Fir3Chi3f's Dreams

All Dreams are in chronological order but maybe based in the past.



I've been keeping my own dream journal for some time now.
Starting from the beginning:

Setting: Airplane, I am not actually there (disembodied)

There is a tour of the plane going on, as they enter the cock pit there is a hug gust of wind. Almost all of the right side of the cock pit is gone, the co-pilot struggles to keep control of the plane. Th3 Fir3 (my girlfriend at the time) rushes in and grabs the other controls. But she can't...

She is pregnant and the baby is not mine.

I wake angry and in a cold sweat.


After I talked with her the next day, she brought up the good point that the only reason she would be on a plane is to come and see me. (As crazy as it sounds that is true)


I have started dating my entries but, these are from some time ago. I will try to put up one a day

Setting: my house

There is a bad ghost in the house. I'm am scared to the point that I cannot breath (which has happened before).

Regardless though I get to work on getting the ghost out.

Through the whole dream I cannot breath but I keep at it. It is even slow going as my friends and family cannot understand me (can't talk with no air).


I wake to the sound of our dogs barking at something with a full nights rest.

Setting: My Grand parent's house a few years ago

People involved: My family and Harts' family

We are helping my grand parents plant flowers because there backs hurt.(Which happened in waking life before this dream minus the hart family; though the Hart family has been there before)

Me and Nicole are in the back alone, she asks me, "Do you love me?". I replay, "No"

She and her family leave before I say goodbye.

(Me and Nicole used to be friends before I got stupidly freaked out when I was called her boyfriend; we were maybe 6-7 yrs old (or younger) and have grow quite differently since)

I was thinking about not putting this one, but decided that this is a all or nothing deal. So, hear goes nothing.




I'm having sex with my mother and it is strangely comfortable....




This was a couple of months after I lost my virginity to Th3Fir3 (maybe sooner)

Setting: my cousin's house

People: all my family and one unknown

I'm drinking Remote controlled car gasoline. (Nitro)
I keep offering it to people but no one excepts.

I meet someone there, he is into computers like me; but he is also into Pokemon cards. (I've found them foul since I was a child my older brother and our friend would disclued me in there 'matches' some times)

He refuses to answer any of my questions about his computers even though for one reason or another I know for a fact he knows more then me.

He seems more fascinated with his Pokemon cards and showing me every last one of them.

He doesn't acknowledge that I ask him how much his collection is worth. I was trying to talk about what he wanted to for a while in hopes he would talk about his computers.

(At some point my bro gets tangled in this as well and he wont stop talking to either of us)
Somewhere along the line as well I decide it is not a good idea to be drinking gas.





I took this dream as a sign to not talk peoples heads off about Linux and computers, as I have been known to do and still do sometimes. Because there are somethings that people don't want to hear about (like Pokemon cards!).

Aug 3, 08 (YAY dates!)

Setting: inside some unknown car; I know its not expensive and passably a rental

People: Snoop Dog, Me and passably my brother.

Snoop is driving me to somewhere, small rusted words widely spaced pass under the vehicle.

"I --- refuse --- to --- take --- Jason --- to --- (passably wrong) hebrew"

Snoop looks at me with utter disgust as I laugh my ass off. I say something on the lines of, "I always messed with/did crazy things with him". Him passably being my brother.

Aug 13, 08

Setting: It looks like the inside of the Hyatt in Atlanta; 25 story building with the middle hollowed out and balconies surrounding. I feel like I'm inside of Georgia Tech.

I am in 'class' I suppose; we are in the lobby, our class is separated by a cubicle like wall. The instructor puts instructions on the black board and tells us to take a tube filled with small long sticks that look like incense without the stick on the end.

The instructions are now on a piece of paper (over 100) and are very repetitive and confusing. The teacher tells us it is ok to break a few.

I begin to pull one out of the tube, it breaks in many places. (I may have now pulled one out without breaking it) I look up at other students to compare progress.

I now realize the legs on our desks are getting longer and we are all now quite a few floors up; no one else seems to notice. I look down at my desk and the stick is now thicker.

I snap the end off and pulled out a very thin reed. I pull a little cotton out of it and realize we are back on the ground level. The black board has a few facts about cotton (1%?).

I see a women arrive at her desk in a cubical next to our classes. She makes two of the three walls semi-see through by pulling the side like the string on blinds.


This one was the night after arriving home from my mother and I went to Georgia tech and stayed at the Hyatt.

9/1/08

Setting: My garage then a Hospital that reminds me of the one my father worked at and my brother was in for a time.

