Juedz Journey

I think this is a great idea, keeping a dream journal. Online. I mean, I've tried in the past to keep one, but the different entries can only be found in the myriad of spiral notebooks that clutter my home. I can at least find my computer.

I stumbled across this forum by accident, looking for information on isochronic tones - how to create them or (if I were to be so lucky) find free downloads.

Lucid dreaming has been an interest of mind for many years. Once you experience one, you just don't forget it. The content you may forget, the overwhelming feeling of experiencing one is not.

Over the past two years, I may have had two or three lucid dreams - where I was fully aware that I was dreaming and could examine the contents of it while still asleep. More often - but not frequent enough - I have very visual dreams.

Recentlly I have been listening to several (not at the same time!) of the Kelly Howell recordings, designed to be listened to upon going to sleep. They are designed I think primarily with binaural beats, in the theta and delta range and are quite effective in getting me into a deep and very restful sleep.

I've downloaded a variety of binaural and some isochronic and isochronic/binaural blends. On one occasion last week, I was sampling several I had downloaded before going to bed, and I had a remarkable dream - very vivid, and after awaking I not only could remember it, but also recalled a dream from several years ago as vividly as if I had just had it. The only problem is I'm not sure which one of the downloads I listened to resulted in this effect. So far, the ones I've listened to haven't produced quite the vividness I desire.

I've also decided to order the galantine from dreamins. I've had some success with a variety of supplements and teas, but have never properly documented my use of them. That is one of my reasons to start this journal. It will - hopefully - make me more accountable to my exact methods in creating both lucid and vivid dreams.

Another interest I have is being able to strengthen my visualization ability. I seem to have a block in visualizing. How visual is visualizing? Is it simply recalling a past memory, or is it more than that? For example, one of my fondest childhood memories is in my grandmother's front yard. When I think of it I can recall, from my memory the smell of the lilac bush, the flowers, the butterflies - in exacting detail. I can even recall the exact colors of the flowers and the leaves, and I can see (recall) the yellow and black pattern on the yellow swallowtails. Now I don't actually "see" it, but in my mind I can recall it. Is this visualization?

Now, the next item I think is somehow connected is imagination. There too I have a block - which doesn't bode well as an artist! Creating new visions, never before seen - is imagination, right? What I have found useful, to some degree is writing out an outline of the sequence of a visual I want to produce, and attempting to create the visual in my mind.

And how is both wakeful visualization and imagination connected to dreaming? That is the foundation for exploring more deeply lucid dreaming. In a lucid dream, you do "see" the visual, and can even question and explore it. I want to be able to do that while "day-dreaming". Is that even possible?

I am also hoping that some of the audio downloads create new neural connections that carry over into my waking creative outlets. As well as some of the supplements that I intend to try.

Anyway, that's where I am in this moment of time.

Last night was, rather special. Lucid flying dream, and 3 very vivid dreams. I may have to break this post up into two because of time constraints this am, but I really want to detail this as my recall this am has been remarkable.

First I want to document what I did before going to bed, because some of these things may have "assisted" me in obtaining this amount of imagery.

Yesterday I downloaded several lucid dreaming mp3's. Last night, about an hour or so before going to bed, I was listening to them. In the iTune library lineup, the one that follows The Ultimate was titled "Universal_Noetic_meditation" and was almost an hour long. I let it continue playing. It is primarily binaural and natural sounds.

After reviewing all of them, I decided to try the "Ultimate Lucid Induction" and the "30min Silence Lucid Remix" as the two I would burn for last nights "test". I set my alarm to 4:30 am so that I could start it. The ultimate one is about 10 minutes, then a 30 minute silence and then the remix starts for about 30 minutes.

I also decided to take 100mg of 5-HTP and 3g of blue/green Algae spirulina (brainfood). I was interested in where I had found the noetic meditation, so went searching, found info there about the subconscious, spirulina and the brain - so, as I just happened to have had some on hand - why not?:content:

I lit Japanese lavender incense and went to bed listening to the Kelly Howell Sacred Ground recording. The Theta and Delta tracks.

What happened after that is amazing.

At 4:30, alarm goes off, I put in the LD cd and went back to sleep. The first thing I remember is asking myself - am I dreaming. Had presence to do reality check. I think I did the holding your nose test, and yes I was still breathing, excited, I decided to jump and I Soared! I couldn't help but be excited because it was so clear and real - thrilling!!! Except for the stunning deep purple/dark blue sky, the minute details of my surroundings are somewhat foggy in the LD and I don't actually remember coming down (landing).

