it was my first time or I didn't have complete control, but this dream didn't feel any more "vivid" than other dreams I've had. I've heard people say that sometimes LDs feel more real than reality... any other explaination as to why my dream was not "vivid"? :confused:
~ For those who are curious, I went to sleep at 11:00pm-ish, and woke up at 6:45am. Went back to sleep (may have woken up briefly again?) which is when I had my LD. Woke up from that at 7:52 [which is interesting because I'd reset my alarm to go off at 7:55]
~ I've also heard that when you meet people you know in your lucid dreams, your thoughts about them are sort of strengthened/exagerated/magnified. Well, looking back, I find the scene with my family rather funny. But it does seem like they argue a lot in reality.
~ Looking back at my LD some more, I just realized how completely boring it really is for someone reading it. Nothing exciting really happens, does it? Oh well. You'll just have to wait until I get better for things to get more interesting.
~ My cell phone in the dream didn't look like what my cell phone looks like in real life. Strangely though, when I saw it, I thought "Wow, even in dreams my cell phone looks like what it does in real life." Also, Ms. Knick is a DC, not an actually person. These are the reasons why I think I was not as lucid as I was earlier in the dream.
~ I feel like this LD was an accident. I didn't try to have a lucid dream. I feel like I just got lucky because the decision to do a reality check was my dream self, not my lucid self.
~ Thank you for reading, especially if you read the whole thing! :bravo:
Well first of all, congrats on your first LD! :bravo:
Most of my LDs have been more vivid than normal dreams, but a couple of times they haven't. It's happened when my level of lucidity was low, like when I've been on the verge of falling back into a normal dream. I'd say that you probably had a lower level of lucidity in this LD.Quote:
Originally Posted by Face-of-Boe
The idea of RCs is that you perform them regularly during waking life, so that your dream self performs them in a normal dream to become lucid. So that means that you might not yet be lucid when performing a RC. Even if it does feel like you performed the RCs randomly because you haven't been performing them in waking life, dreaming has still been on your mind, which will have no doubt made it more likely for you to perform a RC in a dream anyway. Because of this, it wasn't just that you were lucky which made you have a LD. :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Face-of-Boe
Anyway, I wish you many more lucids :thumbup:
Congratulations on your LD!
Clarity of LDs is really subjective, and may vary from dream to dream. Simply because one LD isn';t very vivid doesn;t mean none of them will be, or that any will be, and can actually be changed from within a lucid dream. And it really doesn;t matter if it was an accident, some people (including me) pretty mu8ch only have dream-inbduced LDs, where they notice something odd and do a reality check. Good start on the LD'ing!