archdreamer's lucid dreaming journal
I'll be recording summaries and analyses of (some of) my lucid dreams in here, when I remember to. Some context: I can induce LDs often when I am trying to (for a very lax definition of 'trying': mainly this means forming an intention to remember my dreams). I'm not a natural, but I think I am getting close to becoming one, at least in terms of induction. When I am trying to have lucid dreams, every now and then I'll have a short dry spell where I remember almost nothing from when I am asleep, and I sometimes go for months without doing any LD work. It's a cyclical thing for me. I get interested, then I get discouraged, or I get lazy and drop it for a while. Usually both. But, I am back on the horse, and this time I don't forsee any RL stuff messing with my sleep too much in the next few months. Every lucid dream I have remembered (probably around 300 of them so far) has been short and unstable, so my main focus is on keeping my dreams together.
Lucid dreaming is a lot like work for me; it's hard to stay motivated. My primary motivation is the improvement of my skills (towards having lucid dreams that are actually rewarding someday), so I'm starting this journal as a way to see if and how I am progressing towards proficiency, and to reflect on my experiences in order to better focus my efforts. It's been years, but I'm still pushing for that first 'proper' LD ;-).
Anyway, I'll begin with last night. Comments welcomed on any entry here.
Night preceding 28/3/09: 1 LD | DILD
Ordinary DILD. Should have done an RC, didn't. On a beach at the edge of a river, a city in the distance. Dusk. A DC wanted to know how to stabilise dreams, I demonstrated to him how to use dream sensations to ground yourself in the dream, because I needed to do that anyway. Picking up sand, letting it fall between my fingers, talking out loud, looking around. Looking at the sky and horizon, things kept changing each time I looked. Too preoccupied to worry about it, as I realised that I could only open my eyes halfway. Trying to open them further faded the visuals. I often have problems like this. Should have stopped to think, but the dream was falling apart because I was distracted by this eye thing. Walked down the river a way, then the dream really began to collapse. I held it together mentally for a few seconds (hard to explain this), then decided it was futile, and woke up. I may have had an FA at this point, not sure.
Things to fix:
- Got to RC when I DILD. And regularly afterwards, to guard against loss of awareness.
- I try to sit down, stabilise, and think when I DILD. I need to follow through with this more, and stay put, even if something goes wrong, until I have stabilised the dream completely (if I ever get this far).
- Got to learn not to panic so goddamn much when the dream begins to end. Need to let go earlier, and focus on maintaining lucidity, to give a better chance of picking up FAs and chances to WILD easily.
- On a similar note, got to make a real habit of RCing upon waking. It's just stupid not to.