The next three dream senarios were some of the most visual I've ever recalled. I think as I continue to do this, I will be able to get even more detail. I was just trying to think if any of these might have been lucid as well as vivid.

One of my reasons for wanting more visual dream imagery is so that I can see and feel and understand the symbolism. In each of the three scenes I was a vocal participant - which I don't recall ever doing before now, but I'm not sure I was actually lucid.

As I think about this, I'm not sure I wasn't somewhat aware that I was dreaming. Anyway, I have to leave for now. Will got into more detail when I get back in a few hours.

I made a lot of notes so I hope that my recall of detail will be forthcoming.

To say I am still excited about last night is truly an understatement. I feel happy and energized this morning. :banana:

Funny Coincidence: When I left this morning, I had to go to Food Lion to pick up a couple of things. In the parking lot was a large touring bus. The name was "Dream Coach" with graphics of clouds, moon and stars.:shock: I took a picture with my phone camera.

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OK, now to the dreams. The first one is set in a living room, that I believe is in my grandmothers home. My husband and I lived in this house after she passed away, and the scenario feels like it was during that time. There are kids there and a man. My task is vacuuming. One of the things I notice is that electrical plugs to a variety of things are not plugged in properly, meaning that I would do it differently so that they are more orderly with the wiring. Looked messy. I am unhappy with this. I direct the man to take the sofa out of the house to be cleaned, and the kids go with him. I look out, and I see the sofa in the mud. I am unhappy with that, so I ask (direct?) the man to clean it off and bring it back into the house. It is wet, but clean. The sofa seems to be the one we had years ago when we actually lived in that house.

The second scenario involves my niece and myself. I don't recall the location other than it is an apartment, or rather small dwelling. She receives a call that we are both being re-deployed, and my major concern is that I do not have a uniform. (I do have a niece that has served in Iraq twice.) I remember that we both go, but are separated and I still didn't have a uniform.

The third scenario starts with me and someone else, a man I think, chasing after another man. We chase him up a hill that overlooks a pathway. The man with me, is telling me to throw a rock at the man we're chasing. That man is shaking his head no. I then see that across the road (path) a rock formation that begins to resemble a statue of some sort with an illustration of a family group. I point this out to the man with me, pointing out a child, his hair and arm. When the man I'm with sees it too, the family comes to life and I am then inside a home and the woman of the family is giving me cake. While I don't have a detailed visual of the cake, there was something very special about it and my impression was that it was very good.

I'm pretty sure I understand how each of these relate to current feelings I have. Without going into detail about that, what is exciting is that I can recall that much information and detail. Enough for me to understand it this quickly.

I think with continued use of examining what I do prior to bedtime and recording it here will be significantly helpful to me.

Another thing that is different than other dreams I've recalled in the past is that I am an active participant in them. Not just an observer. That's why I'm not sure if they were semi-lucid. I don't recall actually saying to myself that I am in a dream, but they did occur after the lucid flying experience, and I did participate in a more direct way.

I believe that all this occurred within the 30 minute silence from the Induction recording and the Remix recording. I think that once the remix started, I woke up - went to the bathroom and couldn't get back to sleep very easily so I just got up after a while.

Another thing that may have had an effect was that the last dream session I remember - vividly still, I had listened to the Universal Noetic Meditation some time prior to going to bed.

My options for tonight is to try everything the same, but without the UNM to see if any of those things were responsible. A guess at this point I need to utilize a process of elimination to see if any one thing was responsible, or if the combination was responsible.

The vividness was such that I can probably do a rough sketch of each scene. Which is encouraging, as I want to be able to express myself creatively by using my imagination and I think I'm on the right road to this.

See ya tommorrow.

A bit disappointed this morning. I did dream. However, it was nothing like the first night. I did everything I did the first night with the exception of not listening to the Universal Noetic Meditation prior to going to bed. So I'm wondering if that does in fact have something to do with the quality of my dreams.

Things repeated: Took 100 mg 5-HTP, 3 g spirulina/blue green algae. Lit Japanese lavender. Listened to Theta and Delta Tracks of Sacred Ground (which has binaural beats). At 4:30am, listened to LD audios Induction and Remix with 30 minutes silence between them.

Things Different: Deliberately did not listen to the UNM audio at anytime yesterday.

I did have a dream, and I semi-woke up and scribbled what I could remember in my notebook in the dark. I'm going to try and recall what I can from them.