Someone took the legendary symbol off the back of my jeep. Parts surrounding the area are also missing (4.0L). They look like they were ripped off.




What seems to be a differant dream in the same night:




Now disembodied

A man goes into a hospital with third degree burns. He finds no one so he lies down in a bed. The chart on the bed says he isn't that hurt so he goes without treatment.

*many parts are missing

Setting the Hyatt again

We (not sure who we is) have to battle the devil. We are on the top floor looking down the Devil slowly rising out of the ground grappling the floors and balconies above and around him.

We move down a few floors to just a few above him. We drop right on top of him pulling his hair on the way down.

(missing alot)

We are chillin in the lounge area just about were we were doing battle on the ground level (even the devil). He (the devil) turns out to be a she, and I get her phone number.

She shows me this card that has some kind of drawing on the front and the back looks like the back of my school ID (I feel horny and almost know I'm going to get some). She says, "I have to show this to everyone I sleep with".

The back of the card in a nice chart says something like "gotten from PVC dildos" the devil tells me she wasn't even awake for it.

(missing alot) -Something happens at fir3's house the mood is happy like a party

I never sleep with the devil. We are all now in my house excluding the devil and definitely including Th3 Fir3. Everyone is walking out of my little brothers room. Tim tells me she has been cheating on me.

I don't believe him but run in scared to know (described as a fit of rage).
Fir3 looks guilty as hell. I ask her, "Did you sleep with him?" (not knowing who him is) She replied, "kinda.." in a guilty voice and points to a ?camera?

I say, "that is not a camera". She says, " yes it is". I push in a little square and it opens up to reveal all these options. I don't see anything and I am suddenly consumed with rage and wake up.

morning of 9/18/08


I believe I had this one when I was deathly ill at my grandparents house. At this point in time we were actually broken up.

Setting: Eisenhower work out room

Characters: Me, Th3 Fir3 and random ppl in the background



Th3Fir3: When we broke up I didn't say to you all the things I meant too. We didn't take care of all we should have like Christmas [missing some maybe] Not just holidays; Moving out, an apartment, prohibition.... [missing some maybe] You know its state law that you cannot drink alone in North Carolina?

Fir3Chi3f: Your scares, your abortion, your ex. You've already lived a life.

In the background I hear "I don't know how to get you out of this funk"



The song in the background is Heaven Forbid by The Fray and the line should have been- "I don't know how to get you out of this one"

I felt so in control with this dream but I didn't try to say what I did. When is said "scares" I didn't mean the physical ones.
This dream breakup went a lot better then the actual but, what I said seems wrong; those things weren't what was wrong. But, Maybe they were, subconsciously; I don't think I will ever know.

This is the first dream I've noticed music, probably because this is the first time in a while that I fell asleep wearing headphones.

Age: 5-7 yrs



Some times memories just come back to me, I don't know what triggers them. and sometimes why I even forgot them.

I remember back when me and Nicole were playing together, we actually played doctor. I know nothing happened, we were so young. But, I do remember doing it again with another childhood friend Rachael.

Something did happen with her,:oops: nothing bad; we so young didn't even know that what we were doing was wrong.

I question why I stopped talking to Nicole though; Rachael moved away. I sometimes think I had some sort of feeling for Nicole but got scared.




I also question maybe what happened to me at 8 yrs may have something to do with my lack of memory of before then. But, I don't like to think this if that makes any sense. I feel like I am looking for attention even though the only person on earth that I have told this to was my ex.
My second thought on the subject being that it just happened so long ago and maybe memories are randomly triggered in everyone.

Setting: Studio K (My mother's hair salon)

It feels like we are in some sort of school, I don't recognize any of the "students". I am a teacher or a principal; someone with authority over the students (One that is very passive but would give detentions). The students are 'bad' kids; like an alt-ed school. I somehow know they are trying to ditch class.

I go out the front of the 'school' to stop them; I find them outside in the gravel beside the shop. There is a grave feeling in the air, no one is saying anything. There is a police officer out there with them.

The area seems to have a overhang/porch like at white pines.

The cop is very mad at them and is yelling. The student taller then me and the cop stands up to him and says, "Look in my eyes!, what do you think happened?" Officer: "I Don't Know Tell ME!"

I wake to the sound of my alarm.
Morning of 10/02/08

Morning of Oct 5, 08

Me, Fry and Bender are stuck in robot jail but there are humans there. They get us in fish costumes the floor is flooded up to our shins. We all take turns having sex with others (guards?) in a jail cell.

Fry and Bender are doing it with the robots, every time they do it a broken socket [nut?] is in my _________{friend? found?}

Something about me being in this ____{set? eat?}

Morning of Oct 20, 2008
Dreams of lust

I alone, hurt and struggling for almost 4 months. I finally met someone that listens, we've been talking for a week before this and this is the first time i have ever fantasize about anyone other then Th3Fir3.
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We are alone in her dorm, it is an all girls dorm. I am not suppose to be there.
{this is true, and was there in real life}

She falls asleep next to me, but i cant sleep. I gently get on top of her and spread her legs. I whisper, "Do you love me?"; she still in a dream state replies "yes"

I wake up to my alarm. I think I am in love again.

Im in a school that resembles all the schools I have ever been in the past. My brother is in the school with me, just like my whole life. It is Halloween and everyone is lined up in the gym for some reason in there costumes. I run out of the gym to make my costume scarier. (missing some) maybe in the bathroom (missing some) on my way back everyone is scared by me. I get back to the gym and ppl start dispersing from there lines in fear of me.

I specifically try to scare this one girl (I don't recognising her at all). Things are utter chaos, people are no longer scared of me; there are a series of storms pounding the school.Things lighten up, people start going outside. There are constant lightning bolts slowly moving destroying everything (finger of god, comes to mind outside of dream) People get scared and search for cover.

I run toward a car, (prier knowledge races threw my mind- If your in a car that is struck by lightning the tires ground you and electricity moves only through the car) The girl I was trying to scare earlier is against the school, "Everyone get against the wall, it will protect us!". This did not seem like a good idea, but i looked at the car then at the few ppl listening to her. I say something like, "fuck this".

It is a tall long wall like two gyms built next to each other with no windows. It reminds me of lawn maner but much bigger. When I get closer to the wall it gets way shorter, I can see the lightning over it. I look down and look up again and its gone.


Moral- Sometimes its not better being different, sometimes its better to follow someone else's lead/the crowd.

Morning of Nov 7

Nov 12

Before my alarm went off I woke up to something I haven't done in years-
I wet the bed, not bad but I pee'd a little in my blood pants

I'm very worried, I have been very stressed lately and I don't remember the dream at all.

[Edit: I now realise that again I am here avoiding sleep, this is not healthy and I don't know what to do about it.
So tired and sleep is easy to come, but I fear it and don't know why.]

11/28/08

Me and Debra are in my room (just cleaned like in real life), we start talking sexually. I strip naked and pull out my jeep knife to "force" her to succumb. I can't open it with one hand like i can in real life something is stopping me. She is saying demeaning things to me the whole time.

I see a shadow out of the corner of my eye in the kitchen and I put my clothes back on. She puts hers back on after she realizes whats happening. Either mom or Ryan walk into the room.

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Something wakes me (garage?)
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I'm with Doctor Cutty and House [That is what i get for falling asleep after a House marathon]. We have to get to the top of the Sears Tower.
My mind Wanders-

Im thinking about how they prevent such winds from shooting up or down the towers stairs. They just put an easy open door every couple of floors.

How could the set up go to make the wind pressure blow the doors right off there hinges?
Nock it down to only three doors one at the top, bottom and in the middle?

Wake up- ONE DOOR ON THE ENDS! (one at the top or the bottom would do it)



-The first dream disturbed me a little because I so recently got into a relationship with a girl named Brittany (see above dream about lust) But then it connects with another dream the next night

*I did NOT have 'morning stiffness' after the first dream but did after the second- interesting

11/29/08

Im walking around my philosophy class like I am the teacher. There is a filing cabinet in the atrium with an onion on top. Im telling them "for homework they have to make a doll". Then everyone makes an onion dolls. Next class, "I never said to make an onion doll". Student, "I asked you, what's with the onion."

Me- "And I said I like onions, not make the doll out of this"
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11/31/08

Ryan, James and Matt are at Cathy's house. There is a sense that they are home but, don't live here. They live in Texas, Ryan asks Tim to come with (to Texas?) Tim asks me to come, Idk Ryan didn't ask me. They/we continue to fuck around with cerral the kitchen. They are suddenly ready to go, they look at me and say " aren't you coming?" I am not ready. I start getting ready. Cathy says something to me.

What is cerral? A person? I don't know a anyone with that name.
Definition of carrel- A partially partitioned nook in or near the stacks in a library, used for private study.
I still have never heard, of that before.
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Rachael is in my house, she gets me horny and we both run into my room; she says to me "I love skater boys". I am not a skater boy. She is beautiful; she never says that she loves me or anything. I have the feeling that she already has a boyfriend. Almost my whole family piles into the room. There is suddenly a fake bee hive honey cones in front of my bed.