This night was certainly not like the first one and I do wonder why. The whole night seemed different somehow. First, I couldn't get to sleep quite as easily as I do normally listening to the Sacred Ground recordings. For some reason, I hit a wrong button during the Delta recording and had to start the cd over with the theta recording. I'm usually asleep within 1-5 minutes with the theta audio, but not last night. I also ate way too much chocolate rocky road fudge and wonder if that may have interfered with falling to sleep. I don't usually eat sugar, so that may have been a factor.

I was also thinking yesterday if the fact that I was browsing so many of the LD forums - almost all day - may have also influenced the positive result of the first night. Last night I came across some forums on SP (sleep paralysis), which I experienced nightly in my teens and throughout my twenties. Sometimes several times a night. I use to be so frightened by them. Reading that people wanted to experience them startled me somewhat last night. I do wonder if somehow that may have influenced last night too.

Also, this dream did not come after listening to the Induction audio, as I would have thought, but after the Sacred Ground recording some time before the 4:30 am alarm sounded to listen to the LD audios.

This is kind of weird, I just went to get my notebook from last night. It seemed like I wrote pages and pages of notes. I remember turning pages and scribbling on front and back of at least 2 (4) pages. It seemed like I was writing volumes. Yet there's almost nothing. And I almost can't decipher what I did write. I did write the time. I do remember now looking at the clock on my phone: 2:18 am. That's how I know it was before the induction recording.

So let me recall the best I can from this chicken scratch.

The scenario takes place at a supermarket. I had already checked out and remembered that the cashier did not scan my discount card. I was a bit upset with this. I remember there were two cashiers, and I was somewhat augumentative with them. I don't recall words spoken. I also remember a different location at the supermarket - taking my groceries outside and leaving them on the curb to go and get my car. When I come back it seems like someone has taken part of my groceries and I am upset by that. I do recall there being a couple (older man and woman) and a young man who seemed like he worked at the supermarket. I don't recall any words spoken, but I think there was some. I recall seeing in the parking lot spilled food, not mine. I also remember finding three sets of three pennies in the parking lot.

That's it. That's all I can remember. It was semi-vivid and my recall - with the help of my notes - is more than usual. I have no idea what this one means. First of all, there has been no incident like this in real life recently and I've never left groceries on a curb. I'm trying to figure out the symbolism in this one but can't seem to get a handle on it. Sometimes it takes a while for it to become clear.

I do get the impression though that I am more vocal, an active participant rather than just an observer. I think in most of my dreams until now, I've only been an observer - watching, except on those rare occasions I did have a natural lucid dream.

I do know that I did have additional dreams last night, but didn't record or remember anything about them. I think I was already aware - even while sleeping - that I wasn't going to be repeating the first night by then and didn't feel like putting forth the effort to try and remember them in detail. Just an impression I remember from last night. I remember feeling like I had written a lot more about the first one and it felt like a lot of effort. I think I was too tired to try.

Until tomorrow...

Well, I decided to repeat everything from the first night, but I don't recall any dreams this morning.

Another variable was that I did eat cookies, again sugar with the addition of flour. I usually eat a low carb diet, but have been off the wagon the last couple of days. I wonder if that may have had an influence? I have often found that after I eat bread, or anything with processed flour I usually wake up puffy with brain fog. Today is no exception. I do feel a little foggy this morning, and I do look puffy. Will I ever learn.

But the cookies and milk were good.

I'm going to start back on the low carb today, eating only carbs from salad vegetables and good protein to see if that helps. I really haven't eaten very much protein the last two days either.

I also usually take a multi-vitamin and extra C daily, which I haven't the last couple of days. I wonder if that may have something to do with it..

Also, I wonder if maybe I should set up the night by posting here before bed. Maybe my subconscious will play along. I did sort of look around the forums last night, but not really into it like the night before the LD and 3 vivid dreams.

I'm not giving up. I am going to try different audios tonight though. Maybe our brains need a variety in its stimulus.

Until tomorrow . . .

This is only a test. I edited a statement I found that I like a lot. I'm not sure how signatures work, but I thought I'd see if it puts it at the end of my message.

Another uneventful night. I do recall dreaming, but don't remember any of it. Maybe I blew myself out the first night or something.

It is almost like an addiction. The first night was so wonderful.