Rachael gets into one, just big enough for her to fit. Mom says, "Look at how much you kids have grown, you used to fit into the small ones." I see the smaller ones. These little critters start coming into her honey cone: little turtles, lizards, crab, squid and others.

She likes them, just like when we were kids. At the end it feels like she runs off with some other guy.




I guess that my choices of women throughout my life, I've made the right choices.
Flogging Molly
Selfish Man

I never "get inside" any of the other women that I've dreamed about. Interestingly, nether did I wake up with "morning stiffness". Just the ones that I love I've "made it in" and woke up feeling pleased with what I've done, just like I was with them in reality.

It seems if I fall asleep thinking about something or after just watched or read something, I dream about it more likely.

I'm trying to listen to my dreams more, they told me ahead of actually knowing that my relationship with Fir3 was going down hill.

Good to note- Th3 Fir3 is no longer talking to the guy she left me for, I don't feel any better about what she did. In a cynical way, I was happy to hear that. I almost knew it would happen, I seen who he was the moment I met the bastard; I thought she would never do anything that would hurt me so bad, and I thought she was smart enough to see him for who he was too. Love has no end, but when rage grows more then love, its time to go. To look for truly "the one".

This is my final thought about Th3 Fir3, I have thought long enough of the issue; the dreams have stopped, the thinking has stopped. I know, I am moved on.

VG cats
Monster- "you should fix that being crushed problem and that pea problem". Leo goes threw time and unplugs this machine that is slowly crushing him but not ares (actually spelled Aeris). Under the machine they are throwing up or foaming at the mouth.

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I try not to edit what I write too much, but it is difficult. As I reread what I wrote when I first woke up, I remember it and realize there is a better way to write it.

2/3/09

I'm trying to do my work in this study area in the lounge (Desk looks like one from a long time ago) This mini piano swings in front of me stopping me from my work. It is playing music that I don't recognize.

I wake up to find my roommate is the source of the music. He is playing his keyboard with his headphones on. I am surprised that this would wake me.
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I'm going to try and start posting dreams the same day they happen so I don't have to try and figure out the date in a partially sleeping state or remember to write it down later.

I mentioned previously that I wasn't going to dream about Th3 Fir3 any more but, I guess that is not something I really have control of now is it?

I was 'checking up on things' at fir3's house. A sort of "what if... " dream.
I was asking my dream what if I had a girlfriend and she didn't- me and fir3 would kiss and angel, shay and destany would hug me then I would leave with my girlfriend.

What if we were both single? I would get my hugs from her kids, we might fuck and I would leave.

What if she had a boyfriend and I didn't was the final one that woke me up kinda angry but, mostly felt just shaken.

No matter what, it ended with me leaving. Even before this dream I would dream about lust with fir3. This use to disturb me like i wasn't really over her. But I think it was the radio that said that when you dream about those things while your single, your really just filing the role with the only one you know how too. They put it better then that so I will edit this post later if I can find what I actually wrote.

morning of June 3, 2009

I'm in my house with all of brittany's friends over and all my family. I feel so excited and just plain happy. My other family members don't seem to be feeling the same. They are not mad just not as happy as me.

Britt and her friends don't seem to notice me as usual so everything else seems normal. I then go out into my room and it is completely clean and organised. Then I see the source of my excitement... Fire is on my bed, now relocated against the west wall closest to the window it is normally against.

I quickly take my paints off and see something about her that I have never seen before in my dreams, her stretch marks. I claim into bed on her right side closest to the wall and cuddle until I wake up in real life.



At first I was worried about Fire still being in my dreams, but as I read the dream to myself I realise she is just a place holder for lovers to come. I know this as I have never seen her stretch marks in my dreams or just imagining her.

I hadn't written this down when I was kinda sleep/awake like i normally do but I wanted to get it in here while I remember it.




'The Government' showed up to my house, they filled the parking lot across the street from my house. Using it to land helicopters and park their army vehicles and black SUVs. I guess it was the leader of the squad or something that had actually rang the bell.

He talks to me about my illegal downloads and I started to get scared. The max penitaly for that is 250,000 or 4 years. He set up this station i guess in the basement were Tim's bed used to be. He asks me to show him that i was as 1337 as I said i was (or something like that).

I work at my computer in my room and maybe in the basement. by the end I felt almost proud of myself.