I did respond in detail in a post on SP (sleep paralysis) about my experiences when I was younger yesterday (I think) and wonder if somehow recalling those experiences have now plagued my subconscious mind. While I now see that SP may have been an open door to lucid dreaming, most people who share their experiences do express how frightening it is for them as well. I think what scares me the most is that the people who want to experience more of them sort "get off" on the fear factor of it.

Last night I went to sleep with the LD Induction and the LD 3.3 audios playing as I went to sleep. I didn't take any vitamin supplements at all before bedtime, and I went to bed later than usual, around 2 am. Didn't even light my lavender incense. :(

Well, today's a new day, and like always, we never know what the night will bring. This weekend I'm going to order the Lucid Dreaming supplements from Dreamamins. I'm really kind of excited about trying them out.

I came across some interesting info on the brain, dreaming, and neuro-chemistry and I think the Lucid Dreaming formula will be beneficial.

until later . . .

Haven't written for a while. While I remember that I've had dreams, nothing was apparently so important that I felt compelled to remember them.

Nothing lucid, though. I have been too busy to try different things - other than lighting lavender incense - before going to bed.

Last night seemed to be no different, until I happened upon a TV program this morning that triggered memories of an unusual dream I had last night.

I want to try and document as much as I can remember as it seems that maybe it is significant in some way.

What triggered the dream was a program about Kabballah. As the vividness of my memory of the dream became clear to me, I was then flooded with images so I decided to write what I could remember about the dream here in my journal.

In the dream, as I can recall it, I discovered information about some ancient - felt as if it was Egyptian - text/symbols on the internet. I just remember being at my computer.

Then I recall that I was in someone's home, where they had a scroll of these symbols, I remember them as triangles in different colors. Vivid blue, yellow and red. In this home, in a library of sorts, there was a stack of these triangles and some scrolls of arranged symbols and their meanings - or powers. They were located on the top, left hand side of what seemed to be the mantel of a large fireplace.

I remember that I was also in a scenario where I went to a photography studio that had many, many brides waiting their turns to be photographed - all of them dressed in white wedding dresses. I remember that I spoke with the receptionist - who seemed to have been my daughter (I don't have a daughter in real life) who gave me a card with a copy of more information about the triangles/symbols.

I then remember being back at the home/library looking at the symbols again, and felt that these were very important, very significant in some way to understanding - what I'm not certain about. I got the impression that I could alter some aspects of my life by understanding how to use - combine - the symbols.

In another scene, I was shown copies of documents - from throughout history - that were created because of these symbols. They were shown to me one after another, scrolling from upper left to lower right, like the text that scrolled in the beginning of the Star Wars movies, but it was not text, it was poster like images. And the direction was from top down - on a diagonal path.

I'm not sure what any of this means. I'm not sure I would have recalled it at all, but the TV program about the Kaballah triggered something that caused me to remember it.

Very interesting, at least to me.

Later . . .

I awoke, just a little while ago, from a short nap.

While I haven't been focusing on, nor remembering any of my dreams for the past several months, this one was very clear and I suppose lucid, as I was directing myself to search out different locations in a house that I've been to before in my dreams.

What strikes me as unusual is that I've been to this dream location before - on more than one occasion.

In this dream, I was looking for a location to relocate my home office. It was important that I find the location where I would be facing the best location according to Feng Shui.

In this house, there is a "front" living room, which has a hugh picture window with a lot of little window panes. You have to access the room by going down about three steps, and the window takes up the entire side of the room that faces out to the street. Across from that window is an old sofa. This is a house that I am renting from someone, it is not owned by me. It is a room that, even in past dream visits, I've never used before.

As I had not been to this area of the house in a long time, when I got to the doorway, I noticed a door just past this room, and there I discovered another room with an abandoned bar. The bar was semi-circular shaped and the bar stools were a colonial style. Very dusty and dark.

From this room is another room, where I found a variety of photographic equipment. Cameras, darkroom equipment, photo copying equipment and such. Nothing else was in this room, just the equipment set up on the floor. This room had no windows and reminded me of a darkroom I use to have in a house I really did live in, only this one seemed larger.

Then I was outside the house, and I noticed that there were drapes on the outside of the window. Somehow, I was then on the top of the front of the house, looking over the roof. I was surprised to see that the front was only a facade that overlooked a huge body of water.

I remember feeling fearful and alarmed. At that point, the facade broke and I woke up.

Not sure what any of this means, but it was definitely vivid!

The most amazing thing is I know I've been in this dream location before. I went to the market just after having this dream, and I can now recall a couple of other "dream houses" I've been too more than once.

Does anyone else have dreams like this?